Matt's Letter
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I look to the door and you're standing there saying. 'Take my hand.'
I look up into your eye's, and you smile as though I were the treasure you were searching for all your life.
I wait for the words on the tip of your tongue, but then I stop waiting cause the words never come.Your out stretched hand falls back to your side as you turn and walk through the door, and then I'm all alone in the dark.
The realism of it all jolts me back to consciousness and I start to cry.
I have this dream every night.
You know...... Sometimes I feel I have the words to say right there in my hands but then they slip through my fingers before I get a chance to speak.
and then a part of me is glad that I hadn't said anything ......but I want to...... so badly.
My heart longs for you to embrace me but that's also a distant dream.
I wish you could feel the love in your heart that my heart feels for you.
Everyday I'm losing a constant battle with myself, if I told you I'd lose you forever.
Deep inside, my heart breaks a little more each day as I realise that your hand will never be in mine.
There's nothing I wouldn't do to sparkle in your eye's but my hopes dwindle knowing that you won't look at me that way.
Tai.....? I never want to leave your side because if I did I'd drown in my own self pity.
I fear what you might do if you discovered that my heart desires you.
And for that reason you'll never see this letter.
This letter to you is my moment of weakness.
I love you Tai.
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The letter was a bit rushed on my side.Please tell me if it needs a rewrite.
I'll redo this whole chapter if it's not good enough.
Lot's of angst on Tai's part in the next chapter.or not? who knows?
Amatuer aint I?
The next chapter will be here soon!Bye now.