A/N Short chapter but it seemed to come to a natural end. For some reason this is the story that is resonating with me most right now and I just keep going. Still not quite sure where it's all going though I do have some ideas. Thanks to all who are reading. Please remember reviews are always welcome!
M-31
Life continues on here at Hogwarts. I skipped the first Hogsmeade trip just did not want to spend the whole time with Lucius. He must be smarter than I thought because he suggested next time I ask some of the girls to come with me and he'd bring his flunkies, my word not his, we could all go the same places and that way we'd be meeting my parents' requirements but I might enjoy myself more. Maybe he's just trying to ingratiate himself to me, he could change completely after we're married. I'm sure Mother and Father are just biding their time and will announce it by the end of this school year so we can be married as soon as we cross back over the lake in the boats next year. It could also be that they're bargaining for my dowry. Because of you I could quite easily be seen as damaged goods, but while the Malfoy name is good their fortune has nothing on ours and they don't nearly as far back on the Sacred Twenty Eight so no matter what getting me hitched to Lucius is a coup for them.
I never speak to Bella anymore, not that I ever really did. Neither of us did. We were a pair and she was just there. I think that's why Mother and Father are so worried about me, I've always been more like you, though never as outspoken as you. That and your strength are the two things you've always had in common with Bella. You're both very much your own woman where I have always and still feel like a little girl living in the shadows of my bigger sisters, well the shadow and the stain now.
I better go, need to put in an appearance in the common room.
M-31
Well that trip to Hogsmeade went better than I expected. Lucius stayed out of the way. He and his cronies either went in the shops we went to or they stayed outside and insulted the people that walked by. You know I was never sure how to feel about Muggles and Muggleborns before you ran off with Ted but now I'm even more confused. From what our parents and grandparents say they're horrible awful people lower than the worst wizard, lower than a house elf, but the Muggleborns I've been in class with from other houses manage just fine. They learn the spells and potions just as well as any of us Purebloods or the Halfbloods. Some of them are smarted than some of us. Though honestly it wouldn't take much to be smarter than Crabbe or Goyle. I really pity the poor girls stuck marrying them.
If Muggleborns are supposed to be worth so much less why is it they can be smarter than some of the purebloods? Why is there are those like you that marry the Muggleborns? And at what point are the descendants of muggleborns or halfbloods considered pureblood? Are they never? If we went back on our family tree would we find a halfblood or muggle born somewhere? Did magic begin at the beginning of time and the beginning of humans? OR did it develop over time? Are we all descendants of some muggle way back in time? If that's true how are we better? We learned in Advanced Care of Magical Creatures that when you breed kneazles that are brothers and sisters or even cousins that you start to get animals that are imperfect. They might have physical deformities or mental ones. Is that what's wrong with Crabbe and Goyle, too many purebloods intermarrying, so that they're marrying their cousins? How close are we related to the Malfoys? If I have a child with Lucius will there be something wrong with it? Is that where squibs come from? If Muggles can have magical children and muggleborns have magical children then where do Squibs come from?
All of this makes my head hurt. I wonder if there are books on breeding in the library that might make this more clear. I'll have to ask Professor Kettleburn or Madame Ursten. Though perhaps I should wait until I come back from Christmas break. I can't take those books home with me anyway. I suppose I could look in our library at home or ask Aunt Walburga. I can always say I'm interested in breeding Kneazles for show, that's an appropriate activity for a Pureblood lady.