AN: Thankies for the reviews so far ^_^ They're very encouraging and everything~! My computer still isn't fixed..still using my dad's computer -.- Sigh~~ Yes yes, some of you don't really like Sakura's personality, well, me, the writer, doesn't either. Hahaha...but I just have to write her as the way she is right now to make this story more effective :P I must be making no sense right now, but oh well ^_^ I'll just shud up now so you can enjoy ur reading time :)
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Chapter 4: Worthless Anger
1st CCS fic by Fizzalicious Cherri
Class had begun and everyone was sitting at their desks, a bored expression shown on everyone's face. Syaoran noticed that Sakura was suppose to be in his home ed. class first thing in the morning, but it had already been fourty five minutes into class and she still hadn't arrived.
...Is it because of yesterday...? Syaoran rubbed his eyes and stretched his arms slightly. There you go again Syaoran. Her business is none of your business.
He tried to concentrate as hard as he could, but his thoughts kept on wandering...towards her.
Sakura leaned back on the trunk of the cherry blossom tree, gentle rain fell down upon her, plastering her hair on her head. She didn't mind, the rain felt nice in the cool spring weather.
She always came to this part of the school campus when she felt like she needed some time out from the world she lived in. She just didn't feel...like herself.
"Whore." The word repeated itself in her mind over and over again.
Sakura closed her emerald eyes slowly. You've got me all wrong Li Syaoran. I don't mean to be so...harsh and mean...I just...can't stand being hurt anymore. I was hurt and disappointed when you never came back...I thought you seriously would come back but you didn't...until now...I sent you cards...gifts...what do I get? No reply, zip, nothing...
"It's not so smart to sit out here in the rain."
She reopened her eyes a tiny bit so she could see the blurry image of a boy standing in front of her. Syaoran. She closed her eyes again, out of all the people in the world she could see, why him?
"You missed home ed."
Sakura nodded, "And your point is?"
"Nothing really," Syaoran shrugged. "Would you mind opening your eyes? I feel like I'm talking to nobody."
"You are." Sakura murmered.
Syaoran sighed, "Can you stop being so hard?"
"Hey cool, you're not calling me a bitch no more," Sakura chuckled, still with her eyes closed.
Syaoran grunted, he didn't know if he should apologize or not. Sakura had also been a pain in the back...
After a moment of silence, both murmered, "Sorry."
Sakura opened her eyes slowly, revealing two emerald gems. "You know what I call this place?" Sakura started. "Cherry Blossom Lane." She finished and a small smile crossed her lips.
Syaoran stared at her for a moment.
She took a deep breath and stood up with a yawn. "Guess I'll be going back to class now." She stared into Syaoran's intense eyes for a moment before she walked by him. "You've got me all wrong Li Syaoran." She murmered as she walked by. "I'm still a virgin." She finished.
Syaoran watched as she entered the school building, and he couldn't help but feel slightly sad. For that moment, when they were out here in the rain, Syaoran actually felt that the old Sakura was here before him.
"Hey Sakky, the spring dance is next week," Meena brought up the topic while they were all hanging out by their lockers.
"Yeah," She replied as she slammed her locker shut. "Nothing cool about that neh?"
Aki shrugged, "Well, you're going with Toitsu-kun right?"
"Yep," Sakura flung her bag over her shoulder. "Quite obvious. How about you guys?"
"I'm going....with..." Hikari started than drifted off.
"Ooooh come on girl, tell us," Yuki winked.
Hikari turned a faint shade of pink but then quickly returned to her normal color. "Myself!!" She finished.
The rest rolled their eyes. "Seriously!! You always say that and you always end up going with that...what's his name??"
"Think it was Hirashi-kun," Aki pointed out. "Yeah, that's it."
They stopped chatting when they saw Syaoran and XingMei walk by hand in hand. "It's obvious that those two are going together." Meena snorted. "You know, Li-kun is actually pretty hot."
"Yeah, and he's talented too," Yuki giggled.
"Almost as good as Toitsu-kun," Hikari teased.
Sakura groaned, "You gals can just keep on comparing those two. I'll just leave."
The rest giggled, "Sakura sure doesn't have alot of humour in her neh?"
"Oh well, it's not like we'll be hanging around her forever," Aki laughed. "I mean, I just hang around her so people will look at me!!" She finished when Sakura was out of earshot.
"Really?! Same here!!" Meena giggled, and the rest joined in.
"You've got me all wrong Li Syaoran." Her voice had sounded...disappointed with a bit of sadness added to it. He scowled, trying to shake out the image of her, sitting in the rain, looking as innocent as an angel. Why am I always thinking about her?! I can't...
He glanced towards his left where XingMei sat staring intently at the T.V. screen.
She giggled slightly at the scene being played, and Syaoran couldn't help but let it remind him of Sakura.
GOD, stop thinking about her...
XingMei turned her gaze towards Syaoran and saw his frustrated expression. "Is something wrong Xiaolang?"
"No, just a headache," He answered and stood up from the couch. "I'm going to be in my room if you need me."
"Onii-chan, I'm going out tonight so tell dad when he gets back from work," Sakura said as she slipped on her shoes.
Touya glanced up from the newspaper he was reading. "Where are you going?"
"Out," Sakura answered.
Touya grunted, "Kaijuu."
Sakura smirked, "You're an even bigger kaijuu. Remember, we're related, you're my brother so that makes you a kaijuu too." Sakura laughed in a harsh way and opened the door to leave.
"Don't come home to late." Was the last thing she heard Touya say before she closed the door shut.
She stood there for a moment and sighed. Gomen neh onii-chan...I know you just care for me...She didn't understand herself anymore...she couldn't control her words for they just slip out.
"Sakura!"
She glanced towards the street and saw Kyojin waiting in his car. She plastered a smile on her face and got in. "What were you daydreaming about outside your door?" Kyojin chuckled while he started the car.
"You of course," Sakura teased and giggled.
Kyojin smiled slightly, "You just know how to make me happy sweety."
Sakura smiled, but she didn't feel truly happy at the moment. For a moment, she realized that she had never been truly happy with Kyojin...maybe they had those magical moments that couples did, but...she didn't feel real, not herself.
She hadn't had some alone time with Kyojin in a long time...this was probably the first in two weeks. That's why they decided to go out for a night time drive and enjoy the night time view of Tomoeda.
Kyojin pulled up the car beside a railing overlooking a small lake. "You know, I love you very much Sakura." He murmered.
Sakura couldn't help but sense a weird tone in his voice. "Same here..." Was the only words she could utter.
"How long have we been together now?" Kyojin wondered.
"Hmm...I'd say almost a year...around 11 months I guess." Sakura replied with a satisfied sigh.
Kyojin chuckled, "Way longer than my first girl. It was only two months."
"I never hear you talk about her much," Sakura smirked.
"Well, I never here you talking about your old boyfriend."
"That's because I never had an old boyfriend," Sakura answered.
Kyojin turned his body so that he was facing Sakura. "Well, that doesn't matter now. We have each other, and we've been together for a long time."
"Yes..." Sakura could feel him pulling closer, even in the dim light.
His arms went around her and their lips met. It wasn't their first kiss together, but this one felt different to Sakura. It felt longer and harder...it wasn't those soft short kisses they had before.
Sakura found that she couldn't control it, he just kept on going and she felt herself leaning back against the door of the car, the back of her head pressing against the side window almost painfully. She couldn't tell what she was feeling at the moment. Did she want this?
Then it all went so quickly, Kyojin's hand slipped under the fabric of her tank top for she could feel the flesh of his hand against her stomach. She pulled back and pushed him away.
"What are you doing?!" She cried out, startled.
Kyojin blinked, as if he didn't know what she was so surprised about. "We love each other don't we?"
"..."
"I thought we could get a little closer you know...it has been almost a year Sakura. And we do nothing of that sort together," Kyojin complained.
Sakura rolled her eyes and stepped out of the car. "If you think loving each other is all about touching, kissing, and making out, then you're WRONG." She screamed. "Even if we've been together for nearly a year, love doesn't need to have this stuff in it!!" She felt so angry the words just kept on coming out of her mouth until her voice couldn't scream anymore. "...and what I feel towards you...isn't love. Now I see, that we weren't meant to be." She said softly and turned to leave.
"Is that all you're going to say?" Kyojin snorted.
"Yes." Sakura replied firmly.
Kyojin smirked, "And I thought you were one of those...cool chicks you know? Wild, alive, not some..."
"Say what you want," Sakura replied and started walking away. "To me, I thought you were a good guy, that truly knows what love is." She stopped a bit. "But I guess I was wrong about you neh?"
"Seriously Sakura, you should know I'm not those good guys that just...stick themselves to books you know? Hello here?! I'm the most popular guy in the school and I've got myself a chick who doesn't even want to french kiss with me and make out?! Nuts man," Kyojin threw his arms in the air.
Sakura turned around, an angry expression on her face. "I don't believe I was in love with you!! If you want some girl like that, go find yourself a slut!!" She hollered and stormed off.
Kyojin stepped back into his car and slammed the door. "Bitch." He grumbled.
"I heard you blew off that Sakura chick," Thomas, one of Kyojin's friends said the next day in class.
Kyojin grunted, "I'm better off without her. Come on! We were together for 11 months already and she still hadn't loosened up!! I wasted my time!!"
"Totally," Lio smirked. "Guess you didn't get to have sex with her."
The group of guys started laughing and Kyojin just glared at them but laughed a bit. "Doesn't matter, if I couldn't get the Kinomoto girl to get in my bed, I can get the next girl too."
"Haha, can't wait to see when that's gonna happen," They all smirked.
Kyojin shrugged, "So enough."
"Toitsu-kun!!!"
Kyojin turned his gaze lazily and saw Aki walking over towards him with a flirty smile on her face. " Wazzup Shoshiko-chan."
"I heard that...you and Sakura broke up?" Aki had a devastated look on her face, although it looked awfully fake.
"Yeah, you have a thing for hearing the latest news neh?" Kyojin chuckled. "But no big deal, I was only playing anyways."
Aki beamed, "That's what I thought from the very beginning!!" She cried.
Kyojin looked amused and gave a side glance to his friends. They all gave him a small thumbs up sign. "Smart girl aint ya than Shoshiko-chan?"
"Just call me Aki," Aki giggled. "I mean, we are kinda like friends."
"True," Kyojin raised an eyebrow as if an idea suddenly formed in his mind. "Hey, are you busy tonight?"
"Me? Busy? Tonight?" Aki had her eyes wide. "Of course not!! I'm free every night!!"
Kyojin grinned, "Than wanna go out to the movies or something?"
"Uh...Uh...duh!! I mean, of course," Aki seemed like she was in a daze as she walked away.
Kyojin smirked and turned to his friends. "Look, I just got myself another chick right this second."
Thomas slapped him on the back. "Way to go man, we'll just see how far you get with this girl."
"She seems more, into it," Satoshi commented.
Kyojin just shrugged, "We'll just see."
Sakura felt strange that day, for some reason she didn't hear the usual "Morning Kinomoto-san." or the usual greetings she heard in the hallways.
She also noticed that she hadn't even seen the shadows of her friends, Aki, Meena, Hikari and the rest...they just seemed to have disappeared. She turned the corner towards her lockers and saw Aki and Kyojin talking, standing very close, almost lip to lip.
Sakura glanced at them, disgusted. After breaking up with me, he goes up to one of my best friends... She suddenly felt really angry even though she knew it was pointless and worthless.
She turned around quickly and walked the opposite way, and all the time, Syaoran had watched the scene.
AN: Yep, Kyojin is just so worthless jerk :P So Sakura n him broke up, yay for all you S+S fans. But over on Syaoran's side of the story, he's still got XingMei there -.- Stay tooned for the next chapter...just a little hint of what will be going on...sad news for Sakura in the next chapter...and yeah...I shall say no more~! Tee hee, please R+R, thank you!!