Journey to Love 6

Journey to Love, 6

Lily / James

Hello everybody!!!!!! I've been off ffn.net for a loooooooooooong time. How long was it - 2 months? 3 months? Even more, maybe? Anywayz, I'm sorry. :)

I am drop dead busy with school. The past few months have been sooooo demanding. Anywayz, exams are next week and I'm writing a fanfic. Boy, am I crazy. We have a holiday today from school because there's a red rainstorm signal.

Anyway, enjoy this part. I've tried to make it longer, but you know me . . .

Tip: Read this story in a silent place. It's got a lot of emotions in it. Enjoy the experience.

Luv, Green Eyes

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Two hours later, Lily was sitting at the station, waiting for the train to Bern. The wind blew her hair into her eyes as she shivered. She tucked her hair behind her ears and saw James coming with two cups of coffee.

"Two spoons of sugar, three spoons of milk, your coffee!" he announced, slipping into the seat next to her. Lily smiled gratefully. The chilly weather was pretty intimidating, especially when she was sitting next to James Potter, and even more so because he was never serious. This trip was a really big adventure for Lily - she hadn't really "loafed around" as much before as she was now.

It's more fun this way, she thought. I don't want to go back home. Not when I know what's waiting for me. Lily resolved to push all thoughts of her upcoming engagement to the back of her head. This was a time for fun.

"So, who's your current girlfriend?" she asked casually, sipping her coffee.

"Nobody," he replied. Lily stared at him, her green eyes wide open.

"Unbelievable! A guy like YOU? No current girlfriend. Whatever!" she exclaimed.

"Hmm" he said, seeming to think over something in his mind.

"You know Lil, I've had lots of girlfriends. Lots of dates. But I've never really met a girl with whom I've fallen in love," he said, thoughtfully. He sighed. "But I can wait. I'm not in a hurry."

Lily grinned. "Ok," she said, leaning against him. "What kind of a girl would you like?" she asked, in a sisterly way. James ruffled his hair, took a deep breath, and began.

"I want this girl who's independant. You know? Not someone who always agrees with me. Someone who has their own say. The kind of girl, that, when I'm in love with her, I forget everything else. That kind of a girl."

Lily stared. His ideas were alarmingly similar to her dreams. She had dreamed of those kind of guys - caring, warm, loving.

"What about you?" he asked. "Have you ever been in love?"

Lily bit her lip. The conversation was coming dangerously close to her engagement thing.

Suddenly, something cracked inside her. I'm gonna tell him everything, she thought. I don't care, I'm just gonna tell him everything.

She started as he did, with a deep breath. The whole story came pouring out. She showed no signs of emotion as she talked to him. He was silent throughout the whole thing. That comforted Lily. She knew that he was listening to her, understanding her.

"...so, that's it." she finished, looking away into the distance, avoiding his gaze.

"Hmm," he said. Then, he shook his head, his hair all ruffled up. "Damn."

That word comforted Lily, for some reason. It told her everything - it was better than any other consolation.

"Lily" he asked her. "You're going to spend the rest of your life with someone you haven't even seen. Are you happy?"

The last question shook her. Tears stung her eyes, as she leaned against him. For the first time in her life, a major decision was going to be made for her. Something in which she would have no say. Her body started shaking as tears rolled down her eyes. Beside her, James stroked her hair softly, putting two arms around her in a comforting hug. She buried her head on his chest, hugging him hard. A new friendship had been made. One that would last forever.

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The next three weeks flew by amazingly fast. Lily had no idea where the time went. She and James had tons of fun, in fact, she had enjoyed herself as she had never before. Sitting in the train, heading back to London, she stared out of the window, at all the pine trees, looking at the snow falling down in little flakes, some settling on the window pane. Her life was taking a turn that she wasn't ready for. She was too young to be engaged. It shouldn't happen to her. Not to her. Not to her who had big ambitions for her life. She didn't want to be engaged right now.

Opposite her, James was staring. At her. Just the kind of girl I wanted. Ambitious. Independant. A more than good friend. The past few weeks had been like heaven. He got to spend time with her. He got to know her like noone knew her. She told him her deepest secrets, all her ambitions. James felt like he knew her for years and years.

You did know her for years. At Hogwarts, remember? He went off into a tiny flashback, seeing him and her, scared little first years. Then he saw them taking their NEWTs, looking older, responsible, but still with big streaks of mischief. He saw them at their graduation ceremony, as head boy and head girl. He saw them on the Hogwarts Express, leaving behind a place that had given them everything.

He closed his eyes. Lily was with me through my entire life, he realized. No one knows me as well as she does. And vice versa. And James didn't want to let go. He wanted to treasure her forever, love her forever. He wanted her to be his forever. And ever more.

And he knew she felt the same way. Unspoken feelings flitted between them. It was like a whole new way of communication. Through eyes. Their eyes spoke a million words. Their hearts spoke even more than that. They were a perfect pair. Made for each other.

But how could they be together? There were too many odds against them.

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"Bye Sirius! Be good" Lily said, hugging him as he waved and walked away. They were at the London station. Sirius and Remus left. It was only James and her. Alone.

She looked down for a moment, licking her lips. Then she looked up. And she saw it in his eyes. She saw him gazing at her with a powerful feeling written across his eyes. And Lily knew her eyes reflected the same feelings. They had fallen in love. The kind of love that lasts forever.

And for now, their eyes spoke for them. A final hug, a subdued goodbye. Lots of looking back. Lots of final waves. They each turned in a different direction. Perhaps never to meet again.

Perhaps, never to meet again.

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Okie, did you like that part? I'm always open to comments and suggestions in my review box! I love this part - it's got the most feelings. Anyway, I will not be posting the next chapter until the 19th of June. But after that, I'm FREE! Expect lots more chapters to come soon. And don't worry, the story is NOT over. Far from over. I will be BACK!!

Luv, Green Eyes