Rikku's letter reveals the pain she feels after Auron's sending...
If you like this one then I suggest you read the other two stories in the trilogy: Auron's Lost Letter and The Night Before Sin. Enjoy.
Yuna,
I have kept this nearly unbearable secret from everyone. My heart is broken beyond repair. For weeks, every night, I have cried myself to sleep. Tidus returned to you two weeks ago, but my love, Auron, haven't return to me...not yet. Who am I kidding? He will not return to me. I held on to hope that maybe Auron would return to me.
The night before we had to fight Sin, Auron and I were alone for hours. He held me and we sat in silence for hours, but we did talk for at least an hour. He told me that he has feelings for me. At that moment, I told him that I love him. We knew our love would cause complications with the others, but during that moment, we didn't care. Auron also told me if we both make it through our battle with Sin then maybe we could be together...we just have to work though the obstacles. Now that will never be.
Why, Yuna, Why? Lulu has Wakka; you have Tidus, but what about me? The only thing I have is a memory of the kiss Auron and I shared. I have no proof of our love existing. What if I forget about my first love? What if someone ask me about my first love and I have no proof to show them who he is?
I'm going to visit the Farplane again...so I can speak with Auron again. This will be my thirteen visit...since he was sent. Every time I go, I have to fight back my tears. I want him to see me with a beautiful smile on my face. I want him to see as the cheerful, energetic Rikku. He doesn't need to see me as the cold, distant, and depressed Rikku that I am now. I know what you are thinking, "But Rikku, you didn't know him for very long". Yuna, you didn't know Tidus for long and you fell in love with him. So why can't I?
For awhile, I was angry at you for performing that sending. I thought, "Yuna, how could you send Auron away from me?" I was even glad that Tidus vanished before your eyes because you felt what it like to have your love ripped away from you. I was hoping you were feeling helpless as I did. I wanted you to feel the pain that I felt when Auron vanished.
Don't worry, Yuna. I'm not angry with you anymore. It was silly for me to be angry with you in the first place. I'm sorry, Yuna, I truly am. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you something. I wanted to tell you that I'm happy that you have Tidus back in your life. Now it is my turn, I shall return to Auron. I'm going...I'm going to join Auron on the Farplane. Good-bye, Yunie and may the fayths bless you.
Your Cousin,
Rikku