Chapter 11: The Last Time

Flashback- 1993

Meredith is dreaming of last night, the romantic dinner, the stroll on the beach and making love underneath the stars, on their little secluded cove. Meredith shifted in Derek's arms, shifting closer to him, so their bodies were one. Neither of them wanting to wake up to the harsh reality that this was the last time they would be in each other's arms. Derek opened his eyes to see Meredith clinging to him with tears running down her face. Derek feels completely helpless, he knows how much this is hurting her, it is hurting him just as much. He can see it in her eyes every day, and he knows that she often wakes up during the night in tears. He tried to get her to change her mind, but nothing worked. Meredith had made her mind up, no matter how much it hurt her. Derek can feel the tears prickling at his eyes. After kissing her on the head, and whispering how much he loves her, he unwraps himself from Meredith embrace, and climbs out of the bed. Derek turns to look at her, without hiding the tears this time.

Meredith woke up to a cold bed; she felt a wave of panic until she looked over towards the sound of the waves against the beach, standing there was Derek. A pain that hurt so much, that it was barely bearable, but she had to stay strong for herself, for him, and their baby... Yes, Meredith is pregnant and has known for about a month. However, she wasn't going to tell Derek, he already had enough to worry about. She was doing the right thing, she was sure of it, so why did the thought of leaving him hurt so damn much? She climbed out of bed, wrapping the sheets around herself, and walks over to Derek. Derek turns and looked at her, with the tears running down his face, tears to match hers. It was the first time she had seen Derek cry, and it broke her heart, to realize that she was doing this to him. She feels a wave of panic wash over her, and she starts to walk back into the bedroom, and grabbing her clothes, not bearing to be in the same room as him.

"Meredith, what are you doing?" Meredith continues to gather her clothes.

"Meredith!" Derek says a little louder, has she hurrily starts to get dressed. Derek walks over to her and grabs her shoulders, forcing Meredith to stop.

"Mer." Derek cups her chin and lifted her face, so he can look her in the eyes.

"I know what you are doing, Meredith and don't, please don't push me away!"

"Derek, I can't do this, I can't say goodbye…"

"Then, don't baby!" Derek says, leaning down and capturing her lips with his own. Meredith attempts to pull away, but she can't, the pull between them is too much. Meredith quickly gives into the kiss, their tears mixing together, Derek deepens the kiss, Meredith snakes her arms around his neck.

"I love you Meredith Grey, and I always will!" Meredith's eyes start watering. Derek runs his hand over her half naked body, and gently, pushes her back onto the bed. He knew that the image of perfection was Meredith, with her slight curves, it was the body that he had gotten to know so well over the past two months, the body that he didn't know how he would live without. Derek removed his boxers, before joining her on the bed. He kissed her so hard and grabbed her hair and yanked it back so he could get better access to her neck, and the spot that was just for him, that never failed to turn her on, Meredith moaned, as he kissed and nipped at her neck. He places two fingers inside of her. Meredith lifted her hips of the bed, causing his fingers to go deeper inside her; Derek kisses her on the lips, before working his way down to her wet core that was wet just for him. Derek flicked her clit with his tongue, he can hear Meredith moaning in pleasure. He can feel her tremble has her orgasm over comes her.

"Derrrrrrrrrrrrrek..."

"Cum for me, baby!" Derek says before he continues licking, and flicking her clit,

"Fuck...DERRRRRRRRRREK" as she came, her hot cum, dripping down Derek's fingers, Derek licks her clean than comes up and kisses her so she can taste herself in his mouth. Derek rolls over so Meredith is on top of him, straddling him. She leans down and kisses him before trailing kisses over his body. Before taking his hard, thick shaft into her mouth, and plays with his balls with her fingers, she swirls her tongue around his shaft, licking off the pre-cum, Meredith runs her mouth and tongue up and down the length of his shaft.

"Mer... Ohhhhh" she continues to suck and swirl her tongue around his pulsating shaft.

"God...that's it...fuck"

"MERRRRRRRRRRRR" he screams out, as he spills into her mouth. Meredith licks him clean, before she works her way up his body, kissing and nipping until Derek rolls her back over. Derek starts kissing her, his tongue exploring her mouth, hungrily and with a sense of urgency, knowing that in an hour Meredith would leave his bed, never to return. Meredith can feel his erection pressing against her abdomen, she parts her legs, and Derek places the tip of his cock at the entrance to her wet, sweet pussy.

"What do you want Meredith?"

"Make love to me Derek."

"Okay," he smiles, before once again capturing her lips with his own, as he pushes his cock into her pussy.

"I love you Derek!" Derek flashes her his mcdreamy smile before starting to pump into her, slow and gently, until he couldn't take it anymore, Meredith closes her eyes, as he goes faster, sliding in and out of her tight pussy.

"Oh...Derek"

"Fuck..."

"Harder...please" Meredith lifts her hips of the bed, causing him to go deeper into her until he fully fills her up.

"Mer...Baby"

"That's it...oh god" Meredith shouts out.

"Meredith!"

"DEREKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!" Meredith screams as her walls tighten around his cock, she orgasms. Derek holds off letting Meredith ride it out, and finally let's himself tip off the edge.

"MEREDITHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Derek screams has he spills into her, Meredith opens her eyes, running her hand through his unruly curls. Derek slips out of her, rolls off her and gathers her in his arms, Meredith rests her head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, with her hand on her abdomen Derek buries his face, into her hair, smelling the lavender from her conditioner. For a few moments they lay like that, just savoring the moment, Derek phone rings breaking the moment's Derek reaches over to it and answers it and then passes it over to Meredith.

"Cristina!" Derek says to her.

"Hey what up?"

"Just to let you know we are leaving in two hours, Mer!"

"Two hours" Meredith says with a note of panic in her voice. "We weren't supposed to leave until 3 this afternoon."

"Alex, has to get back to Boston for work, Meredith"

"Okay, I'll be 15 minutes." Meredith says, with a hint of sadness in her voice, but in a way feeling glad that they are leaving earlier than planned, but it didn't make it any easier to say goodbye. Meredith passed the phone back to Derek and unwraps herself from his arms, grabbing her clothes and quickly pulling them on, even before Derek has a chance to get out of the bed.

"Mer…"

"Sorry Derek, I have to go, we are leaving in two hours"

"Oh" Derek sits on the edge of the bed, Meredith looks over at him, seeing him hunched over, and the reality of it finally hitting her, she rushes over to his side, and takes him in her arms.

"Derek, come and see me before I go?"

"Of course, I will! I love you!"

"I love you too and I'll see you." Derek pulls her towards him and kisses her. "Meredith, go, cause if you don't, I won't let you."

"Okay…" Meredith sounded defeated, gets up and walks over to the bedroom door. She looks back over at Derek, before walking out and closing the door behind her.