Disclaimer: I don't own the Gilmore Girls, etc. etc., don't sue, it'll just
be a waste of time on your part.
A/N: Thank you very much to everyone who reviewed. I hope you're enjoying the story.
And on a personal note I'm going to tell you three things going on in my life, because my computer won't connect to the web, because it hates me, and because I'm too lazy to pick up the phone and I want to talk to someone. So if you don't give a damn, which is fine with me, just keep scrolling.
It is too damn hot, and the air conditioner is broken, and my hot guys with great bodies, and big fans, and peach ice tea aren't appearing.
I have the stupid SAT's on Saturday…grrr….
I HATE PHYSICS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, that's all, thanks for reading. (
Chapter 6 – Choices
Rory walked toward the bridge on the dark, moonless night. She couldn't believe she was here. She saw a red ember glowing in the dark, and the shadowed figure, which held it. She sat down.
"Hey."
"Hey." she answered.
They sat in silence, each alone with their own thoughts, but still together.
Suddenly Rory's voice broke through the dark.
"Jess, do you think I'm a bad person?"
Jess thought silently for a moment.
"The way I see it, very, very few people are good or bad. No one's Jekell or Hyde – they're both in you."
What Jess didn't say is that of all the people he knew, Rory had the least bad in her, and the most good. She was so innocent, naïve, but not in a bad way. He didn't want to change that, but after being with him, seeing him, would it change her? He hoped not.
" Maybe, not all decisions you make are good, but are they bad? Is it a bad decision to be here with me, Rory? I know two people who would say yes. But it's not up to them is it? It's up to you, so what do you think?"
"I can't answer that yet. I wanted to come, Jess, but I don't think I should be here. Everything tells me it's a bad decision."
"So, why are you here?"
"Because of the one little nagging 'What if.' You never can tell when a moment will come up that'll change your life. I don't want to miss one."
"Well, Rory Gilmore, I do believe this is a first in our relationship."
"Why, because I'm going against everything and everyone I know to be with you." Rory remarked cynically.
"No, you did that in New York. This is our first conversation without sarcasm."
"You ruined it now." Rory said with half a smile.
"I guess I did" he chuckled.
He took Rory's hand and held it in his lap.
"I want to be with you, not just physically, although that'd be nice, but you know, just with you. But, I want you to be happy, and you're not going to be happy sneaking around behind peoples' backs. Or maybe, I'm jumping the gun, maybe you still want to be with Dean?" Jess asked with his fingers crossed anticipating the answer.
"No, I guess I don't. I mean, I know I don't. Everything's just so easy with Dean. I mean we argue, but nothing big, nothing worthy of talking about…except you. With you nothing will be easy. Nothing will be simple, and I'm just not sure I'm ready for that."
"I can't answer that for you, Rory. All I can tell you is what I want, which is you."
They sat in silence once again.
Rory took her hand from Jess's lap and slowly raised it to his jaw. She slowly, hesitantly traced his jawbone with a butterfly light touch. He loved the uncertainty he felt in her touch. He leaned over and gently pressed his mouth to her throat. And then moved slowly up her neck and jawbone. His mouth roamed up and he gently, gently bit her earlobe, just so it tickled.
"What are you doing?" Rory whispered.
"Kissing you." Jess chuckled.
Those lines were starting to sound familiar.
Just as Jess was going for her mouth, Rory stood up.
"I'm sorry, I have to go." Rory whispered, her voice cracking.
She turned and started to walk away.
"Wait, Rory! Please, I'm sorry." Jess yelled after her. "Rory, please, don't go." Jess said in a tone unfamiliar even to his own ears, for it almost sounded, as if he, Jess, were pleading, begging.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Rory repeated helplessly.
And she left. Leaving Jess alone. On a moonless light. The light was gone.
* * * * *
"Lane, come on." Rory whined half to herself, as she flung the last small rock she had against the window.
The window gently opened.
"Rory, Is that you?" Lane whispered. "Meet me at the backdoor in one second."
Lane in fuzzy pink bunny slippers held the door open for Rory.
"Shhh…We don't want to wake my mom." Lane hushed as the creaked up the stairs.
"Okay, What's up?" Lane asked as they reached her room.
"Oh, Lane, I'm such a mess." Rory sobbed.
Lane pulled her into a huge hug, the hug only a true friend can give. One of those hugs, that no matter what's happening, you know everything will be all right in the end.
"I kissed Jess." Rory blurted out.
"What!?"
"And I just met him at the bridge and almost did it again."
"Whoa, one thing at a time, when was the first kiss?"
"This afternoon."
"And then you met him again? Wow! Does Dean know?"
"No" Rory was so quiet she could hardly hear herself.
"Does your mom know?"
"No" Rory answered even more meekly.
"Wow"
"Okay, Okay, enough with the wows."
"I'm sorry, it's just…wow." Lane said in awe.
"Lane, you're not helping." Rory whined.
"Okay, sorry. Rory, you're going to tell Dean, I know you and you couldn't live with yourself if you didn't. The real question is who do you pick—Dean or Jess? I mean, Dean will be mad, but you know if you beg he'll forgive you."
"So, what should I do?"
"I think that's your decision, I can't make it for you. Neither, can your mother, Rory. There's no doubt whose more exciting, but…Dean, he'll never hurt you, he's too whipped. One thing Jess will never be." Lane concluded. "Why are your decisions always so much more exciting than what Korean- soon to be doctor to bring to the family dinner." Lane sighed.
"Ahhh…. count your blessings." Rory said almost smiling.
The girls leaned against the bed each with thoughts of Rory's predicament until they drifted to sleep.
A/N: Thank you very much to everyone who reviewed. I hope you're enjoying the story.
And on a personal note I'm going to tell you three things going on in my life, because my computer won't connect to the web, because it hates me, and because I'm too lazy to pick up the phone and I want to talk to someone. So if you don't give a damn, which is fine with me, just keep scrolling.
It is too damn hot, and the air conditioner is broken, and my hot guys with great bodies, and big fans, and peach ice tea aren't appearing.
I have the stupid SAT's on Saturday…grrr….
I HATE PHYSICS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, that's all, thanks for reading. (
Chapter 6 – Choices
Rory walked toward the bridge on the dark, moonless night. She couldn't believe she was here. She saw a red ember glowing in the dark, and the shadowed figure, which held it. She sat down.
"Hey."
"Hey." she answered.
They sat in silence, each alone with their own thoughts, but still together.
Suddenly Rory's voice broke through the dark.
"Jess, do you think I'm a bad person?"
Jess thought silently for a moment.
"The way I see it, very, very few people are good or bad. No one's Jekell or Hyde – they're both in you."
What Jess didn't say is that of all the people he knew, Rory had the least bad in her, and the most good. She was so innocent, naïve, but not in a bad way. He didn't want to change that, but after being with him, seeing him, would it change her? He hoped not.
" Maybe, not all decisions you make are good, but are they bad? Is it a bad decision to be here with me, Rory? I know two people who would say yes. But it's not up to them is it? It's up to you, so what do you think?"
"I can't answer that yet. I wanted to come, Jess, but I don't think I should be here. Everything tells me it's a bad decision."
"So, why are you here?"
"Because of the one little nagging 'What if.' You never can tell when a moment will come up that'll change your life. I don't want to miss one."
"Well, Rory Gilmore, I do believe this is a first in our relationship."
"Why, because I'm going against everything and everyone I know to be with you." Rory remarked cynically.
"No, you did that in New York. This is our first conversation without sarcasm."
"You ruined it now." Rory said with half a smile.
"I guess I did" he chuckled.
He took Rory's hand and held it in his lap.
"I want to be with you, not just physically, although that'd be nice, but you know, just with you. But, I want you to be happy, and you're not going to be happy sneaking around behind peoples' backs. Or maybe, I'm jumping the gun, maybe you still want to be with Dean?" Jess asked with his fingers crossed anticipating the answer.
"No, I guess I don't. I mean, I know I don't. Everything's just so easy with Dean. I mean we argue, but nothing big, nothing worthy of talking about…except you. With you nothing will be easy. Nothing will be simple, and I'm just not sure I'm ready for that."
"I can't answer that for you, Rory. All I can tell you is what I want, which is you."
They sat in silence once again.
Rory took her hand from Jess's lap and slowly raised it to his jaw. She slowly, hesitantly traced his jawbone with a butterfly light touch. He loved the uncertainty he felt in her touch. He leaned over and gently pressed his mouth to her throat. And then moved slowly up her neck and jawbone. His mouth roamed up and he gently, gently bit her earlobe, just so it tickled.
"What are you doing?" Rory whispered.
"Kissing you." Jess chuckled.
Those lines were starting to sound familiar.
Just as Jess was going for her mouth, Rory stood up.
"I'm sorry, I have to go." Rory whispered, her voice cracking.
She turned and started to walk away.
"Wait, Rory! Please, I'm sorry." Jess yelled after her. "Rory, please, don't go." Jess said in a tone unfamiliar even to his own ears, for it almost sounded, as if he, Jess, were pleading, begging.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Rory repeated helplessly.
And she left. Leaving Jess alone. On a moonless light. The light was gone.
* * * * *
"Lane, come on." Rory whined half to herself, as she flung the last small rock she had against the window.
The window gently opened.
"Rory, Is that you?" Lane whispered. "Meet me at the backdoor in one second."
Lane in fuzzy pink bunny slippers held the door open for Rory.
"Shhh…We don't want to wake my mom." Lane hushed as the creaked up the stairs.
"Okay, What's up?" Lane asked as they reached her room.
"Oh, Lane, I'm such a mess." Rory sobbed.
Lane pulled her into a huge hug, the hug only a true friend can give. One of those hugs, that no matter what's happening, you know everything will be all right in the end.
"I kissed Jess." Rory blurted out.
"What!?"
"And I just met him at the bridge and almost did it again."
"Whoa, one thing at a time, when was the first kiss?"
"This afternoon."
"And then you met him again? Wow! Does Dean know?"
"No" Rory was so quiet she could hardly hear herself.
"Does your mom know?"
"No" Rory answered even more meekly.
"Wow"
"Okay, Okay, enough with the wows."
"I'm sorry, it's just…wow." Lane said in awe.
"Lane, you're not helping." Rory whined.
"Okay, sorry. Rory, you're going to tell Dean, I know you and you couldn't live with yourself if you didn't. The real question is who do you pick—Dean or Jess? I mean, Dean will be mad, but you know if you beg he'll forgive you."
"So, what should I do?"
"I think that's your decision, I can't make it for you. Neither, can your mother, Rory. There's no doubt whose more exciting, but…Dean, he'll never hurt you, he's too whipped. One thing Jess will never be." Lane concluded. "Why are your decisions always so much more exciting than what Korean- soon to be doctor to bring to the family dinner." Lane sighed.
"Ahhh…. count your blessings." Rory said almost smiling.
The girls leaned against the bed each with thoughts of Rory's predicament until they drifted to sleep.