A Never Ceasing Smile to Hide the Pain Within
Disclaimer: I love Fushigi Yugi...It's the best anime on the face of the Earth. Sadly *sniffle* I don't own it. But neither do you!! So that makes me feel a whole lot better!! I do own Lisuku though, he he he. : )
A/N: A Chichiri fanfic!! And what's even better, it's non-yaoi/non- lemon...And it's got angst, and romance, and lots more fun stuff!! YAY!! Well, what are you waiting for! Keep reading! Enjoy! ; )
Chapter 4: Always and Forever
Chichiri sat, staring where Taiitsu-kun and Lisuku had once been, the rain pouring over him and the lightning shaking the earth beneath him. A shiver that ran through him threw him back into reality, and he leaped to his feet and ran to the door. He pushed it aside as he ran down the halls. He searched for Lisuku's chi so he could immediately transport himself to her side, but with no luck. It was too small to be noticed. He swore under his breath as he ran to her room. He flung open the door, no one was there. It was hopeless. He would never find her. This place was too large and they could be in any one of a thousand rooms. He broke down onto her bed with tears that had no right to be in his eyes, and cried himself into weariness that only brought him troubled sleep.
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"Where am I?" Chichiri thought to himself as he seemed to drift about in space. There was no time where he was. There was...well, frankly, nothing. Blackness surrounded him and engulfed him in the nothingness, but then there was light. A glowing figure approached him, and we would've held his breath if he was actually breathing. She drew closer and closer to him until she was just a breath away and looked lovingly into his eyes. She held his chin in her hand and drew him closer to her. She brushed her lips against his, and yet it felt as if there was nothing behind them, like a faintr summer breeze, nothing more. Until that very moment he had no idea who it was, but when she had touched him, he knew.
His mouth formed the word, but he could no speak it. Koran, he thought, tears welling up in his eyes. She nodded her head in response. B-but how? Why? Why are you coming to me now? It is...It is really you? She nodded again and looked at him with eyes filled with love, but also with loss. She came closer to him again, and leant towards his ear.
In a breath more than a whisper he heard. "Do not be afraid to love again, Chichiri. I made a mistake with you once and I will not make it again. Lisuku loves you with the samew love I do. Go to her and be happy. I have nothing against it."
B-but- She brought her finger up to his lips, even though he was not speaking, he knew to be quiet. She kissed him one last time, on the forehead, and then she faded away into the blackness, still smiling.
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Chichiri threw open his eyelids and sat straight up in the bed, looking in every direction for a glimpse of his love, but she was gone. She had came to him in a dream, but now...Gone...He had lost her again...And yet...
He got up and walked over to the door. His eye was still puffy from the shed tears, but it didn't matter. He had to find Lisuku and tell her how he felt, before it was too late. And he nearly ran over Taiitsu-kun in the process.
"Ah, Chichiri, I was looking for you. I figured I'd find you here."
"Where is Lisuku, no da? Is she all right, no da?" Chichiri tried frantically to get around the hovering hag, but with no luck.
Taiitsu-kun laughed to herself and patted his shoulder. "Relax young one, she is fine, but very weak, and she wishes to see you. Come along." Taiitsu- kun turned around in the doorframe and began to walk down one of the long corridors facing east. "Do you have any idea what she did for you, Chichiri?"
Hearing his name, he pulled out of his thoughts and looked at her back. "What? No. Why, no da?"
"Chichiri, she gave up her very essence so you wouldn't die. You may not have known this, but you had given up on life, and death was taking you over. She found you at your last heart beats, trying to force air into your lungs, but your body kept pushing it back out, and you were fading fast. Even I don't know how she did it, it was like she gave you a piece of her very soul, and almost all of her energy with it. Love does things like that."
Chichiri nearly stopped in his tracks as his jaw dropped open. "S-she, s- she?"
Taiitsu-kun stopped in front of a door that was carved with ivy and flowers, and pushed it open. "Why don't you ask her yourself?"
Lisuku looked up and tried to push her self up into a sitting position, but she was just too weak. "Oh. Hi, Chichiri, listen..ah!...," and she fell back into her pillow. Chichiri rushed over to her side, and Taiitsu-kun smiled as she closed the door behind him and drifted down the corridor, away from the two.
"Listen, Chichiri, I have something to tell you. I know why I lost my memory."
"Really? Why?"
"Because of who I was before," Lisuku made a weak attempt to grasp Chichiri's hand, and he, seing what she was trying to do, grasped hers instead. She laughed weakly and played with his mohawk-bangs for a second. "I forgot this life, so I could remember another." With the little strenth she had left, she sat up and leaned towards Chichiri. She took his face in her hands, and brought it towards her, lightly kissing his lips, just brushing them with her own like...
"Do you remember me Chichiri? It's me Koran."
Chichiri's eye welled up with tears as he threw his arms around her and pulled her close to him, careful not to hurt her in this weakened state. Lisuku put her arms around him as well, but not in as tight of an embrace. She could feel his tears falling onto her shoulder, and some had sliped from her eyes as well.
"I think we've both had enough crying for today," Lisuku said as she heard Chichiri sniffle, and then felt him pull away.
"Koran...I...I'm so sorry...What I did was...Was...It's just that..." She lifted her finger to silence him, like Koran had done in his dream. Lisuku really was her. She was young enough to be her reincarnated as well.
"You didn't know...And it wasn't your fault...I was young...," she said as she looked down, not able to meet his hazel eye. "I felt like I wasn't good enough for you...You were so kind, so loving...I didn't think I was worthy of your love...I didn't mean to hurt you!" She said as she looked into his eye, tears flowing non-stop from hers. "I had no idead that that was what would some of it...You're not the one to be sorry...I am...I'm so sorry Chichiri....Ri Houjun...My love...I put you through so much suffering and pain...I..."
She didn't finish because Chichiri took her hand in his own once more, and leaned forward and kissed her once again. When they parted she fell against his chest and he hugged her tight against him. She could hear his heart beating and feel the rythmic rise and fall of his chest. He was alive. And her sacrifice, her facing her own death again, had brought him back to life. She snuggled into him as close as she could. He was still damp from the rain, but most of it had evaporated, leabing him near dry. A window to his left showed him that the storm had stopped, and although everything was covered in moisture, the rains were gone, and no clouds were left in the sky to block the warmign rays of the sun that kissed the rain drops away.
"Will you ever leave me again?" He said into her hair, once again taking in the calming aroma of lavender and vanilla.
"Of course, not silly. I never make the same mistake twice. I love you," she whispered the last past.
"I love you, too," he whsipered into her hair.
They held on even tighter to each other now, not evr wanting to leave the warm embrace of the other. They had already lost themselves once, and never wanted to loose each other again.
"Ai shiteru, Lisuku, Koran."
"Ai shiteru Chichiri, Ri Houjun, always."
"Always and forever," they both said. "Always and forever."
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A/N: Told you it was going in a different direction!! Now, if only the series went this way...Too bad...*sigh* I hope all of you like it, because that was the last chapter!! I don't know what happened...I guess that's how it works when you write on impulse...Please R&R, I really want to know how it came out!! Thanks, and until my next fanfic, Ja ne!
Disclaimer: I love Fushigi Yugi...It's the best anime on the face of the Earth. Sadly *sniffle* I don't own it. But neither do you!! So that makes me feel a whole lot better!! I do own Lisuku though, he he he. : )
A/N: A Chichiri fanfic!! And what's even better, it's non-yaoi/non- lemon...And it's got angst, and romance, and lots more fun stuff!! YAY!! Well, what are you waiting for! Keep reading! Enjoy! ; )
Chapter 4: Always and Forever
Chichiri sat, staring where Taiitsu-kun and Lisuku had once been, the rain pouring over him and the lightning shaking the earth beneath him. A shiver that ran through him threw him back into reality, and he leaped to his feet and ran to the door. He pushed it aside as he ran down the halls. He searched for Lisuku's chi so he could immediately transport himself to her side, but with no luck. It was too small to be noticed. He swore under his breath as he ran to her room. He flung open the door, no one was there. It was hopeless. He would never find her. This place was too large and they could be in any one of a thousand rooms. He broke down onto her bed with tears that had no right to be in his eyes, and cried himself into weariness that only brought him troubled sleep.
* * *
"Where am I?" Chichiri thought to himself as he seemed to drift about in space. There was no time where he was. There was...well, frankly, nothing. Blackness surrounded him and engulfed him in the nothingness, but then there was light. A glowing figure approached him, and we would've held his breath if he was actually breathing. She drew closer and closer to him until she was just a breath away and looked lovingly into his eyes. She held his chin in her hand and drew him closer to her. She brushed her lips against his, and yet it felt as if there was nothing behind them, like a faintr summer breeze, nothing more. Until that very moment he had no idea who it was, but when she had touched him, he knew.
His mouth formed the word, but he could no speak it. Koran, he thought, tears welling up in his eyes. She nodded her head in response. B-but how? Why? Why are you coming to me now? It is...It is really you? She nodded again and looked at him with eyes filled with love, but also with loss. She came closer to him again, and leant towards his ear.
In a breath more than a whisper he heard. "Do not be afraid to love again, Chichiri. I made a mistake with you once and I will not make it again. Lisuku loves you with the samew love I do. Go to her and be happy. I have nothing against it."
B-but- She brought her finger up to his lips, even though he was not speaking, he knew to be quiet. She kissed him one last time, on the forehead, and then she faded away into the blackness, still smiling.
* * *
Chichiri threw open his eyelids and sat straight up in the bed, looking in every direction for a glimpse of his love, but she was gone. She had came to him in a dream, but now...Gone...He had lost her again...And yet...
He got up and walked over to the door. His eye was still puffy from the shed tears, but it didn't matter. He had to find Lisuku and tell her how he felt, before it was too late. And he nearly ran over Taiitsu-kun in the process.
"Ah, Chichiri, I was looking for you. I figured I'd find you here."
"Where is Lisuku, no da? Is she all right, no da?" Chichiri tried frantically to get around the hovering hag, but with no luck.
Taiitsu-kun laughed to herself and patted his shoulder. "Relax young one, she is fine, but very weak, and she wishes to see you. Come along." Taiitsu- kun turned around in the doorframe and began to walk down one of the long corridors facing east. "Do you have any idea what she did for you, Chichiri?"
Hearing his name, he pulled out of his thoughts and looked at her back. "What? No. Why, no da?"
"Chichiri, she gave up her very essence so you wouldn't die. You may not have known this, but you had given up on life, and death was taking you over. She found you at your last heart beats, trying to force air into your lungs, but your body kept pushing it back out, and you were fading fast. Even I don't know how she did it, it was like she gave you a piece of her very soul, and almost all of her energy with it. Love does things like that."
Chichiri nearly stopped in his tracks as his jaw dropped open. "S-she, s- she?"
Taiitsu-kun stopped in front of a door that was carved with ivy and flowers, and pushed it open. "Why don't you ask her yourself?"
Lisuku looked up and tried to push her self up into a sitting position, but she was just too weak. "Oh. Hi, Chichiri, listen..ah!...," and she fell back into her pillow. Chichiri rushed over to her side, and Taiitsu-kun smiled as she closed the door behind him and drifted down the corridor, away from the two.
"Listen, Chichiri, I have something to tell you. I know why I lost my memory."
"Really? Why?"
"Because of who I was before," Lisuku made a weak attempt to grasp Chichiri's hand, and he, seing what she was trying to do, grasped hers instead. She laughed weakly and played with his mohawk-bangs for a second. "I forgot this life, so I could remember another." With the little strenth she had left, she sat up and leaned towards Chichiri. She took his face in her hands, and brought it towards her, lightly kissing his lips, just brushing them with her own like...
"Do you remember me Chichiri? It's me Koran."
Chichiri's eye welled up with tears as he threw his arms around her and pulled her close to him, careful not to hurt her in this weakened state. Lisuku put her arms around him as well, but not in as tight of an embrace. She could feel his tears falling onto her shoulder, and some had sliped from her eyes as well.
"I think we've both had enough crying for today," Lisuku said as she heard Chichiri sniffle, and then felt him pull away.
"Koran...I...I'm so sorry...What I did was...Was...It's just that..." She lifted her finger to silence him, like Koran had done in his dream. Lisuku really was her. She was young enough to be her reincarnated as well.
"You didn't know...And it wasn't your fault...I was young...," she said as she looked down, not able to meet his hazel eye. "I felt like I wasn't good enough for you...You were so kind, so loving...I didn't think I was worthy of your love...I didn't mean to hurt you!" She said as she looked into his eye, tears flowing non-stop from hers. "I had no idead that that was what would some of it...You're not the one to be sorry...I am...I'm so sorry Chichiri....Ri Houjun...My love...I put you through so much suffering and pain...I..."
She didn't finish because Chichiri took her hand in his own once more, and leaned forward and kissed her once again. When they parted she fell against his chest and he hugged her tight against him. She could hear his heart beating and feel the rythmic rise and fall of his chest. He was alive. And her sacrifice, her facing her own death again, had brought him back to life. She snuggled into him as close as she could. He was still damp from the rain, but most of it had evaporated, leabing him near dry. A window to his left showed him that the storm had stopped, and although everything was covered in moisture, the rains were gone, and no clouds were left in the sky to block the warmign rays of the sun that kissed the rain drops away.
"Will you ever leave me again?" He said into her hair, once again taking in the calming aroma of lavender and vanilla.
"Of course, not silly. I never make the same mistake twice. I love you," she whispered the last past.
"I love you, too," he whsipered into her hair.
They held on even tighter to each other now, not evr wanting to leave the warm embrace of the other. They had already lost themselves once, and never wanted to loose each other again.
"Ai shiteru, Lisuku, Koran."
"Ai shiteru Chichiri, Ri Houjun, always."
"Always and forever," they both said. "Always and forever."
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A/N: Told you it was going in a different direction!! Now, if only the series went this way...Too bad...*sigh* I hope all of you like it, because that was the last chapter!! I don't know what happened...I guess that's how it works when you write on impulse...Please R&R, I really want to know how it came out!! Thanks, and until my next fanfic, Ja ne!