Love and commitment

Author: Joy

Email: Julianna@ziplip.com

A/N: Review

A/N2: R rating for sex.

All occupants of the Hyperion settled down for the evening…or the morning. Fred was long since asleep when Wesley and Gunn both took rooms for the evening. Buffy went back to bed taking the pencil with her. Will and Joy settled back into their room while Lorn set Angel up in a double room that they shared for safety sake. The only two up were the newly reacquainted vampires.

"Come in," Gabriella called as Spike stood in the door way between their rooms. She had on a very modest silk nightgown that covered everywhere. Spike still found her incredibly sexy.

"Hey beautiful… Busy day…ready for bed," he whispered brushing his lips over her shoulder and neck. He had been good and found a t shirt and shorts among his things to wear to bed.

She turned slightly to face him head on. "Very tired… You shut Will out?" she asked tapping on his head.

"Yep…" He said quietly running his hands up and down her arms.

"Good." Gabriella leaned in and gave Spike a very seductive kiss.

He panted a bit, "I'm not that strong a man Ella." Spike shook his head; "I won't be able to just hold you tonight if we head down that path."

She smiled wickedly, "Just nice to know you still find me attractive."
            Spike's eyes met Gabriella's hungrily. He spoke in a hushed whisper, "I got to climb inside your head and relive the nights we made love…the night we made Will. You have to know how badly I want to… Nothing is more right or real in my life then making love to you."

Gabriella's breath caught in her throat. They just stared at one another for a long time, heat building between them. It was as if at any moment they would touch the world would fall apart. They were beyond all point of control. Each panted as their eyes searched the other's face and body.

Gabriella lowered her head and eyes for a moment. When she raised them again she met Spike dead on, "I love you."

Something twisted in Spike that he didn't understand. Too much time had been wasted. He had eternity to spend with Ella but right now all that mattered was claiming her as his own. He approached her slowly raising his hands to her face and giving her the purest kiss he could. Gabriella breathed uncertainly unconsciously knowing what was happening. Their eyes met for a long moment. "I love you Gabriella Jenks… No one will ever take you from me again." He addressed her by her human name causing a ripple of fear in Ella. This was real. It was happening. "Shhh…" Spike hushed. "It's okay… We don't have…"

"No…that's not it," she responded. "I haven't seen you in eighteen years and now… I mean we haven't even been in together for a day yet… It's just a little overwhelming."

Spike nodded looking at the floor. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed."
            Gabriella hugged him close settling his head on her shoulder. "You didn't push… You know I'm not saying no, right?" Spike didn't respond. Gabriella nudged his head up and took his face in hand. "Look at me." He reluctantly gazed into her eyes. "I have only ever been in love with you… I loved Charlie, but I never fell in love with him. You are it. You have always been it…I am not saying no." She laid the lightest kiss on his lips.

Spike lay his forehead to Brie's, "I just don't want to be apart anymore. I don't want to miss you anymore… Do you know why I helped Druscilla be restored to full health when she was sick?" Gabriella just stared at him. "Because I could save her. I could stop her from dying. I couldn't help you. I couldn't do anything. I didn't even get to say goodbye." He held her fast against his chest.

"Claiming me won't make the hurt of our separation go away," she whispered.

"Maybe not, but you will be in me…and I will be in you. I will be able to feel you when we are apart. I'll be able to strengthen you if you need it and comfort you in ways only mates can."

There was a peaceful pause where life settled in for a few moments. Gabriella felt Spike's lips on her forehead kissing her. She felt his arms surrounding her protectively. With a cleansing breath Ella felt she could take that next step…even without more time between them. "I love you William the Bloody," Gabriella said lovingly leaning into his lips. "You are my past, my present, and my future… You are who my heart and soul cries out for… I claim you as my mate, now and forever."

It was Spike's turn to be overwhelmed as he heard Ella's words and felt her lips caress his neck. Her small hands slipped under the material of his shirt. His body tensed in excitement shuddering as Gabriella's fingertips traced the muscles of his abdomen. Spike panted remembering how she would trace those same muscles with her tongue just before for she would…bite. His eyes clamped shut while his body trembled.

Gabriella was pushing his shirt up to get it over his head. Suddenly Spike was drawn back to the past. "Don't need to get blood all over it," Ella had said pulling his shirt over his head teasingly.

Spike's hands found their way to her t-shirt and removed it from her body. She got an indigent look on her face. "Don't need to get blood all over it," he mimicked as he undid her bra. "Now these," Spike cooed caressing Gabriella's breasts gently with his palms causing her to moan. "These I wouldn't mind seeing covered in blood…so I could lick them clean."

Spike came back to the present even more turned on. He couldn't restrain his words any longer, "I love you Gabriella Jenks. You are my past…my present and my future. You loved me more completely and sacrificially than any other person in my life. Before I had a soul you made me long for heaven just so I can be with you for eternity truly. I never knew a demon could love that intensely… I claim you as my mate, now and forever." Gabriella gasped at the intensity she saw in Spike's eyes.

The words were done, now came the messy part. Spike kissed down Gabriella's neck to a soft piece of flesh where he used to bite her during their lovemaking. Words would no longer be used. The only sounds that would be heard would be skin on skin and moans of pleasure, but words were done for now.

Spike slid his hands to the sides of Gabriella's nightgown. He looked deeply in her eyes as he removed the garment. She had nothing but panties on underneath, he knew without looking. He didn't look. This was about love and commitment. Lust was a wonderful thing, but that wasn't what that night was about.

Gabriella was lifted into Spike's arms as he crossed the room to their bed. She was laid down softly while Spike still gazed into her eyes. He lay just to the side of her stroking her cheek with his knuckles before kissing her gently. Gabriella smiled and leaned up getting to her knees so they faced each other. Her tongue found that sweet spot on Spike's neck that made him gasp for pleasure trembling in her arms.

Once again Gabriella's soft fingertips trailed lines of pleasure over Spike's muscles. He groaned; no lover had ever managed to make him so excited by doing so little and with such tenderness. At that moment he wanted a heart to hear it pound for her. Gabriella kept up her languid torture of Spike's neck massaging the skin with lips, tongue and blunt teeth. She raked her teeth across his flesh at the same time as her nails scraped up his flanks. Spike couldn't take it. He turned his head capturing her mouth for deep kisses groaning into her mouth. Suddenly he felt his tongue get nicked by Gabriella's fangs. That only excited him more.

Spike pulled back panting to look upon her face. She smiled before lowering her head to lick down the center of his chest pushing him back to recline. Gabriella found the same muscles in his abdomen that her fingers had, licking and sucking them leisurely. Her hands busily removed his shorts causing all motor function to stop in Spike's body. He held his breath to see if Gabriella's mouth would move lower. She just brought her lips back up his chest to the spot on his neck waiting to be bitten. Gabriella urged Spike back up on his knees. A moment more of attention on his neck before twin teeth pierced his flesh and drank deeply. Spike bellowed his exaltation for the sweet intrusion…that amazing pleasure of pain. It didn't surprise Gabriella that her chest was covered with the sticky evidence of his satisfaction.

Gabriella's tongue swept over the bite several times before Spike pushed her back against the bed. Their eyes met and Spike could hear her voice in his head whisper, "Mine!" He attacked her mouth with his own drinking her in.

Abruptly he realized he was being harsh and almost violent in his affection. Breathing in the sweet smell of Gabriella's arousal Spike calmed himself slowing down. He wanted none of these moments to frighten her or remind her of Angelus. Breathing deeply again he opened his eyes to gaze at his wife's beautiful baby blue eyes. He smiled softly at her before peppering her cheek with little kisses. Bringing his cheek next to hers he purred nuzzling Gabriella like a cat. Soft kisses rained down her neck to the top swell of her breast. His hand went to fondle the skin on her stomach only to have his palm covered in his own passion. Chuckling lightly he grabbed his discarded shorts wiped off her chest and stomach. She shuddered from the attention.

Gabriella looked down her body watching Spike chuckling as he rested an arm across her belly laying his head on it gazing at her lovingly. It was so… sweet… calming… genuine. The first time they had made love it had been very intense, all emotion and action. This…this was familiarity. Spike would pierce her neck and she would truly be his wife. The thought warmed her all over. She urged Spike up to her. He shook his head and kissed her navel eliciting a gasp of pleasure from Gabriella's lips. Dexterous fingers began to tug the last scrap of clothing off her body in slow torment as his palms stroked her legs.

Spike took great joy observing his wife delight in his touch. As much as he wanted Gabriella, he enjoyed the relaxed turn the evening had taken. He tickled her feet lying tranquilly beside her before he kissed each of her toes. Spike licked a cool wet line up the outside of Ella's leg. His mouth reached her hip and he got a wicked idea. With blunt teeth he scraped and then bit her hipbone. Gabriella bucked up off the bed much to Spike's amusement. The action distracted Ella enough that she didn't have time to become nervous that Spike was hovering above her one leg between hers.

With great care Spike leaned down and kissed Gabriella very sweetly slowly resting his weight on her. She trembled feeling their naked bodies pressed together. He stroked her cheek again encouraging her to turn her face into his hand so his mouth could fall on her neck. Gabriella kissed his thumb as he ran it over her lips while he lavished attention on his spot. She sucked his digit into her mouth when he began to suck on her throat. Mimicking the tongue on her skin, Ella swirled her tongue on the tip of Spike's thumb…that of course could only make Spike think how good that motion would feel elsewhere on his person. Pulling his hand way he caressed her side rubbing against her slowly as he kissed her mouth. Rhythmically Gabriella's hips met his in small thrusts. Of their own accord Gabriella's legs tried to accommodate more of Spike's body. Quickly taking the hint he moved to the space allotted him. Gabriella started to keen from the sensations she was experiencing. Spike drew his mouth back to her neck and readied it to be beaten.

Gabriella started to rock more forcefully against Spike until finally his fangs broke the skin. She cried out as her blood was sucked and swallowed. Her eyes were closed tight but she could still see stars. Spike clung to his wife rocking back and forth on her body but not in it. It took all of his restraint not to slip into her.

Gabriella's breathing slowed down so Spike pulled back to take his hint from his love. Demonic vestige slipped away in front of Ella's face. She pulled Spike down into a slowly sensual embrace. One hand slipped between them to position their bodies together. Spike's eyes about crossed feeling Gabriella's hand touch him. He watched her silently as they slowly became one. The only thought that came through the fog of his mind was in nearly twenty years this was the first time he felt completely whole and at home. "I couldn't agree more," she whispered in his mind.

Angel sat straight up in bed. "What's wrong?" Lorn asked.

"She's gone…She gone…" the vampire muttered.

"Who's gone?"

"Gabriella…He claimed her. She'll never be mine again," Angel groaned.

"She was never yours to begin with," Lorn said soothingly.

"I'm alone… Buffy…Cordelia…now Gabriella. Not that I really thought anything would ever… But why did they have to take Cordy?" the vampire felt such pain.

"Let's get through this stuff with Connor and we'll work on your love life," the host comforted his friend.

"I hate this… I understand the curse. It's supposed to torture me like I tortured others… I get it…but why can't I just be in love with someone who can love me back. Nothing else…it would be hard but… God… Losing Connor killed me because he was my world. I just want to love someone…and them let me love them." His pain was tangible.

Lorn sighed deeply, "She can do it Angel. Gabriella can bring Connor back to you."

"You seem so sure."

"I am sure… She can show him a balanced view of you. Watch her with Will. See the way they play together… You're very serious. To have your son be your son you need to lighten up," the host explained.

Angel shut his eyes, "Gabriella was nice to me." Lorn eyed his friend suspiciously. "Before…before everything I did… I was sitting in the club Gabriella sang at and got drunk. I was already really depressed. She brought me over a Sprite and said it was better for me. Everyday for a week she did that before she went on stage. One night when she brought the soda over I asked her to sit. We didn't talk. She didn't push me to…she just sat with me."

Angel swallowed a few times. "I left the club and cried because I knew what I was going to do. I knew what the demon was going to make me do to that sweet girl that didn't push me to talk. She just showed me kindness… That's why I turned her. I wanted that sweetness… always. But then I saw what I had done to her body and knew she would never understand. The memories of what I had done kept coming back and I heard her beg…she was a virgin. And then I realized I might have turned her into another Dru. I was so disgusted with myself I went to kiss the morning sun." Angel stopped and looked at his friend, "… A friend, sort of a friend, a demon I knew stopped me. He locked me up till I came to my senses. By the time I got out she was gone. I tried to find her…to beg forgiveness…something. When I found her I saw Spike with her. I was so angry and jealous… but I saw the way she shook…the way she needed him to hold her to assure her she would be okay. He was so gentle with her…so loving. I let her go right then. Gabriella would never trust me. She would always fear me. So I let her go."

"You might want to tell her that," Lorn stated simply to his friend's bewildered face. "She thinks you had morning regret and just left her to rise hungry and alone. No matter how badly her siring was you were still her sire…and you rejected her."

"I rejected her?" the vampire questioned.

"If you turn someone you're supposed to want them. If a vampire rises alone without protection of its sire its unwanted…waiting to be staked," the host explained. "By leaving at all…if you didn't want her because she was 'soulless' you should have staked her yourself in her estimation… By walking away she was just a piece of ass."

Angel clinched his eyes shut. "Sins of the father," he muttered.

TBC…