0.DISCLAIMER: I do not own Card Captor Sakura, CLAMP does.
********************
Fanny chan: Thank u 4 the beautiful reviews *sniff* I haven't wrote for a very long time and thought I was getting kinda rusty…
Tomoyo: Fanny chan likes angsty kinds of fics… that why she keeps writing these kinds of stories…
Chibi fanny: now she's racking her brains trying to think of different story plots… which is kinda difficult counting the fabulous fics u all have written.
Fanny chan: Sorry is the first part is confusing… here's the second part of the five-chapter prolouge. =^_^=
********************
Summary of this story: ExT as usual… Hope you enjoy. There was love, but after their marriage, will things take a turn for the better… or the worst… This is something like a prolouge for the sequel but is still a story itself. =^_^=
********************
Unable
By Fanny chan
Finding… seeking…
The first rays of sunlight seeped through the curtains of the guestroom, coaxing her to awake, to open her sleepy eyelids. She relented reluctantly and sat up on the bed, stretching and twisting to get rid of the cramps and knots she had obtained from the previous night of restless tossing.
This girl, otherwise known as Tomoyo Daidouji, was once an innocent girl, carefree and fun loving, happy and cheerful. It was amazing how one night of meant-to-be passion could convert her entire being.
Her once cheery smile was replaced by a grouchy frown. Smiling amethyst eyes were now lonely, betrayed, sad and angry ones.
She is married to Eriol Hiragizawa, her crush and first love. Yet, eversince they had first met, she had never thought of him to be so uncaring, so ruthless. It was like something had posessed him that dreadful night.
A soft tap on the door brought Tomoyo out from her daydream. She hissed in reply, knowing jolly well who was behind this wooden entrance.
The door opened slightly and tired blue eyes stared at hers, lips set in a thin line. Gingerly, Eriol slipped in cautiously, well aware that Tomoyo was watching his every move. Placing the breadfast he had prepared for her on the bedside table, he turned solemnly towards her.
"I'm really sorry… I never meant…"
"OUT!" Tomoyo snapped. "I don't want to hear your stupid excuses!" Eriol could not outalk her, counting the state he was in and he knew that. He was exhausted from many nights of staying up late because of that incident. Looking down, he backed out of the room, shutting the door gently behind him.
Tomoyo stared at the closed door, eyes moistening.
She still loved him. She knew she did. But the memory was too gruesome for her to accept. She could not forgive him. He had not asked for her permission. He stole her innocence… but she loved him with all her heart. Shouldn't lovers forgive and forget? Why couldn't she do it then? Why couldn't she simply forgive and forget?
Was it the devil inside of her? There were many questions. Yet no answers.
Tomoyo's POV
No answers… But I need one… I yearn for one…but how am I to obtain the answers to my impossible questions? Lost. I used to be so right, so secure in Eriol's arms. No. I can't think about him anymore. He violated my innocence.
He may be my husband, but I am not his playmate. He isn't suppose to let his hands roam all over me whenever he like.
He is in the wrong… isn't he?
A dim halo slowly appeared above her crown of magenta hair.
*******************
~Completed on: 29th July 2002~