Promise Me The Sun
By: Tatsutahime
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or the song 'Here with Me' by Dido
Chapter 6: For You
Mamoru readjusted his grip on steering as he thought of things to say. There was an uncomfortable silence in the car, even as the radio played. He glanced at Usagi's profile as she looked out the window. She face was soft and expressionless. He turned his attention back to the road. 'Tell her tonight Mamoru…don't let her slips through your fingers again…'
Suddenly a familiar voice rang out through the speakers.
I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory
Usagi seemed to have snapped out of the trance she was in and focused her attention at the speakers. A smile tugged at the edges of her lips. Slipping off her sandals, she lifted her feet off the ground and hugged them to her chest. She turned to face Mamoru.
"I'll never get used to my voice on the radio…" Usagi whispered thoughtfully. Mamoru turned and chuckled at his friend. They're eyes met. 'God she beautiful…'
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until your resting here with me
Turning his attention back to the road, he cleared his throat. Usagi sank back deeper into her chair. "Truth be told, I never really liked this song…actually out of your 4 albums, I hated 'When The Sun Sets'." Mamoru said with a hint of sarcasm.
Her head rose at the comment. A smirk crossed her face. She pouted her lips with sarcastic hurt. "Is that so? And here I thought you liked my songs" she asked as she sat up and faced him. Mamoru glanced over and laughed.
"Oh you!" she cried as she slapped his arm. Mamoru only laughed harder as Usagi's face flushed red.
"Okay, okay." Mamoru said as he calmed down. "I'm sorry, but Bunny dear, You never let me finish." He said mocking an Englishman.
"Well go on good sir." Usagi answered as she settled back into her chair.
"I only meant that it sounded…Ah, what's the word, angry and well depressing. It didn't sound like your other 'happy' ones. You ya know what I'm saying?"
"Um…yea. Mark wanted…um, to try something new…" Usagi lied.
"Oh..." Mamoru replied as his voice suddenly grew serious. His right hand lifted off the armrest and combed through his ebony blank hair. "I had the weirdest feeling that something was wrong…funny huh?"
I won't leave
I can't hide
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
Usagi's eyes widened at his words and slowly lowered her head. "…Yea funny…" she replied with a nervous laugh.
Mamoru's head turned to looked at Usagi. "How was America?"
I don't want to call me friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been
Usagi's eyes shifted to meet his. "America was…great." Before anything else was said, Usagi turned to her attention out the window. The cool sea breeze blow softly against her hair.
Oh I am what I cam
I'll do what I want
But I can hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until your resting here with me…
~*~
The car pulled into the parking lot of the secluded beach. One other car was there. Usagi opened the door and gracefully stepped out of the car. Mamoru followed. In two strides he was be her side. "Shall we?"
Usagi laughed as she took his arm. "We shall." They walked across the gravel and onto the sand. In the distance Usagi could see eight teenagers having a water gun fight. A smiled formed on her face as they approached them. The four girls put there guns down as they went to meet Mamoru and Usagi.
"HEY MAMORU!" Mina yelled as she waved her hand high in the air.
"Hey Mina. Girls." Mamoru replied as they stopped in front of him.
"Oh my god…Is that you Usagi?!" Ami said startled.
Usagi smiled widely. "Yea, did ya miss me?"
"OH MY GOD!" Was all that could be heard next, followed by nonstop gossip.
"How have you been? Oh, we have so much to caught up on!" Lita exclaimed as the girls pulled Usagi for a walk.
~*~
"Come on guys, while they catch up, let's go for a swim." Greg suggested. Ken and Chad followed.
"I think I'll just hang around here for a while." Mamoru said as he sat down on the red and white checkered picnic blanket.
"Yea, we'll catch up with you later." Mike said following Mamoru.
"Okay, see ya."
Mamoru watched them leave and sighed, dropping his head into his hands.
"Hey man are you okay?" Mike asked picking up a banana. "Wait, don't tell me. It's about Usagi right?"
"I just dunno what to do Mike. You know how I was planning on taking that job in Tokyo in a few weeks?"
"Yea…oh…I see your problem."
" I didn't think she would come back. Not now anyway. She was…IS a star Mike. You don't just give that up and come back to smallville just like that. Have you looked at her Mike? I mean REALLY looked at her. She's not the same bubbly Usagi I knew before."
"She just grew up Mamoru. We've all grown up."
"No, it's more than that. Her eyes say it all the time. She's sad…scared even. Something happened to her in America I just know it."
"Have you asked her about it?" Mike questioned tossing Mamoru an apple. He caught it easily.
"On the way here, I asked her about it…she said 'America was great.' And turned away. I want to help her so badly but I can't if I leave for school."
Mike looked at his friend sympathetically. "Have you told her yet?"
"…Told her?"
"That you're in love with her baka! That you've been waiting for to tell her for years!"
"Not yet…"
"When are you going to? You said it before Mamoru, she's a star. It won't be long before someone comes and swipes her off her feet."
"I was planning on telling her tonight, but I haven't found the right moment yet."
Mike nodded his head biting into the banana. "Now, the question is, what do you think she'll say?"
~*~
"You look great Usagi." Mina said as they settled down on the warm dry sand.
"Thanks Mina."
"You've changed so much, it's crazy." Lita said sadly.
"I tried to keep in touch…really I have but the tour and the albums…"
"It's all right Usagi. As long as you're here now." Ami comforted.
"How long are you staying?" Rei questioned.
"For good." Usagi replied smiling.
"Promise?" Mina asked.
"Promise…" Usagi answered. She sighed contently. 'It's so good to have my friends to talk to…'
~*~
The day flew by quickly. Spending time with all her friends was a wish come true for Usagi. The sun was starting to set as everyone piled around the bonfire the guys made. Each one was wrapped around a blanket toasting marshmallows. Talking and laughing about past events.
"Hey, do you remember when Chad fell of that ladder last summer…" Rei started. "He looked ridiculous in that arm and neck brace, it was classic!" Wild laughed followed as Usagi looked around and forced a smile.
Usagi looked down at the flame. The shades of red, orange, and yellow danced before her eyes. 'When should I tell him?' She thought as she started to block out all the voices. All she could here were the quiet crackling of the fire. 'I've missed out on so much…' A sudden wave of sadness swept through her body. Shivering slightly, she stood up. She needed to get away. All eyes focused their attention in her. She quickly racked her mind. "I...uh need to go to the bathroom. Is there one around here?"
"Yea, go straight past the parking lot and it's to the right next to two big trees. You can't miss it." Ami supplied.
"Thanks." She smiled briefly and started quickly to the bathroom. The wind blew harshly against her body as she unconsciously pulling the blanket tighter around herself. By now, it was pitch black outside. She turned to the right and saw a small cabin like structure.
Rushing inside, she turning in the water faucet and splashed her face with the cold liquid. She felt herself begin to fall apart. Digging her hand into her bag, she pulled out a small bottle. She emptied two pills out into her hand and swallowed them.
She looked up at the reflection in the mirror. Her hand reached up to touch a lock of silvery blonde hair. 'You don't deserve him Usagi…he probably thinks you're fat…and disgusting…' tears slowly began to fall. Turning her head away, she wiped away her tears. She opened to door and started outside.
Hairs raised sharply down her back as sensed a tall male figure behind her. She eyes widened as she turned around. "AHH!!!" she screamed as she felt two muscled arms wrap around her figure. One arm quickly went up and covered her month. Her breathing came out in short painful gasps. She eyes searched around frantically. She whimpered against the leather glove.
"Now now Usako…is that now you greet old friends?" the attacker began. She panicked in realization. 'God help me…' "You've been a naughty girl Usako…to tell the cops about us…"
She felt his breath on her neck. His hand moved off her mouth as his lips roughly claimed hers. Pushing her against the bathroom wall her left hand inched up her tank top possessively cupped her breast.
"HEY! GET THE FUCK OFF HER!" Usagi felt Tony's grip loosen on her body as he stumbled to the ground unconscious.
She stood there in shock as another pair of muscled arms wrapped around her body shielding her. Closing her eyes, she didn't feel anymore danger, only warmth and security. "Buns are you okay?"
Tears blinded her sight as she looked up at the face of her rescuer. "Dare…?"
"Shh…It's okay, I'm here. I won't let anything hurt you anymore, I promise…"
"Thank you…"
~*~
Usagi could do nothing but stare at the blinking lights and listen to the sirens. She was sitting on Mamoru's lap while his arms encircled her waist protectively The police arrived at the scene fifteen minutes ago and had already taken Tony into custody. Moments before, she was bombarded with questions in which she answered emotionless. She was still stuck in the aftermath of the situation.
"Are you okay, Buns?"
"I'm…fine…" she answered hoarsely. Her voice was course as she tried to lie.
"Bunny, look at me." He felt her shift in his lap and her emotionless eyes met his. "How can you say that? You are not fine. You were almost raped for heaven's sake!"
Usagi's head lowered as hoarse sobs began to rack her body. Startled, he held her closer. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell..." Her sobs ceased as her head rested on his warm chest. At that very moment she realized how must she needed him. 'How on earth did I go four years without him…'
"Usagi…I guess this is as good as a time to tell you as any…' Usagi's gaze focused on his stormy blue eyes. She looked at him with wonder and innocence. " Usagi…ever since I could remember, I've been in love with you."
Usagi's eyes widened. Shocked was written all over her face.
Mamoru cupped her hands with his. "There's more…I was planning to go to Tokyo for a job in a few weeks…then I'm off to medical school…But, I would gladly give it all up for you…for us…just say the word and it's done."
Tears began to flow down her face as she shook her head. His hands cupped her face as he looked at her with passion and concern.
"Buns…?"
"I don't love you…"
"Usagi…"
Usagi slipped out of his grasp and turned to face him. "I don't love you…" with that said, she walked away asking the policemen for a ride home.
Mamoru sat there as the police cars piled out of the parking lot. Mina and his friends who have been watching from afar circled around him as she placed her hands in his shoulders. Tears fell down his cheeks, one by one.
~*~
Usagi slouched down in her seat as she closed her eyes. 'It's your turn to live your dream Dare…you stood behind me while I soared…It's not up to me to stop you…'
AU: Well, I consider that ½ of a cliffhanger. I was so mad that when I updated my story last time, it only showed up on my web site, not where all the updated chapters were! Anywho, what do ya think? Please review. I'm hoping for maybe 65? Until next time. Tchao.