Promise Me the Sun
By: Tatsutahime
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon or the songs I used in my fanfic: 'The Ghost of You and Me' by BBMak or 'Oh How the Years Go By' by Vanessa Williams.
Chapter 9: As the Years Go By
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over
Usagi sighed as she curled up into a ball. Why does it have to be like this…My life's one big soap opera after another. I thought coming back would make it all better…She looked out the window. I vowed I'd never come back here…The lights that adorned LA contrasted with the night sky.
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
"It's a great view isn't it?" Mark stated softly as he took a seat next to Usagi. "We'll be landing in a few minutes. How are you doing?"
"I'll survive." Usagi turned her attention away from the private jet window. "…Can…can I ask you a personal question?"
"Go ahead."
"Why haven't you ever gotten married?"
Mark turned his head towards the window then after a few moments, he spoke, "You know, we're alike…you and I. " Usagi stared at him confused. He continued looked down at his lap. "Afraid of commitment." Mark looked up at her reaction. If she hadn't realized it before, she knew it now.
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
They sat there as silence consumed them. Mark looked over at the young woman next to him. "Her name was Cassie." Usagi looked up at him questionably.
"She was my fiancée. She was absolutely beautiful." Mark chuckled. Her eyes were the most unusual color of grayish purple. She was my first client. She dreamed of being a super model. And she did…" Usagi watched as his face dropped. "Days before our wedding, I called it off…claiming I was in love with someone else. I was young and naïve…so afraid of being bonded down. I was a 20 years old, just getting into the music business. Wild parties, booze, and sex consumed my life…that was 9 years ago and I still regret it. She fired me and got a new manager. It wasn't until two years later that I finally cleaned up my act. But by then, she was already gone…living her life…the life I should have been apart of…"
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Usagi listened attentively to his story. "I'm so sorry…"
"Don't be. I believe in fate. There's probably a reason I didn't marry her. It'll all be okay in the end. I mean look at me. I'm running a multi-billion-music company. Your gift is singing but my gift is recognizing talent. I make money while traveling the world. I guess you can say I'm living my dream."
Usagi looked at him as tears slowly caressed her cheeks. How can he be so positive?
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
"I know what you're thinking." Mark said surprising Usagi. "How can I be so positive?"
Usagi blushed looking down. "How'd you know?"
"That's the same thing I thought when my dad told me that it's going to be alright."
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
"It gets easier…I promise" Mark soothed.
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
"What you did for him was noble Usagi." Mark reassured "Maybe you should concentrate on your career for now. You need to find out who you are. Maybe you could call up a few friends. You're gonna need some dancers. What do you say?"
Usagi nodded. A warm feeling of serenity washed over her. "Thank you…"
"You don't have to do this alone. You have you friends, your family, and me. Please don't shut us out like last time." He pulled Usagi into a tight hug before leaving to check on the captain. "The music business wonderful when you have it on your side."
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
'He's right…' Usagi thought with newfound confidence. She hugged her knees to her chest. Reaching into her pocket, she pulled out a beautiful star shaped locket. 'I just need to get my life back together. Maybe enroll into a college or run track again…' A soft smile form on her face. Eyeing the locket one more time, she tucked it away in her suitcase. 'I need to move on…goodbye Mamoru…maybe we'll meet again…someday.'
~*~
"When Tony found and attacked me that night on the beach, I was scared beyond belief. I just wanted him to kill me and get it over with. I almost cursed Mamoru for saving me. Then when Mamoru told me he loved me…for the briefest moment I thought I was given a second chance at life. Then he told me about Med. School… I remembered back when we were little, we were sitting under the stars, and he told me he wanted to be a doctor and I told him he wanted to be a singer. I got what I wanted…It's his turn for him to do what will make him happy."
Silence consumed the room are the tape of Usagi's confession same to an end.
"…You okay Mamoru?" Mike asked unsure of his reaction. Mamoru's head was tucked into his hands. Suddenly he looked up.
"God…I'm such an idiot…the things I said to her…"
"What are you going to do now?"
"…Well I thought it was obvious…I'm going to Med. School…" Mamoru said standing up from the couch.
"WHAT?!" Mamoru looked back and Mike surprised at his sudden outburst. "Why aren't you going after her?! Don't you understand? She loves you! Isn't that what you wanted all these years?" Mike asked. His voice turning from concerned to frustrated.
"You need to understand. She did this for a reason. If she sacrificed so much for me to go back to school, then I'm going back to school. We live different lives now…with different obligations. You know Usagi, she's like this wild untamed spirit. Ever since the beginning… everyone saw it. A straight A student, track star, she was beautiful, charming, god, she probably could ever befriend a scrooge if she wanted. It also happens that she was gifted with an incredible voice. She was destined for stardom. She wasn't a small town girl anymore…. I don't think she was ever a small town girl… As you said, she went back to America. That's been she belongs. I can't change that. America's in her blood."
~*~
Four years later…
'In our times of trouble
We only had ourselves, nobody else
No one there to save us
We had to save ourselves'
The crowd roared as Usagi appeared on the stage. A genuine smile adorned her beautiful face as she waved. She looked around at the signs and banners. The twenty-one year old singer wore a short spaghetti strapped silvery dress. The front was cut into V. She looked back at Mina, Lita, Ami, and Rei, she gave them a wink before moving towards the edge of the stage.
'And when the storms came through
They found me and you, Uh back together
And when the sun would shine
It was yours and mine, Yours and mine forever'
Her once waist-long blonde hair was now a bit longer and less blonde. It now glowed a majestic silver. Her sparkling cerulean blue eyes faded to a lighter blue showing wisdom beyond her years.
'Oh how the years go by
Oh how the love brings tears to my eyes
All through the changes, the soul never dies
We fight, we laugh, we cry, As the years go by'
Mina looked forward at her friend as she swayed her hips in sync with the others. She jumped for joy when Usagi called her up and asking her if Lita, Ami, Rei, and herself would want to train to be her dancers. A smile tugged at the corners for her lips. 'She wanted us to be apart of her life…'
'There were times we stumbled
They thought they had us down, We came around then
How we rolled and rambled
We got lost and we got found
Now we're back on solid ground'
Ami looked around at her friends. Glancing at Usagi, she smiled. 'She looks like a goddess.' Ami along with Lita had grown out their hair to Mina and Rei's length.
'We took everything
All our times would bring, In this world of changes
'Cause when your heart is strong
You know you're not alone, In this world of strangers'
Looking down at her silvery green dress, Lita grinned. Her eyes scanned the sea of people. 'No wonder Usagi loves this so much…'
And if we lose our way
Any night or day
Well we'll always be
Where we should be
Rei watched as the crowd cheered at ever motion Usagi made. 'Her fans just love her…'
I'm there for you
And I know you're there for me
Usagi turned around motioning her friends to join her.
As the years go by
You know you're not alone
In this world of strangers
~*~
The slight chill of the November wind swept through Mamoru's body. The dark storm clouds were scattered overhead as rain threatened to pour down. Mamoru looked back at the large building where had spent the last few years of his life. He smiled as he gripped the diploma harder in the hand. It was official, at the age of 25, he was a certified doctor. He sighed as he pulled his black trench coat closer to his body. No one could feel what he felt. The happiness…it was as if a great weight had lifted off his shoulders.
"Mamoru? Are you ready to go? We'll miss our flight…" Mamoru turned to see a beautiful brunette standing by her sea green mustang.
"Yea… I'm ready." He walked towards Hannah and gave her a quick kiss before getting into the passenger seat. He watched as she went around and got into the car. She gave him a quick smile before starting the car. Mamoru looked back at the university.
"I'm gonna miss it here…" Hannah stated sadly as she drive away. Mamoru turned to face her. "Me too."
Ha had met Hannah at the university. She was studying to get her degree to become a pediatrician. They've been dating for about 3 years and she knew his life inside and out. Well, everything except about Usagi… Hannah was great. She was kind, and caring. He sighed as he ran a hand through his ebony hair. He could tell she was urging him to propose but he pretended to not notice it. As much as he tried to move on, he couldn't deny it. He was still on love with Usagi.
All he knew of her life at the moment is that she's touring in the states. She's dating her head guitarist Scott what's his face. He still bought all her CD's and he's been to a few of her concerts with Hannah.
"Mamo? You okay? We're here." Mamoru looked up as his girlfriend got out of the car. He followed glancing around at their destination. Not that Med. School was over, Mamoru was accepted as a doctor in the largest Hospital in Japan. 'Goodbye England…I'm going home.'
~*~
Two years later…
"Congratulations baby." Irene Tsukino cried as she embraced her daughter. The Usagi's crew decided to take a short vacation before going on their world tour, so they all decided to travel back home. It was a perfect time for Scott to propose to Usagi. She of course gladly accepted. A party was held in their honor at the Tsukino residence.
"Thanks mom." Usagi whispered as tears filled her eyes. The house was packed with movie stars, friends, family, musicians…everyone you can think of…that is, everyone except Mamoru. Usagi moved around the room greeting groups of people. She spotted her fiancé talking to her dad. She whirled around at a tap she received on the shoulder.
"Hey Usagi."
"Mike! Hey, how are you?" Usagi asked smiling at her old friend.
"Can I talk to you?" Mike asked.
"Of course. Is everything alright?" Usagi asked as she led him outside into the backyard. She sat down on the plush green grass. Mike did the same.
"Everything's fine." Mike replied as Usagi picked up a dandelion. He hesitated. '…Are you happy with him Usagi? I mean truly happy?"
Usagi looked up at him. "I … he takes care of me…"
"That doesn't answer my question Usagi…"
"…Yes…he does…"
Mike looked at her sadly but forced a smile. "Then I congratulate you." He replied standing up. He was about to walk away but was stopped by Usagi's voice.
"How is he?" Mike turned around and watched Usagi's back straighten.
"He's…doing good…very good. He's one of the most prestigious doctors in the country now…I'd say Mamoru's doing just fine." He chuckled sitting back down. "I don't think I ever thanked you for what you did for him."
"There's no need." Usagi replied never looked up. "As long as he's happy…I'm happy…" her voice trailed. Mike smiled knowingly as Usagi spoke again. "Is he...um…is he…" Mike quickly caught on.
"Seeing anyone? No. There was one girl though... Hannah…" Mike said thoughtfully. Usagi gripped her white sundress as she looked up.
"What happened?" Usagi said, a little too quickly. A blush crept to her cheeks as she smiled. "…I mean. Why did they break up?"
Mike laughed. 'Why do you think Usagi…' "I guess he couldn't give her what she wanted…
"What was that?" Usagi asked unsure.
" Marriage…"
"Oh…" Usagi smiled sadly. "…Is he…um…is he coming?"
"He told me he'd try. He practically works 24/7." Mike said.
She looked down clearing her throat. Suddenly a thought flashed through her mind. "What about you?" Usagi asked.
"What do you mean?" Mike asked back confused.
"Is there someone special for you?" Usagi asked, her eyes sparkling. She watched his face turn into an inferno. "There is isn't there!"
"Hai…um…I kinda think…that um…Mina…"
"MINA!" Usagi cried.
"SHHH!!!!!" Mike panicked covering her mouth looking around.
"Hey Usagi! … How'd you know I was coming?" Usagi turned to see Mina come out the sliding door. Shaking her head, she remembered the reason she came outside in the first place. "There's a call for you."
"Okay thanks." Usagi stood up running back into the house. Before she closed the door, she shouted to Mina. "Hey, Mike wants to tell you something!"
Mina watched Usagi laugh as she retreated into the house before turning to Mike. His face was red as a tomato. "What did you want to tell me?"
~*~
Once, inside, Usagi picked up the phone. "Hello?
"Hello. Is this Tsukino Usagi?" Usagi's smile dropped at the stern voice.
"Hai…How can I help you?"
"This is Doctor Euuku. There has been an accident..."
AU: Okay, I think I'm gonna end it there. What do you think? There's one more chapter. Please review. I'm hoping for maybe 90? Or something close to it! WARNING: NEXT CHAPTER IS A TEARJERKER. Check out my other works, The Lesson, The Protector, and Cry For Me!