My parents are such losers! They would not let me upload my chapters, it's
pathetic…geez, their evil. Well here is chapter 11, and it starts in
Snape's point of view.
Chapter 11-Suicidal Black
Raie stood there, her eyes wide with worry. Had someone seen us? You have no idea how much trouble I would be in, if someone had seen us.
"You don't reckon anyone saw us?"Raie said looking up at me. I shook my head, and looked to where the figure had disappeared.
"Or so you think,"said a voice, and I looked at Raie, and her face turned pale.
"This figures," she said, walking right towards where the figure had gone, she went and smacked the air, except she hit something, and that something, yelled "Ow!"
"I cant believe you!"Raie said, growling at nothing. I raised an eyebrow, what was she doing?
She pulled on something and there stood Draco Malfoy. I almost passed out. One of my own students, even in my own house, had seen me. I felt my insides twist.
"I actually didn't mean to see that,"Draco smirked at Raie, who crossed her arms, and shook her head.
"I'm sure you didn't,"she sneered back at him.
I watched as Raie pushed Draco up against the wall with all her might. She raised her fist to punch him, but I grabbed her wrist before she could.
"He's not worth it,"I said to Raie, whose face was full of fury.
"Oh yes he is,"she snarled at Draco, who, to my surprise looked scared of Raie.
"Don't hit me,"he said, and I heard his voice tremble slightly.
"And what are you going to do, if I do?"Raie said, narrowing her eyes.
"Just don't,"he said, bringing up his arm to shield his face.
"Well, you saw something you weren't supposed to,"she said, closing in on Draco, who looked as if he could faint from fear.
"I didn't mean to, but I was looking for you,"he said, and Raie lowered her fist. Draco's face went into a smile.
"I knew you couldn't hit me,"he continued, in a sneer. Raie lifter her fist, and smashed Draco's nose. Draco's eyes got real big, as he put his hand up to his nose, feeling the blood.
"I thought you ought to know, I would,"she said.
"Professor, you aren't going to let her do this to me are you?"Draco said, wiping his bloody nose on his robes.
"I might actually, you saw something that, you weren't,"I said, stepping next to Raie.
"Well its not my fault that I saw it, its almost illegal isn't?"Draco said, rubbing his nose.
Raie dropped her fist. And I watched as Draco's eyes started to water from pain.
"I'm sorry, Draco,"she said, and put her hands to her hand.
"Raie, I deserved it,"he said, putting his hands on her shoulders.
I watched jealously as Draco pulled Raie into a hug. As I watched, I wasn't sure if she returned it or not. But I watched closely,incase Draco tried to pull something. I couldn't believe my jealousy. I was burning with anger and anxiety inside. It was pathetic, I was falling in love with fourteen year old. I should have seen this coming.
"Draco, I'm really, really sorry,"she said, and I had to endure Malfoy trying to calm Raie down.
"Its fine, I wont tell what I saw, I actually find it…"he said, and Raie stepped back, and stood next to me.
"Find it kind of, what?"Raie said, and I saw her get that sarcastic smirk on her face.
"Daring actually,"he said, smiling back.
"Yet, how do we know that you wont tell anyone?"Raie asked, just before I was about to say something similar.
"I wouldn't, its much to amusing."he said, and Raie put her hands on her hips.
"And if you do?"I said, stepping up next to Raie.
He looked shocked that I had actually spoken up. I smirked at the surprised look on his face.
"Well, Mr. Malfoy?"I said. And Raie nodded.
"You can curse me, or something, because I have a secret, that we could negotiate."he said, with an evil smile on his face. Whatever he was going to tell me, he should get in trouble for. Then again, so should me and Raie.
"I cheated on the last three exams sir,"he said, and he actually looked embarrassed.
"So, what your telling us, is that if we promise not to tell about cheating, you wont tell about…um, us?"Raie said uncomfortably.
"Exactly,"Draco smiled, "Now, it's late, and I am going to walk you back to Gryffindor Tower,"
I watched as Draco grabbed Raie's arm and started dragging her. She turned around and blew a kiss. I smiled back. I knew, that someone, much younger than me, is going to sweep Raie off her feet, and I will be left with a broken heart, most unfortunately.
Raie pov
This was just wonderful. Now someone knew about me and Snape, and the best person to know too, Draco Malfoy, who unfortunately as a huge grudge against me.
"This is so juicy, ahh…"said Draco, interlocking arms with me.
"What is?"I asked him. I decided not too struggle with him. He already had one against me.
"This whole you and Snape thing. It's great. Oh, I just cant get over it!" he said, looking down at me.
I felt my feelings getting hurt. I couldn't believe him, was he making fun of me? Or what in the world was he getting at?
I started shaking my head in disapproval.
"What is it?"he asked, stopping to look at me. All I could think was don't kiss me, don't kiss me.
"I just cant believe you,"I said. He cupped his hand under my chin and kissed me. And it was a sensual, and I started feeling guilty. Draco was a good kisser, but it didn't feel the same when Snape kissed me.
"Good night," he whispered in my ear, and turned away and ran.
I walked up to the portrait, said the password, entered the common room and plopped myself on a chair. I closed my eyes. I felt terrible.
"Raie?"asked a voice, I opened one of my eyes, to see Hermione standing in front of me.
"Oh great, now what do you have to pick on me for?"I asked her, opening both of my eyes, and she actually looked hurt. I raised an eyebrow.
"I'm here to apologize to you,"she said, sitting down next to me.
"Oh, for what?"I said sarcastically, I wasn't exactly in the mood to hear what she had to say.
"For being so rude and mean to you, you didn't do anything wrong, it was my fault,"she said, trying hard to apologize and keep her good nature, that I never knew, mind you.
"and…?"I asked, closing my eyes.
"The reason I was so horrible to you was because I thought you were taking away my best friends,"she said, and I opened my eyes, to see her starting to tear.
I was shocked. She actually thought I was taking Harry and Ron away? It sounded pathetic, but yet…
"It's alright, I've messed with everyone else, what's new?"I said throwing up my hands.
I curled myself on the couch, as Hermione continued her apologies. I took no notice of them. I was thinking of Draco's kiss, and the kisses from Snape. And the one Harry had surprised me with. It was all so overwhelming. I was fed up with my life. It was such a terrible feeling.
"Hermione,"I interrupted.
She stopped and looked at me.
"What is the fastest way to commit suicide?"I said, getting up and running out of the portrait as fast as I could, not waiting for her to answer me, and I left her to figure out what I meant.
I ran faster, as I looked for away up to the Owlery. It was the highest point of the towers. I couldn't believe I was going to do this. All the things I had got in life; millions of Galleons, a Firebolt, an offer for a Quidditch team, the man I wanted in life, and well, two I didn't. But I had been treated so fairly, until now, who was out to get me?
I turned the corner, and sprinted up the stairs to the Owlery. Doubus, my owl, flew over to me immediately.
"Not now, Doubus," I said depressdidly* is that a word?
I looked out the window. All of a sudden, I heard footsteps, of more than one person, running up to the stairs.
Oh shit, I thought to myself. Hermione had figured it out faster then I had wanted her too.
The Owlery door banged open, and in popped Fred, George, Hermione, Ginny, Ron, and Harry. I looked out the window and made up my mind to jump. But Fred got there before I could fling myself out the window.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?"he said, standing in front of me, putting his hands on my shoulder and shaking me.
"Its over!"I yelled. I started crying. And I turned to run toward the window, but Fred grabbed me around the waist.
"Stop it!"Hermione screamed, "Raie, stop it, youre scaring me!"she said, and she started to cry.
I just wanted to end it all. It was too much for me. I was overwhelmed, and I couldn't take anymore of this.
Once again the Owlery door burst open again, and in walked Draco, who looked scared to death.
I started to cry. I couldn't believe this. I tried to get toward the window, but I could tell there was no way that Fred was going to let go of me.
"Just let me do it," I pleaded to Fred, who tightened his grip.
"Someone get Dumbledore!"Ginny screeched.
"No!Just let me do this,"I said, flinging myself toward the window, but Fred held his grip.
Ginny ran out of the Owlery, and I knew immediately she was going to get Professor Dumbledore or Professor McGonagall.
George came up next, seeing that I was making Fred tired.
"People!Just let me do it, and I wont get anyone else mad at me,"I said, crying my eyes out. George obviously knew how to get to me better. He pulled me into the most comforting hug I had ever been in.
"Is that what this is about?"Ron said, stepping closer to me.
"No.."I said, but George was muffling me.
"Yes it is," Harry said, stepping forward.
"No its not, I'm just not meant to be here," I said, and pulled myself toward the window, but George was extremely strong, and I was no match.
"Yes it is, it's because I kissed you,"Harry said. The whole Owlery went dead still. I stopped sobbing, and struggling.
"You did what?"said Ginny and Hermione at the same time.
"Its not your fault Harry," I said, making my move toward the window, and to my surprise, George wasn't holding me.
As Ginny, Hermione, Ron and Harry argued, I snuck my way toward the window. I looked down, and it seemed much farther than I thought. I was gathering all my strength, and I just stood there, looking down. I could just jump any time, and they wouldn't notice at all, much to engrossed in their conversation.
The only person who seemed to realize what I was going to do was Draco, but her was much to frozen with fear to say anything.
The Owlery door opened, and I counted 10 seconds, and then made my mind up to jump. I took my first step off, and I heard them scream behind me. But someone, strong, grabbed me around my waist, and pulled me up. I cannot remember anything, for then, I passed out.
Chapter 11-Suicidal Black
Raie stood there, her eyes wide with worry. Had someone seen us? You have no idea how much trouble I would be in, if someone had seen us.
"You don't reckon anyone saw us?"Raie said looking up at me. I shook my head, and looked to where the figure had disappeared.
"Or so you think,"said a voice, and I looked at Raie, and her face turned pale.
"This figures," she said, walking right towards where the figure had gone, she went and smacked the air, except she hit something, and that something, yelled "Ow!"
"I cant believe you!"Raie said, growling at nothing. I raised an eyebrow, what was she doing?
She pulled on something and there stood Draco Malfoy. I almost passed out. One of my own students, even in my own house, had seen me. I felt my insides twist.
"I actually didn't mean to see that,"Draco smirked at Raie, who crossed her arms, and shook her head.
"I'm sure you didn't,"she sneered back at him.
I watched as Raie pushed Draco up against the wall with all her might. She raised her fist to punch him, but I grabbed her wrist before she could.
"He's not worth it,"I said to Raie, whose face was full of fury.
"Oh yes he is,"she snarled at Draco, who, to my surprise looked scared of Raie.
"Don't hit me,"he said, and I heard his voice tremble slightly.
"And what are you going to do, if I do?"Raie said, narrowing her eyes.
"Just don't,"he said, bringing up his arm to shield his face.
"Well, you saw something you weren't supposed to,"she said, closing in on Draco, who looked as if he could faint from fear.
"I didn't mean to, but I was looking for you,"he said, and Raie lowered her fist. Draco's face went into a smile.
"I knew you couldn't hit me,"he continued, in a sneer. Raie lifter her fist, and smashed Draco's nose. Draco's eyes got real big, as he put his hand up to his nose, feeling the blood.
"I thought you ought to know, I would,"she said.
"Professor, you aren't going to let her do this to me are you?"Draco said, wiping his bloody nose on his robes.
"I might actually, you saw something that, you weren't,"I said, stepping next to Raie.
"Well its not my fault that I saw it, its almost illegal isn't?"Draco said, rubbing his nose.
Raie dropped her fist. And I watched as Draco's eyes started to water from pain.
"I'm sorry, Draco,"she said, and put her hands to her hand.
"Raie, I deserved it,"he said, putting his hands on her shoulders.
I watched jealously as Draco pulled Raie into a hug. As I watched, I wasn't sure if she returned it or not. But I watched closely,incase Draco tried to pull something. I couldn't believe my jealousy. I was burning with anger and anxiety inside. It was pathetic, I was falling in love with fourteen year old. I should have seen this coming.
"Draco, I'm really, really sorry,"she said, and I had to endure Malfoy trying to calm Raie down.
"Its fine, I wont tell what I saw, I actually find it…"he said, and Raie stepped back, and stood next to me.
"Find it kind of, what?"Raie said, and I saw her get that sarcastic smirk on her face.
"Daring actually,"he said, smiling back.
"Yet, how do we know that you wont tell anyone?"Raie asked, just before I was about to say something similar.
"I wouldn't, its much to amusing."he said, and Raie put her hands on her hips.
"And if you do?"I said, stepping up next to Raie.
He looked shocked that I had actually spoken up. I smirked at the surprised look on his face.
"Well, Mr. Malfoy?"I said. And Raie nodded.
"You can curse me, or something, because I have a secret, that we could negotiate."he said, with an evil smile on his face. Whatever he was going to tell me, he should get in trouble for. Then again, so should me and Raie.
"I cheated on the last three exams sir,"he said, and he actually looked embarrassed.
"So, what your telling us, is that if we promise not to tell about cheating, you wont tell about…um, us?"Raie said uncomfortably.
"Exactly,"Draco smiled, "Now, it's late, and I am going to walk you back to Gryffindor Tower,"
I watched as Draco grabbed Raie's arm and started dragging her. She turned around and blew a kiss. I smiled back. I knew, that someone, much younger than me, is going to sweep Raie off her feet, and I will be left with a broken heart, most unfortunately.
Raie pov
This was just wonderful. Now someone knew about me and Snape, and the best person to know too, Draco Malfoy, who unfortunately as a huge grudge against me.
"This is so juicy, ahh…"said Draco, interlocking arms with me.
"What is?"I asked him. I decided not too struggle with him. He already had one against me.
"This whole you and Snape thing. It's great. Oh, I just cant get over it!" he said, looking down at me.
I felt my feelings getting hurt. I couldn't believe him, was he making fun of me? Or what in the world was he getting at?
I started shaking my head in disapproval.
"What is it?"he asked, stopping to look at me. All I could think was don't kiss me, don't kiss me.
"I just cant believe you,"I said. He cupped his hand under my chin and kissed me. And it was a sensual, and I started feeling guilty. Draco was a good kisser, but it didn't feel the same when Snape kissed me.
"Good night," he whispered in my ear, and turned away and ran.
I walked up to the portrait, said the password, entered the common room and plopped myself on a chair. I closed my eyes. I felt terrible.
"Raie?"asked a voice, I opened one of my eyes, to see Hermione standing in front of me.
"Oh great, now what do you have to pick on me for?"I asked her, opening both of my eyes, and she actually looked hurt. I raised an eyebrow.
"I'm here to apologize to you,"she said, sitting down next to me.
"Oh, for what?"I said sarcastically, I wasn't exactly in the mood to hear what she had to say.
"For being so rude and mean to you, you didn't do anything wrong, it was my fault,"she said, trying hard to apologize and keep her good nature, that I never knew, mind you.
"and…?"I asked, closing my eyes.
"The reason I was so horrible to you was because I thought you were taking away my best friends,"she said, and I opened my eyes, to see her starting to tear.
I was shocked. She actually thought I was taking Harry and Ron away? It sounded pathetic, but yet…
"It's alright, I've messed with everyone else, what's new?"I said throwing up my hands.
I curled myself on the couch, as Hermione continued her apologies. I took no notice of them. I was thinking of Draco's kiss, and the kisses from Snape. And the one Harry had surprised me with. It was all so overwhelming. I was fed up with my life. It was such a terrible feeling.
"Hermione,"I interrupted.
She stopped and looked at me.
"What is the fastest way to commit suicide?"I said, getting up and running out of the portrait as fast as I could, not waiting for her to answer me, and I left her to figure out what I meant.
I ran faster, as I looked for away up to the Owlery. It was the highest point of the towers. I couldn't believe I was going to do this. All the things I had got in life; millions of Galleons, a Firebolt, an offer for a Quidditch team, the man I wanted in life, and well, two I didn't. But I had been treated so fairly, until now, who was out to get me?
I turned the corner, and sprinted up the stairs to the Owlery. Doubus, my owl, flew over to me immediately.
"Not now, Doubus," I said depressdidly* is that a word?
I looked out the window. All of a sudden, I heard footsteps, of more than one person, running up to the stairs.
Oh shit, I thought to myself. Hermione had figured it out faster then I had wanted her too.
The Owlery door banged open, and in popped Fred, George, Hermione, Ginny, Ron, and Harry. I looked out the window and made up my mind to jump. But Fred got there before I could fling myself out the window.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?"he said, standing in front of me, putting his hands on my shoulder and shaking me.
"Its over!"I yelled. I started crying. And I turned to run toward the window, but Fred grabbed me around the waist.
"Stop it!"Hermione screamed, "Raie, stop it, youre scaring me!"she said, and she started to cry.
I just wanted to end it all. It was too much for me. I was overwhelmed, and I couldn't take anymore of this.
Once again the Owlery door burst open again, and in walked Draco, who looked scared to death.
I started to cry. I couldn't believe this. I tried to get toward the window, but I could tell there was no way that Fred was going to let go of me.
"Just let me do it," I pleaded to Fred, who tightened his grip.
"Someone get Dumbledore!"Ginny screeched.
"No!Just let me do this,"I said, flinging myself toward the window, but Fred held his grip.
Ginny ran out of the Owlery, and I knew immediately she was going to get Professor Dumbledore or Professor McGonagall.
George came up next, seeing that I was making Fred tired.
"People!Just let me do it, and I wont get anyone else mad at me,"I said, crying my eyes out. George obviously knew how to get to me better. He pulled me into the most comforting hug I had ever been in.
"Is that what this is about?"Ron said, stepping closer to me.
"No.."I said, but George was muffling me.
"Yes it is," Harry said, stepping forward.
"No its not, I'm just not meant to be here," I said, and pulled myself toward the window, but George was extremely strong, and I was no match.
"Yes it is, it's because I kissed you,"Harry said. The whole Owlery went dead still. I stopped sobbing, and struggling.
"You did what?"said Ginny and Hermione at the same time.
"Its not your fault Harry," I said, making my move toward the window, and to my surprise, George wasn't holding me.
As Ginny, Hermione, Ron and Harry argued, I snuck my way toward the window. I looked down, and it seemed much farther than I thought. I was gathering all my strength, and I just stood there, looking down. I could just jump any time, and they wouldn't notice at all, much to engrossed in their conversation.
The only person who seemed to realize what I was going to do was Draco, but her was much to frozen with fear to say anything.
The Owlery door opened, and I counted 10 seconds, and then made my mind up to jump. I took my first step off, and I heard them scream behind me. But someone, strong, grabbed me around my waist, and pulled me up. I cannot remember anything, for then, I passed out.