AN: Hi! I have a few things to clear up first and foremost.
#1. This is my twisted world, their destiny's aren't really written down in a big book, but its sort of a test to see who is worthy to rule the kingdom, protect the royal family, blah blah, ect. ect.
#2. Yes the senshi ARE her true friends. However, the evil thing is messing with her mind. She doesn't have a true love, at least not yet.
I can't say anymore just read this chapter!
#3. The song in this fic is "Runaway" by Linkin Park. The song is sort of playing in the background, like if that part where it is in was a music video kind of thing.
Thanks to everyone who read my story and reviewed chapter 1!
Cat's Meow, sailorenergy aka sooty, Ambre Wisniewski, suta-aisu kaji, Vera, The Drifter, Sailor Aphrodite, Chiyo, UsagiTskino, d-chan, Lady Shinigami, Former Angel, Lia, Senashenta, Eternal Sailor Mercury, and The 80lb Carrot I'm glad everyone enjoyed last chapter.
***Last Time***
"Don't fear Ami-hime," My voice scared me, it was a mixture of mine and it's. More of his, causing his deep, husky voice to squeak, and sound slightly feminine every other word, "Iie, don't fear, because now, the fun really begins."
******
Chapter Two: The Insanity Begins
"Why are you doing this?" My mind screams. My body chuckles, an evil chuckle
"Because its what I do." I open my eyes and I am standing in a room that seems to have no floors, walls, or ceilings. I am wearing my Mercury Princess gown from the Silver Millennium. I hear the chuckling sound again. I quickly turn to my left and I see him.
He stands about 6 foot. His wavy hair is shoulder length. The golden locks tumbling down into his eyes. The eyes that hold no emotion, although they are the deepest blue I have ever seen on a human, his swirling pools are shallow. He has a very strong muscular build that any girl would kill to hold in her arms. He wears simple black leather pants, and a white shirt that is open and shows off his build. His shirt reminded me of the shirts that the old poets would wear from the 1800's.
"Like what you see?" the voice taunts. He raises his hand and moves his fingers in a motion instructing me to come over. I suddenly begin to float and before I can blink, I am standing at his side. "Don't deny what you feel Ami-hime. It's not good for the soul." As he says this, I have a flash of the destruction of the Silver Millennium.
"Y..ou…" I stutter. I can see him smiling. "You were there the night Beryl attacked! You were responsible!" I scream. I raise my hand to strike him. He catches the offending arm mid-route to his face.
"Now, Ami-hime, is that any way to treat your love?" he asks. I gasp,
"My love? You aren't my love!" I scream at him. "I don't know you!"
"Ami-hime, don't say that. I love you. I always have. And I'm going to prove my love for you." He says looking generally sincere. I am taken aback at his tone,
"What? Who are you?" I ask becoming quite scared.
"Who am I? I am your true love." He says seductively.
"What is your name?" I demand. He smiles sardonically at me. Looking more and more like the Cheshire cat.
"My name is Reza. Lord Reza." I stop to think after he announces his name, Reza, now where did I hear that before? There was this book… myths and legends… oh yes! Of course!
"The Reaper!" I shriek. He laughs.
"No, Ami-hime not THE Reaper, just reaper. I think I'm his 5th cousin. I'm not sure, now." He pauses to think. I take this time to back away.
"What are you going to do with me?" I ask still backing away. Reza laughs.
"I'm not going to do anything," he pauses to smirk at me, "you are."
"What do you mean?" I ask trembling, I don't know whether from fear or the increasing cold that has entered the room.
"You'll see." Reza says. "Now we don't have much time lets get to work shall we?" In the blink of an eye, I am again looking through my own eyes. I look around I am at Tokyo National Park. It's getting late, people are starting to head back to their safe homes, into their safe beds with people who love them. A tear falls down my check.
"I don't want to be with you." I tell him. I can feel him smiling even inside my brain.
He continues with his instructions on how to get to this destination.
I follow the directions reluctantly. Soon we are standing outside of a hunting store. I walk in and my body goes directly to the hunting knives. My hands start to shake as they reach down to touch the glass case, scrutinizing the merchandise. A salesman sees me and comes over to assist me.
"Can I help you?" he asks. I turn to him and nod,
"Hai, I need knives, and guns, and bullets." Tears are running down my cheeks. I beg Reza in my mind. He laughed evilly,
The clerk looked at me strangely. "And might I inquire why little missy?"
"Iie. I just need them right now." I demanded. The salesman raised his eyebrows,
"Well, I'm sorry I can't help you then. You need and ID for all of these purchases and the guns come with a 35 day waiting period." I reached over and grabbed him by his shirt. I took a fist full into my hands and brought his face close to mine.
"Iie, YOU don't seem to understand. When I say I need them now, I need them now!" To prove my point I freed one of my hands and slammed it down into the glass display case. He looked down at my hand, which was glowing a strange blue, not a scratch, or any blood showing. I followed his gaze and smirked. "Hai, now you see a fraction at which I am capable of, give me what I need."
He nods and I drop him from my vice like grip. He gets up on shaky knees and walks backwards towards the counter. He grabs a large duffel bag and begins to fill it with the knives in the display case that my hand went through minutes earlier. He then moves his left hand to retrieve the keys from his pocket.
He moves to the next case, opens it with the key, and begins to fill the bag with the weapons there. He repeats this process three more times. Soon he is barely able to hold the large bag up without stooping down under the weight. He hands me the bag and I lift it with my left hand, testing the weight.
"This will do. Thank you for your time." I say, I then walk out of his sight. I reach into the bag and load one of the 9 mm's. I turn around and face the man just as he hits the silent alarm. He looks at me defiantly.
"Now all of Tokyo will know where you are." Reza smiles a malicious smile, he lifts my right hand holding the gun up and takes perfect aim at the guy's forehead.
"Perfect." A popping sound is heard and when I open my eyes, the man is lying dead on the floor. His lifeblood pouring out from the hole in his head. I scream in my mind.
"Now, lets go cause some chaos shall we?"
GRAFFITI DECORATIONS
UNDERNEATH A SKY OF DUST
A CONSTANT WAVE OF TENSION
"Please, iie… I don't want too…" I cried out to him. I didn't care if anyone else heard me. They had already seen me kill the man in the store.
the last part came out in an almost whisper. I started to cry.
"I don't want to… but I do. I don't know why but I feel like I love you back and I can trust you. Kami help me but I feel that way." I felt him smiling and suddenly my heart felt odd. Like it was turning to stone. I felt him power up in my mind and I soon lost more control of myself. I looked up at the fading day.
I nod and turn to look at the woman and her child staring at me. I raise the gun and fire twice, one after the other. I don't even have to aim. They both are soon lying on the ground, bleeding, and their eyes blank and accusing at the same time. I strangely felt no emotion.
ON TOP OF BROKEN TRUST
THE LESSONS THAT YOU TAUGHT ME
I LEARNED WERE NEVER TRUE
People had come out of their homes to see what the commotion was. All of them looked shocked and appalled that someone so young and innocent was standing holding a gun over three dead people. I could hear the whispers starting…
"How could she do this?"
"She's so young."
"Must be one of those gang initiations."
"Poor girl, no moral guides at home."
I start to hyperventilate. I clutched my hands to my head and screamed. "SHUT UP!!!! Stop!!! Leave me alone!!! I don't care anymore, you hear me???? I don't care!!!!"
I start to take pot shots at bystanders. When my gun ran out of bullets I reached into my bag and grabbed two handguns. I fired both at the same time. Screaming in pain, my head felt like someone was trying to nail a railroad tack into it. When those two ran out of ammo, I stopped to look at the carnage. There wasn't one person alive that I could see. I did a quick mental count, my eyes searching all around me. Twenty-eight, twenty-eight innocent bystanders to my insanity.
Reza whispers to me. A part of me feels satisfied at the destruction, like I was fulfilling a destiny, a destiny only for me.
I walked quietly ignoring the stares of the people on the streets, staring at my bloodstained clothes. The flicks of red sticking out like a sore thumb on my blue shirt I wore to the club so many hours ago.
NOW I FIND MYSELF IN QUESTION
[THEY POINT THE FINGER AT ME AGAIN]
GULITY BY ASSOCIATION
[YOU POINT THE FINGER AT ME AGAIN]
These accusers do no concern me. Neither do their stares of horror. I know that at least ten have called the cops. It doesn't matter, they won't be able to stop me. Only a select few can. I head in their direction now, for revenge. They have ignored me too long, I won't be a butt of their jokes anymore. Iie, they must pay.
Reza reassures me. I suddenly feel insecure about what I am about to do. A piece of my mind still screams in protest, telling me that killing these select few will destroy me, mentally and physically. I stop and sit on the roadside. I hug my knees to my chest and lay my head on my bent knees.
I question.
I mentally sighed. This was harder than I thought. That small part of me was still resisting. This time with more vigor as the question grew closer to leaving my lips.
I finished in a whisper and sunk my head even lower into my arms, tears threatening to spill over the edge of my ocean eyes. I felt him mentally hug me like a father would a daughter, or a brother a sister.
My head snapped up in surprise. I could hear him sigh, a faint whispering voice repeating in the back of my mind
the voice was soon gone and felt like I had more control of my body. This is strange considering who I was dealing with. I shrugged it off and stood up. My back cracking a few times as I stood. During my conversation with Reza, a large crowd had surrounded me, I could see the flashing lights of the police in the distance.
"Kuso!" I said under my breath. Not that I was worried on the damage, well lack there of that they could inflict, it would sure as hell slow me down. I had to get moving and into the next phase of the plan. I grabbed my bag and walked calmly to the center of the crowd. I kept walking, the crowd filled in behind me, encircling me and trapping me to their will. Or so they thought.
I closed my eyes and concentrated, I felt raw power somewhere deep in my soul. I began to collect it. I pulled it out and began to emit it. The crowd flew back as the powerful waves erupted off my petite form. I opened my eyes again and surveyed the damage. The people in the front of the crowd were dead, burned by the intense heat of the wave. The ones in the back, not so luckily were suffering with burns and scrapes and bruises from their fallen comrades and the blast.
"Serves you right." I mummer before walking away.
PAPER BAGS AND ANGRY VOICES
UNDER A SKY OF DUST
ANOTHER WAVE OF TENSION
"Stop, put your hands on your head and slowly turn around." I craned my neck to glance at the voice from over my shoulder. There were about 15 cop cars and 35 police or so all had their weapons trained on me. I sighed and shook my head,
"Do you mortals never learn." I showed them my back and kept walking. "If you value your lives you will stop where you are and go home. I do not wish to harm you, but I will kill you if you try and stop me." I blink a few tears back, glad that they can not see my face. "Please, just leave."
Surprisingly most listened. Only 2 foolish hot heads charged towards me. I whipped around and held my free hand out. I spread my fingers wide, palm facing them. They immediately stopped in their tracks. A lone tear escaped my eyes as I flung my hand, and them across the park and into a tree. From the gruesome sounds of crunching bones, I knew that both were dead. I turned around and continued walking, to my first stop.
As I got closer to the shrine I knew they would all be at something stopped me. I slowed my pace significantly and began to maul over this new feeling. Apprehension all around me, I tried to decipher exactly what was holding me back. I had it all planed out, they were going to be no match for me. Even with all of them, there I could easily dispose of them. Then what was stopping me!? Why couldn't I complete the mission? I clutched my heart in pain, it felt as if it were splitting in two pieces.
I stopped and grabbed my chest, trying to catch a breath. I felt the tears streaming down my face. I tried to get up and keep moving but my body wouldn't listen. Luckily, there was no one on the street to bother me, or try to capture me, because I'm sure I wouldn't be able to defend myself. I couldn't do it, for some reason it hurt to much to even think about hurting those people at the shrine.
HAS MORE THAN FILLED ME UP
ALL MY TALK OF TAKING ACTION
THESE WORDS WERE NEVER TRUE
I questioned painfully. I received no answer, and that was more painful than my contorting heart.
I heard him sigh,
He explained.
"How do I make it stop?" I rasped out, my voice thick with the emotional pain.
I did, I mentally gave him control. Slowly the pain began to dissipate. I stood up slowly, testing my strength. My heart jerked again, only this time it was hardening again. I now realized what he meant when he said I wouldn't like the results. I was going to complete my mission. I don't know who's mission it was anymore, or even what I was going to do. I was confused, vulnerable, and lost.
I WANNA RUN AWAY
NEVER SAY GOOD-BYE
I WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH
INSTEAD OF WONDERING WHY
My pace renewed I again headed for the shrine I knew so well. It was approaching nine at night and I knew they would be worried about me. I also knew they would meet at the shrine to try to find me. And I also knew that they would all be there right now, disheartened, depressed and easy targets.
When I reached my destination, I looked around for any sign of life. I knew that they would sense me soon, I could feel the evil radiating off my soul. I saw the co-owner of the shrine sweeping up some leaves. I smirked and walked over to him.
"Why hello Ami-san." He said, "the girls are real worried about you. Where have you been?" I smirked a cold, cruel smile, yes this was too easy.
"Out, I was upset and decided to take a walk. I hope they're not to mad at me?" I feigned a hurt look that the cook accepted readily. His face softened and he smiled at me.
"No, no, Ami-san, they were just worried. Here I'll take you to them now." I bowed to him and smiled,
"Doomo arigatoo gozaimasu, Chad-san" he chuckled at me and took my arm. I allowed him to lead me up the stairs to the fire room.
"Doo Itashimashite." He reassured me. There was no more apprehension. I knew what I had to do and I was going to do it.
"Rei-chan guess what? I have a surprise for you. Guess who just showed up? Ami-chan!" Just as the senshi were running out of the room I grabbed the young fool and held a dagger up to his throat.
"Ami-chan! What are you doing?" Rei asked. I smirked, evil radiating everywhere.
"Ami-chan is dead. You really should have listened to her. Her 'friends' made it so much easier to take her over! She actually believed that you didn't care for her anymore."
"But how are you in her body if she's dead?" Makato asked confused and scared.
"Oh, she's not dead how you think. There may still be a piece of her left in here, and if there is, she will never be your Ami-chan. She died believing that she could save you. She gave her heart and soul to roam the earth forever, feeling that by doing so she was saving your traitorous asses! You abandoned her! You didn't trust her! And that was the cause of her demise." Reza spoke through me. That small piece of me winced seeing them take the realization of what happened harshly. However, a larger part reveled in it, and that scared me.
"What have we done?" Usagi cried out, falling to the ground clutching her heart.
"No…" Rei stated calm, collected and callously, "I can still feel our Ami-chan in there. She is no different, just pushed into the back of her mind. We will get her out. Despite what you may have told her, we do care for her! She is one of us! A senshi! Usagi use the ginzuishou."
Usagi nodded and placed her hands over her locket. When she pulled the crystal out from the locket, she transformed into Serenity-hime. In my mind I walked up to Reza and held his hand. He looked down at my hand and smiled. I nodded and watched what was happening. I knocked Chad out and threw him to the side. No need to involve any more innocents. All the senshi had transformed into their Princess Gown's and held hands behind Serenity-hime.
She held the ginzuishou out in front of her and screamed out,
"Ginzuishou! Heal our friend!" I was bombarded with the light and new thoughts raced through my mind. Memories of the times I spent with them. I also saw memories of the Silver Millennium.
I WANNA KNOW THE ANSWERS
NO MORE LIES
I WANNA SHUT THE DOOR
AND OPEN UP MY MIND
I saw Reza before he was Reza; he was some knight from Mercury. He had fallen in love with me at a ball. I danced with him once on Mercury, I believe it was my 18th birthday and he fell in love. He was the dashing soldier that I didn't want called off to war! It all came back to me now. I needed a friend, someone to talk to and he was there for me. Then, the Negamoon attacked and he was called to fight. What happened to him?
I clutched my head in pain; the memories were coming to fast for my body to handle. I was losing my grip and fast. The senshi all ran to me, Usagi out of her Princess form held me close to her.
"Please Ami-chan, come back. We need you." I could see the tears falling out of her eyes. Real tears, I closed my eyes and tears fell down my flushed cheeks and onto her hands. I could feel a familiar warm energy in me. I heard Minako exclaim,
"Look at her forehead, I think its working, it's the symbol of Mercury!"
"She's glowing blue, Usa-chan I think it worked." Mamoru said rubbing Usagi's shoulders. I slowly opened my eyes. My head hurt so I immediately closed them again. I heard a voice in the distance of my mind…
I heard him sigh, and take a deep breath,
I open my eyes and look into my friends concerned ones. I don't know what to do… Suddenly my heart is filled with warmth, love. I know what I must do.
"I choose…"
GONNA RUN AWAY
AN: Cliffhanger! How did you like that? What is Ami going to decide? You'll just have to wait until the next chapter to find out!!!!
Japanese Terms in this Chapter:
Kobitito- lover
-hime- Princess
Hai- yes
Iie- no
Ai shiteru- I love you
Kami- god
Kuso- shit
Doomo arigatoo gozaimusu- thank you (polite)
Doo Itashimashito- think nothing of it
Ginzuishou- silver crystal
#1. This is my twisted world, their destiny's aren't really written down in a big book, but its sort of a test to see who is worthy to rule the kingdom, protect the royal family, blah blah, ect. ect.
#2. Yes the senshi ARE her true friends. However, the evil thing is messing with her mind. She doesn't have a true love, at least not yet.
I can't say anymore just read this chapter!
#3. The song in this fic is "Runaway" by Linkin Park. The song is sort of playing in the background, like if that part where it is in was a music video kind of thing.
Thanks to everyone who read my story and reviewed chapter 1!
Cat's Meow, sailorenergy aka sooty, Ambre Wisniewski, suta-aisu kaji, Vera, The Drifter, Sailor Aphrodite, Chiyo, UsagiTskino, d-chan, Lady Shinigami, Former Angel, Lia, Senashenta, Eternal Sailor Mercury, and The 80lb Carrot I'm glad everyone enjoyed last chapter.
***Last Time***
"Don't fear Ami-hime," My voice scared me, it was a mixture of mine and it's. More of his, causing his deep, husky voice to squeak, and sound slightly feminine every other word, "Iie, don't fear, because now, the fun really begins."
******
Chapter Two: The Insanity Begins
"Why are you doing this?" My mind screams. My body chuckles, an evil chuckle
"Because its what I do." I open my eyes and I am standing in a room that seems to have no floors, walls, or ceilings. I am wearing my Mercury Princess gown from the Silver Millennium. I hear the chuckling sound again. I quickly turn to my left and I see him.
He stands about 6 foot. His wavy hair is shoulder length. The golden locks tumbling down into his eyes. The eyes that hold no emotion, although they are the deepest blue I have ever seen on a human, his swirling pools are shallow. He has a very strong muscular build that any girl would kill to hold in her arms. He wears simple black leather pants, and a white shirt that is open and shows off his build. His shirt reminded me of the shirts that the old poets would wear from the 1800's.
"Like what you see?" the voice taunts. He raises his hand and moves his fingers in a motion instructing me to come over. I suddenly begin to float and before I can blink, I am standing at his side. "Don't deny what you feel Ami-hime. It's not good for the soul." As he says this, I have a flash of the destruction of the Silver Millennium.
"Y..ou…" I stutter. I can see him smiling. "You were there the night Beryl attacked! You were responsible!" I scream. I raise my hand to strike him. He catches the offending arm mid-route to his face.
"Now, Ami-hime, is that any way to treat your love?" he asks. I gasp,
"My love? You aren't my love!" I scream at him. "I don't know you!"
"Ami-hime, don't say that. I love you. I always have. And I'm going to prove my love for you." He says looking generally sincere. I am taken aback at his tone,
"What? Who are you?" I ask becoming quite scared.
"Who am I? I am your true love." He says seductively.
"What is your name?" I demand. He smiles sardonically at me. Looking more and more like the Cheshire cat.
"My name is Reza. Lord Reza." I stop to think after he announces his name, Reza, now where did I hear that before? There was this book… myths and legends… oh yes! Of course!
"The Reaper!" I shriek. He laughs.
"No, Ami-hime not THE Reaper, just reaper. I think I'm his 5th cousin. I'm not sure, now." He pauses to think. I take this time to back away.
"What are you going to do with me?" I ask still backing away. Reza laughs.
"I'm not going to do anything," he pauses to smirk at me, "you are."
"What do you mean?" I ask trembling, I don't know whether from fear or the increasing cold that has entered the room.
"You'll see." Reza says. "Now we don't have much time lets get to work shall we?" In the blink of an eye, I am again looking through my own eyes. I look around I am at Tokyo National Park. It's getting late, people are starting to head back to their safe homes, into their safe beds with people who love them. A tear falls down my check.
"I don't want to be with you." I tell him. I can feel him smiling even inside my brain.
He continues with his instructions on how to get to this destination.
I follow the directions reluctantly. Soon we are standing outside of a hunting store. I walk in and my body goes directly to the hunting knives. My hands start to shake as they reach down to touch the glass case, scrutinizing the merchandise. A salesman sees me and comes over to assist me.
"Can I help you?" he asks. I turn to him and nod,
"Hai, I need knives, and guns, and bullets." Tears are running down my cheeks. I beg Reza in my mind. He laughed evilly,
The clerk looked at me strangely. "And might I inquire why little missy?"
"Iie. I just need them right now." I demanded. The salesman raised his eyebrows,
"Well, I'm sorry I can't help you then. You need and ID for all of these purchases and the guns come with a 35 day waiting period." I reached over and grabbed him by his shirt. I took a fist full into my hands and brought his face close to mine.
"Iie, YOU don't seem to understand. When I say I need them now, I need them now!" To prove my point I freed one of my hands and slammed it down into the glass display case. He looked down at my hand, which was glowing a strange blue, not a scratch, or any blood showing. I followed his gaze and smirked. "Hai, now you see a fraction at which I am capable of, give me what I need."
He nods and I drop him from my vice like grip. He gets up on shaky knees and walks backwards towards the counter. He grabs a large duffel bag and begins to fill it with the knives in the display case that my hand went through minutes earlier. He then moves his left hand to retrieve the keys from his pocket.
He moves to the next case, opens it with the key, and begins to fill the bag with the weapons there. He repeats this process three more times. Soon he is barely able to hold the large bag up without stooping down under the weight. He hands me the bag and I lift it with my left hand, testing the weight.
"This will do. Thank you for your time." I say, I then walk out of his sight. I reach into the bag and load one of the 9 mm's. I turn around and face the man just as he hits the silent alarm. He looks at me defiantly.
"Now all of Tokyo will know where you are." Reza smiles a malicious smile, he lifts my right hand holding the gun up and takes perfect aim at the guy's forehead.
"Perfect." A popping sound is heard and when I open my eyes, the man is lying dead on the floor. His lifeblood pouring out from the hole in his head. I scream in my mind.
"Now, lets go cause some chaos shall we?"
GRAFFITI DECORATIONS
UNDERNEATH A SKY OF DUST
A CONSTANT WAVE OF TENSION
"Please, iie… I don't want too…" I cried out to him. I didn't care if anyone else heard me. They had already seen me kill the man in the store.
the last part came out in an almost whisper. I started to cry.
"I don't want to… but I do. I don't know why but I feel like I love you back and I can trust you. Kami help me but I feel that way." I felt him smiling and suddenly my heart felt odd. Like it was turning to stone. I felt him power up in my mind and I soon lost more control of myself. I looked up at the fading day.
I nod and turn to look at the woman and her child staring at me. I raise the gun and fire twice, one after the other. I don't even have to aim. They both are soon lying on the ground, bleeding, and their eyes blank and accusing at the same time. I strangely felt no emotion.
ON TOP OF BROKEN TRUST
THE LESSONS THAT YOU TAUGHT ME
I LEARNED WERE NEVER TRUE
People had come out of their homes to see what the commotion was. All of them looked shocked and appalled that someone so young and innocent was standing holding a gun over three dead people. I could hear the whispers starting…
"How could she do this?"
"She's so young."
"Must be one of those gang initiations."
"Poor girl, no moral guides at home."
I start to hyperventilate. I clutched my hands to my head and screamed. "SHUT UP!!!! Stop!!! Leave me alone!!! I don't care anymore, you hear me???? I don't care!!!!"
I start to take pot shots at bystanders. When my gun ran out of bullets I reached into my bag and grabbed two handguns. I fired both at the same time. Screaming in pain, my head felt like someone was trying to nail a railroad tack into it. When those two ran out of ammo, I stopped to look at the carnage. There wasn't one person alive that I could see. I did a quick mental count, my eyes searching all around me. Twenty-eight, twenty-eight innocent bystanders to my insanity.
Reza whispers to me. A part of me feels satisfied at the destruction, like I was fulfilling a destiny, a destiny only for me.
I walked quietly ignoring the stares of the people on the streets, staring at my bloodstained clothes. The flicks of red sticking out like a sore thumb on my blue shirt I wore to the club so many hours ago.
NOW I FIND MYSELF IN QUESTION
[THEY POINT THE FINGER AT ME AGAIN]
GULITY BY ASSOCIATION
[YOU POINT THE FINGER AT ME AGAIN]
These accusers do no concern me. Neither do their stares of horror. I know that at least ten have called the cops. It doesn't matter, they won't be able to stop me. Only a select few can. I head in their direction now, for revenge. They have ignored me too long, I won't be a butt of their jokes anymore. Iie, they must pay.
Reza reassures me. I suddenly feel insecure about what I am about to do. A piece of my mind still screams in protest, telling me that killing these select few will destroy me, mentally and physically. I stop and sit on the roadside. I hug my knees to my chest and lay my head on my bent knees.
I question.
I mentally sighed. This was harder than I thought. That small part of me was still resisting. This time with more vigor as the question grew closer to leaving my lips.
I finished in a whisper and sunk my head even lower into my arms, tears threatening to spill over the edge of my ocean eyes. I felt him mentally hug me like a father would a daughter, or a brother a sister.
My head snapped up in surprise. I could hear him sigh, a faint whispering voice repeating in the back of my mind
the voice was soon gone and felt like I had more control of my body. This is strange considering who I was dealing with. I shrugged it off and stood up. My back cracking a few times as I stood. During my conversation with Reza, a large crowd had surrounded me, I could see the flashing lights of the police in the distance.
"Kuso!" I said under my breath. Not that I was worried on the damage, well lack there of that they could inflict, it would sure as hell slow me down. I had to get moving and into the next phase of the plan. I grabbed my bag and walked calmly to the center of the crowd. I kept walking, the crowd filled in behind me, encircling me and trapping me to their will. Or so they thought.
I closed my eyes and concentrated, I felt raw power somewhere deep in my soul. I began to collect it. I pulled it out and began to emit it. The crowd flew back as the powerful waves erupted off my petite form. I opened my eyes again and surveyed the damage. The people in the front of the crowd were dead, burned by the intense heat of the wave. The ones in the back, not so luckily were suffering with burns and scrapes and bruises from their fallen comrades and the blast.
"Serves you right." I mummer before walking away.
PAPER BAGS AND ANGRY VOICES
UNDER A SKY OF DUST
ANOTHER WAVE OF TENSION
"Stop, put your hands on your head and slowly turn around." I craned my neck to glance at the voice from over my shoulder. There were about 15 cop cars and 35 police or so all had their weapons trained on me. I sighed and shook my head,
"Do you mortals never learn." I showed them my back and kept walking. "If you value your lives you will stop where you are and go home. I do not wish to harm you, but I will kill you if you try and stop me." I blink a few tears back, glad that they can not see my face. "Please, just leave."
Surprisingly most listened. Only 2 foolish hot heads charged towards me. I whipped around and held my free hand out. I spread my fingers wide, palm facing them. They immediately stopped in their tracks. A lone tear escaped my eyes as I flung my hand, and them across the park and into a tree. From the gruesome sounds of crunching bones, I knew that both were dead. I turned around and continued walking, to my first stop.
As I got closer to the shrine I knew they would all be at something stopped me. I slowed my pace significantly and began to maul over this new feeling. Apprehension all around me, I tried to decipher exactly what was holding me back. I had it all planed out, they were going to be no match for me. Even with all of them, there I could easily dispose of them. Then what was stopping me!? Why couldn't I complete the mission? I clutched my heart in pain, it felt as if it were splitting in two pieces.
I stopped and grabbed my chest, trying to catch a breath. I felt the tears streaming down my face. I tried to get up and keep moving but my body wouldn't listen. Luckily, there was no one on the street to bother me, or try to capture me, because I'm sure I wouldn't be able to defend myself. I couldn't do it, for some reason it hurt to much to even think about hurting those people at the shrine.
HAS MORE THAN FILLED ME UP
ALL MY TALK OF TAKING ACTION
THESE WORDS WERE NEVER TRUE
I questioned painfully. I received no answer, and that was more painful than my contorting heart.
I heard him sigh,
He explained.
"How do I make it stop?" I rasped out, my voice thick with the emotional pain.
I did, I mentally gave him control. Slowly the pain began to dissipate. I stood up slowly, testing my strength. My heart jerked again, only this time it was hardening again. I now realized what he meant when he said I wouldn't like the results. I was going to complete my mission. I don't know who's mission it was anymore, or even what I was going to do. I was confused, vulnerable, and lost.
I WANNA RUN AWAY
NEVER SAY GOOD-BYE
I WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH
INSTEAD OF WONDERING WHY
My pace renewed I again headed for the shrine I knew so well. It was approaching nine at night and I knew they would be worried about me. I also knew they would meet at the shrine to try to find me. And I also knew that they would all be there right now, disheartened, depressed and easy targets.
When I reached my destination, I looked around for any sign of life. I knew that they would sense me soon, I could feel the evil radiating off my soul. I saw the co-owner of the shrine sweeping up some leaves. I smirked and walked over to him.
"Why hello Ami-san." He said, "the girls are real worried about you. Where have you been?" I smirked a cold, cruel smile, yes this was too easy.
"Out, I was upset and decided to take a walk. I hope they're not to mad at me?" I feigned a hurt look that the cook accepted readily. His face softened and he smiled at me.
"No, no, Ami-san, they were just worried. Here I'll take you to them now." I bowed to him and smiled,
"Doomo arigatoo gozaimasu, Chad-san" he chuckled at me and took my arm. I allowed him to lead me up the stairs to the fire room.
"Doo Itashimashite." He reassured me. There was no more apprehension. I knew what I had to do and I was going to do it.
"Rei-chan guess what? I have a surprise for you. Guess who just showed up? Ami-chan!" Just as the senshi were running out of the room I grabbed the young fool and held a dagger up to his throat.
"Ami-chan! What are you doing?" Rei asked. I smirked, evil radiating everywhere.
"Ami-chan is dead. You really should have listened to her. Her 'friends' made it so much easier to take her over! She actually believed that you didn't care for her anymore."
"But how are you in her body if she's dead?" Makato asked confused and scared.
"Oh, she's not dead how you think. There may still be a piece of her left in here, and if there is, she will never be your Ami-chan. She died believing that she could save you. She gave her heart and soul to roam the earth forever, feeling that by doing so she was saving your traitorous asses! You abandoned her! You didn't trust her! And that was the cause of her demise." Reza spoke through me. That small piece of me winced seeing them take the realization of what happened harshly. However, a larger part reveled in it, and that scared me.
"What have we done?" Usagi cried out, falling to the ground clutching her heart.
"No…" Rei stated calm, collected and callously, "I can still feel our Ami-chan in there. She is no different, just pushed into the back of her mind. We will get her out. Despite what you may have told her, we do care for her! She is one of us! A senshi! Usagi use the ginzuishou."
Usagi nodded and placed her hands over her locket. When she pulled the crystal out from the locket, she transformed into Serenity-hime. In my mind I walked up to Reza and held his hand. He looked down at my hand and smiled. I nodded and watched what was happening. I knocked Chad out and threw him to the side. No need to involve any more innocents. All the senshi had transformed into their Princess Gown's and held hands behind Serenity-hime.
She held the ginzuishou out in front of her and screamed out,
"Ginzuishou! Heal our friend!" I was bombarded with the light and new thoughts raced through my mind. Memories of the times I spent with them. I also saw memories of the Silver Millennium.
I WANNA KNOW THE ANSWERS
NO MORE LIES
I WANNA SHUT THE DOOR
AND OPEN UP MY MIND
I saw Reza before he was Reza; he was some knight from Mercury. He had fallen in love with me at a ball. I danced with him once on Mercury, I believe it was my 18th birthday and he fell in love. He was the dashing soldier that I didn't want called off to war! It all came back to me now. I needed a friend, someone to talk to and he was there for me. Then, the Negamoon attacked and he was called to fight. What happened to him?
I clutched my head in pain; the memories were coming to fast for my body to handle. I was losing my grip and fast. The senshi all ran to me, Usagi out of her Princess form held me close to her.
"Please Ami-chan, come back. We need you." I could see the tears falling out of her eyes. Real tears, I closed my eyes and tears fell down my flushed cheeks and onto her hands. I could feel a familiar warm energy in me. I heard Minako exclaim,
"Look at her forehead, I think its working, it's the symbol of Mercury!"
"She's glowing blue, Usa-chan I think it worked." Mamoru said rubbing Usagi's shoulders. I slowly opened my eyes. My head hurt so I immediately closed them again. I heard a voice in the distance of my mind…
I heard him sigh, and take a deep breath,
I open my eyes and look into my friends concerned ones. I don't know what to do… Suddenly my heart is filled with warmth, love. I know what I must do.
"I choose…"
GONNA RUN AWAY
AN: Cliffhanger! How did you like that? What is Ami going to decide? You'll just have to wait until the next chapter to find out!!!!
Japanese Terms in this Chapter:
Kobitito- lover
-hime- Princess
Hai- yes
Iie- no
Ai shiteru- I love you
Kami- god
Kuso- shit
Doomo arigatoo gozaimusu- thank you (polite)
Doo Itashimashito- think nothing of it
Ginzuishou- silver crystal