Chapter 10: Their's Something About Sunny
Being with Sunny is one of the best things-no scratch that-it's one of the greatest things that's ever happened too Roberta. She was always fun too be with and she knew how too have fun. They would spend as much time as possible.
She had a funny sense of humor that would always put a smile on Roberta's face; Sunny came by the club one day as they were cleaning it up. Roberta was talking too one of the dancers as she waited for her, Sunny looks at one of the poles on stage and curiously enough wanted to try her luck with dancing. Their's no music too dance to so she would have too improvise. She pretends that techno music playing on the speaker, Sunny starts to dance sexily; slow at first but she started too pick up the pace. Sunny starts too get the hang of it, pretty soon she starts too play around the pole and manages to do a quick spin. Finding it too be fun she does it a second and then a third time. Sunny spins and spins, finally hanging upside down "Sunny?" Roberta looked as she saw her hanging from the pole "What are you doing?" she started to laugh.
Sunny manages too lose her grip and falls down, Roberta laughs harder; Sunny rubs her head. "Sorry," she smiled "just having a little fun" Roberta laughed and laughed, she laughed until she cried "I made you laugh, oh my god, look at your face!" Sunny herself started to laugh as Roberta's face was red from laughter. She manages to come off the stage, Roberta stopped laughing "Did I do any good?" she wondered "You need to work on your dancing but you weren't that bad" Roberta gives her a quick peck on the cheek "Come on, let's go get a drink".
Sunny enjoys Roberta's cooking, which seemed too surprise her mostly because anybody who had tried her cooking usually complained that it was too spicy "You're not joking with me right? You really like my food?" she raised an eyebrow "Yeah" Sunny simply responded "Really? It's not too spicy?", Sunny chuckles a bit "I'm Korean, all the food that I eat is spicy; trust me this isn't spicy, this is mild at best" she said. Roberta shakes her head and laugh's a bit "Well, maybe I'll have to make you something that's going too make you sweat a little" she says as she gave a mischievous but playful grin. Pretty soon Sunny introduces her too Korean food, she enjoyed herself. When Sunny gives Roberta a piece of spicy pork, she sort of dared her to eat it; "So you think you know spicy, do you? Try this". Her eyes never left hers, accepting her dare Roberta eats the piece of pork. At first their wasn't a reaction, she maybe thought this was a trick but pretty soon the spiciness kicked in; Sunny giggled as Roberta coughed.
"Oh, you think that's funny?" Roberta asked as she coughed "Well, now you that I got you beat when it comes too spicy" she smiled "Like I said before, I'm going to make you something that's going too make you sweat" she laughed.
They go to the beach. Sunny wears a teal bikini, her top is ruffled with the sides of her bottoms slightly ruffled. Roberta wears a white bikini with small red diamonds on her top and bottoms. They play around for a bit, Roberta takes Sunny by the hand and attempts go into the water; Sunny hesitates to enter the water. "What's wrong?" Roberta asked "What? Don't tell me you can't swim?" Sunny just embarrassingly looked away "That's not it" Roberta tilts her head "When I was little my sister showed me some dumb shark movie, I got scarred and couldn't enter the water because of that" she finally, Roberta puts her hands on her shoulders "Sunny, nothing like that is going to happen too you". Sunny looks at her "That's not the reason" Roberta raised a brow "She was teaching me how to swim but I kept thinking something was going too get me, so I stopped after a while".
"Linda kept telling me nothing would happen too me but I never believed her, so one day at the pool in our back yard Linda fell in; she was drowning and I ended up diving in to try and save her" Sunny rolled her eyes "I managed to get her out but I found out that she faked the whole thing in order to get me too swim, I got so mad at her for doing that". Roberta looked at Sunny rather astonished "Sunny, come on, that won't happen. Look, we'll hold hands okay?" "You won't let go?" she asked "I promise" Roberta smiled. They both held hands and walked slowly towards the water. The tide slowly rushes towards them, Sunny fells the coldness of the water around her feet; she trembles but Roberta squeezes her hand assuring her that everything is alright. "See," Roberta turned towards her "everything is fine, you're stronger than this" Sunny looks into her eyes, she sees the kindness and warmness in her. They kept holding hands I'm almost there she told herself.
They make love. Whenever they were together they held each other tightly and never let go. They would kiss every spot on their bodies, their hands feel one another, every touch and every kiss made them made them feel closer than before. It felt like a door that had been shut for years had finally been opened up again. Sunny often would sleep over at Roberta's apartment, who in turn would be by her side. Every time they were in bed together Roberta would look at Sunny as she slept next too her, she would smile and slowly kissed her for forehead moving down to her chest and stomach. Sunny always giggled and would kiss her back.
Their love is strong; forget what someone would read in some novel or some sappy romance movie. It was stronger than the sun, stronger than the wind or ocean. Their love was like the cheesy and gooey lasagna baking in Roberta's oven; it was always warm. Their love was stronger than any drug out there, in a sense their kind of love was in it's own right like a drug. It was addicting and they never wanted it too stop.
Everything is good but it's not all sunshine and rainbows.
Their's something about this girl, that's well, quite odd.
On a number of occasions whenever they would go out a squad car would pass by, Sunny would always duck and hide. When Roberta would ask why Sunny was hiding she wouldn't answer; she did mention that her sister was a police officer, was she scared that her sister would tell her some embarrassing stories about her childhood? Or was it something else? The only thing that she mentioned was that her and her sister don't talk too each other, Roberta wondered if their was something else going on between them. While they were eating at her uncle's bakery, a waitress mentioned that Sunny would always come by whenever she was tired or stressed out; the waitress said that she would sit down near the windows and peer out into the open. The one thing that she mentioned was that a squad car would always pass by; Sunny would get up, she would look happy for a number of seconds but when that squad car kept going and disappeared around the corner she would sit back down, their was always a sad look on her face every time that happened. Maybe their really was something going on and it was probably a lot more complicated.
One day as Roberta was walking back from the grocery store that very same police car stopped her "Excuse me, miss? Can I talk with you for a minute?" the female officer asked as she stepped out "I have a minute too spare" she said as the officer approaches her, Roberta gets a good look at her. The officer was Korean just like Sunny, however she was at least half a centimeter taller than her; Sunny's hair was cut short while the officer's was tied into a bun. They looked identical in their features except that the police officer was older than Sunny by four years. She looked at the name tag, just like Sunny's last name 'Rhee'. Roberta wondered if this was her sister.
"What can I do for you?" "Do you know a woman by the name of Sun Hi Rhee?" she bluntly asked "You mean Sunny Rhee? Yeah, we're dating right now, why?" Roberta truthfully answered, the officer didn't seem too be amused by that "I need you to distance yourself from her", she almost wanted too drop her groceries to the ground "I don't understand, why don't you want me to see Sunny?" she was perplexed by her demand "Because she's no good, she's nothing but a hood" the officer response was mixed with anger and bitterness. Roberta stood there unsure what she just heard "Sunny's not that, she has some issues sure, but she's not bad or anything" the officer almost wanted to laugh "Issues? She always had problems ever since she was eight, you have no idea what she's like" coming from her mouth it sounded rather personal "If you're smart, you're going to stay away from her; got it?" she demanded, Roberta felt dumbfounded.
"Wait," Roberta stops the officer as she's about to leave "your name wouldn't happen too be Linda, would it?" the officer stops but doesn't turn around "Are you...Are you Sunny's sister?" she kindly asked "No" the officer gave a quick but blunt answer "I don't have a sister...I never had one too begin with" again another resentful answer "But you're last name is the same as Sunny's" "Rhee is a common Korean name, it doesn't mean we're related" it sounded more like Sunny had done something bad to this woman and whatever it was, it was personal "Have a nice day" the officer quipped as she entered her car and left. As soon as she got home Roberta was tempted to call Sunny and tell what happened but she relented at the last second, she didn't want to worry her with what the officer said about her. "Maybe it's better if kept this too myself" she told herself; she wonders about the girl she's in love with, what kind of secrets did she have?
One night, Sunny slept over at Roberta's apartment as usual. As they slept Roberta felt that Sunny was twisting and turning, she was groaning and whimpering in her sleep, her breathing was intensifying and then she heard her crying out in Korean "Joesong haeyo, joesong haeyo" Roberta got up perplexed at what she was hearing; she herself didn't understand it. She could see her tears, it looked like she was relieving a nightmare of sorts "Yongseohaejusibsio...joesong haeyo" it sounded like Sunny was begging but begging for what exactly? "Eomma" she cried out "Eomma...jeh-bahl...gaji maseyo" then the pleas got more stronger "Eomma! Eomma!" fearing that Sunny could have an attack Roberta shakes her "Sunny! Sunny! Wake up! Wake up!" she pleads, Sunny gasped as she bolts upward breathing heavily; Roberta turns the light on, she could see that her whole body was covered in sweat, from her forehead down to her tank top and shorts too the bed sheets, the one thing that she noticed were her eyes; it was the look of sadness and sorrow, that very same look when they first laid eyes on each other.
"Where...? Where...?" her eyes move in every direction "Where what? You're in my house, remember?", she puts her hands to her face "Where's my...?" "Where's who?" Roberta just looked at her, it sounded like she was trying to look for somebody. Sunny softly started to cry, Roberta hugs her "It's okay...it's okay" she holds her tightly as she tried to go back too sleep. Whatever nightmare that was she having, it sounded like it was the kind of nightmare that she's been having for years.
It's morning, the smell of eggs and bacon sizzling on the frying pan along with coffee brewing in the pot fill the kitchen. Sunny sits in the kitchen as Roberta hands her a plate of eggs. As they were eating, Roberta couldn't help but notice on how quiet Sunny was. The night before almost felt like a blur too her, Roberta simply stared at her as she ate her food and drank her coffee; her hair was messy from the amount that poured out of her body, she looked very uneasy. "Sunny?" she finally called her name "Are you okay? Is everything alright?" Sunny looked up at her, she saw the concerned look in Roberta's eyes "I'm fine...why?" she uneasily asked "You were having a bad dream, you were crying last night" "Was I?" she seemed reluctant to talk about it "Yeah, you were crying out for someone" Roberta kept her eyes on her as she drank her coffee "I think I ate a bad bean pastry, that must have been it" her answer was more of an attempt too keep her at a distance, like she didn't know what her reaction would be like if she told her the truth.
Roberta looked up at the clock, it was almost time too go to work. She quickly got up and went to Sunny, she hugged her tightly for a minute "If somethings bothering you, you know you could always tell me, right?" Sunny could feel her heartbeat as she hugged back "I know, but I'm fine really" she said reassuring her love that everything is fine. Roberta wants to believe her, she should believe her but a part of her wants too know who she really is. "I love you" "I love you too" she kept holding her, she reluctantly let go, grabbed her purse and went out the door.
As soon as she was gone Sunny stared down at the remaining coffee in the mug. The nightmares have always been there for her ever since that fateful and insane day, they always plagued her and they never stopped. She stares into the darkness of the coffee, there was nothing but her own reflection; she wishes she could tell Roberta the truth but what would happen if she did? Would she understand? Or would she hate her? Sunny takes a quick but hard breath, it was hard for her too think about that. If she had a diary Roberta would probably take a quick peek and read some pages. If she had any bills to pay Roberta would help pay them off, but she didn't have any of those things, what did she have instead? A troubled past and a volatile relationship with her sister, who as much as she tried to rebuild their relationship, didn't want anything to do with her because of what she did all those years ago.
Her head hurts just thinking about it; she drinks the last of her coffee and gathers her things. Her hair is still messy, she'll have to go home and clean up. Maybe things will get better but maybe they won't. Their was always that one question that everyone has been asking themselves for a long time, why is life so complicated?
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"Look, see if you can try to reason him; just try a lot harder this time" Kenny pleaded with Sunny "Jesus, Kenny, his mind's made up and I can't anything about that" she tiredly repeated herself "Well, try fucking harder!" he yelled back "Hey! Don't fucking yell at me because he doesn't want you!" she loses her cool for a brief ten seconds "Listen, you got your thing going on, why don't you just try sticking with that?" she suggested "Shi-bal! (Fuck!)" he curses as he hangs up the phone; Sunny's headache got a little bit worse, Kenny's nagging at her may have made it worse. He kept calling her up, always asking if she can somehow persuade Park too reconsider taking him into his group; the answer was the same, no, no, no and hell to the no. Lately it's now gotten to the point of him screaming over the phone, he was the type of person that never took 'no' for an answer.
She was tired of his moping and whining, she was already at her front door; all Sunny needed was a quick shower and some couch time.
Sunny enters her apartment, tired and very annoyed maybe she can finally relax. "You took your sweet time getting here" a voice startles her, she looks at the table in her kitchen and see's her sister standing near it. "Linda! Oh my god!" she excitedly exclaimed, Sunny goes over to her and attempts too hug her "Don't even try it" she quickly warned her "Sorry, it's just good to see you" Sunny smiled happily but something seemed too quickly dawn on her "How did you get into my house?" she wondered, Linda reaches into her pocket and tosses a key at her, she catches it and realizes it was the spare key that was hidden under the welcome mat "You really shouldn't leave a spare under the mat, never know who might find it". Sunny was beside herself mostly because she made a relatively minor mistake "Well no harm done" she quickly laughs, her own excitement overtook any concern that she might have.
The one thing that she quickly notice was that her sister wasn't in uniform, Linda was wearing ordinary street clothes which consisted of khaki pants and a grey t-shirt, her hair wasn't in a bun but in a simple ponytail. It was quite strange not seeing her in uniform; never the less though Sunny felt giddy seeing her.
"Take a seat, let me make you some coffee" she went to the coffee maker and proceeded too make some "Make mine's small" Linda asked, Sunny takes out a small cup. As the coffee finishes brewing, she pours some into her cup and the other into Linda's. Sunny comes back with the cups "I see that you got yourself a girlfriend" she said as Sunny hands her the cup "Yeah" she smiled "She's a really nice person, I should probably introduce her...to you..." Sunny looks at Linda as she stares right back at her "How do you know about Roberta?" "Do you have any sugar?" Linda subtly asked, Sunny stares blankly at her "Sorry, I'm all out, guess you'll have to drink it black" she gritted her trying not snap at her sister "That's alright, I like drinking it black anyways".
"You didn't answer me, how do you know about Roberta?" Sunny tried to keep her temper in check "I always see you two walking together, smiling and holding hands; you guys are quite the couple" she quips "Are you...Are you fucking spying on me?" she asked trying too remain calm as much as possible. "I wouldn't say spying, just keeping a watchful eye, if you know what I mean?" Linda is half way done drinking her coffee "Of all the things, are you crazy?" Sunny's heart wanted to blow up in her chest; her own sister spying or keeping tabs on her, not exactly sisterly. "Why would you...? Why are you here?" she asked as Linda got up from her seat "To tell you that you need too break it off with her".
Sunny almost wanted to scream "What do you mean 'break it off'?" "It's the things that you do, that I know that you're probably doing, that's going to put her in danger" Linda sternly said "I wouldn't put her in danger, I would never do that to her" Sunny tried not too cry "You wouldn't hurt her?" Linda let out a sarcastic laugh "Wow, that's funny coming from someone like you"; everything was in a tail spin, it was like something from a badly written revenge scene. "You love her, but do you really love her?" the question that she asked made Sunny feel angry "I do love her! Why would you say such a thing?" Sunny stares at her sister "I wonder, does she know what you did all those years ago?" when Linda brought that up, it felt like Sunny was hit in the head with a brick.
"Are you kidding me?! Why would you bring that up?!" Sunny voice started to tremble with anger "Do you have any idea what I went through?!" Sunny yelled "What you went through? What about what we went through?!" Linda shouted back "Do you remember how many times the police arrested you and we always had to you bail out? Do you remember how many fights you got into at school? Remember how you never listened too us?" Linda huffed and puffed her breathes out "You don't give a damn about that girl!" "That's not true!" Sunny's heartbeat and blood were rushing through her veins "I love Roberta and she loves me!" she shouts with a passion "Oh, please! You're nothing but a criminal!" Linda is now an inch from her sisters face "You're never going to change! Once a criminal, always a-!" Linda's attention turns to the photo of their mother. A face that she hasn't seen in years.
"Why do you...?" Linda looked like she saw a ghost, a part of her was saddened but the other part was still angry "You-You don't deserve to look at her...!" her voice was shaking "You don't get too do that...not after what you put her through..." she clenches her fist "Take it down, now...!" she growled "No...I'm not going too..." tears started to form in Sunny's eyes "I said take it down now...!" Linda repeated herself, Sunny simply stood her ground unwilling to follow her sister's demand "If you won't do it then I'll-!" "Don't you dare!" Sunny yells with all her might, Linda looked at her surprised that she stood up too her. Both of them stood in complete silence, the tension along with the amount of emotions that they poured out are the only things that fill the air.
"I should've brought you in myself when I had the chance too" Linda composes herself and wipes her eyes, Sunny backs away slowly and put's out both of her hands; Linda confusingly looks at her, not understanding the gesture. "If you want to arrest me so badly, then do it right now" Sunny sniffles trying not to cry "Come on...what are you waiting for? I won't even fight back, bring me up on whatever charge that you want" she said with her hands still out "Imagine the news 'Hero cop arrest her thug sister', that'll grab some headlines" their was that one word Linda hated hearing "I told you before don't call me that!" she screams, she grabs Sunny by the front of her shirt and puts her against the wall "Don't ever call me that! You don't ever get to call me that!" her anger was making her shake as Sunny stares into her eyes.
She see's the hurt and sadness in Linda's eyes "Why are you doing this?" she asked "You were someone that I could always depend on, what happened?", Linda grunts and let's Sunny go "I woke up" Linda bitterly said "You say that you love that girl but you don't love her, you're just using her to make yourself feel better" she spat out her anger and resentment towards Sunny, she turns around and heads to the door. "Wait" Sunny stops her sister "You say that I don't love Roberta...that's not true, I do love her...I haven't told her completely about everything but I will tell her when the time is right".
Linda turns around and looks at Sunny, the anger and resentment still in her eyes "And what happens then? You think you're going to live happily ever after?" "I don't know, I haven't thought that part through yet but hopefully she'll understand..." Sunny said "You think that I forgotten about what I had done all those years ago? That I just moved on like it was nothing to me?" she finally looks up, Linda see's the sadness in her eyes "I never forgot...I never forgot the way I hurt you guy's...you don't know what it's like living with the nightmares...you don't know what that's like" Sunny grits her teeth, a shutter runs through her body "You talk about love, what do you know about love?" she balls up her fist "Ever since I came back all you done is give me the cold shoulder, you just treat me like I'm nothing", Linda stares at her unable to say anything; she opens the door and slams it hard.
Sunny blankly looks at the door, her body still shakes. She looks at the coffee cup, it was still full.
She grabs it and tosses it against the door; it shatters, pieces along with coffee fall to the floor. Sunny felt something coursing through her whole body; it was more than sadness, more than sorrow, guilt or grief. It was that one feeling that she probably never felt in years.
Sunny, with her remaining emotion, shrieks at the door. That remaining thing that she was feeling was her own frustration.
She falls to the carpet, her tears finally flow. She cries and cries. The pain that she's feeling was the type of pain that never goes away; the pain was always there, it never went away. She hated her life but she hated herself the most, every time she flashes back to that moment her heart breaks into a million pieces. All Sunny wanted to do is too take everything back, reset everything to the way it was. She not only wanted her sister but she wanted her mother back but she can't have any of that, her mother is gone and her sister hates her for what she had done.
All she has is the never ending pain and the thing on her back as a constant reminder. It was not only a constant reminder but also a constant nightmare, a nightmare that she could never seem too wake up from.
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