End-January-June
January 26, 1984, 6:15 pm.
The doctor called my house ate 6:00 with the results! The test was
positive. What am I going to do now? My parents didn't trust me
anyway. What are they going to think? How am I going to tell Chris?
This can't be happening to me! I won't be able to tell them. I swear,
they'll disown me!
February 27, 1984
All hell broke loose at the house of Richard and Emily Gilmore today.
Today was the day I told them that I was pregnant. Richard just
stared, and Emily, well, she fainted! They told me that I had to
raise the baby to suffer my mistake. I already love this baby. Oh
yeah, Chris moved to California. I've been depressed, and I know it's
not good for me. I knew he'd get scared and run away. I wasn't even
going to ask him for anything.
March 16, 1984
They haven't told anyone yet. I don't know when they ever will. I
don't think they even want me in their house anymore. I should just
leave. But, I can't. It would be better for the baby if I stayed here
at least until he/she is born. For the sake of the baby, that is.
March 29, 1984
Mom actually took me to the doctor today. I can't believe she wanted
to be seen at a Teen Pregnancy Clinic. How odd she must have felt.
The doctor told me that the baby was due around September 29, 1984. I
will probably start looking for a job and an apartment in August.
There is no way I am raising my child the same way that my parents
raised me. NO WAY!!!!
April 11, 1984
I called Chris's parents today, they were very shocked. I actually
called them to see if they knew where Chris was. They did. I called
him. He said he denies the baby, and that I must have cheated on him
with his friend, Jake.
April 30, 1984
I have been making a list of baby names. For a girl, not to be
selfish or anything, I like Lorelai. I also like Allison and Madelyn.
For a boy I have chosen David, Michael, and Matthew. I have no idea
about middle names. I really hate living in this house. My mom is too
selfish to tell anyone about me. I swear one of these days I am just
going to announce to the whole world that I am 15 and having a baby
with a man who no longer wants anything to do with me. That just
might kill her and dad. It makes me fell sad sometimes that I did
this to them. I'm their only child. I don't even think they have told
Grandma Lorelai yet, I'm sure she'll hate me too!
May 8, 1984
I had another doctor's appointment today. They said that I'm healthy
and right on schedule. They said the baby is a little small though. I
hope the little tike is okay! I have my next appointment on June 6.
May 22, 1984
Chris called today. It was very shocking. This is the first time he
has actually called me. Now he actually claims our little New Year's
Eve surprise! I think he just want people to feel sorry for him.
Whatever!!! He can think what he wants. I know this little guy or
girl is his. I am honestly saying he was the only person I did
anything with.
June 6, 1984
The doctor asked me if I wanted to know the sex of the baby. I said
no. But I still might want to find out as the weeks pass. I don't
know. I might just find out at my next appt. July 16. How
appropriate. My 16th birthday. Won't that be a good old time!!! The
baby was surprise enough. I think I will find out if it is a little
boy or a little girl. I think I want it to be a girl. Not being
selfish or anything. I think I know more about little girls than I do
little boys. I always wanted to have a little mother/daughter bond.
Just not this soon in my life.
June 22, 1984
Today was fun! My mom had one of her DAR meetings here, so I had to
hide in my room. I felt like going down there and announcing to the
world that I am 5 months pregnant. But I also know my mom just might
kick me out of the house if I had done that. So, I didn't.
June 28, 1984
It is mom's birthday today. Dad threw her a party. There were only a
few friends there. I again had to be in my room, ALL DAY!!!! They
keep asking where I am! Mom has to tell people sooner or later, or I
will! This is all crap. I know she is ashamed, but they are going to
find out eventually. I know she knows that this baby will eventually
be born into our family, and people will find out, talk, and then
they will get on with their lives. My being pregnant is not going to
be the talk of Hartford forever. People will forget!
January 26, 1984, 6:15 pm.
The doctor called my house ate 6:00 with the results! The test was
positive. What am I going to do now? My parents didn't trust me
anyway. What are they going to think? How am I going to tell Chris?
This can't be happening to me! I won't be able to tell them. I swear,
they'll disown me!
February 27, 1984
All hell broke loose at the house of Richard and Emily Gilmore today.
Today was the day I told them that I was pregnant. Richard just
stared, and Emily, well, she fainted! They told me that I had to
raise the baby to suffer my mistake. I already love this baby. Oh
yeah, Chris moved to California. I've been depressed, and I know it's
not good for me. I knew he'd get scared and run away. I wasn't even
going to ask him for anything.
March 16, 1984
They haven't told anyone yet. I don't know when they ever will. I
don't think they even want me in their house anymore. I should just
leave. But, I can't. It would be better for the baby if I stayed here
at least until he/she is born. For the sake of the baby, that is.
March 29, 1984
Mom actually took me to the doctor today. I can't believe she wanted
to be seen at a Teen Pregnancy Clinic. How odd she must have felt.
The doctor told me that the baby was due around September 29, 1984. I
will probably start looking for a job and an apartment in August.
There is no way I am raising my child the same way that my parents
raised me. NO WAY!!!!
April 11, 1984
I called Chris's parents today, they were very shocked. I actually
called them to see if they knew where Chris was. They did. I called
him. He said he denies the baby, and that I must have cheated on him
with his friend, Jake.
April 30, 1984
I have been making a list of baby names. For a girl, not to be
selfish or anything, I like Lorelai. I also like Allison and Madelyn.
For a boy I have chosen David, Michael, and Matthew. I have no idea
about middle names. I really hate living in this house. My mom is too
selfish to tell anyone about me. I swear one of these days I am just
going to announce to the whole world that I am 15 and having a baby
with a man who no longer wants anything to do with me. That just
might kill her and dad. It makes me fell sad sometimes that I did
this to them. I'm their only child. I don't even think they have told
Grandma Lorelai yet, I'm sure she'll hate me too!
May 8, 1984
I had another doctor's appointment today. They said that I'm healthy
and right on schedule. They said the baby is a little small though. I
hope the little tike is okay! I have my next appointment on June 6.
May 22, 1984
Chris called today. It was very shocking. This is the first time he
has actually called me. Now he actually claims our little New Year's
Eve surprise! I think he just want people to feel sorry for him.
Whatever!!! He can think what he wants. I know this little guy or
girl is his. I am honestly saying he was the only person I did
anything with.
June 6, 1984
The doctor asked me if I wanted to know the sex of the baby. I said
no. But I still might want to find out as the weeks pass. I don't
know. I might just find out at my next appt. July 16. How
appropriate. My 16th birthday. Won't that be a good old time!!! The
baby was surprise enough. I think I will find out if it is a little
boy or a little girl. I think I want it to be a girl. Not being
selfish or anything. I think I know more about little girls than I do
little boys. I always wanted to have a little mother/daughter bond.
Just not this soon in my life.
June 22, 1984
Today was fun! My mom had one of her DAR meetings here, so I had to
hide in my room. I felt like going down there and announcing to the
world that I am 5 months pregnant. But I also know my mom just might
kick me out of the house if I had done that. So, I didn't.
June 28, 1984
It is mom's birthday today. Dad threw her a party. There were only a
few friends there. I again had to be in my room, ALL DAY!!!! They
keep asking where I am! Mom has to tell people sooner or later, or I
will! This is all crap. I know she is ashamed, but they are going to
find out eventually. I know she knows that this baby will eventually
be born into our family, and people will find out, talk, and then
they will get on with their lives. My being pregnant is not going to
be the talk of Hartford forever. People will forget!