DISCLAIMER: I do not own Card Captor Sakura, CLAMP does.
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Fanny chan: I really having a major, major writers' block. I hope this fic can fix my problem…
Tomoyo: She has plenty of plots yet can't think of the storyline. *sigh*
Chibi fanny: I hope she can be cured soon so she can write better stories, don't you? Anyway, in the meantime, enjoy this fic! =^_^=
Fanny chan: P/s: I have a group for Eriol n Tomoyo fans. I'm planning to make a website but need help. Go here to take a look =http://groups.msn.com/CCSTomoyonEriol
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Summary of this story: ExT as usual… Hope you enjoy. There was love, but after their marriage, will things take a turn for the better… or the worst… This is something like a prolouge for the sequel but is still a story itself. =^_^=
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Unable
By Fanny chan
I'm sorry… no I'm not
Am I that hopeless a wife?
How I want to cry out your name
with all my affection,
Yet I can't, I could not
I watched your crestfallen expression as you walked away from me,
I felt guilty, miserable…
Yet I did nothing to bring back the happiness we had shared…
Nothing…
Why do I shun you everytime you tried to hug me,
kiss me?
I do not know… Can you tell me?
Has becoming a wife affected my love?
Has it affected yours?
When my mother said I was too young to marry,
I ignored her and clung onto you,
Never wanting you to disappear from sight.
Why had things changed?
Why had I changed?
Wait… I know why…
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Amethyst eyes hardened as she embraced herself tightly.
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Things had changed,
Because of you…
Yes…
It was entirely your fault…
Despite the irony, you, my very own husband had raped me!
You stole my innocence in a night.
I had not been willing.
I wasn't ready
But you forced me to.
Scars, bruises, tears and cuts may have healed by now,
But there is one thing that time will never heal.
That is the memory of that fateful night of pain and agony,
As well as the dreadful truth of you, my husband I had loved so dear.
Your being contains lust, you knew no love…
Fake, Fraud!
You're a devil who will never lead a good life,
NEVER!
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She slammed her diary shut and curled into her bed. Closing tearful eyes, she headed into a restless slumber.
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~Completed on: 25th July 2002~