AN: Ok I know in this fic Sakura's getting hurt and betrayed alot, but dun worry, S+S moments coming up :) Tee hee...I have nothing else to say at the moment so read on~
Disclaimer: Maybe if I had enuf money I would buy CLAMP and own the characters and everything, but so far, in my case, I dun have enuf money so I own nothing :P Pooey X.X
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Chapter Seven: Mixed Feelings
1st CCS fic by Fizzalicious Cherri
"Hey Xiaolang...its been a long time already and we still haven't even attempted to get the cards," XingMei pointed out as Syaoran and her were sitting on one of the many benches around the school.
Syaoran leaned back and squinted his eyes because of the sun. "It's not the time."
"Huh? What do you mean?" XingMei blinked.
"Just...not now. We still have alot of time anyways," Syaoran reminded.
"Well...before we know it, the prom is gonna be here and then the year end!! Obviously we can't wait that long," XingMei said.
Syaoran sighed, "But not now."
"What's so bad about now?"
"...Well...the mistress is frustrated and unhappy," Syaoran explained slowly.
XingMei blinked, "So??"
"We'll be adding more to her unhappiness if we demand for the cards right now...we don't have to hurt her more if we don't have to," Syaoran finished firmly.
XingMei looked away, her eyes downcast. "Kinomoto...you knew her before neh?"
"...Yeah..."
"...Did..did you guys...like..each other?" XingMei uttered the question so softly it was barely audible.
Syaoran glanced at his girlfriend and then quickly looked away. After a moment of silence he nodded, "Guess you could say that."
XingMei started swinging her legs. "Do you...still like her now?"
Syaoran was silent as he quickly stood up. "Come on, class is going to start soon." And he began walking towards the school building.
XingMei watched him slowly going farther and farther. Do you? Her mind thought.
"Go Shoshiko Aki!!! Go go go Shoshiko-chan!!"
"Go XingMei Chi!! Go Mei!!!!!!"
The crowd of people cheered loudly as they watched the swimming competition take place. They were having a race against all the different homerooms, girls and boys. Right now, it was the Gr.12 girls that were racing and the tention was thick in the air.
Sakura sat crossed legged on the grass watching the race go on from a distance. Before she had been elected to race for her homeroom, but she wasn't in the mood so Aki replaced her.
I hope XingMei wins... Sakura thought as she stiffled a yawn.
Kimi sat beside her watching the race intently. "Hey XingMei's winning!"
"Sugoi!!" Sakura exclaimed.
Kimi agreed, "That Aki slut doesn't deserve to win."
"Well said," Sakura laughed.
"Hey Sakura-chan."
Sakura looked over her shoulder and saw Syaoran. "Hey."
"Who do you want to win?"
"XingMei of course," Sakura answered as Syaoran crouched down beside her.
Syaoran nodded, "Same here."
Sakura gave him a side ways glance and quickly looked back at the swimming pool. Of course you want XingMei to win...she's your girlfriend!! ...Why do I feel weird?
"YAY XINGMEI!!!!!!!"
"SUGOI!!!!!!"
XingMei stepped out of the pool with a bright smile on her face. Someone handed her towel just as the rest of the contestants quickly got out of the pool.
Aki walked by XingMei with a hateful look on her face. "Don't think you're so good little chinese girl. I was just playing easy because I thought you weren't worth my time."
XingMei narrowed her eyes as Aki walked away. She lifted one hand and flicked her wrist towards the right. Suddenly Aki tripped on her right foot and onto the cement ground.
"Ow!!" She cried out in pain as she quickly stood up.
XingMei smirked and laughed loud enough for Aki to hear. "Oh looks like little baby Aki hasn't learned how to walk properly yet."
Aki turned around quickly, fire in her eyes. "You little bitch!!"
XingMei shrugged and walked towards where Syaoran, Sakura, and Kimi sat. "You were great." Syaoran commented bluntly.
Sakura just blinked and stared at XingMei. It was the first time that she sensed an aura around the girl, a strong orange aura.
XingMei's smile slowly faded. Why is Xiaolang always around the card mistress...
"Xiaolang..." XingMei said softly. "You do don't you?" And then she left in a hurry.
Sakura looked confused, "You do what Syaoran?"
"Uh....nothing," Syaoran quickly got up and ran after XingMei.
Kimi watched the scene thoughtfully as she got up. "I'm going to go to the bathroom ok?"
"Ok," Sakura replied.
Kimi walked off and quickly sat behind a tree. She took out a cell phone and dialed a number quickly.
"Moshi moshi, Aki speaking."
"Hey Aki-chan?"
"Kimi? How's it going?"
Kimi smiled, "Nothing really interesting, but I do find that our Mr. Li Syaoran seems a bit...interested in Kinomoto."
"Interested?!"
"Like...hangs around her alot," Kimi explained.
"Interesting! I never would've thought..." Came Aki's excited voice.
Kimi giggled, "Yeah, but to bad for Kinomoto. Li's already got XingMei. But XingMei just ran off."
"Ran off? ...I sense a little bit of jealousy," Aki laughed over the cell phone. "Well, keep up the good work."
"Ok, toodles." Kimi hung up quickly and walked slowly to the washroom.
"XingMei!!!"
XingMei ignored Syaoran's calls and continued walking to no where. Finally Syaoran caught up to her and grabbed her wrist quickly. "XingMei! What's wrong?!"
She turned around with a deep frown on her face. "What's wrong?! You know what's wrong!!"
Syaoran's face seemed confused.
XingMei flung her hand out of Syaoran's. "You like Kinomoto Sakura don't you?!"
"...I...I don't!" Syaoran replied. I don't like Sakura...I use to...but now...I...I don't? ...I..don't know...
XingMei stared at him hard. "Then why are you always around her? Scared to hurt her? We're not here to win her friendship or something, we're here to get the cards!!"
"I know that!"
"Are we're not here to fall in love either!!" XingMei finished loudly.
Syaoran sighed, "I'm not!!"
"Li Syaoran stop lying! I can tell in your eyes that you are unsure of yourself," XingMei said in a softer voice. "I know for a fact that you never loved me ok? I know that...but ever since we got here to Tomoeda, you seemed to care for me so much more."
Syaoran listened quietly.
"And I thought...maybe you were beginning to like me," XingMei's eyes watered. "But then, now Kinomoto appears, and I can tell that maybe what I thought was wrong. Maybe you were just all nice to me all of a sudden just because...because you found out Kinomoto had a boyfriend. So you were heartbroken huh?" XingMei spat. "So then, you decide to be all nice to me right?!"
Syaoran's eyes went wide. He didn't know how to react.
"Right?!" XingMei repeated then a large tear rolled down her cheek as she lowered her voice. "I'm sorry...I overreacted." And she slowly walked away.
Do I like her? ...XingMei's right, I'm unsure of myself. I really don't know...when I say I don't like her...I feel like...I'm lying to myself...but if I do accept the fact I like her...I feel like I'm lying to myself too. Then what is this I'm feeling? Syaoran ran one hand through his tangled mass of hair and dropped back onto his green sheeted bed.
Maybe I just like her as a friend...a really really really good friend...yeah...that's right...that must be right. Syaoran thought deperately. But I don't love XingMei either...I love nobody!! I shouldn't be worrying about this stuff now...I have to get the cards back...or the elders will disapprove...
Syaoran sat up cross legged and closed his eyes tiredly, but at the back of his head he could hear a little voice repeating...
Or I'm I in denial?
Sakura spun around on her desk chair, not in the mood of finishing her assignment. Kero sat on her bed with a curious expression on his little round face.
"Hey Sakura, you seem awfully happy today?"
"I don't know Kero-chan!! I just am!!" Sakura spun around again.
Kero sweatdropped, "So how's school now? The Aki girl still being a bum?"
"Well yah, but I have a friend named Kimi and she's pretty nice..." Sakura smiled. "And Syaoran..."
A stress mark appeared on Kero's forehead. "The GAKI?!"
"...Uh yeah Kero...calm down..."
"OH DARN IT!!" Kero screamed. "I thought we were rid of the chinese gaki for good!!"
Sakura sweatdropped.
"NOOOOO!! THE RETURN OF THE CHINESE GAKI!!"
Sakura stared at Kero dot eyed and Kero quickly calmed himself. "Oops, sorry Sakura."
"Uh...it's ok...but next time you go into that crazy mood of yours, warn me," Sakura said with one eyebrow lifted as she quickly spun her chair around to face the right way.
Sakura picked up her pen, one hand under her chin. She couldn't concentrate as her mind begun to float away, and suddenly the past few weeks just replayed in her mind all over again.
If it wasn't for Syaoran...I don't think I would've been able to stay strong...Sakura thought with faint pink cheeks.
Arigatou...Li Syaoran...
"HOEEEEEEEEEEE I'm LATE!!" Sakura jumped into a pair of tight jeans quickly as she combed out her hair with one hand and the other hand was busily stuffing her books into her bag.
Kero stared at her with amusement. "I thought you use to not care about being late anymore."
"Na uh, no more lateness for me," Sakura darted out the door and down the stairs. "Sayonara otou-san, onii-chan!!"
"The kaijuu seems so awfully happy now," Touya grunted.
Fujitaka smiled, "That's good, but she forgot to eat her breakfast."
"Ah, she'll survive," Touya shrugged.
Sakura ran quickly down the streets and around the corner...
"Oof!!"
"Ouch!!"
"Gomen nasai!!" Sakura quickly apologized as she got up and dusted off her pants. She lifted her emerald eyes and met a pair of warm amber eyes.
"Sakura!"
"Syaoran!"
The two turned pink and quickly looked away. "Gomen nasai," Syaoran apologized.
"It's ok," Sakura quickly replied and begun to walk again, followed by Syaoran.
"I didn't know you took this route to school," Sakura pointed out.
Syaoran shrugged, "I didn't know either."
"Uh...where's XingMei?"
"She was gone early in the morning," Syaoran explained. "My alarm clock messed up, that's why I'm kinda late."
"Hey yeah...we're kinda late!!" Sakura broke into a run and Syaoran chuckled and followed.
"Hey little chinese girl."
"Stop calling me that," XingMei grunted.
Aki shrugged, "Well...I see your boyfriend's been hanging around Kinomoto alot neh?"
XingMei rolled her eyes, "That's none of your business."
"Well...being the wonderful person I am, I thought maybe I could give you a few pointers?" Aki suggested.
XingMei smirked, "No thanks. I rather go ask a pig for help."
Aki narrowed her eyes, "Don't piss me off Chi XingMei. I thought maybe we could've made a deal, and get rid of that Kinomoto girl around your boyfriend." Aki turned to leave. "If you change your mind, call me."
XingMei grunted then turned around to see Syaoran and Sakura burst into the hallway together. She turned away quickly and proceeded down the hallways.
AN: Oh no, hopefully XingMei won't fall for Aki's trick :S Yep, Syaoran and Sakura are good friends now :) Kimi...well...we'll just see about that...thanks for reading my fic so far! Oh by the way, Tomoyo and Eriol will be coming back soon :)