Yes it has been forever, and yes I'm sorry this chap is not edited but I
have taken enough time so here goes, hope you still remember.... ¬¬'
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"Ok first off I do not want to share your perturbing squeals of joy so keep the joke to yourself. I have to talk to you about serious things, understood?" asked Ginny
Ron shrugged and looked back at his sister "Hell Ginny if I knew the joke maybe I would be in position to tell you."
"Just come and sit down"
Ron joined his sister on his four poster and looked to her expectantly
". so. have you decided?" she started
"Decided what?"
"What you're going to do. about, well you know."
The remaining smile on Ron's face faded as he found great interest in his fingernails.
"Well I found out it's true. I really do. well, you know. have feeling for her."
"And what do you feel about that?"
"Well that's just the thing Gin. I barely know what's going on. it's as if I'm watching a world that's not my own. seeing me, and her. all from a distance. I. it's scary you know. these feeling hitting me like a bludger. right in the face. I. I guess I'm still dazed."
"Ron that's all right. if anything that's the most natural thing in the world."
He stayed quiet.
"I hate it." he said smiling
Ginny looked shocked, and with good reason. "What? Why?"
He finally left his fingers alone and looked up to his angry sister with sad eyes. "Well." he sighed "Taking my intelligent example of a bludger, I just got the impact. I was dazed. and now." he turned away "it hurts."
"Ron." Ginny started
"How could she ever like a bloke like me? I mean, think about it Ginny what are the chances? She's pretty, intelligent, well mannered, brave. she's. a wonderful person. and now look at me. I'm out of her leag--"
"Ron you have no idea what you're talking about so . shut up and look at me."
and so he did.still with those pitiful puppy eyes.
"Look." Ginny continued "I have been living with you for fifteen. odd years and if anybody know you better than you do, it's me. and Harry and maybe mom. but that's not the point. Ron. just look at you! Where do you get the" She paused looking for a good word "bloody idiotic idea. that you're not good enough. for Hermione or any other girl?! I mean, absolutely forgetting the fact that you're not bad looking, because you know that has no importance whatsoever. to us at least. And how many times have you risked your self for others, always unselfish, always thoughtful, always kind, Ron! Are you going insane?!"
Even though it was his sister telling him these things. she was still a girl. no, not anymore, she had grown. He blushed anyway.
"listen, you are more than worthy of anybody you fall in love with, Hermione would be one of the most fortunate girls in this school to have you. anybody would. so don't say you have an. impossible love because you don't!"
she paused to catch her breath and look up at her brother again. her eyes were glittering
"If anything Ron you have a marvellous opportunity with her, take it. you have that benefit. I know what it's like to love and not be loved back. I'm living it right now. I have been since I was 10! I know what It's like so naturally I know that's not what you have. It. doesn't feel nice Ron, and I don't want you to feel the way I do just because you think this girl will never look at you, she is looking at you! So don't waste this. And don't go around there thinking she will never be yours. it's not a pleasant feeling. but remember it's not their fault you feel like that, it's yours. How on earth are they supposed to know and if they knew what would they do about it anyway, you can't force a person to love you. but that's where you get lucky. so it's all up to you now."
Ron looked to his sister with new eyes. he never thought feelings were not important but they were what seemed to move Ginny's entire life, maybe it was like this with all women. and to know she always has that inside her, not wanting him to feel the same way an uncorresponded love made her feel.
Ginny turned away and pretended to scratch her nose while wiping away some tears, damn was he thick headed! Before she knew what had happened she had her head against her brothers shoulder and he was softly rubbing her back.
"I swear one day I'll kill Harry for this." he said
she gave a weak smile he couldn't see anyway and hugged him back.
"Thanks Gin."
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both friends stood thunderstruck from the dorms entrance. Two people in front of their eyes had expressed very deep and intimate feelings for them, not knowing they were there but it was a little. shocking.
Hermione looked to the thin red-head stroking Ginny's hair and smiling, saying nice things to her. Ginny was right. the girl who had Ron would be a very lucky one. the thing that left her stiff, was that he wanted that girl to be her. he wanted her. and he though *he* was out of *her* league. 'silly git' she smiled and the heart warming scene in front of her.
Movement beside her woke her from her trance as Harry got up abruptly.
"I have to go." he whispered turning, his eyes covered by his bushy bangs. She would have gone after him, but something told her to stay.
But after all Ginny had just confessed that she was depressed almost everyday because of him. but it wasn't his fault! And Ginny knew that! She had said so! But she knew Harry too well. He would blame himself for everything. And now he surely felt bad for what he though he did to Ginny. Dammit was stupidity a trait of her two best friends or was it general for all men?
"Ron?" said Ginny in a small voice
"Yeah?"
"Don't kill him just yet. let him at least finish school."
"Of course. who else would I copy on in charms?"
Ginny giggled and pulled away from her brother smiling sincerely, "Thanks Ron. I was supposed to come and cheer you up, not the other way around."
"Well I was already here so."
Ginny smacked him playfully in the arms and got off his bed. "I think it's time to go."
"I'll catch up with you later."
Ginny nodded and turned, then stopped. "Hermione."
Everybody in the room stayed very still. Hermione looked from Ron to Ginny very nervous, she had after all been eavesdropping.
"Um. I. I have to go." said Ginny walking quickly past Hermione
She barely looked still staring at Ron who was staring back.
"You heard?" he asked
She finally broke eye contact looking down at her feet. "yeah."
"All of it?"
"Since the bludger."
"Oh."
Ron sat in silence, twiddling his finger again as he felt the bed beside him sink a bit. Still not looking up he asked.
"Do you hate me?"
Hermione's brows knotted in confusion. "What?"
"I'm curios."
"Of course I don't hate you have you gone mad?"
"Oh. ok. it's a start."
Hermione was about to say something when he finally looked up at her, both blushed but kept eye contact. For a while. Hermione was the first to give into his clear blue eyes as she took up his bad habit of twiddling fingers.
"I guess." she started. Ron too now looked at the floor
"I guess if you confessed it's only fair that I do too. because, well I wasn't supposed to hear that was I?"
"You would eventually, why not now?"
Hermione looked from side to side and to her hands then to Ron who was looking at her as well. They both turned away.
"I. I have feelings for you Ron."
he stayed quiet.
"I mean. you are my friend and all and I love Harry as my friend, and you as well, but. well what scares me is that I have. deeper feelings for you."
She gave a weak chuckle and continued. "It really is scary because.... I think I love you."
She smiled feeling Ron's eyes on her. "Those are powerful words you know. very strong. and I wouldn't use them if I didn't think they were true. sorry if I scared you too."
"You did."
"Sorry."
"Don't be. it's nice to be scared. hell I've been plenty scared before haven't I? And always after I receive the fright of my life. I get a good climax, a sweet reward."
Hermione looked up to blue smiling eyes. She smiled as well. She could see the small blush still across his face under a few cinnamon freckles he had left. She barely even noticed that something was over her lips, his own.
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Ginny made sure not to squeal like an idiot, she was too close and they would hear her if she did something stupid like that, but she almost couldn't help it. They were so stupid, and so sweet together. An enormous feeling of satisfaction ran through her when her brother kissed Hermione.
Even if they were the sweetest thing in the world, it was rude to eavesdrop, although Hermione had confessed she had and look what it lead to. She giggled silently but none the less turned to leave.
Where was Harry? He had to know this, they had actually done it, and the lame idea of a love letter had actually worked. She ran out of the sixth year dorms and into the main room. Where was he? He should have been with Hermione, but when she ran out to leave them 'alone', he wasn't there. Odd.
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It had been nothing more than a small peck, but Ron had never felt anything softer.
"Your lips are soft." said Hermione
'cool' Ron chuckled lightly. "Well I definitely got my sweet reward." He puffed his chest out playfully "Even though Ginny saw it too, but hell."
"Ginny?"
"Yeah she was eavesdropping at the door, just left."
"That's nice. I really don't care if people see us together."
"Together. we always are together, we wouldn't be friends if we didn't hang out with each other."
"Yeah but Harry's always there."
"He won't be anymore. poor bloke. but anyway I do care that people see us, I'm going to be proud to show you off."
Hermione giggled and set her hand over his.
"Damn Hermione."
"What? And don't curse."
"You made me go all mushy."
She giggled again "You look so sweet like that." She pinched his already red cheek.
Ron smiled reluctantly and turned her hand over so that their fingers were intertwined. "I would have though that this would freak me out. but it feels nice."
"It feels right. because it is."
"Harry will freak out, hope he doesn't feel left out."
"He'll understand. I think he--"
Hermione stopped at mid sentence as the smile disappeared from her face, Ron looked at her with worried eyes.
"What?"
"Ohhhhhh my. Harry has some serious problems right now. A thing I forgot to tell you was that I wasn't eavesdropping alone. he was with me. and well, he kind of left when Ginny started to cry."
"Don't tell me he feels guilty now? Of course he does, that git's always like that." Ron said answering himself.
"Where did Ginny go off to?"
"Not to look for him I hope."
Hermione sighed "What's up with those two. them I really don't get.it's frusterating not to understand."
"So says the walking library."
Hermione pouted playfully. "I'm serious."
Ron smiled "I know, she's still my little sister you know."
Hermione sighed again. "We should probably go look for her, and him." she started to get up, tugging Ron along with her
"Wait." he said
"What is it.?"
"Stay with me a little longer."
Hermione tilted her head slightly and looked at him with questioning eyes. He only gave her a shy smile and a blush.
"If this is a dream. I really want to make the best of it." he finished
'How can some one be this cute?!' she thought puckering her lips and smiling. "Ron."
"please."
"It's not a dream." she said sitting down again "It's something much better, and I do have to confess it's too good to be true for me as well. but I would never leave you. even if you would have told me you didn't feel the same way towards me."
"Yeah when Harry and Snape would have announced their engagement I would have said no."
Hermione giggled.
"Wow." started off Ron as Hermione lay her head on his shoulder
"What?" she asked
"I really love you."
Hermione smiled from ear to ear "Me too."
"I'll love you always." he finished
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and so have I!
A/N: Yeah it sucked but hey... um oh well! I've been really busy and stuff with family and vacations and all that, anyway feel free to correct anything here.. THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER PEOPLE!.. ¬¬' hehehe, well I was writing and suddenly the fic had turned over to Harry and Ginny so I decided to leave it here, if you guys want I can post the next part of the story but it won't be R/H centred anymore, read it if you want to, but the R/H fic I guess you could say is over.. I'll put the H/G in another fic, but I don't know when so, um, thanks for reading, I really appreciated all your reviews and I hope you liked it.. Sorry about the sucky ending :P
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"Ok first off I do not want to share your perturbing squeals of joy so keep the joke to yourself. I have to talk to you about serious things, understood?" asked Ginny
Ron shrugged and looked back at his sister "Hell Ginny if I knew the joke maybe I would be in position to tell you."
"Just come and sit down"
Ron joined his sister on his four poster and looked to her expectantly
". so. have you decided?" she started
"Decided what?"
"What you're going to do. about, well you know."
The remaining smile on Ron's face faded as he found great interest in his fingernails.
"Well I found out it's true. I really do. well, you know. have feeling for her."
"And what do you feel about that?"
"Well that's just the thing Gin. I barely know what's going on. it's as if I'm watching a world that's not my own. seeing me, and her. all from a distance. I. it's scary you know. these feeling hitting me like a bludger. right in the face. I. I guess I'm still dazed."
"Ron that's all right. if anything that's the most natural thing in the world."
He stayed quiet.
"I hate it." he said smiling
Ginny looked shocked, and with good reason. "What? Why?"
He finally left his fingers alone and looked up to his angry sister with sad eyes. "Well." he sighed "Taking my intelligent example of a bludger, I just got the impact. I was dazed. and now." he turned away "it hurts."
"Ron." Ginny started
"How could she ever like a bloke like me? I mean, think about it Ginny what are the chances? She's pretty, intelligent, well mannered, brave. she's. a wonderful person. and now look at me. I'm out of her leag--"
"Ron you have no idea what you're talking about so . shut up and look at me."
and so he did.still with those pitiful puppy eyes.
"Look." Ginny continued "I have been living with you for fifteen. odd years and if anybody know you better than you do, it's me. and Harry and maybe mom. but that's not the point. Ron. just look at you! Where do you get the" She paused looking for a good word "bloody idiotic idea. that you're not good enough. for Hermione or any other girl?! I mean, absolutely forgetting the fact that you're not bad looking, because you know that has no importance whatsoever. to us at least. And how many times have you risked your self for others, always unselfish, always thoughtful, always kind, Ron! Are you going insane?!"
Even though it was his sister telling him these things. she was still a girl. no, not anymore, she had grown. He blushed anyway.
"listen, you are more than worthy of anybody you fall in love with, Hermione would be one of the most fortunate girls in this school to have you. anybody would. so don't say you have an. impossible love because you don't!"
she paused to catch her breath and look up at her brother again. her eyes were glittering
"If anything Ron you have a marvellous opportunity with her, take it. you have that benefit. I know what it's like to love and not be loved back. I'm living it right now. I have been since I was 10! I know what It's like so naturally I know that's not what you have. It. doesn't feel nice Ron, and I don't want you to feel the way I do just because you think this girl will never look at you, she is looking at you! So don't waste this. And don't go around there thinking she will never be yours. it's not a pleasant feeling. but remember it's not their fault you feel like that, it's yours. How on earth are they supposed to know and if they knew what would they do about it anyway, you can't force a person to love you. but that's where you get lucky. so it's all up to you now."
Ron looked to his sister with new eyes. he never thought feelings were not important but they were what seemed to move Ginny's entire life, maybe it was like this with all women. and to know she always has that inside her, not wanting him to feel the same way an uncorresponded love made her feel.
Ginny turned away and pretended to scratch her nose while wiping away some tears, damn was he thick headed! Before she knew what had happened she had her head against her brothers shoulder and he was softly rubbing her back.
"I swear one day I'll kill Harry for this." he said
she gave a weak smile he couldn't see anyway and hugged him back.
"Thanks Gin."
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both friends stood thunderstruck from the dorms entrance. Two people in front of their eyes had expressed very deep and intimate feelings for them, not knowing they were there but it was a little. shocking.
Hermione looked to the thin red-head stroking Ginny's hair and smiling, saying nice things to her. Ginny was right. the girl who had Ron would be a very lucky one. the thing that left her stiff, was that he wanted that girl to be her. he wanted her. and he though *he* was out of *her* league. 'silly git' she smiled and the heart warming scene in front of her.
Movement beside her woke her from her trance as Harry got up abruptly.
"I have to go." he whispered turning, his eyes covered by his bushy bangs. She would have gone after him, but something told her to stay.
But after all Ginny had just confessed that she was depressed almost everyday because of him. but it wasn't his fault! And Ginny knew that! She had said so! But she knew Harry too well. He would blame himself for everything. And now he surely felt bad for what he though he did to Ginny. Dammit was stupidity a trait of her two best friends or was it general for all men?
"Ron?" said Ginny in a small voice
"Yeah?"
"Don't kill him just yet. let him at least finish school."
"Of course. who else would I copy on in charms?"
Ginny giggled and pulled away from her brother smiling sincerely, "Thanks Ron. I was supposed to come and cheer you up, not the other way around."
"Well I was already here so."
Ginny smacked him playfully in the arms and got off his bed. "I think it's time to go."
"I'll catch up with you later."
Ginny nodded and turned, then stopped. "Hermione."
Everybody in the room stayed very still. Hermione looked from Ron to Ginny very nervous, she had after all been eavesdropping.
"Um. I. I have to go." said Ginny walking quickly past Hermione
She barely looked still staring at Ron who was staring back.
"You heard?" he asked
She finally broke eye contact looking down at her feet. "yeah."
"All of it?"
"Since the bludger."
"Oh."
Ron sat in silence, twiddling his finger again as he felt the bed beside him sink a bit. Still not looking up he asked.
"Do you hate me?"
Hermione's brows knotted in confusion. "What?"
"I'm curios."
"Of course I don't hate you have you gone mad?"
"Oh. ok. it's a start."
Hermione was about to say something when he finally looked up at her, both blushed but kept eye contact. For a while. Hermione was the first to give into his clear blue eyes as she took up his bad habit of twiddling fingers.
"I guess." she started. Ron too now looked at the floor
"I guess if you confessed it's only fair that I do too. because, well I wasn't supposed to hear that was I?"
"You would eventually, why not now?"
Hermione looked from side to side and to her hands then to Ron who was looking at her as well. They both turned away.
"I. I have feelings for you Ron."
he stayed quiet.
"I mean. you are my friend and all and I love Harry as my friend, and you as well, but. well what scares me is that I have. deeper feelings for you."
She gave a weak chuckle and continued. "It really is scary because.... I think I love you."
She smiled feeling Ron's eyes on her. "Those are powerful words you know. very strong. and I wouldn't use them if I didn't think they were true. sorry if I scared you too."
"You did."
"Sorry."
"Don't be. it's nice to be scared. hell I've been plenty scared before haven't I? And always after I receive the fright of my life. I get a good climax, a sweet reward."
Hermione looked up to blue smiling eyes. She smiled as well. She could see the small blush still across his face under a few cinnamon freckles he had left. She barely even noticed that something was over her lips, his own.
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Ginny made sure not to squeal like an idiot, she was too close and they would hear her if she did something stupid like that, but she almost couldn't help it. They were so stupid, and so sweet together. An enormous feeling of satisfaction ran through her when her brother kissed Hermione.
Even if they were the sweetest thing in the world, it was rude to eavesdrop, although Hermione had confessed she had and look what it lead to. She giggled silently but none the less turned to leave.
Where was Harry? He had to know this, they had actually done it, and the lame idea of a love letter had actually worked. She ran out of the sixth year dorms and into the main room. Where was he? He should have been with Hermione, but when she ran out to leave them 'alone', he wasn't there. Odd.
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It had been nothing more than a small peck, but Ron had never felt anything softer.
"Your lips are soft." said Hermione
'cool' Ron chuckled lightly. "Well I definitely got my sweet reward." He puffed his chest out playfully "Even though Ginny saw it too, but hell."
"Ginny?"
"Yeah she was eavesdropping at the door, just left."
"That's nice. I really don't care if people see us together."
"Together. we always are together, we wouldn't be friends if we didn't hang out with each other."
"Yeah but Harry's always there."
"He won't be anymore. poor bloke. but anyway I do care that people see us, I'm going to be proud to show you off."
Hermione giggled and set her hand over his.
"Damn Hermione."
"What? And don't curse."
"You made me go all mushy."
She giggled again "You look so sweet like that." She pinched his already red cheek.
Ron smiled reluctantly and turned her hand over so that their fingers were intertwined. "I would have though that this would freak me out. but it feels nice."
"It feels right. because it is."
"Harry will freak out, hope he doesn't feel left out."
"He'll understand. I think he--"
Hermione stopped at mid sentence as the smile disappeared from her face, Ron looked at her with worried eyes.
"What?"
"Ohhhhhh my. Harry has some serious problems right now. A thing I forgot to tell you was that I wasn't eavesdropping alone. he was with me. and well, he kind of left when Ginny started to cry."
"Don't tell me he feels guilty now? Of course he does, that git's always like that." Ron said answering himself.
"Where did Ginny go off to?"
"Not to look for him I hope."
Hermione sighed "What's up with those two. them I really don't get.it's frusterating not to understand."
"So says the walking library."
Hermione pouted playfully. "I'm serious."
Ron smiled "I know, she's still my little sister you know."
Hermione sighed again. "We should probably go look for her, and him." she started to get up, tugging Ron along with her
"Wait." he said
"What is it.?"
"Stay with me a little longer."
Hermione tilted her head slightly and looked at him with questioning eyes. He only gave her a shy smile and a blush.
"If this is a dream. I really want to make the best of it." he finished
'How can some one be this cute?!' she thought puckering her lips and smiling. "Ron."
"please."
"It's not a dream." she said sitting down again "It's something much better, and I do have to confess it's too good to be true for me as well. but I would never leave you. even if you would have told me you didn't feel the same way towards me."
"Yeah when Harry and Snape would have announced their engagement I would have said no."
Hermione giggled.
"Wow." started off Ron as Hermione lay her head on his shoulder
"What?" she asked
"I really love you."
Hermione smiled from ear to ear "Me too."
"I'll love you always." he finished
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and so have I!
A/N: Yeah it sucked but hey... um oh well! I've been really busy and stuff with family and vacations and all that, anyway feel free to correct anything here.. THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER PEOPLE!.. ¬¬' hehehe, well I was writing and suddenly the fic had turned over to Harry and Ginny so I decided to leave it here, if you guys want I can post the next part of the story but it won't be R/H centred anymore, read it if you want to, but the R/H fic I guess you could say is over.. I'll put the H/G in another fic, but I don't know when so, um, thanks for reading, I really appreciated all your reviews and I hope you liked it.. Sorry about the sucky ending :P