Sephiroth's Journey

Chapter VI: Feelings re-born

The nightmares haunted me even more often, they were reaching me even in this far away land, once again my soul was in pain, I though that after knowing that Aeris was alive and that no one remembered what I did I would live a "happy" normal life but I never knew happiness...but soon I would start experimenting new sensations...

"it's been a long time since we talked...." said a soft and sad voice "I thought that we were friends..., why you don't want to talk to me?"

"I...I'm. sorry...."

I kept going my way ignoring the young beautiful girl that was behind me, it was dawning...I wanted to be alone so I headed to the mountains...

Alone at last...

"nice view....." someone said from behind "can we talk?" Kaoru said in a soft voice

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!!, LEAVE ME ALONE! I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE!!!, CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND IT?"

"b-but..."

"Can't you see it?!, can't you see that I can only hurt the people?!! Stay away from me before I also hurt you!"

"I-I'm s-sorry...I just wanted to be your friend, it's just that you're always so lonely, and your eyes, your beautiful eyes are full of pain and guilt and anguish....I just wanted to help you! But I won't bother you anymore!!" after saying that she left

it's better like this...I'm sorry...

I stayed there for a long time but then I heard someone scream...

Kaoru!

I ran to where the scream came, and then I saw her being attacked by a monster I quickly drew my sword and annihilated the beast.

"are you ok?, I told you it was dangerous you shouldn't have followed me"

"my ankle...I think I twisted it I can't walk..."

I carried her over my shoulders... "you'll be fine now...I'll take you to your house"

"thank you"

as I walked towards Wutai she started speaking...

"you're really strong, did you know that?"

"kinda..."

"tee-hee of course you know, you're not very talkative...I guess it's because you're an honorable warrior"

honorable warrior...I wish..."not really..."

"you have helped me a lot....I'm really grateful...how can I repay it?"

"staying away from me..."

"........but....why?...why you have so much pain?, let me help you! Let me help you heal it!"

"you can't....no one can.....whatever....we're almost there..."

"I feel better now, I can walk...please let me down..."

"as you wish" we walked silently towards Wutai until she broke the silence...

"then...if you don't want me or anyone to get close to you say it...look into my eyes and say it! Say that you're alright and that you are happy! Come on say it!

I looked into her eyes, there was a fire burning in those deep aqua-green eyes

"I'm ....I'm alright....I don't need anyone....leave me alone....."

".....fine...I won't bother you anymore...goodbye and thanks again for saving me"

that night I couldn't sleep, but I couldn't wake up either.....the spirits, the faces, the darkness surrounding me, and the Jenova...it was back, she wanted me back....this time no one could help me, there was no light to save me...I couldn't breathe, I was sweating and shaking like crazy...the nightmare was getting stronger...so strong that it was becoming a reality...I wanted to wake up, but it was useless...I was trapped...the darkness reached me at last...I just let it engulf me...I was tired of fighting with the shadows...I was ready to die...I was ready to go to hell...just when everything seemed lost I heard that voice...calling my name...

"SEPHIROTH!!! SEPHIROTH!! WAKE UP, PLEASE, DON'T DIE, PLEASE!"

and then the light filled the room, I could open my eyes, I could hardly breathe but I was breathing, I was alive...and for the first time I thanked for the life given to me.

I couldn't stop shaking, when she hugged me...

"thanks God you're alright! I'm so glad!, don't worry, everything is fine now, see? I'm here you don't have to worry anymore, please calm down"

I couldn't talk and I was crying, I was scared, however Kaoru's presence made me feel comfortable, she passed her hand over my hair, trying to calm me, I never felt like this before, but it was so nice, I didn't wanted it to End. After a couple of hours I fell asleep again, but this time...for the first time in a long ,long time I didn't have any nightmares....