Mercedes awoke with tears streaming down her face. She looked up to notice Sam was staring at her with a concerned look on his face. He had tissues in his hand waiting to give it to her. She accepted them sighing as she wiped her eyes. Sam cleared his throat. "Are you ok?"
Mercedes nodded.
Sam sighed. "You were having a pretty real nightmare. It woke me up. You were screaming no and begged for help."
Mercedes looked down to the ground as Sam sighed. "You know I am not just a wounded hot guy I am a pretty great listener. Who is Finn?"
Mercedes glanced at Sam for a while not speaking. She fiddled with her fingers and sighed heavily. "I was in love once. It was back in high school. Finn was Kurt's step brother." She stopped talking and wiped her eyes. "He was so brave, strong and sweet."
Sam took her hand in his as she continued, she didn't notice Kurt and Santana walk into the doorway. "The day I lost him was one of the hardest days of my life. No it was the hardest day and it was all my fault. There was a school shooting and the shooter, he liked me a lot I guess. All I had to do was go with him and he would have stopped shooting people but I didn't I told him no and he shot me in the arm. He went to shoot me again but Finn stopped him, he was shot once and then they started to fight the gun went off shooting him. I ruined so many lives that day. Finn wouldn't have died if he wasn't protecting me.
"I cost Kurt a brother and his family a son. I know Kurt is my best friend but I never understood why he and Santana are still around me. If I were them I would hate me. I ruined everything. I always ruin everything."
Sam leaned forward as Kurt and Santana moved closer to her. Kurt folded his arms. "None of that was your fault Mercy Me! Jacob was a crazy psycho."
Mercedes turned towards Kurt and Santana standing. "What are you two doing in here?"
Santana shook her head. "That doesn't matter, is what you said how you really feel? You think we blame you for Jacob killing Finn?"
Mercedes bit her lip looking down. It was then that she realized she still held Sam's hand. "Kurt, Jacob shot Finn because I wouldn't leave with him. Finn could still be alive if it wasn't for me."
Santana nodded. "Ok so Finn dying was on you right? And Azimo, Karofsky, Rick, Marcus and Anthony. They were all your fault too right? And Jacob killing himself by fighting with Finn that's your fault too."
"Satan!" Kurt growled but she continued.
"No Kurt you heard her it's her fault. She bullied Jacob every day. She didn't stop the slushies she egged them on. She gave Jacob the gun and bullets she made him come to the school and kill everyone."
Santana moved closer to Mercedes. "Cedes, Finn made a choice. He chose to save you, and it will kill him to know that you blame yourself for his choices. Stop taking away the good he has done and start accepting the fact that his actions, his choices are what made you who you are. But also are what made Jacob do what he did. Finn is a hero and you shouldn't take that away from him just because you are guilty."
Kurt sighed. "I don't blame you, my family doesn't. Do I wish Finn was here? Yes, everyday, but things happen for a reason, Finn wouldn't want this and neither do I, you are too great of a person to blame yourself."
Sam cleared his throat and the three realized he was still in the room. "If I can say something, I don't know Finn but if his actions made you who you are today, then I owe him my life. You may not have been able to save him, but you saved me. And I am sure you have saved others too. So maybe that is the reason. Maybe he had to die so you could heal others."
Mercedes wiped her eyes. "I can't help but feel guilty. Feel like if I would have just gone with Jacob."
Kurt shook his head. "Finn would have still gotten shot. I have thought about that too, if things were different and you say ok you would go with Jacob, Finn would have tried to stop you, he would have pulled you behind him and told Jacob that you were not going anywhere. They would have still fought and the gun would have still gone off. It's who Finn was. He was a protector and his death has changed us all. I was going into fashion design, you were going to be a famous R&B singer and who knows what Satan was going to be but we both know nursing was not it. Finn set us on this path and Sam is right, we may not be doctors but when you look at the Nurses wall out there, this floor is mainly dedicated to you Mercy Me."
Santana held her other hand. "Finn saved us all that day. Kurt is right any way you try and spin Jacob was going to shoot him. Let it go Cedes please."
Mercedes nodded as Kurt and Santana hugged her. Sam squeezed her hand and she glanced over to him with a smile on her face and tears in her eyes. For the first time in a long time she felt better.
"Come on Sam one more time around and then you can rest!" Sam smiled at Mercedes and pushed himself to walk across the mini track they set up for him. He made it across and plopped down into his chair. Mercedes high fived him and smiled brightly. The PT instructor shook his head.
"You are determined I will give you that. I have seen such an improvement in you these last few weeks."
Sam beamed. "It's all because of my good luck charm Rory. Mercedes comes down here on her lunch break to make sure I am working as hard as I can."
Mercedes looked at her watch. "Which reminds me I need to go if I am gonna grab something to eat before my shift starts again. I get off at 10 and I will check on you in a bit."
She high fived him again and smiled at Rory before she left the room. Sam sighed, "Ok Rory now that she is gone please tell me that I can walk back to my room?"
"Sam you are getting stronger there is no doubt about it but safety first. I heard you have gone to the bathroom by yourself now and you can walk around your room, which is fine. But there are three floors from here and there so no dice."
Sam gave in and placed his feet onto the stirrups. He had felt better today than he had before. Therapy was going great, he was getting stronger and he and Mercedes were becoming great friends. A part of him wanted more, but he knew it was up to her, if or when she was ready he would be there with lips ready to overtake hers.
They hadn't kissed since their first time and his missed her lips. It's funny, even though Quinn was his ex-fiancée all he could think about was Mercedes. His parents dropped everything temporarily moving closer to him and showing up every day to make sure he was recovering well. They wanted him to come home but he knew he wouldn't heal as fast as he could without Mercedes by his side.
Sitting in his bed, Sam sighed checking the time. 10 after 10 which meant Mercedes would be stopping by soon. He smiled as there was a knock on the door, but slightly frowned seeing his best friend Artie walk in. "Sam Evans, tell me I can bust you out of here soon?"
Sam shook his head. "I am good but not that good yet, plus I am not ready to go."
Artie pulled a seat up to him and smiled. "I wouldn't want to leave that goddess with the body anyways."
Sam shook his head. "What did I tell you about talking about Mercedes like that?"
"Please you and I both know that is wifey right there."
"Who's wifey? Yours or mines?"
Artie laughed as the doors opened and Mercedes walked into the room. Artie stood and turned towards her.
"There's my boo, you know I come up here just to see you right?"
"Gee thanks." Sam huffed pretending to be annoyed. Mercedes hugged Artie shaking her head. "Boy please."
Mercedes walked over to Sam. "How are you feeling after PT?"
"Pretty good. I wish they would let me work harder."
"Sam you were in an accident that could have left you paralyzed. You have been here a little over a month and you are already more improved than people who have been here for months. You are doing great but you can't push yourself too hard."
Sam sighed. "It also sucks I can't see you all the time. Can't you work over this way?"
"Sam stop you are in rehab, I get down here on my breaks stop being so stingy. There are other patients who need me."
"I know. So are you going home when you get off?"
Mercedes shook her head sitting on Sam's bed. "Nope, Mike asked me to dinner and I said yes."
Sam couldn't help but feel jealous that she was dating someone. He had to repeatedly tell himself that she wasn't his.
Artie folded his arms. "Wait, isn't Mike that doctor who got all up in arms about you caring for Sam?"
Mercedes laughed. "It is official you two know way too much about my business. But yes, he apologized a while ago and I mean I like him, we were content when we dated before."
Sam decided to speak up. "And that's what you want? Contentment? You don't want love and passion?"
"Is that what you and Quinn had?"
"Oh snap is that my momma calling me. Sam it was great to see you, the firm is in great hands until you return, and boo I will catch you later."
Artie walked out of the room shutting the door and Mercedes folded her arms. "Well? Is that what you two had?"
"Quinn and I were in love, at least I thought so."
"So kissing her was passionate and lust filled, she fit right into your arms perfectly and you knew you were supposed to be together forever?"
Mercedes sighed. "Well I had that forever kind of love once, and it didn't last forever so I am fine with Contentment."
She checked her watch and sighed. "I really should be going. I need to get home and change."
She went to stand but Sam grabbed her arm. "Mercedes wait. Do you think that two people can meet and know instantly that there is something between them? Something amazing and incredible and wonderful between them?"
He let go of her hand and moved around the bed. He knew he had about 30 minutes before his nurse was due in. He stood in front of her.
"Don't you want to find someone who excites you?"
Mercedes side eyed him. "What the hell are you doing?"
Sam pulled her up to him and traced his finger across her cheek. "I am trying to show you how I feel about you."
Sam lifted her chin up so she was looking into his eyes. He lowered his head and brushed his lips against hers. Mercedes closed her eyes as her hands instantly went up to his neck. The kiss between them deepened when Sam slid his tongue across the seam of her bottom lip and she opened her mouth gladly accepting his tongue. Fighting for dominance their tongues danced around each other's. Coming up for air, Sam immediately went to her neck, kissing a trail down towards her chest. Mercedes moaned as his hands went to work on her breast.
"Sam maybe we should slow down a little. I don't want you to get hurt and I don't want us to confuse what we are to each other."
"Trust me, I have known what I wanted to do to you since the moment I opened my eyes."
He laid her down on his bed and hovered over her. His hand went up her shirt and she moaned loudly as his callus hands ran over her erect nipples. "Sam…" She forgot what she was going to say when his mouth replaced his hands.
"God, Mercedes everything about you is beautiful. Can I have you? Please?"
Mercedes felt his erection between her legs and she almost gave him. Between his beautiful jade eyes and his deep voice she wanted to melt into him.
"I want to say yes so bad Sam, but we can't."
Sam thrust himself into her center. "Why not?"
She moaned. "Well for one, you are in here because of your back. For two, the door doesn't lock. Three, I don't want to complicate things between us."
Sam lifted her wrist and looked at the time. He removed himself from on top of her and pulled her up to him.
"First of all, my back is fine. I am fine and I am sure giving you and me some pleasure is not gonna kill me. Second, if we wait until after one of the nurses checks on me. It should be in the next twenty minutes. And third, I doubt anything that happens would complicate things between us."
Mercedes sighed. "I have to change."
Sam nodded. "Ok, go change and think about it. If you want to go out with Mike, go and have fun, but if you want to be with me, take a chance on me then come back here. Either way, I am ok with it and we will be ok."
Mercedes straightened out her uniform and nodded walking out the room, she walked away wondering if she was going to meet up with Mike or take a risk and be with Sam.
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