The Meaning of Beautiful
By: Gypsy Tollamer
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Gypsy: Thanks to every one who reviewed! I'm really working on this thing but it takes a long time and we're no where near the end if I have my way. I'll try to put out as many parts as I can as quickly as I can. All while doing my drama rehearsals, working on the magic show for our fundraiser, working for the school paper, doing my clubs all while trying to keep that 3.0 GPA! I'm tired already.. sure you guys don't want to write the next chapter your self?
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Quatre whiped his eyes and folded the letter back up. He's been crying a while at first Duo had been supportive but then he just went to the bathroom to take a shower. Or that's what he said.
Quatre stood up and walked over to his drawer. That was where he hid his most private things. Underneath some old letters and pictures. He hid Zech's letter.
Zechs had been forgiven. It was just too bad he couldn't have let Quatre forgive him when he was alive..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~the next day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Duo sat on his bed with his paddle ball... He bounced the ball on the paddle once, twice, three times and then the string got looped around his hand.
Duo tried again.
"Once, Twice, Three, Four, Damn it!" Duo said. "This thing must be busted. What compelled Heero to buy this thing for me. I'll never know."
"Maybe he wanted to help keep you occupied. You always tell him how bored you get here." Quatre said.
"by the by Quat." Duo said. "Are you doing any better? I mean are you okay?"
"Much better Duo. Thank you." he said.
"Because if you ever want to talk. I'm here." he said.
"I know." he said. "Thanks Duo. You're the best room mate a guy could have."
"We're more then roomates." he said. "Quatre you're my best friend."
"and vice versa." Quatre said smiling. "Oh, It's 2. I have to go to my shrink."
"Have fun!" Duo said. "I'm sure you will though. Dr. Kushrenada is one hot tamale!"
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"I heard you had some sad news yesterday." Treize said to his new patient.
"Yes my ex-boyfriend killed himself." Quatre said. "He's always been a passionate guy I just didn't think he'd do anything like that."
"Some times when people are sad they do things they wouldn't normally do." he said. "Were you sad when you started throwing up everything?"
"Maybe, I don't know." Quatre said.
Quatre then saw Dorothy standing over Treize's shoulder.
"Can you believe this guy? You were just getting happy when your sister found out about you. You weren't sad. You were determined to get that weight off!" she said.
" Had you and Zechs broken up yet?" he asked.
"Yes it had been about a week. You broke up with me because he said I wasn't pretty enough and that I had put on too much weight." he said. "And that's when I started hearing her."
"Her?" Treize asked.
"I don't know what it is really. Some times I hear this voice in my head telling me to do these terrible things. It put the idea of throwing up into my head in the first place. It makes me think terrible things about people I love. I don't like hearing it. But some times I do what it tells me." Quatre said. "I don't know how to make it stop."
"Every one has their own little personal demon Quatre. You're bad side." Treize said.
"But sometimes it makes me feel like I'm going absolutely nuts!" he said.
"It's quite normal but don't you worry I'm sure you're not turning into Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde." he said. "You just have to learn to make that voice shut up."
"You'll never make me shut up!" she yelled. Quatre jumped at the sound of her voice. It sounded evil.
"Why'd you jsut flinch?" Treize asked Quatre.
"Because she's yelling at me now." he said. 'She doesn't like you and she's angry about the things you said."
"Well Quatre. I don't know what to tell you. You know this voice is just in your head. i'm sure if you want her to go away and if you close your eyes. When you open them . She'll just disapear." he said. He saw Quatre close his eyes and them opene them after a minute....
DOROTHY WAS GONE..........
"Oh thankyou Dr. Kushrenada!" Quatre said jumping up to hug the man. "You don't know how much it means to me to have her gone!"
"Now. Some patients can easily rid themselves of their demons for short times but they have a hard time keeping them away. So we're going to try something with you that I do with a lot of my patients." Treize got up and picked up a small black book and a pen.
"I want you to write in this atleast once a day. You can write whatever you want. If that voice comes back just write down what she's telling you to do instead of doing it."
"Okay." Quatre said taking it...
"But I want you to write anything you want in there. you can tell me what you wrote if you want to. But I can't force you." he said. "Now It's movie night tonight. It'll be a lot of fun I promise."
"Doctor?" Quatre asked. "Would you let me go to Zechs' funeral?"
"No Quatre. Your parents gave us permission to allow you to leave when we saw fit. And I don't think you're ready for something like that. His grave will be there forever and maybe a provate visitation when your stable would be best." he said.
Quatre knodded and left Dr. Kushrenada's office. He then walked down the hall slowly to his room. Alone and free from Dorothy for the first time in his life.
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Gypsy: PLEASE REVIEW! IT TAKES LOTS OF REVIEWS FOR MY MUSES TO WORK!
By: Gypsy Tollamer
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Gypsy: Thanks to every one who reviewed! I'm really working on this thing but it takes a long time and we're no where near the end if I have my way. I'll try to put out as many parts as I can as quickly as I can. All while doing my drama rehearsals, working on the magic show for our fundraiser, working for the school paper, doing my clubs all while trying to keep that 3.0 GPA! I'm tired already.. sure you guys don't want to write the next chapter your self?
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Quatre whiped his eyes and folded the letter back up. He's been crying a while at first Duo had been supportive but then he just went to the bathroom to take a shower. Or that's what he said.
Quatre stood up and walked over to his drawer. That was where he hid his most private things. Underneath some old letters and pictures. He hid Zech's letter.
Zechs had been forgiven. It was just too bad he couldn't have let Quatre forgive him when he was alive..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~the next day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Duo sat on his bed with his paddle ball... He bounced the ball on the paddle once, twice, three times and then the string got looped around his hand.
Duo tried again.
"Once, Twice, Three, Four, Damn it!" Duo said. "This thing must be busted. What compelled Heero to buy this thing for me. I'll never know."
"Maybe he wanted to help keep you occupied. You always tell him how bored you get here." Quatre said.
"by the by Quat." Duo said. "Are you doing any better? I mean are you okay?"
"Much better Duo. Thank you." he said.
"Because if you ever want to talk. I'm here." he said.
"I know." he said. "Thanks Duo. You're the best room mate a guy could have."
"We're more then roomates." he said. "Quatre you're my best friend."
"and vice versa." Quatre said smiling. "Oh, It's 2. I have to go to my shrink."
"Have fun!" Duo said. "I'm sure you will though. Dr. Kushrenada is one hot tamale!"
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"I heard you had some sad news yesterday." Treize said to his new patient.
"Yes my ex-boyfriend killed himself." Quatre said. "He's always been a passionate guy I just didn't think he'd do anything like that."
"Some times when people are sad they do things they wouldn't normally do." he said. "Were you sad when you started throwing up everything?"
"Maybe, I don't know." Quatre said.
Quatre then saw Dorothy standing over Treize's shoulder.
"Can you believe this guy? You were just getting happy when your sister found out about you. You weren't sad. You were determined to get that weight off!" she said.
" Had you and Zechs broken up yet?" he asked.
"Yes it had been about a week. You broke up with me because he said I wasn't pretty enough and that I had put on too much weight." he said. "And that's when I started hearing her."
"Her?" Treize asked.
"I don't know what it is really. Some times I hear this voice in my head telling me to do these terrible things. It put the idea of throwing up into my head in the first place. It makes me think terrible things about people I love. I don't like hearing it. But some times I do what it tells me." Quatre said. "I don't know how to make it stop."
"Every one has their own little personal demon Quatre. You're bad side." Treize said.
"But sometimes it makes me feel like I'm going absolutely nuts!" he said.
"It's quite normal but don't you worry I'm sure you're not turning into Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde." he said. "You just have to learn to make that voice shut up."
"You'll never make me shut up!" she yelled. Quatre jumped at the sound of her voice. It sounded evil.
"Why'd you jsut flinch?" Treize asked Quatre.
"Because she's yelling at me now." he said. 'She doesn't like you and she's angry about the things you said."
"Well Quatre. I don't know what to tell you. You know this voice is just in your head. i'm sure if you want her to go away and if you close your eyes. When you open them . She'll just disapear." he said. He saw Quatre close his eyes and them opene them after a minute....
DOROTHY WAS GONE..........
"Oh thankyou Dr. Kushrenada!" Quatre said jumping up to hug the man. "You don't know how much it means to me to have her gone!"
"Now. Some patients can easily rid themselves of their demons for short times but they have a hard time keeping them away. So we're going to try something with you that I do with a lot of my patients." Treize got up and picked up a small black book and a pen.
"I want you to write in this atleast once a day. You can write whatever you want. If that voice comes back just write down what she's telling you to do instead of doing it."
"Okay." Quatre said taking it...
"But I want you to write anything you want in there. you can tell me what you wrote if you want to. But I can't force you." he said. "Now It's movie night tonight. It'll be a lot of fun I promise."
"Doctor?" Quatre asked. "Would you let me go to Zechs' funeral?"
"No Quatre. Your parents gave us permission to allow you to leave when we saw fit. And I don't think you're ready for something like that. His grave will be there forever and maybe a provate visitation when your stable would be best." he said.
Quatre knodded and left Dr. Kushrenada's office. He then walked down the hall slowly to his room. Alone and free from Dorothy for the first time in his life.
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Gypsy: PLEASE REVIEW! IT TAKES LOTS OF REVIEWS FOR MY MUSES TO WORK!