Ah Shit... I REALLY should be writing more! I swear, if i leave this story hanging like that for an extra month, i'd probably kill myself for being lazy and stuff =p Anyways, I believe i left of with a Cliffhanger.. well too bad.. if you don't like it, sue me.. I'm not rich so I don't care. ^^

So after a long time.. it's time for a quicky recap.

Shinji is about to be killed by the third angel, Sachiel, with a beam like knife and Yui is running away from them carrying a mysterious girl that Sachiel seemingly harmed....

and so, the conclusion to the chapter... (man.. finally)

Disclaimer: Look at all the other one's, it's basically the same... I DON'T EVEN OWN ONE BIT OF IT!!!


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Searching through the Ruins

Chapter 5

Run, that's all I can do right now. I'm running, why am I running? Shinji is back there fighting with that man. Why am I running? I'm running because Shinji told me to save the girl and myself. I'm his responsibility, that's what he means... he whats to protect me. I.. I can't leave him like that. NO, I have to go back.

"SHINJI! I'M COMING BACK!" I yelled and stopped running. I silently pray that the girl will be ok if I left her alone for awhile.

"Must... stop Sachiel.. Third.. not die.."

The girl.. she's awake.
"Y-you ok?"

"Where am I?" I watched as the girl frantically try to find her bearings, "I must save him.. he can't die yet. Where is he?"

"Where is who?" I tried to calm down the girl, but she keeps on thrashing around. She acting like
some mad women now.

"The Third.. I MUST save the Third."

That girl is practically screaming by now. The third? Who does she mean by the third?

"Where did you take me? I must go back! I NEED to save him!" The girl grabbed me by my arm, "WHERE IS HE! You came in with him! He untied me!"

"Sh-shinji?" I stuttered, Shinji.. she knows Shinji. How? Wouldn't Shinji know her then?
"Shinji.. We have to go now!"

"Lead the way!"

I happily complied. Buildings blurred pass me as I ran my hardest towards the building me and Shinji went in. I colapsed as I reached the door. I've been running too much. The building.. it, it has a deathly atmosphere.. like death is inside.

"I'll go in, rest here." The girl said before walking in. What if she doesn't help Shinji? What if Shinji's already died? Images of Shinji's dead body floods my head as I thought on. What will I do without Shinji? Where would I go? He promised he'll take me to Tokyo 3. What will I do?

At that moment, all I can do was cry. I dunno why, but I cried because I'm scaried. I'm crying because I don't want Shinji to die. But the truth is, I don't even know if he's dead. So why am I crying?


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I closed my eyes and prepared myself for the final blow. I guess I lived quite a live. Regrets? Sure I have tons of them. But I guess if I need to die now, I'll have to face facts. I'm going to die and I can't do anything about it.

So I opened my eyes. If I'm going to die, at least I'm going to give my killer a death glare before I go.

"So, aren't you going to kill me?" I asked

"Yes, but don't you think I should enjoy my victory a little longer." Sachiel sneered.

"But if you do that, I'll stop you before you kill him" Sachiel turned to face the source of the new voice, I found myself curious also and manage to get a glimps of... that.. girl I untied?

"AAhh I see you have regain your memories," Sachiel grinned, "Let us BOTH enjoy victory and destroy the Third together!"

"We have lost Sachiel, give up." The girl whispered, but that small voice seems like a yell to me, even though the girl is obviously whispering. Wait.. we lost? Who.. who is she?

"no.. No.. NO, WE HAVE NOT LOST YET!"

I turned back my attention to Sachiel who, once again, had his 'dagger' over my head, "Die you LILUM!"

I watched as the dagger was thrusted towards my head. Kaji.. Misato.. Asuka.. Mother.. I'm.. I'm finally gonna see you all again. I'm sorry Yui. I closed my eyes again as I conjured up images of those people in my mind and waited for my end.



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Huh? Am I dead already? I opened one eye to observe my surroundings, and what I saw scaried me.

Sachiels blade never reached me, it was blocked by an AT field. Am I turning into one of THEM. Am I turning into a monster?

"Arael, Why are you doing this?" Sachiel screamed in frustration as he continue to stab at the AT field in front of me.

"We lost, and the Third was kind enough to let us live. Let him be." The girl said in a soft voice.

"No.. No.. NO!!" Sachiel continue to stab at the field, not even caring if he would hit me anymore.

"Please, you KNOW that your barrier can not neutralize mine. Your control over it is just not strong enough."

"I'll.. I'LL KILL YOU ALL!" His shreak forced me to cover my ears from the pain.

"Then I have no choice.. I am sorry."

"DI-" I stared at the dead angel in front of me and all I can say is this.

"Why?"

My mind is in a whirl. There is an Angel infront of me. A DEAD one. And that girl.. she... who is she?

"Are you ok?" I was pulled back into reality. There something about this girl, her eyes.. they're light orange.

"Who are you." I watched the girl as she shrank from me. Like if I found out who she is, I'm going to kill her.

"I.. I can't."

"Are you one of... one of them." I know she knows what I mean by them.

I waited for my answer. I seems like hours before she finally answers.
"yes."

I shut my eyes as hard as I could. Right in front of me, is an Angel. One of them that destroyed my life. And she... and she just rescued me.

"Please... don't hate us." I looked at her again, "We were doing what we are supposed to. Please don't hate us for what we must do."

I know the feeling, hated because of what we do. before the Third Impact, I was hated because I'm a Eva Pilot, because I worked for Nerv. I guess I can't really hate her. But why do I still hate her after what she said?

"Which one are you?"

"I'll tell you.. but not now." I don't know what to say. Today, I have discovered that the Angels are still around, but why is she helping me? Why isn't she off trying to kill me like Sachiel? But there something else.. somethings missing...

"Wheres Yui?" I felt a sudden chill down my spine as I realize Yui is alone.

"Yui?"

"You know, the girl that came with me." I asked frantically trying to determine if she was ok. Afterall she is MY responsability, I can't let her down. Like I let Misato down, like I let Asuka down.

"She's ok. She' just outside." The girl said softly.

I stopped myself. How come I am so cold to her? Ever since Asuka. I've been alone. Have I changed so much? Before, at least I'll have some manners and not be so cold to this girl. Is it because she is an angel? Or is it because I've been always like this?
"Thank you."

Thank you... the only time I remember getting those two words are from Rei. For my whole life, I don't remember using those two words either. Are those two words really so hard to use?

"Your welcome."

I don't know anymore. I don't understand this world anymore. All I know is that I have to protect her. Protect Yui. I don't know why, but I must....


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"yui?"

"shinji?"
I looked up to see him.

"You've been crying.. what's wrong?"

Why have I been crying? I don't know why...

"What's wrong?" I looked at Shinji again and see that he is not hurt that badly.

"Shinji, don't EVER do that again." He sighed, I don't know why, but everytime he does that, I know I'm in for a disappointment.

"I can't make any promises." See.. I'm right.

"So can we get out of here yet?" I asked him, hopefully we can, I mean this place is giving me the creeps again.

"Sure, let's just get our stuff." I smiled happily. I just hope that something like this won't happen again. But like they say, Hope is like a flickering candle, it can go out as easily as it lit up. Wha? where did THAT come from, sounds depressing.

"WAIT!!" Me and Shinji stopped and watched that girl run up to us, "I.. I want to come along too."

"SURE!" I answered for us, I'm sure Shinji won't mind.. right?

Shinji sighed and shook his head. Bad sign. "You can come I guess. Let's go."

I frowned.. somethings wrong. Shinji isn't like that when I followed him. It's like for some reason Shinji doesn't trust her.

"I-I need some supplies." The girl said biting her lips. I studied her closer. She's about an inch taller than Shinji I think, Orange hair, kinda weird if you ask me, and a very VERY light shade of orange eyes.

Shinji tilted his head as if questioning her.

"I.. can I talk to you in private." The girl asked. Somethings DEFINATELY not right here.

"What you tell me, Yui's gonna know sooner or later." Shinji said with a shrug, "She's VERY persistant."

"But-"

"She doesn't remember what happened before the Impact." Shinji said to the girl. I wonder what that has to do with anything. Must be something about the past. Shinji won't tell me, guess I'll have to find out for myself someday right?

"Alright. I'm.. well like I said, I'll tell you who I am. I am Arael, Messenger of the mind. And right now, I'm in my Lilum form. But I am still able to use my powers in this form, like Tabris."

"Arael?... So familar." I watched Shinji as he closed his eyes to concentrate and remember. Nothing interesting to watch. Arael on the other hand... well she seems to be getting ready to be hit or something, like whatever Shinji is going to remember is gonna put her on the 'bad list' in Shinji's mind. And what's with that weird title? Messenger of the mind? wonder what that means?

"Arael.. you.. YOU!" Shinji slowly backs away from her, "You destroyed her, did you know that?"

"What? what's happening?" I asked the two, I'm really frightened. Shinji, he was being nice to me for once, now, he is all mad again.. what's happening?


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She's the one.. She's the one that destroyed Asuka. She's the one who raped her mind. Why did she help me? Why did she do that to Asuka? Everything surrounding me seems to stop as i stared at Arael. Why is.. no she can't be.. All those angels are cruel. But she's.. she can't be one of them!
"Your.. your lieing!"

"I'm not.. why can't you stop hating me?" I see Arael's eyes fill with tears. Those Angels can't cry, their all evil, they destroy life! She can't be one of them!

"Your not one of them! You can't be!"

"But I am."

"Then why.. why did you help me?" I sat down on the ground not knowing what is right and wrong anymore.

"Because... because of what I did." I look up at Arael's eyes, "I need to make it up to Asuka."

"Why me? why did you save me then?"

"You know.. Asuka really likes you." I stopped breathing as I heard her words, "She thinks of you as a sibling she never had. All those fights you had with her, all the time she teases you, she sees you as her brother."

A brother? She sees me as a brother? How? Why? She didn't even show it though.

"But because you are also the pilot of Unit 01, she doesn't want to show you that she cares for you. She thinks that showing emotions as a weakness. Because you are the pilot of another Eva, she also sees you as a rival so she won't show you any emotions. But in truth she really does care for you."

Care... she cares for me...

"Did you know why she was so disgusted when she kissed you when she got bored." Arael seems to smiles a little, "She was disgusted because she just kissed a boy she thought as a brother. Not because you are not good enough. But because you are good enough to be a sibling."

"You really are that Angel... you.. you know all about Asuka's past." I felt my world slowly escaping from my grasp. Here I am sitting infront of Arael, the one that raped Asuka's mind and I'm GLAD that she's here, I'm glad that she's here to tell me how Asuka really felt.

"Yes.. and I'm sorry about what happened to Asuka." I gasped in surprise how can she know? She just came back..

"How.. how did.."

"I still have my abilities intact even in my lilum form." Arael smiled.

"You.. you read my mind!" I kinda feel violated, I mean here is Arael, an Angel that can read minds probing for information that she wants.

"I'm sorry.. do you feel uncomfortable with that?" I nodded and turned to Yui. I held back the urge to laugh out loud as I saw her expression.

"So what IS going on here?" It was an expression of utter confusion. Here I was, think everything in the world is once again out of my grasp again and Yui here shows me that she is even MORE clueless as of what is happening.

"Well let's just say that she is welcomed and we need to get supplies before we head out." I look towards the sky, "And by the looks of it, it's pretty late, so I guess we'll just find a hotel in this town and sleep on something soft before heading out tomorrow."

"Hotel? what's a hotel?" I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose. Sometimes, I just don't get how Yui can understand so much but still know so little...

"I'd like to know more about how lilums live." I turned to Arael and shook my head.

"Arael, we're humans.. not lilums.. humans."

I wonder what is going to happen to us. I still need to figure out who Yui REALLY is, I mean her parents must be concerned... given that her parents are still alive. And what of Arael.. why does she want to come along with us? All I know is that something is going to happen.. and I'll be caught right in the middle of it, along with Yui...


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I looked out the window of the 'hotel room' the night sky seems so nice. So many things are happening after I choose to follow Shinji. And what is an Angel? Why does Shinji hate them so much? Why does Shinji accept Arael then? She's one of the Angels too right? Too much is happening, but I guess it's all ok. I mean we're all going to be going to Tokyo 3 and then I'm going to see Shinji's home. Then he'll help me find MY home and help me remember everything.. Yep.. everythings going to be alright.

"AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH" Pain.. so much... pain....


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*sigh* what is WITH me and cliffhangers? I'm going to kill myself one of these days from seeing too much of them =p. Anyways.. I think this chapter is one of my worst... right? flame me, praise me. please tell me something!! I need to know!! PLEASE *puppy eyes*

So anyways, heres a small preview on what I'm going to do for the next chapter ^^

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"Pilot Ikari?"

"REI!!"

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That's all.. hehe I'm evil aren't I?