CHAPTER 5:
FLOWERS
RINOA
It happened all so fast.And before you know it, Seifer and I were already an item....
It was just 2 days ago....
*I was standing outside admiring the splendid view from his balcony when someone asked if I could be disturbed. Of course eventhough I'd rather be alone I gladly let him interrupt my course of thinking yet another useless topic. Its probably much better to talk to Seifer than let myself lead to a breakdown over my break up with Squall. I'm not yet over him. And I don't I will ever be. But it doesn't mean I wont go on with my life. I can, but in a miserable way. And here's Seifer. Always ready to hold back my tears who are threatening to fall any minute. He's really a changed man. I admit, I don't completely trust him ever since my stay here. Its not like I have a choice. This is the only place I can run to... whether I trust him or not...
But now, I can safely say that I DO trust me. I was actually amazed with the attitude he's showing me. For the past few days, he has been completely supportive, he hadn't even tried to take advantage of me, he respects and understands my decisions, actions even when I get to yell at him for having a bad day.
I blame him sometimes for my misfortunes and failures. But now, I regret for having to do those things.
Anyway, enough of my endless thoughts again. Here am I standing an inch away from the man who was the object of my thoughts earlier.
"What are you thinking?", Seifer asked not knowing he is the answer to his question.
"Oh nothing...", I lied.
There is moment of silence. I felt uneasy.... Then finally blurted...
"Why?"
Seifer seemed confused. "What?"
"Why are you being so kind to me? I mean we treat you as an enemy, a threat, and yet you just don't give up on following me even on my darkest hour? Nobody has been like that to me.".
Seifer looked at me strraight in the eyes. "Because Rinoa... I love you".. I was shocked. Squall has been having trouble saying that to me. "But I'm not expecting you to love me back. I mean, compared to Squall, I'm nothing. But all I want is for you to give me a chance. Just one chance...."
Then he leans to me and kissed me. I didn't resist. *
That's where it all started. I know you might think that I'm rushing to another relationship just right after a terrible one. I can't help it. I just feel so alone. And Seifer is there to give me the attention I need. I don't really love him yet... but maybe I will finally learn to love him someday.. meanwhile.. I'll give him a chance.....
SQUALL
Another week had passed. And I still haven't heard about Rinoa's whereabouts. Im feeling hopeless. I find the courage to ask Zell where she is. But he said he don't know.
"She left the Garden but didn't tell where she's going. Just leave her alone, ok?! I know wherever she is right now, she's happy or atleast still finding her hapinness. So don't bother her anymore." Those words of Zell's replay continously on my mind. It was obvious he was still furious of me for hurting Rinoa. I know why.. But now, I'm trying to make up for my mistakes before. But I don't think he wants to give me a chance.
I miss her.... If only I didn't take her fo granted. Maybe she's still with me. All I need is just one chance to prove her.... But she's nowhere to be found.
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The decided to go for a walk in the town.My friends are out-of-town and I refused to go with them. Probably because, I know I wont find her there. So all alone, no set direction, I walked letting my feet took me wherever they want. I passed by the store where Rinoa found out about me cheating on her. I hate that place. Seeing that place makes me sick... If only I could turn back the time......
I also passsed by the flower shop where I remembered taking Rinoa there and promised to give her any flower of her choice. For the first time, like in days, I smiled. I saw a vision of Rinoa picking and smelling the flowers one by one. Sigh.. Wish I could touch her now...
Wait a minute... this is no vision, its real! Rinoa IS there! For a minute I thought I was just seeing things, probably because I think of her too much. But to my surprise, I realized that what I'm seeing is definitely real. A gush of excitement run through my spine.
"Hi Rinoa...Miss me?", no..no.. that's a bad approach.. how about? "Hey Rinoa, I kinda miss you.. Do you think we should get back together?".. no.. too straight-forward.. How about if I ask just her to talk.. that could work.
With a stored courage, I took a step forward.. then another.. then ano.....
WAIT!
Something stopped me. A figure of man who is slightly blocked earlier by some baskets of flower came out of its position and walked slowly to Rinoa then bend down and GASP.....!! He did something I never dare imagined he would do. He kissed Rinoa... right in my very eyes!!!!!!
I took a better look of the strange man who is messing with MY girl.
(He somehow looks familliar.....)
But at my distance, I can't clearly identify the man. I hid in the nearby post to have a better view of who is this man she's been going out with....
With a few seconds of examination, I realized the awful truth!!
ITS SEIFER!!!!
RINOA
Earlier this day, I was going over my stuff to fix the mess I made inside my mini bag on the day I left Balamb Garden. Of course its a mess coz that day, I was just too miserable that's why I just throw there all my junks without trying to put them in an orderly manner. I was in a hurry to get out of Balamb. And up to this day, I never dared to open it thinking it will only bring tears to my eyes because most of the stuff there would only remind me of Squall.
Today, I find the courage to open it and to atleast organize my things and put some of them in my new room. My eyes caught my diary which I haven't updated for a while since I broke up with Squall. I find myself opening it to the page where some dried petals of flowers placed between the pages.And below the withered petals, were dates. I used to keep all the flowers that Squall had given me and wrote what date he had given it to me....
I try my best not to cry again.
The door opened behind me.
"What are you doing?" Seifer asked then sat beside me.
"Oh nothing I was just organizing my stuff, you know... It's quite a mess."
"It really is a mess." Seifer's eyes wander around then finally stopped on the pictures that wer'e still scattered inside the bag. Those pictures are the very same pictures of me and Squall that I hesitated to throw away weeks ago. He picked them up and looked at them one by one. I was kinda nervous of what he was thinking. Here I am sitting next to my new boyfriend while he scans my pictures with my EX-boyfriend. I would like him to think that I'm completely over him by now.(which I dont think is true) But after seeing those pictures that I seem to treat as if they wer'e my treasures, I know that he's thinking that I'm still mad about Squall. (which to honest, is a little bit true)
He put down all the pictures with a blank expression as if he only the most normal thing in the world.
"What's this?", he said as he spot the notebook in my hands with the withered plant in it.
"oh that... Their just dried flowers that Squall had given me long time ago." I answered immediately telling the whole truth thus hurting him.
"I see....", he said trying hard to hide the pain but failing miserably. I felt guilty. I shouldn't have told him that. After all, we are already together and bringing up my past will only damge our relationship.
"So.. it kinda reminded you of Squall", he continued in a normal expression desperately hiding his feelings. I can tell he really wants to know if I still love Squall. But I can't tell him the TRUTH or else it will just hurt the poor guy. That's right, I still love Squall, and no matter how hard I try, the feelings just don't go away. So I have no choice but to surrender to what my heart says.
But I can't afford to lose Seifer.....
"No.. I just love flowers." I answered half-lying, half telling the truth.
Then there's again a moment of silence again......
..................
He finally said, "Hey, you want me to buy you some flowers?", he asked excitedly.
I kinda like the idea. Thank God he didn't take the fact bitterly......
I smiled then say "Sure!".
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What about Squall? How is he gonna take it???
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Again.. thanx for all your reviews... they were all so nice.(but im not saying you can send flames! I hate flaming)
I appreciate it, especially the ones who had reviewed them more than once!!
Anyway.... what do you think of it?? bad??? good??? please tell me and MORE REVIEWS.
I'm working on a better outcome...
R/R
FLOWERS
RINOA
It happened all so fast.And before you know it, Seifer and I were already an item....
It was just 2 days ago....
*I was standing outside admiring the splendid view from his balcony when someone asked if I could be disturbed. Of course eventhough I'd rather be alone I gladly let him interrupt my course of thinking yet another useless topic. Its probably much better to talk to Seifer than let myself lead to a breakdown over my break up with Squall. I'm not yet over him. And I don't I will ever be. But it doesn't mean I wont go on with my life. I can, but in a miserable way. And here's Seifer. Always ready to hold back my tears who are threatening to fall any minute. He's really a changed man. I admit, I don't completely trust him ever since my stay here. Its not like I have a choice. This is the only place I can run to... whether I trust him or not...
But now, I can safely say that I DO trust me. I was actually amazed with the attitude he's showing me. For the past few days, he has been completely supportive, he hadn't even tried to take advantage of me, he respects and understands my decisions, actions even when I get to yell at him for having a bad day.
I blame him sometimes for my misfortunes and failures. But now, I regret for having to do those things.
Anyway, enough of my endless thoughts again. Here am I standing an inch away from the man who was the object of my thoughts earlier.
"What are you thinking?", Seifer asked not knowing he is the answer to his question.
"Oh nothing...", I lied.
There is moment of silence. I felt uneasy.... Then finally blurted...
"Why?"
Seifer seemed confused. "What?"
"Why are you being so kind to me? I mean we treat you as an enemy, a threat, and yet you just don't give up on following me even on my darkest hour? Nobody has been like that to me.".
Seifer looked at me strraight in the eyes. "Because Rinoa... I love you".. I was shocked. Squall has been having trouble saying that to me. "But I'm not expecting you to love me back. I mean, compared to Squall, I'm nothing. But all I want is for you to give me a chance. Just one chance...."
Then he leans to me and kissed me. I didn't resist. *
That's where it all started. I know you might think that I'm rushing to another relationship just right after a terrible one. I can't help it. I just feel so alone. And Seifer is there to give me the attention I need. I don't really love him yet... but maybe I will finally learn to love him someday.. meanwhile.. I'll give him a chance.....
SQUALL
Another week had passed. And I still haven't heard about Rinoa's whereabouts. Im feeling hopeless. I find the courage to ask Zell where she is. But he said he don't know.
"She left the Garden but didn't tell where she's going. Just leave her alone, ok?! I know wherever she is right now, she's happy or atleast still finding her hapinness. So don't bother her anymore." Those words of Zell's replay continously on my mind. It was obvious he was still furious of me for hurting Rinoa. I know why.. But now, I'm trying to make up for my mistakes before. But I don't think he wants to give me a chance.
I miss her.... If only I didn't take her fo granted. Maybe she's still with me. All I need is just one chance to prove her.... But she's nowhere to be found.
------
The decided to go for a walk in the town.My friends are out-of-town and I refused to go with them. Probably because, I know I wont find her there. So all alone, no set direction, I walked letting my feet took me wherever they want. I passed by the store where Rinoa found out about me cheating on her. I hate that place. Seeing that place makes me sick... If only I could turn back the time......
I also passsed by the flower shop where I remembered taking Rinoa there and promised to give her any flower of her choice. For the first time, like in days, I smiled. I saw a vision of Rinoa picking and smelling the flowers one by one. Sigh.. Wish I could touch her now...
Wait a minute... this is no vision, its real! Rinoa IS there! For a minute I thought I was just seeing things, probably because I think of her too much. But to my surprise, I realized that what I'm seeing is definitely real. A gush of excitement run through my spine.
"Hi Rinoa...Miss me?", no..no.. that's a bad approach.. how about? "Hey Rinoa, I kinda miss you.. Do you think we should get back together?".. no.. too straight-forward.. How about if I ask just her to talk.. that could work.
With a stored courage, I took a step forward.. then another.. then ano.....
WAIT!
Something stopped me. A figure of man who is slightly blocked earlier by some baskets of flower came out of its position and walked slowly to Rinoa then bend down and GASP.....!! He did something I never dare imagined he would do. He kissed Rinoa... right in my very eyes!!!!!!
I took a better look of the strange man who is messing with MY girl.
(He somehow looks familliar.....)
But at my distance, I can't clearly identify the man. I hid in the nearby post to have a better view of who is this man she's been going out with....
With a few seconds of examination, I realized the awful truth!!
ITS SEIFER!!!!
RINOA
Earlier this day, I was going over my stuff to fix the mess I made inside my mini bag on the day I left Balamb Garden. Of course its a mess coz that day, I was just too miserable that's why I just throw there all my junks without trying to put them in an orderly manner. I was in a hurry to get out of Balamb. And up to this day, I never dared to open it thinking it will only bring tears to my eyes because most of the stuff there would only remind me of Squall.
Today, I find the courage to open it and to atleast organize my things and put some of them in my new room. My eyes caught my diary which I haven't updated for a while since I broke up with Squall. I find myself opening it to the page where some dried petals of flowers placed between the pages.And below the withered petals, were dates. I used to keep all the flowers that Squall had given me and wrote what date he had given it to me....
I try my best not to cry again.
The door opened behind me.
"What are you doing?" Seifer asked then sat beside me.
"Oh nothing I was just organizing my stuff, you know... It's quite a mess."
"It really is a mess." Seifer's eyes wander around then finally stopped on the pictures that wer'e still scattered inside the bag. Those pictures are the very same pictures of me and Squall that I hesitated to throw away weeks ago. He picked them up and looked at them one by one. I was kinda nervous of what he was thinking. Here I am sitting next to my new boyfriend while he scans my pictures with my EX-boyfriend. I would like him to think that I'm completely over him by now.(which I dont think is true) But after seeing those pictures that I seem to treat as if they wer'e my treasures, I know that he's thinking that I'm still mad about Squall. (which to honest, is a little bit true)
He put down all the pictures with a blank expression as if he only the most normal thing in the world.
"What's this?", he said as he spot the notebook in my hands with the withered plant in it.
"oh that... Their just dried flowers that Squall had given me long time ago." I answered immediately telling the whole truth thus hurting him.
"I see....", he said trying hard to hide the pain but failing miserably. I felt guilty. I shouldn't have told him that. After all, we are already together and bringing up my past will only damge our relationship.
"So.. it kinda reminded you of Squall", he continued in a normal expression desperately hiding his feelings. I can tell he really wants to know if I still love Squall. But I can't tell him the TRUTH or else it will just hurt the poor guy. That's right, I still love Squall, and no matter how hard I try, the feelings just don't go away. So I have no choice but to surrender to what my heart says.
But I can't afford to lose Seifer.....
"No.. I just love flowers." I answered half-lying, half telling the truth.
Then there's again a moment of silence again......
..................
He finally said, "Hey, you want me to buy you some flowers?", he asked excitedly.
I kinda like the idea. Thank God he didn't take the fact bitterly......
I smiled then say "Sure!".
------------------------------------------------
What about Squall? How is he gonna take it???
------------------------------------------------
Again.. thanx for all your reviews... they were all so nice.(but im not saying you can send flames! I hate flaming)
I appreciate it, especially the ones who had reviewed them more than once!!
Anyway.... what do you think of it?? bad??? good??? please tell me and MORE REVIEWS.
I'm working on a better outcome...
R/R