Print My Heart Chapter Four- Print My Tears
Written by: Wa Edited & Revised by: Ai
Rika woke up in her bedroom on the next day. Then Renamon appeared in front of her room's wall. Rika sat up and looked at her digimon, she remembered what happened last night, Ryo pushed her into the entrance of the vortex to the real world and..... she was having a headache.
Memories….are always….grey….
"Where's Ryo......" Rika asked almost in a whisper, but she new the answer already. He was not here he was still in the digital world, suffering from the virus.
"We need to save Ryo from the virus....Renamon we must go back." Rika said, turning to Renamon.
"Rika it's too dangerous to go back now, I can't let you go back. Besides you just came back, don't you care about your mother? She is worried, she was crying last night when I carried you back....." Renamon said.
"But what about Ryo? I promised that I would go back and save him. I promised that we would leave with him together. But....." Rika said as she remembered when Ryo pushed her away.
Why didn't he let me stay with him? Why didn't he let me help him?
"Why Renamon.....? He didn't he let me be with him? I'm not weak.... I'm able to take care of myself in the digital world..no one can hurt me there, so why didn't he let me stay and help?" Rika asked with anger but feeling powerless that she couldn't go and find Ryo.
"He doesn't think that you are weak, Rika. He cares about you, just like you care about him. That's why he doesn't want you go and get hurt. Even if you are not hurt in the fight, he will still be worried." Renamon said.
"Then why didn't he just tell me, why did he push me away...that hurts, Renamon..." Rika said with tears blurring her vision as she remembered now empty she felt after Ryo pushed her away. It was not the push that hurts, it was the 'why you push me' that hurt her. They both like each other, and yet he had to act harsh on her to make her safe.
After that push...I felt empty inside...it was as if…I've lost everything. I can't grab on anything to stay. Rika thought as she remember she held out her hand asking Ryo to pull her back, but all she saw was him staring at her as the vortex keep pulling her inside. She eyes asked him why, but he just stare back till the vortex disappeared in the thin air.
".............I'm sure that Cyberdramon and Ryo will find a way to get out. You recognized that they are not dumb, right Rika?" Renamon asked.
"Of course I know that Ryo is tough...I'm just worried...." Rika said held her head down.
Doesn't everybody think that she is that stubborn? Of course she knows that Ryo is better than her, she just doesn't want to show it. She is jealous of him sometimes, and that jealousy has turned into admiration and love.
"I understand Rika." Renamon said and she disappeared as Rika's mom entered her room.
Rika looked up at her mother who was now dressed up ready for her daily pictures for magazines.
"Mom...?" Rika asked, in a questioning look. Her mother didn't usually go see her before she goes to work.
"Oh my darling, Rika! I'm so glad that you are okay. I was so afraid, and so worried. Don't ever leave again, before telling me." Mrs. Makino cried on her daughter's shoulder.
Rika tried to concentrate on her school works that she has been leaving out, but wherever she goes, it reminds her of Ryo. And then she saw on the Internet an ad pink, white and red heart shapes everywhere.
Oh yeah....I almost forgot that tomorrow is valentine's day..
I need to get out of myself.....I miss you Ryo, you said that you are going to come back, but where are you right now?
Then she stared at the computer....even now the screen makes her think of Ryo. He was in the digital world, as if he was in her computer. Because in the digital world, Ryo was a data.......
Then she remembered one time when Ryo told her to forget about him and ran.
Tell me how can I forget you Ryo? If I already saved you in my Memory. Rika thought.
As she was surfing around she accidentally clicked the button 'Print'.
"Oh brother....." Then she stood up from the tatami mat and walked over to the printer. She was going to take the paper out, but suddenly she stopped and just stared at the paper. The printer was printing one of the heart-shaped from the ads.
Then she remembered a time when Jeri asked about her heart shape shirt. She told her that it was just a design. But the truth is that it is the only way she can express her feelings towards the people around her.
To show my feelings....this is just a print out. How can you print the shape of my heart? He doesn't even know how much I miss him. This heart shape expresses nothing, tell me how I can print my tears.
Love is the real virus that I can't escape from....Ryo.
Today is Valentine's day, but it was snowing. She walked down the street as she used to, wearing her school uniform. She had just been let out of school, on her way going home. As a pair of couples past by her, she felt the loneliness around her.
Ryo..................when are you going to come back......
She missed his smiles and missed when he made faces at her.
She stopped walking as she felt a figure standing in front of her, she looked up slowly, examining the figure. It has a guy wearing a green baggy cargo pants, a red turtleneck sweater, and a blue coat. It was.......
...............Ryo.......
"Rika!" Ryo ran towards her.
Rika was surprised.
Could it be him? Is it really him? Ryo!!! Rika was speechless.
"Why are you wearing so little clothes? Here take my coat. And your hands are freezing too." Ryo said and took off his coat and wrapped it around Rika's shoulder.
Rika just stared at him, not believing her eyes.
He's really come back.......it's not a dream. He didn't lie to me....
This is the first time that someone kept their promise to Rika. She remembered when she was little...that time when her father had to leave, he said that he would come back...that he was just going shopping. He would come back and play with her, but that promise slowly becomes a lie.
"Ryo....you come back." Rika said, still staring at him.
But Ryo ignored what she said, he took Rika's hand and started warming up her hand with his. He didn't say a word, just like what he did last time when he wiped the spit off her shoes that night.
"Why....? Why are you so late!!" Rika shouted as she punched Ryo in the face.
"Ouch! Rika! You still have such a temper?" Ryo said with an uneasy look on his face but he was also smiling.
Rika's angry face melt to a smile she couldn't help it but cry. Ryo's smile disappeared, and he wore a serious expression appear on his face. He hugged Rika. She was still crying, at first she was planning to act cold on him but she was too happy, angry, sad and......too much emotions piling up and falling down at the same time.
"Yes, Rika, I've come back." Ryo said, hiding his face in Rika's shoulder.
"Ryo, I've missed you." Rika said and starting to punch him again, but this time she didn't use strength to punch him.
Ryo caught her hand and held it tight. And before Rika could react, he kissed her. As his head touched her forehead. He could feel the heat from her's.
"Rika, your forehead is burning hot.....and you body is freezing cold." Ryo said worriedly.
"I think I got a cold..I was having a headache since yesterday." Rika said holding her forehead.
"I'll bring you home...her." Ryo turned around and kneeled down a little bit.
"What are you doing? Ryo?" Rika asked, confused with Ryo.
"Come on, I'll carry you home." Ryo said, waved her to come.
"No! That's too embarrassing." Rika refused to climb on Ryo's back.
"If you don't come, I'm going to carry you the other way."
"Just come, Rika." Ryo persuaded again.
So Rika slowly put her arms around Ryo's neck, and lay herself on Ryo's back.
"Ok, Rika! Here we go!" Ryo suddenly stood up.
"Ahh! Ryo don't move so suddenly!" Rika said.
"Don't worry Rika! You won't fall down! You are not that heavy, so I can carry. Besides I got muscles!" Ryo smiled.
"Stop saying stupid things. I look ridiculous.." Rika said hiding herself in his back, as they walk on the street.
"Don't worry my Queen. They only laugh at the King first..."
"Stop playing." Rika smiled.
"So, how did you come back Ryo?" Rika asked.
"Cyberdramon and Renamon helped me out, they went to a Data stream with me, we traveled through a bunch of them and then we finally get back here.."
"Renamon......?" Rika asked.
Renamon...did lie to me....she really did it.....oh thank you so much Renomon.
"But what about the virus?" Rika asked.
"After I got back to the real world, I wasn't a data anymore, so the virus didn't affect me anymore." Ryo said.
"What about the virus in the digital world?" Rika asked.
"Let's call Takato and the others to go to the digital world again and solve the problem." Ryo suggested.
"Goggle head?" Rika asked with a little frown on her face.
"Rika we can not solve this problem on our own, we need their help." Ryo said with a serious look on his face.
"................" Rika stared at him.
"But don't worry, because I will protect you." Ryo smiled cheerfully.
Rika smiled back at him for the first time. She used to hate it when people say this to her, but now, she was happy that Ryo said it to her.
"Let's go then!" Rika said.
They walked back together hand in hand.
This might be the end....or just the beginning of Tamers.
Author Notes: Hello I'm Wa, I usually just draw fanarts of Ryo and Rika, this is my first time writing a digimon fanfic, so I apologize if this is weird. And I know, it's really confusing at the part where Rika thought about 'Print My Heart' Actually this is a song name from the ground 4inLove. And first, when I showed this fanfic to my frd, she thought that Print My Heart was related to the broken heart on Rika's shirt. But, actually, I didn't think about it while I was writing it. But that's alright, because it make sense too. As for the meaning of Print My Heart, it's just another way of saying that, no body can understand how Rika felt at that moment. So nobody can print the shape of her broken heart or print the tears out. Another meaning of the title is, like Ryo printed in Rika's heart. If you feel you have another verison that you wanted to tell me, please do email me! Here's my email address! Aiwafi@yahoo.ca
I need to thank my sister(good good frd) Ai for editing this fanfiction, although she is not familiar of digimon(neither am I) I'm really happy that you read my fanfiction! I hope that all of you enjoyed it, if you have any comments to make you can email me! Ja ne!
Wa~