Author's noted: Yay! I'm back! I'm so happy! I could say that I certainly
enjoyed my vacation and because of that, I feel all refreshed and pumped
up. ^__^ Anyways, I would just like to say my appreciation and heartfelt
THANKS to everybody who keeps on reading and reviewing this fic. Thanks a
lot for your undying support and understanding. You guys are the reason why
this fic is doing great and why it reached this far. I think you all
deserved a hug! *hugs everyone*
Me a bit hyper, I guess..hehehe...^_^;;;...oh, yeah...here's the new chap! This is a bit short but I've decided to let it be that way. I've decided to include some important stuffs in the next chapter. This chappy will emphasize mainly on Syaoran's feelings and how he is trying to survive the new emotions happening to him, the same as with Sakura. This is just one of those, what I call, 'transition' chapters which serves to just connect one important chapter to another. Eeeps...I'm blabbing again. But anyways, hope u guys will like this one. Ehehehe...although this chap's a bit rushed but...hmmm...'ope u will still read and review it!
I dedicate this chapter to Auch, for being there especially at my lowest moments.
CHAPTER TWELVE
JEALOUSY???
**SYAORAN**
I guess you could say, I'm pretty restless. I don't even know if that is the exact word I should use to describe the state I am in right now. These past few days suddenly became an emotional twist for me, leaving me in an unfortunate state of bewilderment and uncertainty.
"Do you think she will actually do it?" Tomoyo asked me, breaking my reverie and sending me back to reality.
I shook my head as a reply. "I don't think so."
"I guess you're right. But you could never tell what's going to happen with Sakura." She answered knowingly. "If you challenged her about something, she will surely fight back. And if I remember correctly, yesterday, you actually DARED her to look feminine today."
I couldn't help smirking as I remembered yesterday's talk that I've had with Sakura. I know that all of you already learned about Sakura's dressed- up yesterday. I must admit that she looks really pretty in her get up and boy, does she looked really feminine. I never knew that she had it in her. I mean, she actually looked really gorgeous yesterday! (Hmmm..yeah, we know that a long time ago, Syaoran! You're just too dense to notice that!) Oooopss...better keep my mouth shut before I could say anything else. I know I'm talking nonsense already. (He's hiding something from us, ne? ^_^) Anyway, I guess I am just not used at seeing her like that. Sakura absolutely hates wearing any feminine stuffs and that she has this weird fashion sense of hers wherein she only gets to wears t-shirts and jeans. When I ask her about her attire back then, if I remembered correctly, she answered me with something like: "I'm more comfortable with this, and besides I'm one active girl. Frilly dresses would just get in the way of things."
So to put it simply, I am indeed taken aback by her sudden change yesterday, even though Tomoyo admitted that she only forced Sakura to do it. Honestly, I like that get-up and it suits here better than those t- shirts she's wearing. Not that I have a problem with that before, it's just that I think it's time for her to start acting feminine since we're not getting any younger anymore.
And then yesterday, an idea struck me so I could get her to look like that in school. Well, since we have uniforms, she can't dress up like that but at least she could have the make-up and the hair keep going. Of course, as expected she protested against it but I still challenged her, anyway. However, she's still against the idea. And now, Tomoyo and I are waiting expectantly before the class starts and to see for ourselves whether I finally got Sakura to do my challenge to her.
"We'll see about that." I said, eagerly anticipating Sakura's arrival.
"Oh by the way, how's it going with Hana?" Tomoyo looked at me curiously. "Have you asked her out already to the dance?"
At that question, I immediately fidgeted in my seat as I search for the words to answer her back.
"Actually...I still haven't asked her out."
"Nani??? Then what's the purpose of all these practices you've had with Sakura?" She exclaimed. "It's Thursday already Syaoran, if you still doesn't notice it so unless you do something about it, you will end up having no one to go to that dance with!"
I winced a little at the words Tomoyo blurted out. If only Tomoyo knew, I'm already pressured enough in asking Hana out. I know it's already Thursday and the dance is already on Saturday but I just couldn't bring myself to ask Hana out. It's really weird. I must confess that I still want to ask her out but whenever I saw Sakura, I just couldn't do it. And I don't know why. I mean, of course I have this small crush on Hana but every time I see my bestfriend, I also feel the same way I have with Hana around! And that's the reason why I'm being restless these past few days.
"I know, Tomoyo. I'll come around to that." I answered.
Tomoyo smiled mischievously. "Maybe you've got somebody else on your mind. Maybe you're having second thoughts on asking Hana out."
I scowled at Tomoyo. I really couldn't help thinking that she is better off with Eriol to talk with. Both of them are so conniving and I bet to you guys that they'll have a lot to talk about. I suddenly have the urge to call Eriol in his seat and ask him to talk to Tomoyo so that she won't bother implying anything about my personal affairs anymore. But of course, I won't talk to that weirdo Eriol unless it's very important and that it's a matter of life and death!
"Iie, Tomoyo. Stop having such ridiculous thoughts. I just haven't found the right time to ask her out."
"Right time? Boy, I tell you again Syaoran, you're running out of time!" She reminded. "Right time or not, you got to pull yourself altogether to ask her out."
= Geez...Tomoyo is worse than Sakura! Talk about peer pressure! = I shook my head.
"Konnichiwa, Syaoran!" Hana greeted as she sat in her seat infront of mine. "Konnichiwa, Tomoyo."
I managed to make a small smile despite my surprise. Tomoyo and I are so busy talking with each other that I wasn't able to notice her coming. It's a good thing that Tomoyo was not mentioning any names a few seconds earlier or else, Hana could overhear us and that'll ruin our whole plan!
"Konnichiwa, Hana!" Tomoyo greeted warmly.
"Konnichiwa, Hana," I greeted timidly, not failing to notice how more pretty she looks today.
"The dance sure is getting closer," Hana commented. "It's really romantic how this is all turning out. With all the dates around us, no wonder there are new couples suddenly emerging! Love is sure on the air!"
"Hai." Tomoyo agreed, her long hair bobbing as she nodded. "Whom are you going out with?"
Ugh. And here we go again. This whole scene already happened before and I'm not really surprised that she brought up the topic once again for my own discomfort. I'm pretty sure that Tomoyo's going to give me something of a meaningful glance every now and then.
"No one. I've decided to go all by myself! I really don't want to tie myself up with a single person for the entire night."
Upon hearing Hana's reply, I could feel my hopes suddenly crumbling. I mean, all those practices I've had with Sakura suddenly went into thin air. Poof! Just like that.
"But," Hana added as an afterthought. "If somebody I really like will ask me out, then maybe, I could go to the dance with him."
I smiled inwardly at her change of plans. Suddenly, everything's on track again! Thank the high heavens for that! I guess you could say that I'm pretty much hopeful.
"Hello, everyone. I see that you guys are having such a great discussion here." A very familiar voice interrupted. "Mind if I join you?"
As I glance up at the smiling face of that..that guy...okay, I'll say the name...Eriol...man, I couldn't help feeling irritated! I just don't know why I don't like him! Maybe I'm acting irrational or something but it's really just one of those things. Hell, I just don't like him. Period. But at least, with his presence, I got my prayer answered. At least, Tomoyo have somebody who she can talk to but unless...they pair up to make my day miserable then that wouldn't look too good.
"Sure, Eriol!" Hana smiled, looking up at him happily.
A sudden idea entered my thoughts as I notice Hana's face beaming up at him. = Could it be that the guy Hana likes is...Eriol? =
"We haven't been able to talk to you for a while now, Eriol. What's up?" Tomoyo asked.
"Nothing. Just busy organizing the upcoming Valentine's party." Eriol smiled knowingly. "I volunteered to be part of the organizing committee. And I can just assure you right now that the party's going to be great."
"That's cool! Sakura and I were supposed to volunteer too but she lost interest in it because she found out that the party's mandatory." Tomoyo replied. "Although she keeps on insisting that she will not go to the dance. Sakura will just pretend to be sick or whatever plan she could come up with so that she'll be excuse from attending that party."
"But I hope she could come." Eriol said.
"Are you going out with somebody, Eriol?" Hana curiously asked as I glared instinctively at Eriol.
I saw Eriol shook his head gently. "I haven't asked someone...yet." And he gave her, what seems to me, a flirtatious smile as he finished off with his reply. I could just feel my emotions suddenly rising up.
"You're going all by yourself too, Eriol?" Tomoyo asked in surprise.
"Not if I can help it."
"Oi, Syaoran," Hana glanced at me worriedly. "You became quiet all of a sudden."
"I don't really have much to say," I mumbled while Hana looks at me curiously. When I glimpsed back at Eriol, his annoying trademark smile can already be seen on his face. I couldn't help glaring at him as my eyes met up with his eyes, however, he just continued to smile at me and Kami, how I hated him for that!
Suddenly, a sudden whispering and a few excited shrieks caught our attention. As the three of us glance infront of the room, we could already see a small group of our classmates huddling near the door, talking about something.
"What's happening?" I asked, baffled by some of my classmates' behavior.
"Something's up." Eriol said to no one in particular.
As the small group of people parted, a very familiar face emerged, looking so horrified but nevertheless looking so stunning and beautiful that my eyes couldn't help but just stare at her and blinked in amazement.
"She actually... did it," Tomoyo said in obvious amazement.
"Yeah..." I whispered softly, my eyes never leaving the girl who suddenly became an instant celebrity. Well, not that she's not popular before, I mean, she even became more popular because of her new look.
"Hoeeeee..." Sakura said faintly, looking so embarrassed when she reached our place. "I knew this is such a bad idea! Aaaarrgggh!!!! Why did I let myself listen to you Syaoran?" She asked miserably.
"Sakura," Eriol said and I couldn't help noticing the tone of admiration in his voice. "Don't worry, you look absolutely pretty."
"I agree with Eriol! Boy, Sakura...you're a knock-out!" Hana squealed happily.
"Um...Arigatou." She replied, but I could still tell how uncomfortable she really feels with her look.
As my eyes keeps glancing at her unconsciously, I could feel again that all too familiar weird feeling that I've had. I swear, if my heart keeps on beating ALWAYS like this, I'm going to die of excessive beating of my heart. My heart is beating so fast that I actually felt short of breath!
"Syaoran..." Sakura looked at me pleadingly. "Say I look like a baka...I know I look like one!"
I could feel my face burning as I took notice of Sakura's beautiful face, with her hair all tidy and her face applied with just the barest blush and her lips looking so...hmmm...how should I say this...hmmmm...kissable?
"No. I mean, Uh...you look great." I stammered, while my face blushing at my last thought.
I saw at the corner of my eyes how Eriol smiled knowingly and Tomoyo giggling softly. I could tell they're already noticing my sudden shift of moods. They are very insightful people and it's really hard to keep anything from those two.
"Oh Sakura, you look really kawaii!" Tomoyo exclaimed happily. "I never thought you would actually do that challenge that Syaoran asked you to do!"
"Yeah...I guess I was pretty challenged by his dare and I never really backed out, even before, of any dares that Syaoran asked me to do," Sakura answered. "And look where it got me!"
"I'm pretty sure there'll be a lot of guys who will come running after you now!" Hana commented.
Sakura scowled. "Hmp. I don't care. Besides this is only for today. I'm just trying to prove a point to Syaoran."
"But what if a lot of guys did asked you out to that dance?" Eriol asked her.
"Stop asking silly questions, Eriol!" I suddenly blurted out, unable to control myself. At that sudden outburst, all three of them looked at me in surprise.
"What's the matter, Syaoran?" Sakura asked gently, her face a mixture of surprise and concerned as she looked at me.
I tore my eyes away from those enchanting green eyes. I took a deep sigh to calm my nerves. I don't know why I actually did that! Eriol's question to Sakura and his idea that a lot of guys are going to ask her out suddenly troubled me. Man...I think I'm beginning to lose it!
"Nandemonai." (*Nothing*) I grunted.
Eriol cleared his throat loudly. "I'm going back to my seat now, the class is starting soon."
As I slumped tiredly in my seat with a heavy heart, I could notice a lot of girls, most especially guys, who keeps glancing at Sakura. The looks on their faces showed pure admiration and astonishment, never believing that this beautiful girl beside me is the untidy and careless tomboy that we used to know. Who would've thought that she'd turn out to be, as what Hana said, a knockout?
I glanced furtively at Sakura who seems to be engrossed with something that she and Tomoyo are talking about. As I look at her, I couldn't help feeling that my bestfriend seems to be so far away from me. She's actually near but yet, so far. I don't know, as if, something's changed between us. And I can't exactly point the exact reason why.
I skimmed the textbook I pulled out earlier from my bag, unconsciously. Since, I'm not in the mood to talk to anybody, I pretended to enjoy looking at my book, while my eyes scan the words written in it although honestly, it doesn't even make any sense to me. As I flipped the pages idly, stalling for some time before our classes start, my eyes stopped unconsciously on just one word, as if drawn by some force to it.
My eyes stared at the word, as if telling me something.
"Jealousy." I murmured softly as I read the word.
I could feel a new realization dawning to me, as I look back at Sakura, then at Hana, then at everybody...again noticing those guys smiling at Sakura.
= Am I... getting jealous??? = I scowled. = But... why? =
Maybe I know the answer.
It's just that...
I don't want to admit it.
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Author's note: I totally agree with Syaoran...it does happen to me...even though It's all before infront of my very own eyes...I will still not admit it. Ugh. Oi, I'm getting engrossed on my own fic! Sheeeshhh... ^_^;;; Oh yeah, pls. don't forget to review! Arigatou!
Me a bit hyper, I guess..hehehe...^_^;;;...oh, yeah...here's the new chap! This is a bit short but I've decided to let it be that way. I've decided to include some important stuffs in the next chapter. This chappy will emphasize mainly on Syaoran's feelings and how he is trying to survive the new emotions happening to him, the same as with Sakura. This is just one of those, what I call, 'transition' chapters which serves to just connect one important chapter to another. Eeeps...I'm blabbing again. But anyways, hope u guys will like this one. Ehehehe...although this chap's a bit rushed but...hmmm...'ope u will still read and review it!
I dedicate this chapter to Auch, for being there especially at my lowest moments.
CHAPTER TWELVE
JEALOUSY???
**SYAORAN**
I guess you could say, I'm pretty restless. I don't even know if that is the exact word I should use to describe the state I am in right now. These past few days suddenly became an emotional twist for me, leaving me in an unfortunate state of bewilderment and uncertainty.
"Do you think she will actually do it?" Tomoyo asked me, breaking my reverie and sending me back to reality.
I shook my head as a reply. "I don't think so."
"I guess you're right. But you could never tell what's going to happen with Sakura." She answered knowingly. "If you challenged her about something, she will surely fight back. And if I remember correctly, yesterday, you actually DARED her to look feminine today."
I couldn't help smirking as I remembered yesterday's talk that I've had with Sakura. I know that all of you already learned about Sakura's dressed- up yesterday. I must admit that she looks really pretty in her get up and boy, does she looked really feminine. I never knew that she had it in her. I mean, she actually looked really gorgeous yesterday! (Hmmm..yeah, we know that a long time ago, Syaoran! You're just too dense to notice that!) Oooopss...better keep my mouth shut before I could say anything else. I know I'm talking nonsense already. (He's hiding something from us, ne? ^_^) Anyway, I guess I am just not used at seeing her like that. Sakura absolutely hates wearing any feminine stuffs and that she has this weird fashion sense of hers wherein she only gets to wears t-shirts and jeans. When I ask her about her attire back then, if I remembered correctly, she answered me with something like: "I'm more comfortable with this, and besides I'm one active girl. Frilly dresses would just get in the way of things."
So to put it simply, I am indeed taken aback by her sudden change yesterday, even though Tomoyo admitted that she only forced Sakura to do it. Honestly, I like that get-up and it suits here better than those t- shirts she's wearing. Not that I have a problem with that before, it's just that I think it's time for her to start acting feminine since we're not getting any younger anymore.
And then yesterday, an idea struck me so I could get her to look like that in school. Well, since we have uniforms, she can't dress up like that but at least she could have the make-up and the hair keep going. Of course, as expected she protested against it but I still challenged her, anyway. However, she's still against the idea. And now, Tomoyo and I are waiting expectantly before the class starts and to see for ourselves whether I finally got Sakura to do my challenge to her.
"We'll see about that." I said, eagerly anticipating Sakura's arrival.
"Oh by the way, how's it going with Hana?" Tomoyo looked at me curiously. "Have you asked her out already to the dance?"
At that question, I immediately fidgeted in my seat as I search for the words to answer her back.
"Actually...I still haven't asked her out."
"Nani??? Then what's the purpose of all these practices you've had with Sakura?" She exclaimed. "It's Thursday already Syaoran, if you still doesn't notice it so unless you do something about it, you will end up having no one to go to that dance with!"
I winced a little at the words Tomoyo blurted out. If only Tomoyo knew, I'm already pressured enough in asking Hana out. I know it's already Thursday and the dance is already on Saturday but I just couldn't bring myself to ask Hana out. It's really weird. I must confess that I still want to ask her out but whenever I saw Sakura, I just couldn't do it. And I don't know why. I mean, of course I have this small crush on Hana but every time I see my bestfriend, I also feel the same way I have with Hana around! And that's the reason why I'm being restless these past few days.
"I know, Tomoyo. I'll come around to that." I answered.
Tomoyo smiled mischievously. "Maybe you've got somebody else on your mind. Maybe you're having second thoughts on asking Hana out."
I scowled at Tomoyo. I really couldn't help thinking that she is better off with Eriol to talk with. Both of them are so conniving and I bet to you guys that they'll have a lot to talk about. I suddenly have the urge to call Eriol in his seat and ask him to talk to Tomoyo so that she won't bother implying anything about my personal affairs anymore. But of course, I won't talk to that weirdo Eriol unless it's very important and that it's a matter of life and death!
"Iie, Tomoyo. Stop having such ridiculous thoughts. I just haven't found the right time to ask her out."
"Right time? Boy, I tell you again Syaoran, you're running out of time!" She reminded. "Right time or not, you got to pull yourself altogether to ask her out."
= Geez...Tomoyo is worse than Sakura! Talk about peer pressure! = I shook my head.
"Konnichiwa, Syaoran!" Hana greeted as she sat in her seat infront of mine. "Konnichiwa, Tomoyo."
I managed to make a small smile despite my surprise. Tomoyo and I are so busy talking with each other that I wasn't able to notice her coming. It's a good thing that Tomoyo was not mentioning any names a few seconds earlier or else, Hana could overhear us and that'll ruin our whole plan!
"Konnichiwa, Hana!" Tomoyo greeted warmly.
"Konnichiwa, Hana," I greeted timidly, not failing to notice how more pretty she looks today.
"The dance sure is getting closer," Hana commented. "It's really romantic how this is all turning out. With all the dates around us, no wonder there are new couples suddenly emerging! Love is sure on the air!"
"Hai." Tomoyo agreed, her long hair bobbing as she nodded. "Whom are you going out with?"
Ugh. And here we go again. This whole scene already happened before and I'm not really surprised that she brought up the topic once again for my own discomfort. I'm pretty sure that Tomoyo's going to give me something of a meaningful glance every now and then.
"No one. I've decided to go all by myself! I really don't want to tie myself up with a single person for the entire night."
Upon hearing Hana's reply, I could feel my hopes suddenly crumbling. I mean, all those practices I've had with Sakura suddenly went into thin air. Poof! Just like that.
"But," Hana added as an afterthought. "If somebody I really like will ask me out, then maybe, I could go to the dance with him."
I smiled inwardly at her change of plans. Suddenly, everything's on track again! Thank the high heavens for that! I guess you could say that I'm pretty much hopeful.
"Hello, everyone. I see that you guys are having such a great discussion here." A very familiar voice interrupted. "Mind if I join you?"
As I glance up at the smiling face of that..that guy...okay, I'll say the name...Eriol...man, I couldn't help feeling irritated! I just don't know why I don't like him! Maybe I'm acting irrational or something but it's really just one of those things. Hell, I just don't like him. Period. But at least, with his presence, I got my prayer answered. At least, Tomoyo have somebody who she can talk to but unless...they pair up to make my day miserable then that wouldn't look too good.
"Sure, Eriol!" Hana smiled, looking up at him happily.
A sudden idea entered my thoughts as I notice Hana's face beaming up at him. = Could it be that the guy Hana likes is...Eriol? =
"We haven't been able to talk to you for a while now, Eriol. What's up?" Tomoyo asked.
"Nothing. Just busy organizing the upcoming Valentine's party." Eriol smiled knowingly. "I volunteered to be part of the organizing committee. And I can just assure you right now that the party's going to be great."
"That's cool! Sakura and I were supposed to volunteer too but she lost interest in it because she found out that the party's mandatory." Tomoyo replied. "Although she keeps on insisting that she will not go to the dance. Sakura will just pretend to be sick or whatever plan she could come up with so that she'll be excuse from attending that party."
"But I hope she could come." Eriol said.
"Are you going out with somebody, Eriol?" Hana curiously asked as I glared instinctively at Eriol.
I saw Eriol shook his head gently. "I haven't asked someone...yet." And he gave her, what seems to me, a flirtatious smile as he finished off with his reply. I could just feel my emotions suddenly rising up.
"You're going all by yourself too, Eriol?" Tomoyo asked in surprise.
"Not if I can help it."
"Oi, Syaoran," Hana glanced at me worriedly. "You became quiet all of a sudden."
"I don't really have much to say," I mumbled while Hana looks at me curiously. When I glimpsed back at Eriol, his annoying trademark smile can already be seen on his face. I couldn't help glaring at him as my eyes met up with his eyes, however, he just continued to smile at me and Kami, how I hated him for that!
Suddenly, a sudden whispering and a few excited shrieks caught our attention. As the three of us glance infront of the room, we could already see a small group of our classmates huddling near the door, talking about something.
"What's happening?" I asked, baffled by some of my classmates' behavior.
"Something's up." Eriol said to no one in particular.
As the small group of people parted, a very familiar face emerged, looking so horrified but nevertheless looking so stunning and beautiful that my eyes couldn't help but just stare at her and blinked in amazement.
"She actually... did it," Tomoyo said in obvious amazement.
"Yeah..." I whispered softly, my eyes never leaving the girl who suddenly became an instant celebrity. Well, not that she's not popular before, I mean, she even became more popular because of her new look.
"Hoeeeee..." Sakura said faintly, looking so embarrassed when she reached our place. "I knew this is such a bad idea! Aaaarrgggh!!!! Why did I let myself listen to you Syaoran?" She asked miserably.
"Sakura," Eriol said and I couldn't help noticing the tone of admiration in his voice. "Don't worry, you look absolutely pretty."
"I agree with Eriol! Boy, Sakura...you're a knock-out!" Hana squealed happily.
"Um...Arigatou." She replied, but I could still tell how uncomfortable she really feels with her look.
As my eyes keeps glancing at her unconsciously, I could feel again that all too familiar weird feeling that I've had. I swear, if my heart keeps on beating ALWAYS like this, I'm going to die of excessive beating of my heart. My heart is beating so fast that I actually felt short of breath!
"Syaoran..." Sakura looked at me pleadingly. "Say I look like a baka...I know I look like one!"
I could feel my face burning as I took notice of Sakura's beautiful face, with her hair all tidy and her face applied with just the barest blush and her lips looking so...hmmm...how should I say this...hmmmm...kissable?
"No. I mean, Uh...you look great." I stammered, while my face blushing at my last thought.
I saw at the corner of my eyes how Eriol smiled knowingly and Tomoyo giggling softly. I could tell they're already noticing my sudden shift of moods. They are very insightful people and it's really hard to keep anything from those two.
"Oh Sakura, you look really kawaii!" Tomoyo exclaimed happily. "I never thought you would actually do that challenge that Syaoran asked you to do!"
"Yeah...I guess I was pretty challenged by his dare and I never really backed out, even before, of any dares that Syaoran asked me to do," Sakura answered. "And look where it got me!"
"I'm pretty sure there'll be a lot of guys who will come running after you now!" Hana commented.
Sakura scowled. "Hmp. I don't care. Besides this is only for today. I'm just trying to prove a point to Syaoran."
"But what if a lot of guys did asked you out to that dance?" Eriol asked her.
"Stop asking silly questions, Eriol!" I suddenly blurted out, unable to control myself. At that sudden outburst, all three of them looked at me in surprise.
"What's the matter, Syaoran?" Sakura asked gently, her face a mixture of surprise and concerned as she looked at me.
I tore my eyes away from those enchanting green eyes. I took a deep sigh to calm my nerves. I don't know why I actually did that! Eriol's question to Sakura and his idea that a lot of guys are going to ask her out suddenly troubled me. Man...I think I'm beginning to lose it!
"Nandemonai." (*Nothing*) I grunted.
Eriol cleared his throat loudly. "I'm going back to my seat now, the class is starting soon."
As I slumped tiredly in my seat with a heavy heart, I could notice a lot of girls, most especially guys, who keeps glancing at Sakura. The looks on their faces showed pure admiration and astonishment, never believing that this beautiful girl beside me is the untidy and careless tomboy that we used to know. Who would've thought that she'd turn out to be, as what Hana said, a knockout?
I glanced furtively at Sakura who seems to be engrossed with something that she and Tomoyo are talking about. As I look at her, I couldn't help feeling that my bestfriend seems to be so far away from me. She's actually near but yet, so far. I don't know, as if, something's changed between us. And I can't exactly point the exact reason why.
I skimmed the textbook I pulled out earlier from my bag, unconsciously. Since, I'm not in the mood to talk to anybody, I pretended to enjoy looking at my book, while my eyes scan the words written in it although honestly, it doesn't even make any sense to me. As I flipped the pages idly, stalling for some time before our classes start, my eyes stopped unconsciously on just one word, as if drawn by some force to it.
My eyes stared at the word, as if telling me something.
"Jealousy." I murmured softly as I read the word.
I could feel a new realization dawning to me, as I look back at Sakura, then at Hana, then at everybody...again noticing those guys smiling at Sakura.
= Am I... getting jealous??? = I scowled. = But... why? =
Maybe I know the answer.
It's just that...
I don't want to admit it.
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Author's note: I totally agree with Syaoran...it does happen to me...even though It's all before infront of my very own eyes...I will still not admit it. Ugh. Oi, I'm getting engrossed on my own fic! Sheeeshhh... ^_^;;; Oh yeah, pls. don't forget to review! Arigatou!