Mashuti was wandering around the lab again. In her mind, the past few weeks had been shrouded in nothing by trouble for her. Whenever she did her routine check-up of Aozora's stats…there would be a huge gap in her memory, where the only thing she could remember would be waking up. And of recent Dr. Yasutmito accused her of sabotage, along with restricting her access to the project.
Sabotage? Her mind and heart clashed together at the prospect. Her heart was screaming out that she was innocent of any wrongdoing, but her mind knew different. She knew she couldn't remember a thing in between the check-ups and awakening else where. It proved difficult to recall what happened during her lapses in memory. She could sense that the Doctor might be right about his suspicions.
But her heart still raged on about it. She was upset over the fact that the doctor could accuse her of such a crime. More than anyone else she knew, he should be able to have trusted in her character. But that probably went down the drain after he showed as proof the entries that she has supposedly typed during her memory lapses. And the strange thing about them was, that they felt familiar…familiar in the sense that she has secretly had those thoughts somewhere deep inside her before.
But the question that stood before her was how those thoughts arose from within her to cause such havoc. Just trying to remember was making her migraine worse. "Every time I try to remember what I can't, my living headache gets worse", she mumbled in her thought. The inner conflict between her heart and mind suddenly erupted into a cry of sheer agony. "WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER ONE SINGLE THING!" she screamed out in pain.
She collapsed to the floor, still on her knees, but apparently struggling to get up under her own will. Her heart was pounding furiously, raging a long and hard fought battle with her scientific mind.
"I know I didn't do such horrible things to the Doctor. I care for him too much. I could never hurt him.."
but he hurt you. You loved him and he hurt you. All he cares about is that project of his
"That's not true. The doctor tends to get carried away in his work, that's all. He cares for me greatly."
That is not how he felt when he blocked you from that project. That thing, Aozora as he calls it, is the trouble of all this
"Aozora means a lot to the doctor. He wants to use her to bring joy and happiness to the world. He sees all the good that science can achieve hidden deep within her."
Aozora is nothing but trouble. It's because of her that the doctor hates you.
"He's upset at me for things that I would never do. I know how much Aozora's completion means to him. I could never do something to ruin what he has worked so hard for.."
but you did. You sabotaged everything. You hate her. You want her dead. You want him to yourself. You…
"I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING SO HARSH AS TO DESTROY ANOTHER'S LIFE WORK! It…it was you…you're doing this…you want to hurt the doctor…you…
Yanai blacked out soon after that. Her heart wasn't strong enough to fight off her mind's attack. The doctor's lack of faith in her proved to be more than she could handle. Her body was still moving though. It managed to get back onto its feet.
"fools all of them. The doctor proved to be more of a fool than all of them, except maybe for this pathetic one. She gave me more of a fight than I anticipated. But she proved to be expandable. Just like Aozora Knife will be..."
