CHAPTER 7:
ANOTHER CHANCE
RINOA
So far so good... I have a feeling me and Seifer are going to get along just fine. Now that I think about it, maybe Seifer is the one to make me happy. Since yesterday, everything has turned out okay. I haven't think about Squall for the past 24 hours. Great improvement. My relationship with Seifer is going better every minute. He slept late last night just to utter sweet words at me right afer he studied for the test. I know he was really exhausted that time but he never forgets to keep me as comfortable as possible.
"You know you really need to rest early, you'll need it for the test tomorrow." But Seifer just said the sweetest things......
"Don't worry, as long as I have you as my inspiration, I'll surely ace that test!"
*Sigh*
Thinking of those words made me blush... And how passionate he kissed me until I drifted to sleep in his arms... What a night...
*Knock-Knock*
The knock on the door bring me back to reality once again. I looked at my watch. It's just 9:30 in the morning. Seifer just left 45 minutes ago. All I know is the test should last for 3 hours. hmmm.. That sure was fast. Well anyway, I sure am glad that Seifer's back. I kind of miss him already. I hurried excitedly to the door thinking of giving him a welcome back kiss.
My sweaty hands reached for the knob, until I can feel them slowly turnng. I opened the door expecting to see Seifer with his gorgeous smile...
But gasp!!! I was surprised on whom I see outside of the door!
SQUALL
I was stunned for a moment looking at Rinoa's face once again. I missed her face. It's like its been years since I last saw her. A part of me is telling me to embrace her and kiss her right here right now to show her how much I love her. But the other part of me is reminding me that I've cost her so much pain and so I atleast have to say my apologies first.
"Rinoa......"
She herself cannot utter a word as if she had seen a ghost that has been dead for a long time. But her surprised facial expression turn to angst and hatred.
"What are you doing here?", she said breaking the silence.
"I came here to see you." I said grabbing her right hand.
"Why..........?"
"Why?..... Because I want to take you back.... I can't live without you..", I said sincerely.
I took another step closer to her. My hands in her face then leans closer to her motioning to kiss her. I can't resist anymore and I know she can't, too. As our lips about to met......
"Squall, let go....", she said while pushing me away.
"What? Why?", My mouth still left hanging open in shock. I can't believe it.
She didn't say a word for minute. Her face looks confused and was unable to explain. I have to know why. I only been weeks since we broke up. I know she still loves me. She'll love to get back with me. Unless........
"Tell me why?"
"Squall, I'm with Seifer now. And I'm happy with him already... Sorry Squall.... "
Seifer?! So they ARE together. Of all people!! Our mortal enemy?! The person who had threatened to destroy us, Balamb, and the whole world?! That stupid sorceress' knight??! And especially.... MY rival?!!! This is insane. She couldn't possibly have fallen for that bastard.
"But Rinoa, you've got to be kidding! You're gonna dump me for him?! How about US?? There's just a minor misunderstanding. You couldn't just give up on US and run to that BASTARD!!!"
"How about US? When is there an US??? It's just all about YOU!! When were together, you NEVER ever show me how special am I to you! I've never felt that you love me! Im just some kind of woman who have to serve you whenever you fell like making use of me. For you I'm just your sex toy and when your already sick of me, you're just gonna left me alone in the corner! I'm never your girlfriend! You just have all the fun you want, sleep with some bitch in the bar then take me for granted. Then you're gonna come here, saying all sorts of crap, telling me you love me, you need me, and you want to take me back??? How am I gonna believe you....."
I was speechless....All she said was true.. But its only now I realized that.. I've been taking her for granted the time she was with me. And now that she's gone, I'll come searching for her. But all I ask is a chance. If she comes back to me, I'll swear with my life that I'll take care of her.
"I...I'm sorry... but please.. give me a chance... I'm nothing without you. Pleeeease....", I said with pleading eyes almost want to cry.
Rinoa wiped her own tears and was trying to be strong.
"I'm really sorry.. Its too bad you only realized it now. I'm with Seifer and he's the one who's gonna make me happy."
(That Seifer again... I wonder if she really loves him)
"Tell me, do you love Seifer..?" I almost regret saying those words. The answer might kill me. I can't take it if she REALLY loves Seifer... I just can't!
"......... Yes, I do.." she replied. I can tell that there's pain in those words.
"But you can't!!! You don't love him! You only think you love him because of what happened to us!! You only want to forget. But Rinoa... I'm already here. Let's start with the beginning.. I promise you, that I'll take care of you no matter what. Please.... I'm begging you...."
We are both crying now. Its been a while since I cried in front of anybody. But now, tears voluntarilly roll down my eyes. I just can't lose her. I won't be able to forgive myself.
"I'm really sorry.... Squall...... Its hard for me to find my happiness. But now, I did. I decided to move on.. My happiness now is Seifer... Now, please ... get out of here now! And don't come back here again.. Let me be..."
She tried to close the door. But I was too strong for her.
"I know you still love me.. C'mon don't lie to yourself......"
But she keeps on pushing the door with a lame attempt to win against me..
"Do you love me?? Answer! If you don't love me, then I promise.. I'll get the hell out of here and I won't bother you ever again... Just answer it..."
She stopped.. I was too nervous to here her answer but with her silence and the tears in her eyes... I have a feeling that she still loves me.... She wanted to be strong.. but failed miserably.
"I don't......."
......................... What???? .........................................
She slammed the door in my face. This time, I didn't stop her.. She didn't love me anymore. The shocking reality bit me... Suddenly, my world completely shattered... I was so dissappointed...... I was lost. My life lost its meaning with just two words she said.....
RINOA
I said I don't love him.. I wonder if that's what I truly feel.. But if it is, why am I like this....
I cried beside the door knowing that Squall, is just on the other side... How I wish I could take back those words.. But now, its too late. I have to forget him...
Earlier this day, I thought I was already happy. With Seifer in my side... I thought I have successfully forgotten Squall, that I don't love him anymore. Then one twist of fate sent him knocking on this door.. breaking everything that I have tried so hard for...
Once again, I fell in love with him........
I tried to show him I was strong without him. But in the sad reality, I'm not... I need him so bad... I wonder if what I did is right. The path I chosen is staring me at my face. But I can't take the first step. I wonder what will happen if I take the other path. Will I be happier instead guilt still came haunting my mind?
I had a clear chance to get back to Squall.. But this time, my mind take over than my heart.. I refused to do so. I told him that I'm happy with Seifer already. But why like this??? Is he right that I was lying to myself? Am I lying? How I wish I would know...
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Moments later, Seifer arrived from his test. I didn't realized the time past by so fast. I looked at the clock. It's already been 2 and a half hours since Squall showed at our doorstep. *Sigh* I'm thinking about Squall again. Seifer was saying something and I realized that I'm not listening...
"..................So I think the results of my test isn't so bad, don't you think...", Sefer asked while untying his shoelace.
"Hey.. are you listening to what Im saying? It seems like your mind is on another planet..."
"Uhmmm.... y-yeah.. of course...", I said not knowing what he's talking aout earlier.
"Nonsense.. C'mon.. I know you have a problem.. You can tell me...", he looks really concern, but I just can't tell him that my ex-boyfriend who happens to be Squall, his rival, showed up earlier this morning asking me to get back together.
"No.. its nothing..." Seifer made a face as if telling me he doesn't believe me..
"Really!", I said, trying to give my best smile.
"Alright.. if you say so...", he went up to me then give me a warm hug......... but not as warm as some other guy can give me........
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IS IT REALLY OVER FOR SQUALL LEONHART AND RINOA HEARTILLY?
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You'll soon find out!!!!
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ANOTHER CHANCE
RINOA
So far so good... I have a feeling me and Seifer are going to get along just fine. Now that I think about it, maybe Seifer is the one to make me happy. Since yesterday, everything has turned out okay. I haven't think about Squall for the past 24 hours. Great improvement. My relationship with Seifer is going better every minute. He slept late last night just to utter sweet words at me right afer he studied for the test. I know he was really exhausted that time but he never forgets to keep me as comfortable as possible.
"You know you really need to rest early, you'll need it for the test tomorrow." But Seifer just said the sweetest things......
"Don't worry, as long as I have you as my inspiration, I'll surely ace that test!"
*Sigh*
Thinking of those words made me blush... And how passionate he kissed me until I drifted to sleep in his arms... What a night...
*Knock-Knock*
The knock on the door bring me back to reality once again. I looked at my watch. It's just 9:30 in the morning. Seifer just left 45 minutes ago. All I know is the test should last for 3 hours. hmmm.. That sure was fast. Well anyway, I sure am glad that Seifer's back. I kind of miss him already. I hurried excitedly to the door thinking of giving him a welcome back kiss.
My sweaty hands reached for the knob, until I can feel them slowly turnng. I opened the door expecting to see Seifer with his gorgeous smile...
But gasp!!! I was surprised on whom I see outside of the door!
SQUALL
I was stunned for a moment looking at Rinoa's face once again. I missed her face. It's like its been years since I last saw her. A part of me is telling me to embrace her and kiss her right here right now to show her how much I love her. But the other part of me is reminding me that I've cost her so much pain and so I atleast have to say my apologies first.
"Rinoa......"
She herself cannot utter a word as if she had seen a ghost that has been dead for a long time. But her surprised facial expression turn to angst and hatred.
"What are you doing here?", she said breaking the silence.
"I came here to see you." I said grabbing her right hand.
"Why..........?"
"Why?..... Because I want to take you back.... I can't live without you..", I said sincerely.
I took another step closer to her. My hands in her face then leans closer to her motioning to kiss her. I can't resist anymore and I know she can't, too. As our lips about to met......
"Squall, let go....", she said while pushing me away.
"What? Why?", My mouth still left hanging open in shock. I can't believe it.
She didn't say a word for minute. Her face looks confused and was unable to explain. I have to know why. I only been weeks since we broke up. I know she still loves me. She'll love to get back with me. Unless........
"Tell me why?"
"Squall, I'm with Seifer now. And I'm happy with him already... Sorry Squall.... "
Seifer?! So they ARE together. Of all people!! Our mortal enemy?! The person who had threatened to destroy us, Balamb, and the whole world?! That stupid sorceress' knight??! And especially.... MY rival?!!! This is insane. She couldn't possibly have fallen for that bastard.
"But Rinoa, you've got to be kidding! You're gonna dump me for him?! How about US?? There's just a minor misunderstanding. You couldn't just give up on US and run to that BASTARD!!!"
"How about US? When is there an US??? It's just all about YOU!! When were together, you NEVER ever show me how special am I to you! I've never felt that you love me! Im just some kind of woman who have to serve you whenever you fell like making use of me. For you I'm just your sex toy and when your already sick of me, you're just gonna left me alone in the corner! I'm never your girlfriend! You just have all the fun you want, sleep with some bitch in the bar then take me for granted. Then you're gonna come here, saying all sorts of crap, telling me you love me, you need me, and you want to take me back??? How am I gonna believe you....."
I was speechless....All she said was true.. But its only now I realized that.. I've been taking her for granted the time she was with me. And now that she's gone, I'll come searching for her. But all I ask is a chance. If she comes back to me, I'll swear with my life that I'll take care of her.
"I...I'm sorry... but please.. give me a chance... I'm nothing without you. Pleeeease....", I said with pleading eyes almost want to cry.
Rinoa wiped her own tears and was trying to be strong.
"I'm really sorry.. Its too bad you only realized it now. I'm with Seifer and he's the one who's gonna make me happy."
(That Seifer again... I wonder if she really loves him)
"Tell me, do you love Seifer..?" I almost regret saying those words. The answer might kill me. I can't take it if she REALLY loves Seifer... I just can't!
"......... Yes, I do.." she replied. I can tell that there's pain in those words.
"But you can't!!! You don't love him! You only think you love him because of what happened to us!! You only want to forget. But Rinoa... I'm already here. Let's start with the beginning.. I promise you, that I'll take care of you no matter what. Please.... I'm begging you...."
We are both crying now. Its been a while since I cried in front of anybody. But now, tears voluntarilly roll down my eyes. I just can't lose her. I won't be able to forgive myself.
"I'm really sorry.... Squall...... Its hard for me to find my happiness. But now, I did. I decided to move on.. My happiness now is Seifer... Now, please ... get out of here now! And don't come back here again.. Let me be..."
She tried to close the door. But I was too strong for her.
"I know you still love me.. C'mon don't lie to yourself......"
But she keeps on pushing the door with a lame attempt to win against me..
"Do you love me?? Answer! If you don't love me, then I promise.. I'll get the hell out of here and I won't bother you ever again... Just answer it..."
She stopped.. I was too nervous to here her answer but with her silence and the tears in her eyes... I have a feeling that she still loves me.... She wanted to be strong.. but failed miserably.
"I don't......."
......................... What???? .........................................
She slammed the door in my face. This time, I didn't stop her.. She didn't love me anymore. The shocking reality bit me... Suddenly, my world completely shattered... I was so dissappointed...... I was lost. My life lost its meaning with just two words she said.....
RINOA
I said I don't love him.. I wonder if that's what I truly feel.. But if it is, why am I like this....
I cried beside the door knowing that Squall, is just on the other side... How I wish I could take back those words.. But now, its too late. I have to forget him...
Earlier this day, I thought I was already happy. With Seifer in my side... I thought I have successfully forgotten Squall, that I don't love him anymore. Then one twist of fate sent him knocking on this door.. breaking everything that I have tried so hard for...
Once again, I fell in love with him........
I tried to show him I was strong without him. But in the sad reality, I'm not... I need him so bad... I wonder if what I did is right. The path I chosen is staring me at my face. But I can't take the first step. I wonder what will happen if I take the other path. Will I be happier instead guilt still came haunting my mind?
I had a clear chance to get back to Squall.. But this time, my mind take over than my heart.. I refused to do so. I told him that I'm happy with Seifer already. But why like this??? Is he right that I was lying to myself? Am I lying? How I wish I would know...
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Moments later, Seifer arrived from his test. I didn't realized the time past by so fast. I looked at the clock. It's already been 2 and a half hours since Squall showed at our doorstep. *Sigh* I'm thinking about Squall again. Seifer was saying something and I realized that I'm not listening...
"..................So I think the results of my test isn't so bad, don't you think...", Sefer asked while untying his shoelace.
"Hey.. are you listening to what Im saying? It seems like your mind is on another planet..."
"Uhmmm.... y-yeah.. of course...", I said not knowing what he's talking aout earlier.
"Nonsense.. C'mon.. I know you have a problem.. You can tell me...", he looks really concern, but I just can't tell him that my ex-boyfriend who happens to be Squall, his rival, showed up earlier this morning asking me to get back together.
"No.. its nothing..." Seifer made a face as if telling me he doesn't believe me..
"Really!", I said, trying to give my best smile.
"Alright.. if you say so...", he went up to me then give me a warm hug......... but not as warm as some other guy can give me........
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IS IT REALLY OVER FOR SQUALL LEONHART AND RINOA HEARTILLY?
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You'll soon find out!!!!
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chapter 8 is comin' up!!!