CHAPTER 2:
LOSS
RINOA
Without saying a word, I grabbed my grocery bag from Squall, and walked out of the store and walked as fast as I could. I didnt even bother to look back. But even so, I know he didnt even follow me, or even try to explain! What a pathetic guy he is! I couldnt help it but fresh hot tears roll down my cheek. I half expected him to follow me, try to clear things out, say sorry or something.. that way there might be a way I could have forgiven him. But he didnt!!!
I guess my suspicions are right all along. He didnt love me... He never loved me!!!!
I went straight to my dorm room. I ignored everyone in sight who ask me what's wrong. Its so obvious I have a problem. Everyone can tell. But I didnt say a word to anybody on my way to my dorm. When I reached my room, I locked the door and cried my heart out.
I cant believe he did that. All this time I thought I didnt understand him because he has work. I thought Im the one who has a problem. I thought I was juz being nuts because Squall cant spend some time with me. But after I finally realized that I shouldnt be selfish, that I was just over-reacting of his actions, I found out that its no work he's doing! He's just hooking up with some sexy b@!%$ every night!
WHY????
SQUALL
She found out. Damn! Im stupid! But she also has problem there! She DIDNT even let me explain. She just walks out on me embarrassing me to the store keeper. I wouldnt be a fool enough to follow her like a sick dog down the street saying my "sorry's" in front of a lot of people, while she just keeps going and ignores me. She has to understand that I have a reputation to take care of and I cant do some embarassing things in front of them. You know how girls act. They want men to follow them so they will feel good about themselves. No way Im gonna do something like that.
And whats her problem anyway? I just did something that I can enjoy. Its not that I like Cherry. She's just gorgeous and hot! And no man can ever resist her seduces. Rinoa wont understand that. She didnt understand men.
She has to be atleast happy that I lend her my time to go to the store. But she doesnt appreciate those SIMPLE things I do for her. Isnt the love that Im showing her aint enough???
We have to atleast talk about it. If she doesnt want to clear everything, then thats her loss....
Im going to her right now....
RINOA
I drifted asleep while crying.....
The knock on the door woke me up. I opened it and saw Squall.
"We need to talk", he said.
"There's nothing more to talk about, I know everything", I try to close the door but he pushed it open and he went in.
"Look, you have to listen, I'm famous, and you know that. So a lot of people know me. I cant help it if that girl is just trying to break us. But you dont have to believe her. That will just let her win because she has successfully destroy us. But you wont let her, will you?", after saying that he leans to me and tries to kiss me but I pushed him off.
"Its the same excuse the last time! And the time before that, and before that! Squall, I know your just putting me on! You probably think I dont notice but Squall, Im not blind! You are good with excuses and words and sometimes those words and your sweet talks just flipped me off and let me forget about your mistakes and you end up getting away with it. But Squall, I have already learned my lesson. You know Squall, I love you very much... I can take everything your putting on me. But to cheat on my like that, its unfair! You've been using your work as an excuse not to be with me... and to bed some girl you meet at the bar. And to tell her that you dont have a girlfriend coz its just a pain for you!!"
Squall didnt answer even a word. He didnt even defend himself. But even if he did, all the word that's gonna come out of his mouth are lies.
Then I slowly say.. "And since your girlfriend is just a pain for you, I think that, we should break up.. Im sorry"
"You think so?............ then FINE......", those are his only words before he left and slammed the door. I couldn believe it. He didnt even act as if he still doesnt want to break up! Its like its more of his pleasure!
My eyes began to water again and I began to cry again.... Our relationship's has been in a lot of ups and downs... There comes a point that we broke up temporarily. But he begs me to come back after I tries to break him up. And he makes promises that he'll change. But I always pity him (or should myself) and end up going back to him.. coz I have to admit, I cant afford to live without him.. But today, it looks like this is it.... He's doesnt want me back........
SQUALL
Rinoa and I is officially over. I tried to explain which of course is half-lie. I dont think well get back together like before. (Or maybe she'll be begging me to take her back) Either way... its her loss.. not mine.. I could get any female I want. She wasted her opportunities to be with me. A lot of girls has been begging me to be their boyfriend but instead, I courted her. Its a mistake for her to dumped me. She'll regret it.......
I went to the quad to be alone. I have no more girlfriend. I should be atleast happy. The rope that been tied in my neck has finally been cut..... I saw Nida, my bestfriend on my way to the quad and he decided to go with me.
"Rinoa and me just broke up", I told him the news right away.
"What?!, that's terrible, men.. I'm sorry for you"
"No.. that's ok.. She thinks that having fun once in a while for us men is bad.... She found out about Cherry", i told him.
"I told you, men... You'll never get away with it.. Of course its bad! You gotta understand female..", Nida said with concern.
"HAHAHA! You're funny, Nida.. You, the king of Joker?! Suddenly the most serious guy?! hahahah... I havent seen you like that before", I laughed histerically then go on.. "But you know, Im so sick of Rinoa being so possesive me.. She's too caring , you know what Im saying? Its annoying sometimes... I want some freedom.."
"But why cheat on her?"
I dont really have anything to answer but I managed to say "I dunno.. maybe coz I dont wanna focus on her too much."
"Why? of course you have to focus on her.. She's you girl.. Dont you love her?"
I know the answer but I wont tell Nida about it.. Its for myself to keep. Even he's my bestfriend..
"........."
Nida go on "You know, I never had a girlfriend. But I wished I will have someday.. And when I finally found her, I swear with my life that I'll take care of her.. Squall, you have something that I dont have, dont lose it."
"What do you know about girls, I can practically have any girl that I want and I have girls chasing me.. Its too boring sometimes."
"You have a big-head Squall... but you know, Rinoa is different.. To tell you the truth, I used to have a crush on her before. I envy you coz she's mad about you.. She love you very much that I'd do anything to have the special attention she gave you... But then I realize that I cant have her.. I try to push my feelings away.. coz your my bestfriend.. But it hurts for me to see her being taken for granted by you. Squall, as a friend.. here's my advice.. Rinoa is special.. very special.. dont lose her now."
"Well Nida, she's all yours!" I said half-heartedly as I left him alone in the quad. But as I walked away, I heard him shouted
"I cant! You're meant to be! Dont be foolish enough to let her go!"
Nida is so sick! Rinoa and I are through. I dont like it that much but I dont hate it either.......
RINOA
I sat in my bed staring at the ripped pictures of me and Squall. We'll never get back together. I know I still dont have the strength to be without him. I wasnt ready yet. But he took it seriously. That just proves that he doesnt want me anymore.
I was getting ready to throw away the pictures when the phone rang. I hesitated. I let it rang for a while. Then I finally answered it .
"Hello?"
"Hey! How are you?", said a male voice from the other line.
"Who is this?", I asked.
"Its me Zell", said the voice.
"Oh hi Zell!" my heart sanked. Im kinda expecting that Squall would call.
"How are you doing? I met Nida on my way to the cafeteria and he said that you and Squall has already broken up. Is this true?"
"Uhmmm.. yeah", suddenly tears came out of my eyes again.
"Rin, are you ok? Were you crying? You want me to kick his ass?" Zell asked.
"No, Zell that's ok." I admire Zell being a good friend but sometimes I just want to be alone.
"Uhmm.. Zell, could I just be alone right now? You know.. Its not that I dont want to talk.. I went through a lot. You know...."
"Rin, thats ok. I understand. Just take care of yourself. Ok? Call me if you need me... bye", Zell said.
I was all alone in my gloomy room. I cant take the silence. I decided to take a walk. I left leaving my messy room full of scattered pictures. I dont think I can throw them right now......
I decided to go to the secret area that Squall showed me that he said was shown by him by Quistis. Quistis and I didnt get along that much. I know that she likes Squall. And he chose me. Quistis probably hates me but I dont really care. I have Selphie and Zell as my best buds. Maybe Quisis is rejoicing right now after hearing the news or maybe they'll be together. Thoughts of Quistis and Squall wants to escape my mind. I dont really want to think about them or HIM at all.
I reached the said secret area. I didnt go here because it reminded me so much of our fond memories with Squall. I think this is the best place for a lonely destroyed young woman like me. I went to the balcony and stare at the sight of Balamb Garden. Seeing it makes me want to leave the place. I cant bare to live there knowing that my ex is only a 2-minute walk away.
Just as I was starting to cry again. Somebody touched me in my shoulder and handed me a white handkerchief with a manly scent. I took it then wipe away my tears. I turned around to see who it was. I was surprised as the man I saw standing next to me!
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Who is that man who gave Rinoa the handkerchief? Is it Squall who is ready to reconcile with her?
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Tell what you think! Please R/R!! I will really appreciate it. Stay tuned for Chapter 3!
Please more reviews please!!!!!! The more reviews, the faster I'll update it.
LOSS
RINOA
Without saying a word, I grabbed my grocery bag from Squall, and walked out of the store and walked as fast as I could. I didnt even bother to look back. But even so, I know he didnt even follow me, or even try to explain! What a pathetic guy he is! I couldnt help it but fresh hot tears roll down my cheek. I half expected him to follow me, try to clear things out, say sorry or something.. that way there might be a way I could have forgiven him. But he didnt!!!
I guess my suspicions are right all along. He didnt love me... He never loved me!!!!
I went straight to my dorm room. I ignored everyone in sight who ask me what's wrong. Its so obvious I have a problem. Everyone can tell. But I didnt say a word to anybody on my way to my dorm. When I reached my room, I locked the door and cried my heart out.
I cant believe he did that. All this time I thought I didnt understand him because he has work. I thought Im the one who has a problem. I thought I was juz being nuts because Squall cant spend some time with me. But after I finally realized that I shouldnt be selfish, that I was just over-reacting of his actions, I found out that its no work he's doing! He's just hooking up with some sexy b@!%$ every night!
WHY????
SQUALL
She found out. Damn! Im stupid! But she also has problem there! She DIDNT even let me explain. She just walks out on me embarrassing me to the store keeper. I wouldnt be a fool enough to follow her like a sick dog down the street saying my "sorry's" in front of a lot of people, while she just keeps going and ignores me. She has to understand that I have a reputation to take care of and I cant do some embarassing things in front of them. You know how girls act. They want men to follow them so they will feel good about themselves. No way Im gonna do something like that.
And whats her problem anyway? I just did something that I can enjoy. Its not that I like Cherry. She's just gorgeous and hot! And no man can ever resist her seduces. Rinoa wont understand that. She didnt understand men.
She has to be atleast happy that I lend her my time to go to the store. But she doesnt appreciate those SIMPLE things I do for her. Isnt the love that Im showing her aint enough???
We have to atleast talk about it. If she doesnt want to clear everything, then thats her loss....
Im going to her right now....
RINOA
I drifted asleep while crying.....
The knock on the door woke me up. I opened it and saw Squall.
"We need to talk", he said.
"There's nothing more to talk about, I know everything", I try to close the door but he pushed it open and he went in.
"Look, you have to listen, I'm famous, and you know that. So a lot of people know me. I cant help it if that girl is just trying to break us. But you dont have to believe her. That will just let her win because she has successfully destroy us. But you wont let her, will you?", after saying that he leans to me and tries to kiss me but I pushed him off.
"Its the same excuse the last time! And the time before that, and before that! Squall, I know your just putting me on! You probably think I dont notice but Squall, Im not blind! You are good with excuses and words and sometimes those words and your sweet talks just flipped me off and let me forget about your mistakes and you end up getting away with it. But Squall, I have already learned my lesson. You know Squall, I love you very much... I can take everything your putting on me. But to cheat on my like that, its unfair! You've been using your work as an excuse not to be with me... and to bed some girl you meet at the bar. And to tell her that you dont have a girlfriend coz its just a pain for you!!"
Squall didnt answer even a word. He didnt even defend himself. But even if he did, all the word that's gonna come out of his mouth are lies.
Then I slowly say.. "And since your girlfriend is just a pain for you, I think that, we should break up.. Im sorry"
"You think so?............ then FINE......", those are his only words before he left and slammed the door. I couldn believe it. He didnt even act as if he still doesnt want to break up! Its like its more of his pleasure!
My eyes began to water again and I began to cry again.... Our relationship's has been in a lot of ups and downs... There comes a point that we broke up temporarily. But he begs me to come back after I tries to break him up. And he makes promises that he'll change. But I always pity him (or should myself) and end up going back to him.. coz I have to admit, I cant afford to live without him.. But today, it looks like this is it.... He's doesnt want me back........
SQUALL
Rinoa and I is officially over. I tried to explain which of course is half-lie. I dont think well get back together like before. (Or maybe she'll be begging me to take her back) Either way... its her loss.. not mine.. I could get any female I want. She wasted her opportunities to be with me. A lot of girls has been begging me to be their boyfriend but instead, I courted her. Its a mistake for her to dumped me. She'll regret it.......
I went to the quad to be alone. I have no more girlfriend. I should be atleast happy. The rope that been tied in my neck has finally been cut..... I saw Nida, my bestfriend on my way to the quad and he decided to go with me.
"Rinoa and me just broke up", I told him the news right away.
"What?!, that's terrible, men.. I'm sorry for you"
"No.. that's ok.. She thinks that having fun once in a while for us men is bad.... She found out about Cherry", i told him.
"I told you, men... You'll never get away with it.. Of course its bad! You gotta understand female..", Nida said with concern.
"HAHAHA! You're funny, Nida.. You, the king of Joker?! Suddenly the most serious guy?! hahahah... I havent seen you like that before", I laughed histerically then go on.. "But you know, Im so sick of Rinoa being so possesive me.. She's too caring , you know what Im saying? Its annoying sometimes... I want some freedom.."
"But why cheat on her?"
I dont really have anything to answer but I managed to say "I dunno.. maybe coz I dont wanna focus on her too much."
"Why? of course you have to focus on her.. She's you girl.. Dont you love her?"
I know the answer but I wont tell Nida about it.. Its for myself to keep. Even he's my bestfriend..
"........."
Nida go on "You know, I never had a girlfriend. But I wished I will have someday.. And when I finally found her, I swear with my life that I'll take care of her.. Squall, you have something that I dont have, dont lose it."
"What do you know about girls, I can practically have any girl that I want and I have girls chasing me.. Its too boring sometimes."
"You have a big-head Squall... but you know, Rinoa is different.. To tell you the truth, I used to have a crush on her before. I envy you coz she's mad about you.. She love you very much that I'd do anything to have the special attention she gave you... But then I realize that I cant have her.. I try to push my feelings away.. coz your my bestfriend.. But it hurts for me to see her being taken for granted by you. Squall, as a friend.. here's my advice.. Rinoa is special.. very special.. dont lose her now."
"Well Nida, she's all yours!" I said half-heartedly as I left him alone in the quad. But as I walked away, I heard him shouted
"I cant! You're meant to be! Dont be foolish enough to let her go!"
Nida is so sick! Rinoa and I are through. I dont like it that much but I dont hate it either.......
RINOA
I sat in my bed staring at the ripped pictures of me and Squall. We'll never get back together. I know I still dont have the strength to be without him. I wasnt ready yet. But he took it seriously. That just proves that he doesnt want me anymore.
I was getting ready to throw away the pictures when the phone rang. I hesitated. I let it rang for a while. Then I finally answered it .
"Hello?"
"Hey! How are you?", said a male voice from the other line.
"Who is this?", I asked.
"Its me Zell", said the voice.
"Oh hi Zell!" my heart sanked. Im kinda expecting that Squall would call.
"How are you doing? I met Nida on my way to the cafeteria and he said that you and Squall has already broken up. Is this true?"
"Uhmmm.. yeah", suddenly tears came out of my eyes again.
"Rin, are you ok? Were you crying? You want me to kick his ass?" Zell asked.
"No, Zell that's ok." I admire Zell being a good friend but sometimes I just want to be alone.
"Uhmm.. Zell, could I just be alone right now? You know.. Its not that I dont want to talk.. I went through a lot. You know...."
"Rin, thats ok. I understand. Just take care of yourself. Ok? Call me if you need me... bye", Zell said.
I was all alone in my gloomy room. I cant take the silence. I decided to take a walk. I left leaving my messy room full of scattered pictures. I dont think I can throw them right now......
I decided to go to the secret area that Squall showed me that he said was shown by him by Quistis. Quistis and I didnt get along that much. I know that she likes Squall. And he chose me. Quistis probably hates me but I dont really care. I have Selphie and Zell as my best buds. Maybe Quisis is rejoicing right now after hearing the news or maybe they'll be together. Thoughts of Quistis and Squall wants to escape my mind. I dont really want to think about them or HIM at all.
I reached the said secret area. I didnt go here because it reminded me so much of our fond memories with Squall. I think this is the best place for a lonely destroyed young woman like me. I went to the balcony and stare at the sight of Balamb Garden. Seeing it makes me want to leave the place. I cant bare to live there knowing that my ex is only a 2-minute walk away.
Just as I was starting to cry again. Somebody touched me in my shoulder and handed me a white handkerchief with a manly scent. I took it then wipe away my tears. I turned around to see who it was. I was surprised as the man I saw standing next to me!
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Who is that man who gave Rinoa the handkerchief? Is it Squall who is ready to reconcile with her?
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Tell what you think! Please R/R!! I will really appreciate it. Stay tuned for Chapter 3!
Please more reviews please!!!!!! The more reviews, the faster I'll update it.