Merry glared at the bottle in his hands, it was fair.

He wanted to go back to before they left; maybe even before they became lovers at least that way he wouldn't have to feel like he was dying even moment of the day just because that silly boy wouldn't look at him.

Angrily Merry took another swig from the bottle and wondered why his parent couldn't have named him something else, he wished so many things but right now he'd settle for hearing Pippin's voice.

"Merry?"

It wasn't Pippin but good enough.

"Roisin, sit down" he waved a hand half-heartedly at one of the chairs, Roisin wrinkled her nose and pried the bottle from his hands.

"Are you drunk?"

"No, maybe………yes" Merry said as the world began to swim in front of his eyes "I think I need to lie down"
Roisin caught him as he toppled off the chair and sighed, she couldn't be full time nurse to Pippin and agony aren't to Merry something needed to change in this house.

She weighed the pros and cons of her idea and finally decided it to be necessary.

She padded down the hallway, Merry's unconscious body in her arms, and into the master bedroom.

She tucked him up tight next to Pippin and, even in sleep, Pippin burrowed into Merry's arms, murmuring his loves name.

Roisin collapsed into her makeshift bed at the side of them hopping this would sort it out.

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Merry woke first and delighted at finding Pippin asleep in his arms, he traced his love's face with his fingertips and shivered in pleasure as Pippin's warm lips brushed against his cheek.

Pippin's eyes fluttered open and for a moment he looked content to stay where he was in Merry's arms but then his eyes clouded with tears and he made a dive for the other side of the bed but Merry grabbed him about the waist and swung him around.

"Pippin! Please don't run away from me"

"Let me go! Let me go"

"Pippin, Pippin love please don't do this" Merry was crying now and his tears dripped on to Pippin's face to mix with his own tears and, trembling, Pippin lifted a hand to wipe them away.

"Merry……." He began voice shaking, but Merry silenced him.
"your so beautiful Pip and I don't care about Neit and what he did to you, well I do, I want to hunt the basted down and kill him with my bare hands but your not to blame, your not a fault. I love you so much Pippin" Merry rambled, pleading at Pippin to love him back.

" I couldn't fight him and….." even as he spoke Pippin knew he was weakening, he didn't protest when Merry hugged him and kissed his hair.

"I know sweetheart, it doesn't matter anymore we have each other and you are safe that's what matters, what's always mattered"

"I love you Merry" Pippin whispered one hand finding his lovers and entwining fingers.

"I love you too Pippin" Merry blushed sly unsure of what to do next, Pippin surprised him by leaning up and kissing him softly.

They talked for a while longer, about anything and everything on middle-earth and feel asleep in each other's arms.

Things looked much better.

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Neit lifted his head to look at the jailer who'd brought him his meal, he judged the mans build and height.

It was an easy way to escape, he'd done it millions of times before.

The jailer died instantly and Neit, after taking the mans clothes was free to walk right out of the prison.

He stood in the middle of the street letting the sun wash across his scared face.

He was going to get revenge on those who'd had imprisoned him and when he was done that judge was going to wishes he'd sentenced death.

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to excited to write much or well!