AN: Hope everyone's enjoying the fic so far....I have no idea how long this fic will be. Oh oh oh!! Also, very sorry Glarie!! I just e-mailed the people that wanted to be e-mailed and I diddn't notice you wanted to have an update e-mail. Since I don't wanna flood people's e-mail with junk...lol...well, I'll be sure to e-mail you now though :P Tee hee, happy reading.
Disclaimer: Maybe if I had enuf money I would buy CLAMP and own the characters and everything, but so far, in my case, I dun have enuf money so I own nothing :P Pooey X.X
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Chapter Five: Painful Words
1st CCS fic by Fizzalicious Cherri
I knew I was right to have left him...he's just a worthless shitload of crap!! Sakura fumed as she kicked the trunk of a cherry blossom tree, causing some of the petals to rain down on her.
But Aki...how could she?! But...but I guess it doesn't matter now does it? Since I'm not with that pathetic jerk anymore... Sakura sat down slowly and sighed. Why do I feel so...depressed?
"Um...Sak..Kinomoto-san...daijoubu (you ok)?"
Sakura could recognize that voice. It was none other than Syaoran, he was the only other person who knew she came to this spot on the school campus. "What makes you ask that?"
"Well...since you look so sad and you have tears running down your cheeks?" He replied.
She blinked and slowly placed a hand on her wet cheek. "I'm crying." She stated.
Syaoran seemed confused, and Sakura just laughed. "I'm crying." She repeated and then an angry look crossed her face. "I'm crying for god's sake!!" She cried. "Over something that's not worth it..."
He didn't know what to do now. He was never comfortable around crying people, since he didn't know how to comfort people. "..Well...sometimes it's better to let it all out."
Sakura brushed away her tears and looked at Syaoran with her big emerald eyes. Through them, Syaoran could somehow see the old Sakura he knew...but she seemed lost, hurt...all those emotions running in her eyes.
"You know me so well Li-kun, even though its been six years," Sakura muttered. "That's my problem...I keep everything in, and I'm scared to let it all out..." She mumbled.
"Why?"
"...Because..." Sakura started then stared straight into Syaoran's amber eyes. "I'm scared I won't be able to stop...I'll just keep on going and going..."
"And eventually you'll run out of things to let out," Syaoran finished. "So you shouldn't be scared..."
Sakura chuckled, "This is so funny."
"How so?" Syaoran questioned.
She leaned back against the trunk of the tree and breathed in. "Well, six years ago you were the one with the personality problem." She laughed. "Cold, icy, Li Syaoran. The emotionless boy from the Li Clan."
Syaoran blinked, and Sakura continued. "And now...I'm having this problem with my emotions..." Sakura drifted off and stood up. "You know, I don't know who I am..." She said softly.
Syaoran shrugged, "Well, let me give you a hint."
Sakura raised an eyebrow, hinting him to go on.
"You're truly not who you are now."
"Whoa fellows!! Sudden shocking news, the break up between our school's most attractive popular couple!! Seems to me that Toitsu Kyojin and Kinomoto Sakura are no longer together!!" The school's speakers rang through the busy hallways.
"But listen to this juicy news," It begun. "Looks like Toitsu-kun got himself another chick right this moment, who happens to be one of Sakura's bestest friends! Double ouch for Kinomoto here, but we all wonder, who's Kinomoto going to go too?!"
Sakura rolled her eyes as she closed her locker. People these days...they have no life so they start prying into other people's business..
"Kinomoto-san?"
Sakura turned around and saw a boy from her school standing in front of her. "Eh?"
"...Uh...well...I was wondering, are you busy tonight?"
She smirked, "I don't even know your name."
"Thomas, I'm a transfer student from North America two years ago," Thomas introduced. "I really think a girl like you shouldn't have to be hurt like that...Kyojin's such an idiot neh?"
Sakura shrugged, "Guess so."
"So, how about tonight huh?" Thomas brought up again.
Sakura paused to think about it and then flipped her hair over her shoulder. "Ah, why not."
"Great, then I'll come around your house to pick you up around 7."
"You know where I live?"
Thomas nodded and winked, "A guy like me knows all. See ya later than Sakura. I can call you Sakura right?"
"Yah yah, whatever," Sakura walked off with her bag. She had no idea why she had just accepted Thomas' offer... I guess I need something to do to take my mind off things...
"Hey KINOMOTO."
Sakura stopped in her tracks and scowled at that voice. Aki. "What do you want?"
Aki stepped in front of Sakura with a small smile on her face, her high ponytail swishing back and forth. "I'm just here to say sorry." She said with a sympathetic look on her face.
Sakura grunted, "And why would you?"
"Because I don't mean to date your ex-boyfriend. But he came up to me and asked," Aki said innocently and Hikari nodded as she stepped up beside Aki.
"Yeah, so don't be bad at Aki-chan ok?" Hikari smiled a big toothy smile.
Sakura looked at them oddly. "Whatever."
"But you know we don't really like you right?" Aki brought up with a sweet tone.
Sakura couldn't stand looking at the girl in front of her any longer. "Just get to the point."
Yuki came up to them and placed a hand on her hip. "The point is, we just want you out of our face Kinomoto."
"Like literally, out of our faces." Meena repeated.
"I mean, looking at you might make my face wrinkle up. I mean, we all don't want wrinkles when we're all still young neh?" Aki added innocently.
Sakura felt her face go warm as she tried not to explode. "Well, I would be glad to stay out of your i diotic bitchy faces because it would probably make me die to see them."
Aki frowned deeply as she clenched her fists. "Don't act so darn smart Kinomoto. I have Kyojin now, you have nothing. He wants me ." She said menacingly. "He doesn't want you. You're trash, no one wants you. You have no friends now huh? Since I'm the new queen on campus, girl. So just get lost."
"Yeah we've had enough of those days where we had to stick by you to get people's attention," Meena retorted.
"But now since Aki's the popular one, we don't need to see your little butt around," Hikari laughed.
Sakura shrugged and remained an emotionless face. "Speak to the wall instead, cause that's probably the only thing that would want to speak to your retarded faces." And then she left and walked away.
Is the world all against me now or what? What is happening? Why is everything going so wrong? Sakura ran out of the school building and onto the sidewalk. Maybe this is what I get, for being so bitchy to innocent people...like Li-kun...
She felt her eyes watering again as she continued to run towards home. Stop crying Sakura!! Don't be weak...you can't let them see you cry, can't let anyone know you're crying over all this...then they'll all know you're weak...and defeated. No!! You can't let them win...
She burst into the door of her house and ran up the stairs to her room and flung herself onto her bed. My life sucks!! It always did...since the day I became some cardcaptor...which brough me to meet Li Syaoran, which messed up my life. And now it's even more messed...
"Sakura-chan?"
"Leave me alone please," Her voice was muffled.
Kero looked at her worridly. "But you don't look so good."
"Duh," She replied in the same muffled voice by the bed sheets. "I need some time alone."
"...Ok then," Kero flew to his drawer and shut it gently. "But if you need me just call." He offered.
"Arigatou Kero-chan..." She said softly, wondering if Kero heard. ...I guess in your toughest times, your close ones are the ones that are there for you...
Sakura rolled over so that her red puffy eyes faced the ceiling. What is my life going to be like now?
"Hey, do you think now that I'm with Kyojin, I'll be prom queen for sure?" Aki pondered as her group of friends walked down the sidewalk.
Meena shrugged, "I don't know actually..."
"Yeah...Kinomoto might still be able to get more votes then you...with all those tricks she has up her sleeves," Hikari said with a disgusted look on her face.
"Yeah...that slut," Yuki snorted.
Aki narrowed her eyes, "Then I'm going to make sure I win . No matter what."
Her friends looked at her curiously. Hikari looked excited, "What do you have in mind?"
"...Oh don't you worry, my plan is already in action," Aki had a sly look on her face. "And all we have to do is go hide in some bushes with a camera."
All her friends looked confused, but Aki just grinned.
"Who are you?" Touya opened the front door of the Kinomoto house with a glare on his face.
"Uh...I'm Thomas...is Sakura home?"
Touya looked at him curiously, "Who are you?"
"I just told you!" Thomas answered.
"I never heard Sakura talk about a guy named Thomas..." Touya muttered under his breath but shrugged. "KAIJUU!! Someone's here to see you." He yelled up the stairs.
Sakura's footsteps could be heard coming down the stairs. I hope the make-up can cover up my puffy eyes... She thought hopefully, but noticed that her brother and Thomas didn't notice a thing, much to her relief.
"Hey," Thomas greeted with a grin.
"Hi," Sakura joined them at the bottom of the stairs. "I won't be home late onii-chan."
Touya sighed, "You better not be."
Thomas and Sakura stepped out and into Thomas' car. "So, where do you wanna go?"
"Anywhere's fine," Sakura replied, a bored look on her face as she stared out the car window.
Thomas gave her a side glance and drove to the park. "How about a walk?"
"Sure," Sakura got out of the car with Thomas walking by her side.
"Are you ok?" Thomas asked gently.
Sakura looked at him oddly, "What makes you ask that?"
"Just..what happened to you and all..."
"Yeah...I'm fine," She answered. "It's not worth crying about...Toitsu is just a bastard."
Thomas chuckled, "Guys like him think all girls would be drooling over him."
Sakura snorted, "In his dreams..."
They laughed a bit and Thomas took one of Sakura's hand in his. Sakura didn't know how to react so she didn't pull away.
The two entered a more bushy area and suddenly Thomas pulled Sakura close to him so that she could feel his breath on her face. "Uh....Thomas..." She started but he hushed her and brought his lips towards his.
Sakura jerked back but Thomas has his arms around her so tight. She thought she heard some rustling in the bushes, but it was probably a squirrel.
Finally she was able to break free and she sent a punch at Thomas' face. "What is your problem!!"
"I'm sorry Sakura, I thought we were close," Thomas said with a smirk and he started laughing his head off. "Oh my god, you are so funny Kinomoto. You actually think I seriously want to date you or something?!" And then he walked off leaving a confused Sakura standing there.
"Oh my god...Kinomoto is such a slut!!!"
"And to think Thomas is Kyojin's best bud..."
Sakura heard all the murmers around her as she followed the gathering group of people at the school's bulletin boards. "What's going on?" She asked the girl next to her.
The girl looked at her with a disgusted look, "Stop acting innocent." She muttered and walked away.
Sakura blinked and pushed her way towards the front of the crowd. Her eyes went wide as she saw two photos pinned in the very centre of the board with a caption at the bottom.
Kinomoto hits on Toitsu Kyojin's best friend, Thomas right after break up!! Sakura didn't know how to react. It was photos of her and Thomas kissing at the park, but the thing was, she didn't know how someone could have gotten photos of it.
"Oh my god..." Was the only thing Sakura could utter.
"High five!!" Aki cried.
Thomas grinned widely. "I did my job nicely huh?"
"Yeah," Aki smiled and handed him a fifty dollar bill. "Thanks."
"No prob, if you ever need me for any other help, I'll be glad to be at your service," Thomas did a playful salute and left.
Yuki clapped her hands together, "Wow Aki-chan!! You are one smart bum!!"
"Yeah, I know," Aki smirked. "Now we're not the only ones that hate Kinomoto."
AN: Awww...poor Sakura...!!! Now we all hate Aki neh? Yeah I do too :P Well hope you liked this chapter and please stay tooned!!! Thank you~!