:::Averman's POV:::
"Hey, hey hey!" I yelled. "That's off sides, Brendon, take it out." I sighed. These kids were bad. I kind of felt Coach Bombay's pain as I thought back to the days of district five...but those days were long gone, and we had moved on the the days of Eden Hall, sure we were good, and we were still a great team, but this was summer after all, and here I was, spending the whole time `coaching'. Coach would be proud....
After the hockey session was over I was on my break, along with Jamie and some other counselors, we all headed down to the other side of the lake to hang out.
"So, how's it going Les?" Jamie asked me.
"Okay, just a little tired." I replied with a sigh.
"Yeah, well, it'll get better, everyone just has to find their nitch, you'll find yours."
I smiled at her, feeling my stomach flutter. "Thanks, Jamie."
She was so beautiful. I wondered if this was the way that Guy felt about Connie.
"What are you thinking about?" She asked with a grin.
"What, why?" I asked.
"You got this funny look on your face all of a sudden." She said, still grinning.
"I was just thinking about these two friends of mine, Guy and Connie." I replied.
"What about them?"
"They are so in love." I started. "They have been ever since they were like, five. It's the coolest thing in the world, I mean, even though they fight and break up for a while, you know that they are going to work it out because they love each other. I was just kind of thinking what it would be like to feel that way."
"You've never been in love before?" She asked.
I shook my head. "Not really." Suddenly noticing that Jamie was the first girl that I had really been able to talk to about something important, besides school and hockey.
"I find that hard to believe, Les. I mean, your a really great guy. Whenever you find the right girl for you....well- she's just really lucky."
I looked into her eyes for a split second, realizing that I had taken this too far.
"Uh, I think I'd better get back to my cabin." I mumbled looking at my watch.
"Yeah, ugh, I'll see you later." She replied, in a nervous voice.
I couldn't help grinning to myself as I started walking back to my cabin. Was I falling in love with Jamie? Was she falling in love with me? Note to self: Call Guy!
:::Julie's POV:::
I laid on my bed in my room, crying my eyes out. I was so upset, at everything. I was mad that I was here instead of back in Minnesota. I was mad at my friends for not accepting the fact that I had changed this year. I was mad at AJ for what he had wanted to do to me, but mostly I was mad a myself for not letting my family in on my feelings. We had always been so close, but I just didn't know how to be close to them anymore. I wanted to, but I didn't feel like I could. I was realizing more and more that Bangor didn't feel so much like my home anymore. I felt more like I belonged back in Minneapolis. And then there was the feeling that I was being stupid. I had always been a very sensible person, and all of these emotions sneaking up on me were really bothering me.
"Julie?" I heard my mom call from the other side of my door.
"Don't come in, I'm not dressed!" I cried, trying to sound convincing.
"Oh don't be silly, I'm your...mother." She said as she entered the room. I think the sight of me, in a ball on my bed, kind of surprised her. "Julie?" She asked.
"Go away, I can't talk to you." I said through tears.
"Julie, what is it, baby? Don't you remember that you can always come to me for anything?"
I sniffled as I sat up to face her. "I know."
"Then come tell me what's wrong."
I nodded as my mother pulled my into a close hug.
"So?" She asked.
I took a deep breath as I began. "I don't feel like I belong here anymore, mom. I mean, Minneapolis just feels more like home now, you know? And I miss my friends, the team. When I was at school, and we were working together, and seeing each other EVERY day, they were like my family. I really love all the guys, and Connie. God, Connie is my best friend, mom. I miss them all so much....and every body here doesn't want to accept that I've changed. They think that I'm weird or something now, they never thought that before. In Minnesota I felt like I could be myself and nobody cared, it was like....like I was REALLY happy, and not just pretending anymore. But coming back here, just doesn't feel right."
"Julie, I had no idea you felt this way!" Mom exclaimed.
I just looked down, not wanting to look into her concerned eyes. I hated it when her eyes got like that. She was always so over protective.
"I knew that I should have never sent you to that school. Boarding school is a bad idea, I told your father I-"
I sighed. That had been my point exactly. "MOM!" I exclaimed.
"Your NOT listening! Your listening to me but your not hearing me! I ENJOY being in Minnesota, I LIKE Eden Hall, and mom, I LOVE the ducks, all of them. It's coming back here that's so strange. It's like I don't fit in anymore."
"Hunny, I never had that problem. And I guess that's why I didn't want to send you, because it was all so strange to ME. Up till now I've been able to understand everything that you've been through, well except all of the hockey, but- that's okay. I just never wanted to expose you to anything where I couldn't....where I couldn't fully understand and be there for you. But Julie, I promise you that I'm going to be here for you this summer, were going to get through this together."
I nodded. This was as low as I had been in a long time, as far as I was concerned I had hit rock bottom. It could only go up from here.
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"Hey, hey hey!" I yelled. "That's off sides, Brendon, take it out." I sighed. These kids were bad. I kind of felt Coach Bombay's pain as I thought back to the days of district five...but those days were long gone, and we had moved on the the days of Eden Hall, sure we were good, and we were still a great team, but this was summer after all, and here I was, spending the whole time `coaching'. Coach would be proud....
After the hockey session was over I was on my break, along with Jamie and some other counselors, we all headed down to the other side of the lake to hang out.
"So, how's it going Les?" Jamie asked me.
"Okay, just a little tired." I replied with a sigh.
"Yeah, well, it'll get better, everyone just has to find their nitch, you'll find yours."
I smiled at her, feeling my stomach flutter. "Thanks, Jamie."
She was so beautiful. I wondered if this was the way that Guy felt about Connie.
"What are you thinking about?" She asked with a grin.
"What, why?" I asked.
"You got this funny look on your face all of a sudden." She said, still grinning.
"I was just thinking about these two friends of mine, Guy and Connie." I replied.
"What about them?"
"They are so in love." I started. "They have been ever since they were like, five. It's the coolest thing in the world, I mean, even though they fight and break up for a while, you know that they are going to work it out because they love each other. I was just kind of thinking what it would be like to feel that way."
"You've never been in love before?" She asked.
I shook my head. "Not really." Suddenly noticing that Jamie was the first girl that I had really been able to talk to about something important, besides school and hockey.
"I find that hard to believe, Les. I mean, your a really great guy. Whenever you find the right girl for you....well- she's just really lucky."
I looked into her eyes for a split second, realizing that I had taken this too far.
"Uh, I think I'd better get back to my cabin." I mumbled looking at my watch.
"Yeah, ugh, I'll see you later." She replied, in a nervous voice.
I couldn't help grinning to myself as I started walking back to my cabin. Was I falling in love with Jamie? Was she falling in love with me? Note to self: Call Guy!
:::Julie's POV:::
I laid on my bed in my room, crying my eyes out. I was so upset, at everything. I was mad that I was here instead of back in Minnesota. I was mad at my friends for not accepting the fact that I had changed this year. I was mad at AJ for what he had wanted to do to me, but mostly I was mad a myself for not letting my family in on my feelings. We had always been so close, but I just didn't know how to be close to them anymore. I wanted to, but I didn't feel like I could. I was realizing more and more that Bangor didn't feel so much like my home anymore. I felt more like I belonged back in Minneapolis. And then there was the feeling that I was being stupid. I had always been a very sensible person, and all of these emotions sneaking up on me were really bothering me.
"Julie?" I heard my mom call from the other side of my door.
"Don't come in, I'm not dressed!" I cried, trying to sound convincing.
"Oh don't be silly, I'm your...mother." She said as she entered the room. I think the sight of me, in a ball on my bed, kind of surprised her. "Julie?" She asked.
"Go away, I can't talk to you." I said through tears.
"Julie, what is it, baby? Don't you remember that you can always come to me for anything?"
I sniffled as I sat up to face her. "I know."
"Then come tell me what's wrong."
I nodded as my mother pulled my into a close hug.
"So?" She asked.
I took a deep breath as I began. "I don't feel like I belong here anymore, mom. I mean, Minneapolis just feels more like home now, you know? And I miss my friends, the team. When I was at school, and we were working together, and seeing each other EVERY day, they were like my family. I really love all the guys, and Connie. God, Connie is my best friend, mom. I miss them all so much....and every body here doesn't want to accept that I've changed. They think that I'm weird or something now, they never thought that before. In Minnesota I felt like I could be myself and nobody cared, it was like....like I was REALLY happy, and not just pretending anymore. But coming back here, just doesn't feel right."
"Julie, I had no idea you felt this way!" Mom exclaimed.
I just looked down, not wanting to look into her concerned eyes. I hated it when her eyes got like that. She was always so over protective.
"I knew that I should have never sent you to that school. Boarding school is a bad idea, I told your father I-"
I sighed. That had been my point exactly. "MOM!" I exclaimed.
"Your NOT listening! Your listening to me but your not hearing me! I ENJOY being in Minnesota, I LIKE Eden Hall, and mom, I LOVE the ducks, all of them. It's coming back here that's so strange. It's like I don't fit in anymore."
"Hunny, I never had that problem. And I guess that's why I didn't want to send you, because it was all so strange to ME. Up till now I've been able to understand everything that you've been through, well except all of the hockey, but- that's okay. I just never wanted to expose you to anything where I couldn't....where I couldn't fully understand and be there for you. But Julie, I promise you that I'm going to be here for you this summer, were going to get through this together."
I nodded. This was as low as I had been in a long time, as far as I was concerned I had hit rock bottom. It could only go up from here.
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