Song: "Its My Life" by Jon Bon Jovi
The time of the year is spring and as I look around I see many flowers in bloom, the reds, pinks, and other colors coming up from the ground are beautiful. Being in a war, I don't have much time to appreciate these simple pleasures, so I take them wherever I can. Seems today, OZ is taking a little break, so I guess I'm taking advantage of the situation. The other Gundam pilots have gone off to complete separate missions and well I was left here just to keep an eye on OZ in Africa, so I get a little break.
As I headed to the outskirts of the town I looked off into the distance and saw a small group of what seemed to be mobile suits, as a precaution I decided to get into Sandrock and check on them just to see what they were doing.
"This ain't a song for the broken-hearted"
I was able to find a good position behind a relatively large rock formation, as I was able to get a close look I had confirmed that they were OZ mobile suits, and that they were my next target, I accepted this as my task and was ready to move out against them.
"No silent prayer for the faith-departed"
I grabbed both my shortels and planned out how I would move in and take out the suits, I knew that I would need to take them all out and fast before the city became a war zone, and all the civilians became targets, the one thing this war doesn't need is more casualties, and I'm here to defend them.
"This war is so pointless, all we are doing is stopping one group from taking over another, we pick the best of two different evils, and based on that, hundred of thousands of people will die, and this is our mission." I spoke out loud, needed to get that at least out, it has been a burden for a while and well its what I believe, and yet here I am ready to destroy more lives yet again.
"I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd. You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud."
I headed off into the direction of the suits and launched off the missiles toward the group of suits, the missiles exploded and destroyed two of the suits, the rest of the group, I judged approximately 5-8 suits turned and began to fire.
"Just as I figured, blindingly following orders, they don't even realize they are pawns in a much bigger game, and Treize the game master of the whole war. Well I won't allow it! THE GAME ENDS NOW TREIZE!!!" I yelled as I raised the shortels and drove them straight down two of the suits.
"It's my life, it's now or never"
Suddenly I saw up above more suits were being deployed. Three additional shuttles flew overhead and were dropping in more suits, this battle just became much more difficult.
"Damn! Oz laid a trap for me, and I feel right into it, well I can't leave now, so I will fight them all, or die trying"
"I ain't gonna live forever, I just want to live while I'm alive. It's my life"
The Ammunition being fired from the other suits was beginning to take its effect on my suit, I ignored it and continued, I took the shortels and slashed at the next two suits I could see, I then took the sky and used the shortels to try and take out the incoming units. Suddenly a transmission from one of the shuttles came in
"Gundam Pilot, we have more units on the way, surrender now, or we will be forced to destroy you and your gundam, followed by the entire city you are attempting to protect" The transmission ended with the man snickering. I don't know whether it was a bluff or were they serious, I don't know, but I don't have a choice, I must defend my friends and destroy these tyrants, now is the time to end this.
"This is ridiculous, I am just here slaughtering people and for what, they don't even know what their doing, they're here because of orders, I'm here to save lives, I guess I was given the job to educated these mindless pawns."
"My heart is like an open highway"
I continued the vicious assault on the mobile suits I hacked and slashed through a good number of them and many were destroyed, then I saw off in the distance even more were coming.
"When will they give up? They just keep sending more men to the slaughter, I don't even think I'm worth all these lives, but all they care about is my own death, not even the death of their own soldiers, who could possibly think this way?" In my own heart I knew the answer, Treize Kushrenada.
Another shot had hit my gundam, and I was shaken quite bit, and I headed back on the offensive, right back to using my shortels and ending many more lives of the ignorant soldiers, who were conned and used by a military genius and a man who could easily intimidate those who were weaker than him.
"Like Frankie said I did it my way"
I looked around the perimeter and saw the suits were all destroyed, I felt bad for what I had done, and yet I knew it needed to be done. I was also slightly injured, I held my left arm, it seemed to have been broken, I didn't know and at this point I didn't care. It doesn't compare to all the lives I had just taken away.
"It's my life"
I got out of my gundam and walked over to a nearby mobile suit, it wasn't completely destroyed, but it was damaged beyond repair, I opened the hatch and saw the pilot, he had blood stains on his arms and chest, I stood in front of him, and I almost broke into tears.
I knew that I needed to do this, but I had taken more lives away, more innocent human beings were killed. The soldier in the cockpit seemed to still be alive and he was able to say something to me.
"Gundam…..Pilot, ….I have a request for you *Cough* I know…..that you are human and much like us, we have lives as well, I want you to tell this person, that she's is the greatest thing in my life, and she was in my final thoughts….." he handed me the picture and he blanked out. I stood there frozen,
"Why didn't he think I wouldn't kill him? Did he know I was just another human being? Was he doing more than blindingly following orders?"
"This is for the ones who stood their ground"
I turned the picture over and read what was written, it said:
Dear Jonathan,
I miss you so much John, I want to see you again. This war has separated us and each day I feel I grow farther and farther apart from you. I miss you and I need you. The war has divided our relationship and I feel that I'm slipping away from you. What if you get hurt? What if you get killed? I don't think I could survive without you. John, I love you with all my heart, I wait until you return to me, and I pray for your safe return.
Forever yours,Julie
So this young woman's boyfriend I just killed, and these people are not mindless, they all have lives just like me. They have loved ones and family and friends too. We were all placed in the situation of war and we all fought for our lives, and some have lost but they never gave up.
"For Tommy and Gina who never backed down"
"This is what we fight for, not for peace, not for power, for our own lives!! So why are we fighting these wars!! Without the wars we would have no need to fight for our lives!!! These are just massive slaughters!!!" I was overwhelmed, my anger and sadness rushed through me as if a sharp pain over came me, I fell to my knees and began to cry, for all those who must suffer the pain, the torture, and the agony of war.
"Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake. Luck ain't even lucky, got to make your own breaks"
I knew that what that man asked me to do, would be done. It was only right, I will find Julie and tell her what he had told me. I don't know how she will react but it was his last request and he deserves it, all soldiers do, those who die shamelessly in battle deserver much more than they get, they die defending their own lives. And that is all they can do, being put in the situation they're in. I am out to defend all life, for no man deserves to die unless they are out to risk other people's lives. I am to fight for life, and for peace, for with peace lives will no longer be in danger.
"It's my life and it's now or never. 'Cause I ain't gonna live forever. I just want to live while I'm alive"
This is my cause, to live life to the fullest and to defend it. I rose from the ground, and left the battlefield, the sky had begun to rain, it seemed that the sky reflected them mourning of all those soldiers families, friends and loved ones. This was a planned nightmare, set up by Treize, and now I'm gonna give him payback, for not only the damage he has done to me, but to all the soldiers and human beings he's played as pawns and sacrificed for his own gains. I will fight you, and no one will control me because
"Its my…"
"Life…."
- Lost Wolf
Note: I do not own Gundam Wing or the characters, story, etc. I also do not own the song "Its My Life" which was sung by Jon Bon Jovi.