Standard disclaimers: you all know them.
Warnings?: Heero's acting OCC
Hatikva Ch.14
Mariemaia stayed with Heero for three weeks. People came and went:
Relena, Duo, Zechs, trowa, Quatre... but she stayed.
His last visitor had been Mrs Noventa and Sylvia. They had stayed
in contact with the Japanese boy, so either Relena or Lady Une must have
informed them of the situation. They talked to Heero, just like
everyone else had done, but the boy wouldn't respond.
After they had left, Mariemaia was about to cry when she felt a
hand on her shoulder.
"Why are you sad?" She heard a female voice.
"Huh?" Mariemaia turned to find a young woman with bright green
eyes and long light brown hair, "Who are you?" She asked warily, "I didn't
hear you come in."
"I didn't came through the door." The woman answered. "My name is
Hatikva, but you know me by another name."
"Hope?" Mariemaia asked, remembering what Quatre had once told her.
"But I don't know you. Why do you say I do?"
"Look in your heart and you'll know." The woman answered with a soft
smile.
Mariemaia glared at the woman. Her clothes certainly reminded her
of something. And the brightness of her eyes... looking into them
Mariemaia realized that it wasn't natural yet it was familiar. The
woman somehow reminder her of Heero and at the same time it reminder
her of... but it couldn't be... it was simply impossible. And still...
"You're Wing ZERO?" Mariemaia asked softly touching the woman's
hand.
"More or less..." The woman answered.
"Are you here because of him?" Mariemaia asked, turning to look at
Heero.
"Yes..." Hatikva said, "I think I might be able to help... but I
need your permission."
"My permission?"
"You're the person closest to him, closer than Relena." Hatikva sat
on the bed, "So I want your permission to go into him, search for him
and convince him to come back." She smiled. "Besides I know Relena
wouldn't allow me to do that."
"I wouldn't allow you either..." Mariemaia said. "If I didn't
believe who you are. Are you sure you can do it?"
"Go in and find him? Yes." Hatikva answered, "But I cannot force
him to come back, or he might become suicidal. I have to convince him...
it has to be his choice..." She put her hands on Mariemaia's shoulders
and looked into her eyes. "The only thing I can promise is that I will
do my best."
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
"And so, here I am," Hatikva said, stroking Heero's hair.
The boy was still shaking from what she had shown him. He could
only remember a couple of things from his re-training, so he hadn't
realized the full extent of what he had done under Dekim's control.
"After what I did, you want me to go back?" He asked softly.
"You were under Dekim's control." Hatikva replied, "They understand
that."
"They won't forgive me." Heero shook his head. "I'm supposed to be
the Perfect Soldier... and yet, I allowed myself to be captured and
brainwashed by Dekim... I could have fought harder than I did... I..."
He stopped when Hatikva slapped him.
"You were programmed to obey Dekim." Hatikva said sharply. Heero
winced at her tone, so she lowered it. "You couldn't have done
anything. You put up as much resistance as you were able to."
Heero pressed his palms against his temple as his head started to
throb. He wondered in the back of his mind, how could he have a
headache if he was in a coma.
"You were never the Perfect Soldier." Hatikva continued, "Dr. J
made sure of that."
"Then why do I enjoy killing?" Heero asked softly, "I enjoy the
battles, and the taste of blood doesn't bother me at all..."
"Really?" Hatikva interrupted. "Why do you have nightmares? Why did
you go to Sylvia Noventa?" She looked into his eyes, "Why do the
innocents you killed still haunt you?" She took his shoulders but
looked down, "Tell me. Why did my death drove you to try to commit
suicide, when you were supposed to be a ruthless killer?"
"I don't know..." Heero whispered, his voice threatening to break,
"I don't..." He felt the tears build in his eyes and he wiped them.
He stared at the moisture on his fingers, "I... I don't want to hurt
anyone but... no matter how hard I try, I always do..." He leaned
against Hatikva, burying his face on her shoulder so that she wouldn't
see his tears, "It seems like it's my nature..."
Hatikva sighed and wrapped her arms and wings around the boy. She
started to sing while slowly rocking back and forth.
this gesture of kindness and care was enough to make Heero break
down and cry openly.
************To be continued**********
Ok, not much to say. Just that I hope you enjoy it!! ^^x
Blackthorn Hiei Heero Yamato Iori Hibiki Sagara Ayanami Shinihara
Warrior Spirit of the Quetzal bird
Keeper of the Xiuhcoatl, the Turquoise Snake sword
Guardian of Quetzalcoatl's tailfeathers
Guardian of Wing ZERO's feathers
Guardian of Heero's deadly beam-spork
Warnings?: Heero's acting OCC
Hatikva Ch.14
Mariemaia stayed with Heero for three weeks. People came and went:
Relena, Duo, Zechs, trowa, Quatre... but she stayed.
His last visitor had been Mrs Noventa and Sylvia. They had stayed
in contact with the Japanese boy, so either Relena or Lady Une must have
informed them of the situation. They talked to Heero, just like
everyone else had done, but the boy wouldn't respond.
After they had left, Mariemaia was about to cry when she felt a
hand on her shoulder.
"Why are you sad?" She heard a female voice.
"Huh?" Mariemaia turned to find a young woman with bright green
eyes and long light brown hair, "Who are you?" She asked warily, "I didn't
hear you come in."
"I didn't came through the door." The woman answered. "My name is
Hatikva, but you know me by another name."
"Hope?" Mariemaia asked, remembering what Quatre had once told her.
"But I don't know you. Why do you say I do?"
"Look in your heart and you'll know." The woman answered with a soft
smile.
Mariemaia glared at the woman. Her clothes certainly reminded her
of something. And the brightness of her eyes... looking into them
Mariemaia realized that it wasn't natural yet it was familiar. The
woman somehow reminder her of Heero and at the same time it reminder
her of... but it couldn't be... it was simply impossible. And still...
"You're Wing ZERO?" Mariemaia asked softly touching the woman's
hand.
"More or less..." The woman answered.
"Are you here because of him?" Mariemaia asked, turning to look at
Heero.
"Yes..." Hatikva said, "I think I might be able to help... but I
need your permission."
"My permission?"
"You're the person closest to him, closer than Relena." Hatikva sat
on the bed, "So I want your permission to go into him, search for him
and convince him to come back." She smiled. "Besides I know Relena
wouldn't allow me to do that."
"I wouldn't allow you either..." Mariemaia said. "If I didn't
believe who you are. Are you sure you can do it?"
"Go in and find him? Yes." Hatikva answered, "But I cannot force
him to come back, or he might become suicidal. I have to convince him...
it has to be his choice..." She put her hands on Mariemaia's shoulders
and looked into her eyes. "The only thing I can promise is that I will
do my best."
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
"And so, here I am," Hatikva said, stroking Heero's hair.
The boy was still shaking from what she had shown him. He could
only remember a couple of things from his re-training, so he hadn't
realized the full extent of what he had done under Dekim's control.
"After what I did, you want me to go back?" He asked softly.
"You were under Dekim's control." Hatikva replied, "They understand
that."
"They won't forgive me." Heero shook his head. "I'm supposed to be
the Perfect Soldier... and yet, I allowed myself to be captured and
brainwashed by Dekim... I could have fought harder than I did... I..."
He stopped when Hatikva slapped him.
"You were programmed to obey Dekim." Hatikva said sharply. Heero
winced at her tone, so she lowered it. "You couldn't have done
anything. You put up as much resistance as you were able to."
Heero pressed his palms against his temple as his head started to
throb. He wondered in the back of his mind, how could he have a
headache if he was in a coma.
"You were never the Perfect Soldier." Hatikva continued, "Dr. J
made sure of that."
"Then why do I enjoy killing?" Heero asked softly, "I enjoy the
battles, and the taste of blood doesn't bother me at all..."
"Really?" Hatikva interrupted. "Why do you have nightmares? Why did
you go to Sylvia Noventa?" She looked into his eyes, "Why do the
innocents you killed still haunt you?" She took his shoulders but
looked down, "Tell me. Why did my death drove you to try to commit
suicide, when you were supposed to be a ruthless killer?"
"I don't know..." Heero whispered, his voice threatening to break,
"I don't..." He felt the tears build in his eyes and he wiped them.
He stared at the moisture on his fingers, "I... I don't want to hurt
anyone but... no matter how hard I try, I always do..." He leaned
against Hatikva, burying his face on her shoulder so that she wouldn't
see his tears, "It seems like it's my nature..."
Hatikva sighed and wrapped her arms and wings around the boy. She
started to sing while slowly rocking back and forth.
this gesture of kindness and care was enough to make Heero break
down and cry openly.
************To be continued**********
Ok, not much to say. Just that I hope you enjoy it!! ^^x
Blackthorn Hiei Heero Yamato Iori Hibiki Sagara Ayanami Shinihara
Warrior Spirit of the Quetzal bird
Keeper of the Xiuhcoatl, the Turquoise Snake sword
Guardian of Quetzalcoatl's tailfeathers
Guardian of Wing ZERO's feathers
Guardian of Heero's deadly beam-spork