Dear Diary,
It's four in the morning right now and I can't sleep! Blossom and Buttercup are asleep, I guess all that fighting of theirs made then tiered! It made me tiered too, so why can't I sleep? Octi can't sleep either. I think he can, he's just staying up to keep me company! That's what I like about Octi, he's always there for me! I know he's only a stuffed toy, but at least her doesn't yell at me or hit me!
I know the girls love me, but why do they have to be so mean? I'm just as smart and just as tough as either of them yet they still treat me like a baby! Even my whole 'hardcore' incident hasn't changed that! Sometimes I get so mad that I just wanna yell and hurt them, but I can't. I'm not like them.
Buttercup's too wrapped up in her tough girl act and Blossom's to 'responsible and mature' to see what I see. Neither of them ever takes the time to stop and smell the roses, there both so rushed with their lives! I don't wanna grow up if it means that I'll have to stop seeing things.
I tried to explain it to them but they just told me that I was being silly. I said they were blind and they got mad at me. They then got mad at each other and the Professor had to send them to different rooms! I really hate it when they fight! But they are blind, they can't see the beauty around them. Sometimes they get close to seeing but then something inside of them stops them.
Before bed I was staring up at the stars and Blossom asked me what I saw. I told her that I didn't really see anything, but that I felt everything around me. She joined me and so did Buttercup and we just starred out at the universe together. I could see that they were beginning to see what I saw, but the Professor came in and said it was time for bed. That was eight hours ago.
I really wish it was winter again, and have lots of snow! I like it when it snows! Bad guys don't do bad things when it snows so the four of us can spend more time together! I really like that! And it's cooler in the winter and I don't have to worry about getting cooked alive!
I watched this cooking show and they were cooking crabs. The crabs were still alive when they put them in the boiling water, and they screamed! That was the scariest thing I ever saw, I can still hear them screaming! Nothing should have to die like that! I wish that things didn't have to die. I know they have to, or else everything would be over run, but I still don't like it when things die!
Sometimes I just feel so alone because no one seems to understand me. But I sometimes feel so angry that I wanna break stuff! It scares me when I'm like that! Scary that I know that there's a dark side to me. I think we all have a dark side, but why does mine scare me so much? Maybe I'm afraid that I'll turn into someone like Mojo or Him. I don't want that do happen, I don't wanna hurt people!
Sometimes I'm not so sure about Buttercup though, she's always so angry! I think I can understand why; I think she thinks that nobody understands her either! Blossom can be the same way sometimes too. That's kinda funny in a way. The three of us are sisters yet we don't understand each other! Maybe we do but we won't let ourselves admit it.
I should probably get to bed now, Mojo's probably gonna attack us in the morning. He's such a bad monkey! Can't he let us sleep in just once? And why do the bad guys always have to be so bad, what happiness do they get outta it? I don't understand them, and I hope I never do!
G'night,
Bubbles