Amelia: I Saw You
by Lady Cailin
I know this one isn't really very Amelia like, but it's meant to be that way. It's based more on my own personal theories of why Amelia and Zelgadis would be good together, as well as the more serious idea of the masks people hide behind to protect their emotions. This one goes along with She'll Never Know a Zelgadis POV fic.
I know you don't understand why I love you. I even know how often you want to sit me down and tell me it isn't real. It's just a crush. You get closer to doing it every day. Every time I look at you and let the affection show in my smile, the admiration come through in my voice, you think to yourself that your cheating me by letting this crush continue. I'm almost waiting for the day you take me away from the others to try and explain why I shouldn't love you. Thats the day I'll be able to show you all the reasons I should. All the reasons I do love you, because I don't think you see them. And I'm. . .I'm scared to say them out loud. Because I know they would scare you too.
You don't mind my crush, because thats all you think it is; a little girl's crush. But if you knew I loved you, really knew how much I care. If you knew the way I see past your stone skin and all the reasons you tell yourself you shouldn't be loved. . .then you wouldn't know how to react. You would be terrified of my love for you. You would be afraid because that would mean someone had looked past your curse and your dark attitude, and seen you for who you really are.
I saw you and I loved you.
You didn't think that was possible. All your life you've found ridicule in the eyes of others, and you trained yourself to blame your bad parts. First your weakness, then your curse. It never occurred to you that someone would love those parts too. If someone could love all of you, then maybe that ridicule was for all of you as well. That is the thought that scares you.
So you hide behind the curse, and blame it for the lack of love in your life. Not that I can blame you. . .I'm hiding too. I'm hiding from the injustice that took my mother in my own white washed world. I'm hiding from the pain, and all those bitter feelings this world has to offer. I'm hiding because I'm scared of you loving me too. I'm afraid that you'll see behind my cheerful smile and find out how badly I want you to love me. How badly I need you to love me. My confidence and my justice. . .they just hide the girl who saw you and is terribly afraid you wont see her. Even if you don't see me. . .even if you look into my eyes and can't see what is behind the mask. . .then I would still love you. I couldn't help loving you now. Maybe at the beginning I had a chance, but once I saw you behind those crystalline eyes. . .I couldn't stop loving you now if my life depended on it. It's all I want, all I'll ever really ask of you. . .just. . .let me love you.
I let you think it's just a crush, because that allows me to be near you. Your ignorance of my true feelings is the only thing that keeps you from crushing them in fear. It lets me give you the love you need, the love you deserve. You do deserve to be loved Zelgadis. You deserve to have a woman who will give you her whole heart. . .and let you see behind her mask. Maybe when you are ready to see my love. . .I'll be ready to show you my soul.
For now I'll just love you, and draw you nearer in doing so. For now I'll help you hide the truth from yourself until your ready to see it. For now. . .
by Lady Cailin
I know this one isn't really very Amelia like, but it's meant to be that way. It's based more on my own personal theories of why Amelia and Zelgadis would be good together, as well as the more serious idea of the masks people hide behind to protect their emotions. This one goes along with She'll Never Know a Zelgadis POV fic.
I know you don't understand why I love you. I even know how often you want to sit me down and tell me it isn't real. It's just a crush. You get closer to doing it every day. Every time I look at you and let the affection show in my smile, the admiration come through in my voice, you think to yourself that your cheating me by letting this crush continue. I'm almost waiting for the day you take me away from the others to try and explain why I shouldn't love you. Thats the day I'll be able to show you all the reasons I should. All the reasons I do love you, because I don't think you see them. And I'm. . .I'm scared to say them out loud. Because I know they would scare you too.
You don't mind my crush, because thats all you think it is; a little girl's crush. But if you knew I loved you, really knew how much I care. If you knew the way I see past your stone skin and all the reasons you tell yourself you shouldn't be loved. . .then you wouldn't know how to react. You would be terrified of my love for you. You would be afraid because that would mean someone had looked past your curse and your dark attitude, and seen you for who you really are.
I saw you and I loved you.
You didn't think that was possible. All your life you've found ridicule in the eyes of others, and you trained yourself to blame your bad parts. First your weakness, then your curse. It never occurred to you that someone would love those parts too. If someone could love all of you, then maybe that ridicule was for all of you as well. That is the thought that scares you.
So you hide behind the curse, and blame it for the lack of love in your life. Not that I can blame you. . .I'm hiding too. I'm hiding from the injustice that took my mother in my own white washed world. I'm hiding from the pain, and all those bitter feelings this world has to offer. I'm hiding because I'm scared of you loving me too. I'm afraid that you'll see behind my cheerful smile and find out how badly I want you to love me. How badly I need you to love me. My confidence and my justice. . .they just hide the girl who saw you and is terribly afraid you wont see her. Even if you don't see me. . .even if you look into my eyes and can't see what is behind the mask. . .then I would still love you. I couldn't help loving you now. Maybe at the beginning I had a chance, but once I saw you behind those crystalline eyes. . .I couldn't stop loving you now if my life depended on it. It's all I want, all I'll ever really ask of you. . .just. . .let me love you.
I let you think it's just a crush, because that allows me to be near you. Your ignorance of my true feelings is the only thing that keeps you from crushing them in fear. It lets me give you the love you need, the love you deserve. You do deserve to be loved Zelgadis. You deserve to have a woman who will give you her whole heart. . .and let you see behind her mask. Maybe when you are ready to see my love. . .I'll be ready to show you my soul.
For now I'll just love you, and draw you nearer in doing so. For now I'll help you hide the truth from yourself until your ready to see it. For now. . .