Chapter 16
"Ishwari? Hey Ishwari, wake up."
Ishwari opened her eyes to find Shanna looking down at her. "What time is it?" Ishwari asked rubbing her eyes.
"About quarter till six. I took Ajay for a walk. I didn't expect to find you up here sleeping."
"Has Pagan returned yet?"
"He got back about half an hour ago. Do you know what you're going to do yet?"
Ishwari sat up and glanced down at her hand, in which Big Ben was still clutched in. She looked up at Ajay who was secure in Shanna's arms. Ajay's big brown eyes met hers and she couldn't help but smile at her baby boy. He was right there in front of her, safe and unharmed, all because Pagan came to his rescue, as well as hers. He had every right to just leave her and Ajay to their fate, but he didn't.
"I have to go talk to him" Ishwari announced as she stood up from the bed.
"Do you want me to watch Ajay for a little bit longer?" Shanna asked looking down at the boy in her arms.
"If you don't mind. It might make it easier to talk to him without having to worry about Ajay."
"Of course, what ever you need. I just hope everything goes okay for you."
"Thank you so much Shanna. I'd be lost with out you." Ishwari smiled at her friend before leaning in and kissing Ajay on the forehead. She turned and left the cabin making her way to the palace. She was still unsure what she was going to say to Pagan. When she reached the palace door, there was a heavy armored soldier guarding the entrance.
"Ishwari, I presume?" He grunted at her.
"Yes." Said in a low voice from her new found fear of royal army soldiers.
"King Min has ordered me to allow you inside." He opened the door for her and stepped aside allowing her access.
"Thank you" she told him as she passed by. Once inside she headed to where she knew Pagan was. She reached the golden doors and paused. How was this going to go? What was going to happen when she entered? She swallowed the same fear she had the very first night they had met. She felt dejavu. It was almost exactly the same. Hesitant of knocking on those big, yellow doors, for fear of what's to come. She finally built up her courage, knowing there was no way out of it, and she let her fist gently tap the door. This time she didn't hear Pagan speak telling her to come in. Instead she was greeted by him when the door swung open.
Their eyes met and Ishwari saw something those dark coffee colored eyes that she couldn't make out. Was it fear? Sorrow? Hope? He didn't speak a work and she only knew it was okay to enter when he stepped to the side and motioned his arm, inviting her in. She stepped inside and he closed the door behind her. Ishwari stood in place unsure of what to do next. Pagan on the other hand didn't stand still and strolled past her, towards his desk. Once reaching it, he turned and leaned on it, his back side up against it, resting his hands on the edge of it on either side of his hips. He still didn't speak. He watched Ishwari intently waiting for her to make a move.
Ishwari knew she had to get the conversation started. "How was your trip to Yuma's?"
"Exactly how I thought it was going to be. She was a bit angry I didn't show up earlier this morning. She got over it though." He answered her question and continued watching her.
"I'm sorry to hear that." Ishwari said looking down at her feet.
"For what? That she was angry? Or that she got over it?"
His sarcastic comment made Ishwari smile and she glanced up at him expecting to see him smiling back, but he still had the same concentrated look on his face.
"Why do you smile Ishwari?" He asked tilting his head to one side.
"I thought you were trying to be funny." She said looking back down to her feet.
"I was. I want to ease up the tension, so we can stop avoiding the elephant that's in the room." He folded up his arms.
Ishwari looked back up from her feet. "So you're saying to want to get to the point then."
"Yes." He said, seriousness in his voice.
Ishwari nodded her head and knew there was no point in trying to delay this conversation any longer. "Why are you giving me this choice?"
Pagan sighed and closed his eyes as if he were thinking carefully about how to respond. After a pause he opened his eyes to look at Ishwari. "You thought I was going to kill you today?"
"Yes." She replied, the thought making the hairs stand up on the back of her neck.
Pagan continued to stare at her intensely "So why did you tell me if you thought it was going to get you killed? Why would you betray your husband and forsake your mission? I would have played right into your hand and you would of had everything you want to be a successful spy."
"I care about you Pagan." She replied, without any hesitation in her voice.
Pagan gave a very faint smile "That's why I'm giving you a choice Ishwari."
"You saved me today. You saved my son. You could have let us die, but you didn't." Ishwari informed him.
Pagan actually let himself fully smile this time. "I care about you Ishwari."
His words were enough to push her over the edge and she let her eyes fill with tears. "Pagan, I don't want to leave. I want to stay with you."
Those were the words he had been waiting to hear the entire time. He stood up from where he was leaning on his desk and made his way towards her, grabbing a hold of her and pushing her up against the golden doors, before pressing his mouth against hers.
He pulled his lips away from hers. "Ishwari, you have no idea how happy you have just made me." Before she had time to speak, his mouth had claimed hers yet again.
She reached up and began unbuttoning his shirt, sure this is where he was hoping it would lead. Not having to worry about a blazer this time, she quickly had his white dress shirt off and on the ground. She rested her hands on the muscles of his arms, and she could feel each one tense as his hands made their way to the waistline of her pants. It didn't take him long to yank her black pants down, along with her panties. Now that she was exposed he quickly moved on to the next step, which was unbuckling his belt and pulling down his own pants, revealing his erection.
He moved his hands around to her thighs and lifted her off the ground, still pushing her up against the doors. In one quick movement he pushed himself inside of her, causing her to gasp from the feeling of him filling her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and held on as he continued to thrust himself into her over and over. She buried her face in his neck and started kissing before biting the same area her lips just were. Pagan let out a loud groan from the contact of her teeth and pulled her away from the door she was up against.
Still holding her, with himself inside, he made his way over to the chair that sat in the corner of the office. He sat down on it, allowing Ishwari to comfortably sit on his lap. This new position allowed him to be very deep inside. Ishwari moaned at the fullness of him and began to moan even louder when he started moving his hips. She used his shoulders as support lifting herself up and down, matching his movements so every time she came down, his hips would bounce her back up.
After getting used to each others rhythm, Pagan moved his hands to her hips and pulled her blouse up over her head, tossing it to the side before undoing the bra she was wearing. Once he had it off he replaced his hands on her hips and started lifting her up and down himself to go faster. This new speed made Ishwari release his shoulders and rest her hands on the back of the chair. She lowered her face to his and started kissing him, while he kept up his work. She had never had sex like this before, and she knew she would want more of it.
A few more thrusts was all it took and Ishwari exploded around him. Pagan only managed to get in three more thrusts, before pushing her down onto him so he could climax deep inside her. He threw his head back, closing his eyes and trying to catch his breath.
"Oh Ishwari, I'm so glad you didn't leave." He gasped, before opening his eyes and raising his head so he could place a kiss on her lips.
"I'm glad too. I've never had anything like that before." Ishwari managed to say in between breaths.
Pagan smirked at her. "Ready for round two?"
Ishwari smiled at him and batted her eyelashes. Pagan knew that meant "yes" and wrapped his hands around her thighs, picking her up once again, making his way to the bedroom, shutting the door behind them.
