CHAPTER 3:
CONFUSION
RINOA
I turned around to see no other than Seifer!
"What are you doing here?",I asked after wiping my tears with his handkerchief.
"I followed you. I heard you and Squall finally break up."
"Yeah...", I said then burst into tears once again.
"That's ok... Im here", he said then he took me in his arms.
I wasn't able to control myself. I like the feeling of a man's arms comforting me. Even if it was Seifer, the very same man we were fighting before. But I couldn't help it. I need someone. And he was here....
SQUALL
I tried my best to sleep. But I cant. After the talk with Nida, it seems like my conscience wont let me get away with it. I know I was being harsh on her. But I dont have a choice. It feels good that someone need you. I want her to feel that way. And it also feels good that she's mourning with my loss. I'm her everything and she's probably regretting the fact that she dumped me. But soon, maybe she'll be begging me to come back to her. I know she wont last. (Just as me.. to Ellone) She'll be seeking for me......
The next morning, I feel somehow good, like something good is about to happen. I went to tour the school like it was my first time here. I stopped by the cafeteria first so I can take out a nice breakfast. I saw Zell then greeted him, but he didnt say a word. He just ignored me like I was a complete stranger. Oh well, maybe he just didnt notice me. He's too busy munching on his hotdog.
After I bought a hamburger, I decided to go to the library. I dont really like reading books. And I havent visited the Library for like months. The last time I was there was when Rinoa asked me to go with her coz she's gonna borrow a book. She's so into books especially the romantic novels.
I was thinking, what if she's there. After all, she love the library so much. What if we "accidentally" meet there. Oh well, I'll just say Im just visiting the library. Or maybe I could come out of an excuse. Like Cid told me to research on a secret GF that has never been found or something. Oh well, might as well go there now and say what comes out of my mouth.
The library is so dull.
(but what am I here)
I heard some girls chatting in the reading section. I looked around the place. (no sign of her) I went to check out the novel section.
(but still no sign of her)
Well, Im not to to look for her here.. Definitely "NOT".
I notice the librarian looked at me like I was lost or something. I try to find an excuse why I am here. I quickly grabbed a book and pretended to read.
(Maybe if I stay a little longer she'll show up..)
Ten minutes have passed and I was still sitting there in my chair holding the same book that I got earlier with still page that I turned to earlier. This is so boring. I never really like the Library. But I went here anyway not sure of the real reason Im here. Im intimidated by the librarian who is still giving me odd looks like I dont have the right to be here.
That's it. Im leaving
I left the library and couldnt decide where to go next. It really doesnt matter coz I have no more 'boss' who'll interrogate me where I've been and what did I do. I can go to Cherry's house if I want to. But I decided not to. I decided to go to the quad instead. That's where Selphie and hmmm.... usually hang out. Yeah.. That's right. That's the perfect place.
So I made my way to the quad.
I was coming closer to the stage, when I already heard voices. Its Zell's and Irvine's. Maybe Selphie is here,too.
(She's probably here also)
I dont really have no idea what to say.
"Hi guys! What ya doin? Did you see my ...... uhmmm.. my earrings? I seem to have left it here last night?" What a lame excuse. Of course I know where my earrings are. I put it in my drawer this morning. I dunno... I just dont have anything to say.
Zell answered coldly, "No." Then turn around to face Irvine and Selphie again.
I scanned the place and I didnt see her. She probably isnt with her friends today. I stand there as if waiting for them to ask me to join them. But instead, they return to their business as if Im invisible. Then I finally blurted, "Ok, well see yah guys, I have to get going."
There was no reply. That's odd! Not even Selphie with her usual cheerful mood bother to greet me or atleast say goodbye. What's their problem? This is suppose to be a good day....
RINOA
I woke up this morning with my eyes so sore from all the crying last night. But the loneliness seem to have left a little. I didnt woke up with mmy usual bed or in my usual room. Im in Seifer's room. Yeah.. Thats right. Im really here in Seifer's room. But we didnt do anything like what you're thinking. He slept in his couch instead. Of course the moment I stepped in here last night, I was still scared to come with him. But he was so hospitable and he listened to my problems with sincerity. He notice Im kinda nervous so he assured me that he wouldnt do such a thing. That way, he let me feel relieved....
We talked a lot last night. I got to know him better. He lives here in an apartment in Balamb Town because he wasnt allowed to stay their in Balamb Garden because of the past incident. Headmaster didnt trust him anymore. But he was allowed to take classe in Garden. He was re-admitted only because he agreed to do community service. But thats it. He can only study there but not actually live there like we do.
He said his life has been terrible the last 6 months. He wanted to change but a lot of people dont trust him anymore. He was feared by a lot thats why people avoided him. He doesnt have friends except for Fujin and Raijin who are still very supportive. But they were sent to Galbadia Garden and was appointed instructors. So they rarely get in touch. He was so lonely. I pity him. I was the only person who believes him........
My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. He asks if he can come in. I said 'yes'.
"How are you? Feeling any better?", Seifer asks with concern.
"Yeah.. I guess...", I tried my best to smile. But instead, tears came streamin' down my face. "No, you're not. I can't afford to see you like this. It hurts me. tell me what can I do to lessen the pain." Seifer inch closer to me feeling uneasy if he's gonna hug me or what.
"I dunno, Seifer.. I don't know if I should still go on in living. My world tore apart when we broke up. My life has no more meaning. Squall is my everything. But to him, Im just nothing! And he's gone now. I dunno what to do.....", I cried again, for like, a millionth time since we broke up.
"Seifer.... I'm lost... Did I do the right thing? Or I should have been more patient on him?"
"Rinoa... Squall's a jerk. He did the cruelest thing a guy could ever do to you. I know you love him. And I have no competiton compared to him. But I just want you to know... that I'm here always.. for you.", With these words, I'm convinced that Seifer has changed. And here's with me. Maybe I'm just blind all along. I refuse to see that Seifer's the one for me. After all, he's my first love. But after all the past incidents, I was afraid of him. But now, in my time of grief, he's here. Ready to listen to me. Im coming face to face with a new Seifer. A better Seifer..... Then I made a quick decision.....
"Uhmmm.. Seifer.... Can I stay here for awhile?"
SQUALL
I can't believe it! This is like the most boring day ever! I spent the whole day touring the school without finding anything "special". Well Im finally single again. And if that isn't fun enough. But I wonder why I wasn't having fun yet. Well.. its just one day! And maybe right now, Rinoa is crying.. regretting everything.. Good for her. I know she wants me back. But if ever she asks me to take her back... I wont.. yeah.. that's right... let her cry, mourn, grieve...
Walking aroung the campus makes me tired. I hurried to my room to get some rest. I saw my phone. I pressed a button and it says... "No messages." hmmm... That's really odd. What could she be doing right now? I didnt see her all day long. Maybe she didn't bother to get of bed. Maybe that's right.... There's no more possible explanation for this......
(What am I doing?? Why am I thinking about her. It's not like I care... right??? I don't need her...... She needs me. But why doesn't she look for me?????? What's happenning? This is not what I expect it to be.........)
Maybe tomorrow...........
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Days passed... It's been quite some time now since we broke up. And I never saw her ever since. Is she dead? Commit suicide?? nah.... She's not that type.. But where could she possibly be???? Did she left? How come I don't know? I'm not going to her room to check her out.... no way.. let her suffer......
"Hey men! Wanna go out with us in the bar?", Nida asked.
"I'm not in the mood.....", I answered.
"Oh c'mon! I notice your'e not going with us lately. Your'e missing a lot, men! Let's have some fun."
"Alright.....", It's not that I really want to... It's just like I have no choice. But maybe going to the bar will change my mood... probably... probably not....
The bar is as noisy as usual. I dunno.. but I used to like it. Now, I feel irritated. (What's wrong with me??)
My friends are talking something that I'm not seemed to be involve. It seems like I have a world of my own here. I like bars... the sounds, the beer, the hot babes... almost everything.. But now, I look at it as some dull place full of boring people. Of course, it's not quite true. But..... it's so weird.. something's obviously missing... Moments later, my thoughts was interrupted by a female dressed in a skimpy bikini as if she was on a beach.
"Hi! Gorgeous! Wanna have some fun, tonight?",. she asked seductively.. She's hot alright but I don't think I'm in the mood.. Not until I find the anwers that are continously circling my mind.
"No thanks...", then I left her looking petrified as if she was ridiculed.
I spot a lonely girl sitting by the end long table drinking a beer. She has this same long, brown hair as Rinoa's.... I noticed my feet is taking me closer and closer to this woman. Until I was completely behind her. I wasn't exactly sure what to say. But I feel I have to need to talk to her...
"Excuse me.... can we talk?"
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What's Squall gonna say? Are they gonna be back together again? stay tune and find out!!!
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Please... I need to know what you think... Reviews please.....................................
Chapter 4 is up so stay tuned for it!!!
CONFUSION
RINOA
I turned around to see no other than Seifer!
"What are you doing here?",I asked after wiping my tears with his handkerchief.
"I followed you. I heard you and Squall finally break up."
"Yeah...", I said then burst into tears once again.
"That's ok... Im here", he said then he took me in his arms.
I wasn't able to control myself. I like the feeling of a man's arms comforting me. Even if it was Seifer, the very same man we were fighting before. But I couldn't help it. I need someone. And he was here....
SQUALL
I tried my best to sleep. But I cant. After the talk with Nida, it seems like my conscience wont let me get away with it. I know I was being harsh on her. But I dont have a choice. It feels good that someone need you. I want her to feel that way. And it also feels good that she's mourning with my loss. I'm her everything and she's probably regretting the fact that she dumped me. But soon, maybe she'll be begging me to come back to her. I know she wont last. (Just as me.. to Ellone) She'll be seeking for me......
The next morning, I feel somehow good, like something good is about to happen. I went to tour the school like it was my first time here. I stopped by the cafeteria first so I can take out a nice breakfast. I saw Zell then greeted him, but he didnt say a word. He just ignored me like I was a complete stranger. Oh well, maybe he just didnt notice me. He's too busy munching on his hotdog.
After I bought a hamburger, I decided to go to the library. I dont really like reading books. And I havent visited the Library for like months. The last time I was there was when Rinoa asked me to go with her coz she's gonna borrow a book. She's so into books especially the romantic novels.
I was thinking, what if she's there. After all, she love the library so much. What if we "accidentally" meet there. Oh well, I'll just say Im just visiting the library. Or maybe I could come out of an excuse. Like Cid told me to research on a secret GF that has never been found or something. Oh well, might as well go there now and say what comes out of my mouth.
The library is so dull.
(but what am I here)
I heard some girls chatting in the reading section. I looked around the place. (no sign of her) I went to check out the novel section.
(but still no sign of her)
Well, Im not to to look for her here.. Definitely "NOT".
I notice the librarian looked at me like I was lost or something. I try to find an excuse why I am here. I quickly grabbed a book and pretended to read.
(Maybe if I stay a little longer she'll show up..)
Ten minutes have passed and I was still sitting there in my chair holding the same book that I got earlier with still page that I turned to earlier. This is so boring. I never really like the Library. But I went here anyway not sure of the real reason Im here. Im intimidated by the librarian who is still giving me odd looks like I dont have the right to be here.
That's it. Im leaving
I left the library and couldnt decide where to go next. It really doesnt matter coz I have no more 'boss' who'll interrogate me where I've been and what did I do. I can go to Cherry's house if I want to. But I decided not to. I decided to go to the quad instead. That's where Selphie and hmmm.... usually hang out. Yeah.. That's right. That's the perfect place.
So I made my way to the quad.
I was coming closer to the stage, when I already heard voices. Its Zell's and Irvine's. Maybe Selphie is here,too.
(She's probably here also)
I dont really have no idea what to say.
"Hi guys! What ya doin? Did you see my ...... uhmmm.. my earrings? I seem to have left it here last night?" What a lame excuse. Of course I know where my earrings are. I put it in my drawer this morning. I dunno... I just dont have anything to say.
Zell answered coldly, "No." Then turn around to face Irvine and Selphie again.
I scanned the place and I didnt see her. She probably isnt with her friends today. I stand there as if waiting for them to ask me to join them. But instead, they return to their business as if Im invisible. Then I finally blurted, "Ok, well see yah guys, I have to get going."
There was no reply. That's odd! Not even Selphie with her usual cheerful mood bother to greet me or atleast say goodbye. What's their problem? This is suppose to be a good day....
RINOA
I woke up this morning with my eyes so sore from all the crying last night. But the loneliness seem to have left a little. I didnt woke up with mmy usual bed or in my usual room. Im in Seifer's room. Yeah.. Thats right. Im really here in Seifer's room. But we didnt do anything like what you're thinking. He slept in his couch instead. Of course the moment I stepped in here last night, I was still scared to come with him. But he was so hospitable and he listened to my problems with sincerity. He notice Im kinda nervous so he assured me that he wouldnt do such a thing. That way, he let me feel relieved....
We talked a lot last night. I got to know him better. He lives here in an apartment in Balamb Town because he wasnt allowed to stay their in Balamb Garden because of the past incident. Headmaster didnt trust him anymore. But he was allowed to take classe in Garden. He was re-admitted only because he agreed to do community service. But thats it. He can only study there but not actually live there like we do.
He said his life has been terrible the last 6 months. He wanted to change but a lot of people dont trust him anymore. He was feared by a lot thats why people avoided him. He doesnt have friends except for Fujin and Raijin who are still very supportive. But they were sent to Galbadia Garden and was appointed instructors. So they rarely get in touch. He was so lonely. I pity him. I was the only person who believes him........
My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. He asks if he can come in. I said 'yes'.
"How are you? Feeling any better?", Seifer asks with concern.
"Yeah.. I guess...", I tried my best to smile. But instead, tears came streamin' down my face. "No, you're not. I can't afford to see you like this. It hurts me. tell me what can I do to lessen the pain." Seifer inch closer to me feeling uneasy if he's gonna hug me or what.
"I dunno, Seifer.. I don't know if I should still go on in living. My world tore apart when we broke up. My life has no more meaning. Squall is my everything. But to him, Im just nothing! And he's gone now. I dunno what to do.....", I cried again, for like, a millionth time since we broke up.
"Seifer.... I'm lost... Did I do the right thing? Or I should have been more patient on him?"
"Rinoa... Squall's a jerk. He did the cruelest thing a guy could ever do to you. I know you love him. And I have no competiton compared to him. But I just want you to know... that I'm here always.. for you.", With these words, I'm convinced that Seifer has changed. And here's with me. Maybe I'm just blind all along. I refuse to see that Seifer's the one for me. After all, he's my first love. But after all the past incidents, I was afraid of him. But now, in my time of grief, he's here. Ready to listen to me. Im coming face to face with a new Seifer. A better Seifer..... Then I made a quick decision.....
"Uhmmm.. Seifer.... Can I stay here for awhile?"
SQUALL
I can't believe it! This is like the most boring day ever! I spent the whole day touring the school without finding anything "special". Well Im finally single again. And if that isn't fun enough. But I wonder why I wasn't having fun yet. Well.. its just one day! And maybe right now, Rinoa is crying.. regretting everything.. Good for her. I know she wants me back. But if ever she asks me to take her back... I wont.. yeah.. that's right... let her cry, mourn, grieve...
Walking aroung the campus makes me tired. I hurried to my room to get some rest. I saw my phone. I pressed a button and it says... "No messages." hmmm... That's really odd. What could she be doing right now? I didnt see her all day long. Maybe she didn't bother to get of bed. Maybe that's right.... There's no more possible explanation for this......
(What am I doing?? Why am I thinking about her. It's not like I care... right??? I don't need her...... She needs me. But why doesn't she look for me?????? What's happenning? This is not what I expect it to be.........)
Maybe tomorrow...........
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Days passed... It's been quite some time now since we broke up. And I never saw her ever since. Is she dead? Commit suicide?? nah.... She's not that type.. But where could she possibly be???? Did she left? How come I don't know? I'm not going to her room to check her out.... no way.. let her suffer......
"Hey men! Wanna go out with us in the bar?", Nida asked.
"I'm not in the mood.....", I answered.
"Oh c'mon! I notice your'e not going with us lately. Your'e missing a lot, men! Let's have some fun."
"Alright.....", It's not that I really want to... It's just like I have no choice. But maybe going to the bar will change my mood... probably... probably not....
The bar is as noisy as usual. I dunno.. but I used to like it. Now, I feel irritated. (What's wrong with me??)
My friends are talking something that I'm not seemed to be involve. It seems like I have a world of my own here. I like bars... the sounds, the beer, the hot babes... almost everything.. But now, I look at it as some dull place full of boring people. Of course, it's not quite true. But..... it's so weird.. something's obviously missing... Moments later, my thoughts was interrupted by a female dressed in a skimpy bikini as if she was on a beach.
"Hi! Gorgeous! Wanna have some fun, tonight?",. she asked seductively.. She's hot alright but I don't think I'm in the mood.. Not until I find the anwers that are continously circling my mind.
"No thanks...", then I left her looking petrified as if she was ridiculed.
I spot a lonely girl sitting by the end long table drinking a beer. She has this same long, brown hair as Rinoa's.... I noticed my feet is taking me closer and closer to this woman. Until I was completely behind her. I wasn't exactly sure what to say. But I feel I have to need to talk to her...
"Excuse me.... can we talk?"
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What's Squall gonna say? Are they gonna be back together again? stay tune and find out!!!
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Please... I need to know what you think... Reviews please.....................................
Chapter 4 is up so stay tuned for it!!!