It had been 3 days,which to Shane felt like 3 years. Shane didn't move he just stayed on the floor staring into space. Shane was almost on another planet,another world. Nothing new,he did this alot but this time it made sense. In his mind he knew which world he was on,the world of hell. In his mind he knew he had done wrong. He knew everything now,it was so crystal clear.

knock knock

"Shane?Are you in there?You gotta business to run you know!!!!!"shouted a work college from outside Shane's door. Shane just ignored him. Screw the business he thought...Screw life.....Screw everything... it wasn't he deserved it. To live,to work. I mean why should he,why should h4 have the privillage of living a happy life in switzerland while letting his wife,his own wife go through hell,go through pain.

He thought of his wife alot,he thought of his family. He thought of being a child on holiday with Vince,Linda and Steph. Playing and messing around without care in the world. He thought of his wedding day,and all he could hear was the golden vows repeating over and over again in his mind.

"Shane, will you take Marissa to be your wedded wife? Will you love her, comfort her, honor her, and keep her in sickness and in health until death do you part?"

is all he could hear. He thought about those words love, comfort ,honor until death do you part. He thought to himself.....he isn't dead. He's alive so why won't he comfort his wife,why won't he love her,protect her,honor her. It's his duty although he won't do it. He has too he thought it's his job,No one elses.

So why? why did he just let her go,like that. Why didn't he stop her? he's suppose to protect her. Shane never found the answers to any of his thoughts. It was like his mind was split. It was like his mind could change,and right now at this moment he had the mind that loving and caring,not the mind that he the answers.

Eventually Shane got up and put on a cd,he played his latest Britney Spears album. Track 8,Cinderella.

i use to be yout girlfriend and i know i did it well,oh yes you know it's true.......... You'd call me cinderella all you had to do was yell...and i'd be there for you...

Here i am....so try to forgive me...i don't believe in fairytales. Here we are with nothing but honesty,i'd had enough i'm not gonna stay........

i'm sorry for running away like this and i 'm sorry i've already made my wish oh oh but cinderellas got to go!!!!!!

The song played on and Shane began to think changing the words slightly to make them fit his problem. I use to be your husband,he though. I know i did it well,oh yes you know it's true. You'd call me shane all you had to do was yell and i'd be there for you. It was so so true. He was a good husband,all Marissa had to do was yell and Shane was always there for her. On guard,protecting her. The song continues.....

From time to time i tried to tell just what was on my mind it told me not today.........come back do that,well cinderella was all you had to say......

Here i am so try to forgive me i don't believe in fairytales....here we are with nothing but honesty.....i've had enough i'm not gonna stay......

I'm sorry for running away like this and i'm sorry i've already made my wish oh oh but cinderellas got to go...i'm sorry just trying to make my life don't worry your gonna be alright....ah oh....cindrellas got,to go....

Shane thought about the verse,from time to time he did try to tell Marissa just what was on his mind,but always decided not today. Shane was all Marissa had to say yet again....Shane ran away to try and escape and he hoped that everyone would be alright....he just had to go.....the song continues

i used to say i want you,you gave me your stuff. I did everything you wanted then our love shot...i won't believe in all your lies i'm not blind you seemy love it can't be sacrificed i won't be what you wanted me to be...

i'm so sorry,i've already.....made up my mind.......

i won't return to you.

He thought about it,he use to want his wife,now he pushes her away. He did everything she wanted,marissa wouldn't believe in all his lies she aint blind you see.....and he and marissa's love it can't be sacrificed....he will be what Marissa wants him to be... A caring,loving husband. It's not much to ask for. A right to know the truth from her husband.......and finally Shane will return to her.. he turned off the stero and started to run around the room collecting clothes and objects,he threw them all in the suitcase and ran out the door leaving a note for the landlord.....

stay tuned for the final part of lifeless series one: shane's deadly secret. which will be up tomorrow.