Well, I really have to ask you guys... should I or should I not write in Shinji's POV?? Or maybe I should switch every so often?? Ah what the heck, change is the spice of life right? Well this Chapter is basically still a trial on how I should write this for the rest of the story (or maybe I'll keep changing til I drop.. who knows?) input on this will be GREATLY appreciated and stuff like that!!
This Chapter will revolve around what Yui think of Shinji and vice versa and the stuff that happens during their walk from Hiroshima to Kure. Of course Shinji will have weird dreams and you will find out a little bit more on what happened before every started to come back from the LCL sea so enjoy^^
Disclaimer: It's a 'disclaimer'!! I 'disclaim' stuff, so if I own NGE, why would I have this here!!
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Searching through the Ruins
Chapter 2
"Shinji..." I was pretty sure Shinji would ignore me. That's what he did for as long as I remember (well the 5 days that I remember), and pretty much the whole time we were walking on the 'highway' as he called it. I guess he talks more now that I've been with him longer, but still...
"Yeah."
"I was just thinking, what does dreams mean?"
I turned to face him and saw him shrug, "Nothing good, that's what my dreams usually are."
Being a person just reborned, I don't understand a lot of stuff I guess since I don't remember anything. Still, my dream was pretty pleasant.
"My dream was nice... why do you say it's not good?"
I dunno why, but I felt something, Shinji's eyes seem to go dark before he look at the ground and completely ignored me once again. *Sigh* Oh well, guess it would be at least another hour before he'll talk to me.
Wait.. what's an hour? Maybe it's just one of my memories.
My dream... it was pleasant, maybe Shinji has bad dreams all the time, that's why he say it's nothing good. Why did I say my dream was nice anyways? I was in a building and I need to listen to this guy talking non-stop about something like bio-something something. It's boring, but... it's...
Maybe it's my past...
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Dreams.. what DO they mean? And why did Yui ask me what they mean? I hate dreams.. they remind me of my past that I need to forget. It was one of Asuka's requests when we're going there..
*******Flashback*******
"Shinji, stop being such a wimp!" Asuka groaned.
"I..I can't do this.. I didn't say them the first time, what makes you think I can do it this time?" Shinji grumbled.
"Mein Gott, can you stop thinking about THAT!" Asuka stopped and pulled Shinji to a stop.
"But it IS my fault!" Shinji snapped back.
"no iT ISN'T!!" Asuka snapped back, "Stop blaming yourself! I know your a wimp and couldn't even stop an angel if 'I' wasn't here, but STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST!! It's pasted all right! now's the present!"
"....."
"Plus, you have to do this." Asuka frowned, "I'll need every bit of help I can get, I mean bring back people from jelly world isn't exactly easy even for a genius like me."
"Jelly world?" Shinji frowned.
"LCL Sea," Asuka said matter-of-factly, "I gave it that name since LCL it's like melting jelly and stuff."
Asuka shrugged and continued to walk again.
"Hey Asuka.."
"Hmm?"
"Thanks..."
*******End Flashback*******
One must uphold an request of the dying to honour their death right? But one must also remember them in order to honour them too... so how can I forget the past while remembering Asuka?
"Yui.." I thought I saw Yui jump in surprised, but I guess it's just the heat.
"Umm.. Shi- err yeah?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Su-sure.."
"What did you dream about."
"Well, it was a boring dream, but it's nice.. in a peaceful way.. you know..."
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Funny how me and Shinji set this rule, if you want to know something, you need to tell something of the same category. Well, I told him about my dream, and he said that it must be one of my memories. Then he told me his dream. It's kinda scary to tell the truth, seeing your own friend headed to their own doom. Yet, they still keep a cheery expression. Shinji seems to get more and more depressed when he talks about his dreams. I had to stop him before 'I' got depressed too!
Then, the most... unusual thing happened, I mean in the last 5 days that I'v been around him, Shinji smiled... he smiled and hugged me! I swear he said something like why haven't I meet you before this, or something like that. It was sweet.
"Hey Shinji, what did you say when you.. umm.. you know.." he's just Shinji.. why am I.. hesitating this much.
"Nothing..." Shinji said quietly.
"I know you said something!"
"I said nothing ok.." Shinji replied again in the same voice.
"Oh well..."
I guess I'm wrong....
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Life is a funny thing, just when you hit rock bottom, fate always drags you back up again so it can drop you down again. I hate it. First I thought Father wants to see me, then... After that, Misato and Asuka came along, then... Just few days before, Asuka and I was saving the world, everything shoulda be fine, but she... Now, I've found someone.. I don't know who this someone might be to me later, well if my live goes on like this, She'll be gone too.
I'm not sure if it's just me, but it seems like Yui is maturing. I don't know why, but it seems she's not as childish as when I first met her. It's like she's growing mentally, not physically. Maybe she'll remember who she really is, well I guess then she'll leave.
"Hey Shinji, it's getting dark." I looked up and saw the reddish-orange sky with the setting sun.
"I guess we'll set up camp." Yui stopped and sat down while still looking upwards.
"It's beautiful..." I turned my attention to Yui who is admiring the scenery.
"Yeah, it is..." I said and once again make the tent, "Yui, what would you do if you remember your past?"
"I'd try to pick up where I left off." Yui looked at me with a curious look on her face, it's like she's learning about things all over again,
"How about you?"
"I'd go to this garden I know of and continue to grow things in it, hopefully, I'd continue to live." I know it sounds bad, but that's how I feel. I don't know if I can continue to live.
"Well, I'm sure you will. Hey, maybe I can help you with the gardening." I was glad that at least she would stay until the garden was fixed up, or would she? Well I'm still glad. After this, I'm gonna be alone again. Just like I used to be. This time, it'll be because it's my fault, I can't blame it on my father, or anyone else, it would be my fault.
"Shinji?" I was drawn back into reality when Yui tapped me on my shoulder, "The tent set up yet?"
I gave her a nod.
"Good, dinner time!"
"I'll make a fire."
"K."
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Darn, and I thought I was making progress on Shinji. I thought Shinji would be more open by now. He was nice to me too, for a while. He started to act like he first did again when he hugged me. I... I liked it, the closeness.. I mean I felt save. I don't feel that confused or scared, I even forgot that I forgot everything! I guess good things can't last long.
Fire's a weird thing, it dances around like it can go anywhere it likes, but the fact is, it can't. I stared at it for a long time watching the fire do it's little dance, flickering left and right and up and down. It's exactly what I'm feeling like. I feel save because Shinji is here to help me, yet, I feel scared because, well, it's after the end of the world, what do you except right?
My eyes wandered around for quite a while slowly stopping on Shinji, before I know it, I found myself staring in his eyes, he looked back. I mentally jumped, not knowing what to do, I turned my attention to the fire again. I thought I heard Shinji gasp or something when I looked back at the fire.
"Yui.." I looked up slowly. I am scared, scared out of my mind, and I can't help it.
"Y-yes?" I replied in a whisper, but I wouldn't know because I'm too frightened to do anything right.
After a while of him staring at me and me trying hard not to blush, Shinji finally got up and just said a 'nite' and went to sleep. I only have one word to describe that last moment...
... Freaky...
Well I guess some other girls would think that that was kind of a romantic moment, but, it's freaky.. REAL freaky.
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Why... who is she. She's.. her...
I felt myself shiver involuntarily. Where DID she come from? Who IS she? WHY is she so keen on following me? All these question that never came to my mind suddenly flood in just like that.
I had other times when something like this happened. But this takes the cake for being the worst. Here I am, only half a days walk away from Kure and bombarded with idle questions that won't exit my mind. We're not even SUPPOSED to be that close to Kure with only 3 and a half days worth of walking! Well, if I keep my sanity until Tokyo 3, I might even find a reason to go on... but... those eyes are haunting me again...
The ghosts are back...
Her eyes... their my favorite, yet, the colour I dread to see.
They are..
Red....
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Confused yet?? hope not ^_^. In this chapter, I decided on the switch perspective approach, and I also did the fast forward just because it'll be REALLY boring if I just droned on about how Shinji and Yui crossed the desert and thinking about stuff that most of us don't even wanna know! And NO, where will be NO romance in this story, I might make it seem like Yui likes Shinji, but in fact, she is just intimidated by him, well ok, she likes him a bit.. but not enought for a lovey dovey romance. Keep that in mind and all and hope you like it!
Oh yeah, one more thing, hopefully, I'd be able to get started on the sequel of Destiny and Time soon.. I'm having.. err.. technical difficulties? =p
Please R&R!! seeya next time *WAVE*
This Chapter will revolve around what Yui think of Shinji and vice versa and the stuff that happens during their walk from Hiroshima to Kure. Of course Shinji will have weird dreams and you will find out a little bit more on what happened before every started to come back from the LCL sea so enjoy^^
Disclaimer: It's a 'disclaimer'!! I 'disclaim' stuff, so if I own NGE, why would I have this here!!
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Searching through the Ruins
Chapter 2
"Shinji..." I was pretty sure Shinji would ignore me. That's what he did for as long as I remember (well the 5 days that I remember), and pretty much the whole time we were walking on the 'highway' as he called it. I guess he talks more now that I've been with him longer, but still...
"Yeah."
"I was just thinking, what does dreams mean?"
I turned to face him and saw him shrug, "Nothing good, that's what my dreams usually are."
Being a person just reborned, I don't understand a lot of stuff I guess since I don't remember anything. Still, my dream was pretty pleasant.
"My dream was nice... why do you say it's not good?"
I dunno why, but I felt something, Shinji's eyes seem to go dark before he look at the ground and completely ignored me once again. *Sigh* Oh well, guess it would be at least another hour before he'll talk to me.
Wait.. what's an hour? Maybe it's just one of my memories.
My dream... it was pleasant, maybe Shinji has bad dreams all the time, that's why he say it's nothing good. Why did I say my dream was nice anyways? I was in a building and I need to listen to this guy talking non-stop about something like bio-something something. It's boring, but... it's...
Maybe it's my past...
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Dreams.. what DO they mean? And why did Yui ask me what they mean? I hate dreams.. they remind me of my past that I need to forget. It was one of Asuka's requests when we're going there..
*******Flashback*******
"Shinji, stop being such a wimp!" Asuka groaned.
"I..I can't do this.. I didn't say them the first time, what makes you think I can do it this time?" Shinji grumbled.
"Mein Gott, can you stop thinking about THAT!" Asuka stopped and pulled Shinji to a stop.
"But it IS my fault!" Shinji snapped back.
"no iT ISN'T!!" Asuka snapped back, "Stop blaming yourself! I know your a wimp and couldn't even stop an angel if 'I' wasn't here, but STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PAST!! It's pasted all right! now's the present!"
"....."
"Plus, you have to do this." Asuka frowned, "I'll need every bit of help I can get, I mean bring back people from jelly world isn't exactly easy even for a genius like me."
"Jelly world?" Shinji frowned.
"LCL Sea," Asuka said matter-of-factly, "I gave it that name since LCL it's like melting jelly and stuff."
Asuka shrugged and continued to walk again.
"Hey Asuka.."
"Hmm?"
"Thanks..."
*******End Flashback*******
One must uphold an request of the dying to honour their death right? But one must also remember them in order to honour them too... so how can I forget the past while remembering Asuka?
"Yui.." I thought I saw Yui jump in surprised, but I guess it's just the heat.
"Umm.. Shi- err yeah?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Su-sure.."
"What did you dream about."
"Well, it was a boring dream, but it's nice.. in a peaceful way.. you know..."
***********************************
Funny how me and Shinji set this rule, if you want to know something, you need to tell something of the same category. Well, I told him about my dream, and he said that it must be one of my memories. Then he told me his dream. It's kinda scary to tell the truth, seeing your own friend headed to their own doom. Yet, they still keep a cheery expression. Shinji seems to get more and more depressed when he talks about his dreams. I had to stop him before 'I' got depressed too!
Then, the most... unusual thing happened, I mean in the last 5 days that I'v been around him, Shinji smiled... he smiled and hugged me! I swear he said something like why haven't I meet you before this, or something like that. It was sweet.
"Hey Shinji, what did you say when you.. umm.. you know.." he's just Shinji.. why am I.. hesitating this much.
"Nothing..." Shinji said quietly.
"I know you said something!"
"I said nothing ok.." Shinji replied again in the same voice.
"Oh well..."
I guess I'm wrong....
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Life is a funny thing, just when you hit rock bottom, fate always drags you back up again so it can drop you down again. I hate it. First I thought Father wants to see me, then... After that, Misato and Asuka came along, then... Just few days before, Asuka and I was saving the world, everything shoulda be fine, but she... Now, I've found someone.. I don't know who this someone might be to me later, well if my live goes on like this, She'll be gone too.
I'm not sure if it's just me, but it seems like Yui is maturing. I don't know why, but it seems she's not as childish as when I first met her. It's like she's growing mentally, not physically. Maybe she'll remember who she really is, well I guess then she'll leave.
"Hey Shinji, it's getting dark." I looked up and saw the reddish-orange sky with the setting sun.
"I guess we'll set up camp." Yui stopped and sat down while still looking upwards.
"It's beautiful..." I turned my attention to Yui who is admiring the scenery.
"Yeah, it is..." I said and once again make the tent, "Yui, what would you do if you remember your past?"
"I'd try to pick up where I left off." Yui looked at me with a curious look on her face, it's like she's learning about things all over again,
"How about you?"
"I'd go to this garden I know of and continue to grow things in it, hopefully, I'd continue to live." I know it sounds bad, but that's how I feel. I don't know if I can continue to live.
"Well, I'm sure you will. Hey, maybe I can help you with the gardening." I was glad that at least she would stay until the garden was fixed up, or would she? Well I'm still glad. After this, I'm gonna be alone again. Just like I used to be. This time, it'll be because it's my fault, I can't blame it on my father, or anyone else, it would be my fault.
"Shinji?" I was drawn back into reality when Yui tapped me on my shoulder, "The tent set up yet?"
I gave her a nod.
"Good, dinner time!"
"I'll make a fire."
"K."
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Darn, and I thought I was making progress on Shinji. I thought Shinji would be more open by now. He was nice to me too, for a while. He started to act like he first did again when he hugged me. I... I liked it, the closeness.. I mean I felt save. I don't feel that confused or scared, I even forgot that I forgot everything! I guess good things can't last long.
Fire's a weird thing, it dances around like it can go anywhere it likes, but the fact is, it can't. I stared at it for a long time watching the fire do it's little dance, flickering left and right and up and down. It's exactly what I'm feeling like. I feel save because Shinji is here to help me, yet, I feel scared because, well, it's after the end of the world, what do you except right?
My eyes wandered around for quite a while slowly stopping on Shinji, before I know it, I found myself staring in his eyes, he looked back. I mentally jumped, not knowing what to do, I turned my attention to the fire again. I thought I heard Shinji gasp or something when I looked back at the fire.
"Yui.." I looked up slowly. I am scared, scared out of my mind, and I can't help it.
"Y-yes?" I replied in a whisper, but I wouldn't know because I'm too frightened to do anything right.
After a while of him staring at me and me trying hard not to blush, Shinji finally got up and just said a 'nite' and went to sleep. I only have one word to describe that last moment...
... Freaky...
Well I guess some other girls would think that that was kind of a romantic moment, but, it's freaky.. REAL freaky.
***********************************
Why... who is she. She's.. her...
I felt myself shiver involuntarily. Where DID she come from? Who IS she? WHY is she so keen on following me? All these question that never came to my mind suddenly flood in just like that.
I had other times when something like this happened. But this takes the cake for being the worst. Here I am, only half a days walk away from Kure and bombarded with idle questions that won't exit my mind. We're not even SUPPOSED to be that close to Kure with only 3 and a half days worth of walking! Well, if I keep my sanity until Tokyo 3, I might even find a reason to go on... but... those eyes are haunting me again...
The ghosts are back...
Her eyes... their my favorite, yet, the colour I dread to see.
They are..
Red....
***********************************
Confused yet?? hope not ^_^. In this chapter, I decided on the switch perspective approach, and I also did the fast forward just because it'll be REALLY boring if I just droned on about how Shinji and Yui crossed the desert and thinking about stuff that most of us don't even wanna know! And NO, where will be NO romance in this story, I might make it seem like Yui likes Shinji, but in fact, she is just intimidated by him, well ok, she likes him a bit.. but not enought for a lovey dovey romance. Keep that in mind and all and hope you like it!
Oh yeah, one more thing, hopefully, I'd be able to get started on the sequel of Destiny and Time soon.. I'm having.. err.. technical difficulties? =p
Please R&R!! seeya next time *WAVE*