Confessions
The wind had begun to pick up to an uproar. I had to lower my wolf ears all the way as we ran. The truck's engine was the only sound along with the heavy winds. It felt as though we were going nowhere. What road were we going down? At this point, I don't even know.
Suddenly, the car comes to a screeching halt. We stopped running and immediately turn back to see what was going on. Hubb then quickly jumps out of the drivers side of the car and runs to the very back. The back door opens and we see Blue's master having trouble breathing. He was shaking also; it wasn't the kind of shaking that showed someone is cold.
"What's going on?" Kiba asks. Hubb gets on top of Blue's master and starts pressing down on his chest. "It could be dehydration or he's convulsing from internal bleeding!" Hubb exclaimed to us. "Is there something we can do?" I ask. The old man got hit by a car, for god's sake so he might die from this.
"I don't even know what the hell I'm doing! I'm not certified in CPR!" Hubb answered in desperation. Hubb was doing what he could to keep the old bastard from dying on Blue. But what could he do? What could we do? I'm not sure anymore.
Cheza then moves to where the old man's mouth was and puts her lips over his. His wheezing ceased when she did that and she looked like she was kissing him. But I think she was only giving him water so he could sustain how badly injured he is. She pulls back after a few minutes and he coughs roughly a few times before breathing normally.
Hubb sits back and rubs his forehead, which was beaded in sweat. "He's out of the woods for now." he sighed. Blue sighed in relief and closed her eyes. I could tell that she was happy that her master is okay for now. However, it didn't take long before Cheza seemed to grow weak and she collapses in Blue's arms. I figured we'd be here for a while while Cheza recovered.
I lean against the back of the car with Tsume standing next to me. Cheza gently pours water into the old man's mouth with cupped hands to keep him hydrated. "Are you alright, Cheza?" Kiba asks in concern. "This one will be fine." she responded softly, leaning back against the wall of the car. I look away from them and look to the west. There was nothing out there. At least there isn't anything there that I could see. The world was really coming to an end.
"Thanks Cheza. You've done more than enough." Blue says, gratefully. I turn my head and look at Cheza. "Looks like he'll be alright. He just needs to sleep." Toboe said in relief. "What if he wakes up and sees us? Surely he'll pass out again." Tsume asks. My eyes lock on the grey wolf for a moment then back at Blue.
"Yeah, I don't think he'll be pleased with the whole idea of going to Paradise. It's gonna drive him crazy." I say, crossing my arms. "He's changed. Luna, he knows I'm half wolf. He's accepted me despite that. You saw how he protected me." Blue gently said to me. My eyebrows furrowed in confusion for a minute before silently realizing. He must've found out in the city.
"So those times he tried to kill us was nothing more than a misunderstanding?" I ask. "No. It couldn't have been that simple to let go. His hatred for wolves was probably the only thing that drove him for as long as he has been. It's all he had left." Hige mumbles. I noticed the earnest look on his face.
Afterwhile, we all got moving again. This time, I decided to ride in the car along with Toboe, Blue, and Hige. I was leaning against the corner of the car that was by the door. The rumbling of the truck was soothing and it almost made me fall asleep.
Then, a jingle sound brought me out of my potential slumber. It was Toboe's rings and it made me look over at him. He was trying to reach over to the sleeping old man. "Toboe, what are you doing?" I ask. He quickly pulls his hand back and gives Blue and I a wide eyed expression. "Oh, I was just checking on him. He's warmer now." he says, sitting up.
The smile on my face softened. It was amazing how Toboe could care for this man after he tried to kill him many times in the past. I know he has a soft spot for humans like Blue does. I can't make the choice of hating humans for his sake. It wouldn't be right for me to do that.
"You're right. He won't kill us." Toboe mentioned, "Luna, do you remember when we found him in the mountains a while back?" "Yeah. Yeah I do." I answer, "He was holding onto you so tightly." "Yeah, he thought it was you, Blue." Toboe said, glancing at the old man. I did remember when he did that. The old man was half dead in the snow.
"While this happened, it got me thinking. Blue must mean so much to him. I have to admit, I was jealous." Toboe softly admitted, his hazel eyes giving a saddened gloss. He felt jealous? It surely didn't seem like he was. "Toboe." Blue said. Toboe looks back at her. "Whatever happens to me, I want you to look after Pops. Okay?" she asks, much to our shock. "Blue, are you sure about this? You've been with him your whole life." I ask, looking at her. "I'm sure. I need someone to look after him if something were to happen." Blue answered softly.
"Don't say stuff like that! Nothing's gonna happen to you. We're all going to Paradise together." Toboe scolds, his eyes narrowing. "I know. But, you're the only one I can trust to look after him." she said. I stop listening after hearing that and look down at my knees. Was Blue falling in love with Hige? We both fell in love it would seem.
Then, the truck starts coming to a rumbling stop. Looks like the car had finally succumbed to the harsh world. We all get out of the car and start to walk away from the only piece of evidence that anything lived on this planet. A storm started to brew around us and it was only getting stronger. I carried a blanket on my wolf back as I walked beside Tsume and Toboe.
After a good while of walking, we finally make it to a safe spot for us to rest for the time being so the old man could rest. Everything just keeps going to shit everywhere we turn and it's not fair. Witnessing my grandmother getting killed was traumatizing enough; especially after seeing the two stuffed bodies of my parents. However, those bastards didn't care. I just wish things would go right for once…
I had isolated myself from the pack for the time being and I just looked up at the red moon. It seemed to get darker and darker. I felt tears flow down my frostbitten cheeks from feeling scared, and from the pain I've been going through. "Luna? You should be sleeping." Tsume said from behind me. I jumped a bit and looked behind me to see him standing behind me in his human form. "Oh Tsume. I didn't hear you coming." I say, quickly wiping the tears.
Without a word, he came and sat down next to me like he did in that cell in Jaguara's keep. For some reason, when he sat down next to me, I couldn't help but feel… safe and comforted by him. I didn't want him to worry about me.
"Luna, why are you here?" Tsume asked in a subtle yet calm voice. "I needed to think. Tsume… do you think… we will make it to Paradise?" I question, looking back ahead of us. He was taken aback by my question.
It was as if he didn't want me asking that. "I… I don't know. Frankly, I don't think believing in it at this point won't solve anything. All my life I've been running from my past. I always found it ridiculous. Ever since… I betrayed my old pack." he answered, sounding more pained the more he talked. I twisted my head around to look at him and my heart broke at seeing his face. As closely as I could, I saw a tear roll down his cheek.
"Tsume…" I whisper, looking at him with a sympathetic look. He puts his hand over his X shaped scar and closed his eyes. "Do you want to talk about it?" I ask. He sucks in a sharp breath and opened his eyes again. "I was running. My pack was being slaughtered. I didn't turn back to save them; I was showing cowardice. So much so that I was banished by the alpha of it." he told me. There was guilt hugely profound in his voice.
"Was… that why you resented us when you first met us a while back?" I asked, turning to face him. "Yeah. After what had happened, I felt like I couldn't trust myself to be around other wolves. But when I met you guys, that seemed to change." he answered, looking at me. I look down at the water below us. My reflection showed a black she wolf that was as black as the night sky with gold, piercing eyes and a dark grey mask. The notches in my ears made me tear up badly.
"What's wrong?" he asks, noticing this. "I'm a traitor too." I reply. "Luna…" Tsume started but I cut him off. "I wanted to save my father from that fire… but he told me to run. I did… I was scared. Everyone was dying around me… I wanted to stop it but I would've died if I stayed behind." I say, tears running down my cheeks.
I close my eyes and start to softly cry. Suddenly, I feel warmth around my whole body. It dawned on me that Tsume was hugging me once again. "Don't take it to heart." Tsume comforted. My eyes open and I pull myself back a little bit to look at Tsume in the eyes. The glass in his golden green eyes made my heart beat faster than before. "Tsume… I…" I begin.
However, no words were spoken. We both lean into each other and I close my eyes slowly. I then feel his mouth on mine. His lips were warm against mine. It felt amazing to me… I wrap my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. At that moment, I knew… he loved me as well. He didn't have to say it; his actions spoke louder than any words could ever do.
We spent almost 20 minutes underneath that red moon just showing our love to one another though our blunt actions. I was the first to pull back but didn't let go of him. Our foreheads pressed together. I put my right hand on his cheek and felt my heart rushing with anticipation.
"Tsume… I want to spend the rest of my time with you... If we should die... then I want to live out the rest of my life with you." I tell him softly. "Yes. I'm not gonna lose you... I won't." he softly said back. We end up kissing again. I closed my eyes and just embraced this moment between us.
We then lay together in our wolf forms by that lake. I press my wolf head under his wolf muzzle and close my eyes. Just having him here with me was… breathtaking. I've never felt a love like this before… I don't think he has either. Guess when I came into his life, everything changed from then on out. Little did I know, it changed for me as well.
