Okay here's the deal people this fic is going to be dragged slowly from my brain from now on. I This fic has taken my brain hostage and demands to be taken with the utmost seriousness. It's summer now so there might not be much interruption from writing unless I get a job. No wait I WILL get a job need money...need money badly...sigh.

Anyway if you thought things had gotten bad in the last few chapters just wait for what's ahead. You can all thank my Mom for helping me out on what to do.(Yes my Mom knows aaaallll about this fic and even sujested a few lovely options for future chapters. Ain't my Mom great!!:D)I am not going to mention which option I picked either. You'll all find out soon enough. Anyhoo onto the fic!!!

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Takeru yawned, stretched and wondered idly why he felt so great. He was in just about the best mood he'd ever been in. He sat up rubbing the sleep out of his eyes and thought carefully. He'd come home, gone to his room and.... Memory flooded back and suddenly he jumped out of bed eyes wide.

"He let me...I actually....oh my god....oh.....my...god........"

Of course Takeru was shocked but not what most would assume for. He was shocked that his brother had given in. That he'd been allowed to do what he had. Of course he thought about that for about a micro second before hugging himself happily and then skipping down the hallway to the kitchen.(after pulling some clothes on) He slid into a chair at the table and chirped a good morning to his Mother. She turned around and gave him a smile.

"Goodmorning Takeru. Your in a good mood today. Something nice happen at school yesterday?" She asked while turning back to the breakfast she was cooking.

"Yeah, something good happened...."He said dreamily resting his chin on his hand and staring off into space.

His mother smiled and continued cooking. She assumed her son who was now looking several years younger then he was with the silly expression on his face now had a crush or a girlfriend.

"So do I get to meet her?" She asked lightly wondering if it was that charming Hikari Yagami creature she'd met a few times.

"Her?" Takeru asked blinking back into reality.

"I assumed you'd found somebody you liked?" She said forming the statement as more a question.

"Oh. Um.......no....not really. Look I don't want to talk about it okay?" he finished not wanting to lie to his mother but..come on would You tell the truth?

Lucky she just smiled, nodded and served him his breakfast. She sat down in silence and ate with him. Takeru wasn't talking because he was absorbed in reviewing the previous nights events. Something was bugging him though. A nagging little doubt was creeping into his brain and slowly demanding attention.

*Where is he.*

They didn't have school for another hour. Yamato even had an extra half hour because the high school started later. Takeru began to worry. While Yamato had let him he hadn't seemed to enthusiastic about it. Hell he knew he'd been forcing the older boy into the entire thing. Remembering Yamato's previous reactions when he'd kissed him, Takeru knew something was wrong now.

*I have to find him. I can't let this go wrong. If he tells anyone or if I lose him...*

Thanking his mother for breakfast Takeru put away his dishes and grabbing his jacket ran out of the house franticly thinking of where Yamato could have gone.

~~~~~~~~Yamato

(A/N maybe I'll finally get an explanation out of my brain why Yamato slept with Takeru. I've got two options.*grins*Might just pick the bad one.)

Yamato cried himself out onto Koushiro's shoulder. He was vaguely surprised that the short red head had put himself out to help him but wasn't going to question his actions. Just as Koushiro wasn't demanding he tell the younger boy what was wrong. Taichi would have bugged him until he told, Jyou would have said he couldn't help unless he knew....the others had similar stories. Finally he stopped crying and sat back no little embarrassed from being so upset in front of his friend.

"There, feel better now?" Koushiro asked looking very worried.

Yamato nodded his head though it wasn't true. While he wasn't shaking to the bone anymore with the emotions rolling around just beneath the surface, those emotions had been replaced by a listless numbing feel. He didn't look up and instead stared at the comforter of Koushiro's bed and hoped the boy wouldn't press him for answers.

~~~~~~~~Kou-chan

The blonde cried for what seemed for hours while Koushiro held him. He was certainly surprised at the amount of emotion behind Yamato's sobs. He was certain this had to have something to do with either Taichi or Takeru. Only other time he'd seen the older boy this upset was when the two had been hurt or in trouble in the digital world.

When he finally quieted then eventually pulled back, Koushiro hoped he'd be feeling better. No such luck. Sure he said he was fine but the listless way he held his shoulders and the dull shine of his eye told the red head he was simply in shock. Not physical but mental shock. Whatever he was going through was too much and he'd shut down in an attempt to handle it.

This was more then he could handle this early in the morning. Not that he didn't want to try and help his friend but Koushiro needed time to think. Find the best way to help him. He would never mess around with someones emotions without thinking things through first. So glancing at the clock, (it was a school day.) and came to a decision. He turned back to Yamato who was staring listlessly at his bed spread.

"Yamato I have to get to school, so you ju...No Yamato you stay here." he said when Yamato made to get up.

"But school..."

"Your in no shape to go to school. I don't want you breaking down in class. I'll tell the teachers your ill and get your homework okay. No ones going to be home all afternoon so feel free to raid the fridge."

Koushiro paused as a thought ocured to him. He'd been grabbing his books and labtop when he turned back to Yamato who was still sitting on the bed. He frowned slightly pausing at the door.

"Yamato promise me you'll stay here okay?"

Yamato nodded and Koushiro sighed quietly moving out the door. He hoped his blue eyed friend stayed in place. He had a feeling this was something serious and he didn't want a depressed Yamato wandering around with out anyone around to make sure he didn't do anything stupid.

~~~~~~~~~~Yama again.

Sighing as he heard the front door close Yamato laid back on Koushiro's bed, staring at the ceiling. He was glad not to go to school. Things had been distracting enough during the last few days after what had happened he didn't think he could concentrate on school work. Plus Taichi and Sora would notice him acting different and bug him about what happened. That he didn't need at all.

Closing his eyes he decided to try and figure out how everything had turned out so incredibly shity so quickly. He probably should have tried to...do something before last night. Attempt to...to what?He didn't know. Finding out how Takeru felt had been a shock and he hadn't really coped with it yet. He hadn't been able to find one bit of emotional stability the moment his brother first kissed him. He had been thinking clearly for days now. He didn't think at all last night. Or maybe he had thought the right thing.

Takeru had been a mess, Yamato had never seen his brother so upset before. He hadn't quite known what to do. How do you comfort a brother who's in love with you? So he'd kissed him. That had definetly been stupid of him but he hadn't had the heart to slap him out of his hysterics.

Then Takeru had been back to the strange forceful creature he'd been at the concert. Catching Yamato completely off guard and kissing him. He'd pulled back of course, that was the normal thing to do.

Then, then Takeru had stopped him from leaving to sleep in the living room. He'd been shaking like a leaf in the wind again. This time not from shame and despair but lust. Yamato had known of course, he'd known what Takeru was asking for. He hadn't wanted to, the idea frightened and disgusted him. The pleading tone in Takeru's voice is what did it. Somehow Yamato's mind managed to detach itself from the little voice, which had grown in volume, telling him to stop. To not let this happen.

He'd done similar stuff before. Juvenile experimentation with Taichi and he'd managed to ignore the fact that it was Takeru touching him and.....Then it went beyond what he'd experienced before and he'd woken up. The little voice was now screaming at him to get up and stop. To push Takeru away and stop this before anything else happened. But he couldn't Takeru had silenced him and continued as if nothing was wrong.

It had hurt, it still hurt. He'd been ignoring it trying not to think what the dull ache meant. Yamato wished he'd never realised what had been happening and had stayed distanced from the entire experience. As was he was horrified and sickened by what he allowed Takeru to do. He thought he'd known but he hadn't. Now all he wished to do was go back and continue walking back into the living room. To have pushed Takeru away and never had this happen.

Tears stung his eyes and he knew he was going to cry again. At least this time he wasn't crying blindly. He knew why he was crying knew why this hurt so much. With a sob he hung his head letting the tears run down his face.

~~~~~~~~~Take-chan

Takeru slid into a seat at school with a frown. He hadn't been able to find Yamato anywhere and assumed he'd gone to one of his friends places. This was not turning out right at all. He didn't want Yamato to run away from this.

*It wasn't like he Didn't enjoy himself......*

The blonde thought with a small smile for the quick memory that flashed through his mind. Then frowned, he did not want this to be ruined just because of what happened. He'd find Yamato after school and then...they could talk. He was sure things wern't going to become tense. He'd work things out. He wasn't going to lose Yamato. He wouldn't let that happen.

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I know kinda short chapter but I had MAJOR I mean MAJOR writers block. I thought about the damn story just about every day and talked to my Mom and talked to my friends and.....arg!But this chapters done and I'm pretty sure I wont have problems from now on.

(Prays to the laughing mountain gods)

So anyway R&R tell me what you think and all that junk.! Arigato!