A/N: Not many people have reviewed this so far. Do you think its crap? If so, STILL review, and then I'll be happy. I felt like doing another chapter for this, and I think that there will only be 3 or 4, coz it will begin to be repetitive. Oh well, on with the fic, and thanks to the 2 people that have reviewed so far! *hints at reviewers!*
I will love him forever, that is a promise. But that also could be the reason as to why I'm in so much pain. He would never have wanted me to be in pain over him, he would have wanted me to be happy. Both of us, Holly and I, moved in with Draco after I had been dating him for 5 months or so.
Holly is our (mine and Harry's) daughter. I named her in pure memory of him; his wand was made of Holly wood. Her middle name is Willow, because that is what my wand is made of. Holly Willow Potter, our daughter, a symbol of our unity, the proof of our love.
She's 3 years old now, and looks a lot like her father. She has his beautiful green eyes, the eyes that drew me to him on that first fateful day at Hogwarts. I had instantly fallen in love with him, though I kept my feelings to myself until 5th year, after Cho had dumped him. I was comforting him, happy to be that close to him. He kissed me, and told me that he loved me. I then also came to tell him about my feelings for him.
When we were made Head Girl and Boy, we were the happiest we had ever been. I was always sneaking into his room at night; saw no point in us sleeping in separate beds when we loved each other so much. We were 17 for God's sake, what would you expect?
Two months before he died, it was my bed that we slept in; he was the one making midnight visits to me. That went on for a month or so, until he asked me to marry him. Then it grew to be much more than just sleeping next to each other.
He died the day after we had finished Hogwarts, and yet I still can't get him out of my head. I'm 20 now, it's been 3 years, yet I'm still hoping he'll walk through the door and take me into his arms, so I can once again be enveloped in his scent, once again get lost in his beautiful green eyes, so enchanting.
I yearn for him so much, my heart aches. I want it to be him lying in the bed next to me, not Draco. Don't get me wrong, I love Draco, that's why I'm married to him, but he just isn't Harry. He loves me a lot, but I just don't have that intense feeling that I got when I was just around Harry. I miss him so much.
Around the time Holly was born, Lavender and Ron had a son. Out of a fit of silliness, Ron told the midwife that he would be called Strawberry (A/N lol!) so that's what's written on the poor soul's birth certificate. Strawberry and Holly have already got to know each other (as far as social interactions go for 3 year olds), and Ron seems to be getting along quite well with Draco, after all of the fights that the two of them had when we were all at Hogwarts.
Hogwarts… even the name of my school brings pain to me. It is probably the name of the last place that Harry ever had a good time (except perhaps my bedroom, but I don't want to go into too much detail now do I?). How I wish he was still here, ready to greet me with my morning kiss.
My feelings for Draco are that of love, but they will never expand to the capacity of my feelings for Harry. I don't think anyone, not even Draco, would expect that though. When I got married to Draco, I had feelings of dread, with part of me wishing for Harry to crash through the doors of the church ( I had insisted on a traditional Muggle wedding, complete with a beautiful white wedding dress) and object. But that never happened.
I don't deny my feelings for Draco, I love him a lot, but I feel that I will soon be leaving him. Not just him, but Ron, my parents, Holly, the whole sodding world. I long for Harry's touch so much it's hard to believe. I feel that suicide is now my fate.
A/N: Woo! Powerful stuff, no? Believe me when I say that I need reviews. I am only 14, and this is my 2nd fic. I have never been in love (or anything that anyone could ever remotely call love), but I wish that I could! Please review! I need reviews to feed my hungry guinea pig, he's starving! And I no that it's not very long, my head hurts and I felt like leaving you all on a cliffhanger! I am evil, I know that, don't remind me!