Author's note: I am SOOOOOOOOO sorry I haven't updated this in so long!!! I don't know if theres anyone still reading it but if there is I REALLY am sorry. I had REALLY bad writer's block for this and I was concentrating on a zillion other fictions that I'm writing. Anyway I hope you guys are still reading and if you are I hope you like this chapter!
Disclaimer: Nothing's mine except for, hmmmm, Leah I think and the plot of course. PLEASE r/r!
"Was it good? Huh? Huh? Huh? C'mon Lily, I'm DYING to know," Arabella said, almost falling off the couch she was sitting on, with anticipation, as Lily strolled into the dorm and kicked off her boots, taking at least five inches off her height. She smiled, lazily, at Arabella.
"It was good," she said, unwinding a long, multicolored scarf (a present from Leah for her last birthday) from around her neck.
"DETAILS, Lils!" demanded Arabella. "I want to know absolutely EVERYTHING!"
"Everything?" repeated Lily. Arabella nodded, wildly. "Ok I met James outside Honeydukes at about 2 or 2.30, something along those lines anyway. He was wearing jeans and a light blue shirt that REALLY set off his skin tone, you know sort of . . .
"Ok, ok, ok," interrupted Arabella. "Maybe I don't want to know EVERYTHING! Skip the details about skin tone and fast forward to the juicy bits!"
"Juicy bits?" repeated Lily, trying not to smile. "My dearest, Bella, I haven't the faintest idea what you're talking about."
"He kissed you again, didn't he?" Arabella squealed, her eyes lighting up. There was a shocked silence from Lily's side. "Omigod! I KNEW it!" Arabella said.
"How the hell did you get THAT from what I said?" demanded Lily.
"My dearest Lily," mimicked Arabella. "You are SO easy to read!" Lily threw a pillow at her.
"Shut-up!"
"Did he kiss you, did he kiss you, did he kiss you?" screamed Leah, bounding into the room. Lily opened her mouth to answer but was interrupted by Arabella's, er, over-enthusiastic scream.
"YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Thank you, Bella," Lily said. "I think I'm deaf now." Lily rubbed her ear.
"Ooh you think he's gorgeous, you want to date him, you want to hold him, you kiss him," Leah taunted, throwing herself on the ground in front of Lily.
"So are you going out again?" Arabella asked, after calming down, er, slightly. Lily shrugged.
"Dunno," she answered. "Now can we go to the kitchens to get food?" she asked. "I missed dinner and I'm starved!" She patted her belly and made for the door.
James, Sirius, Remus and Peter sat in the common room. Well I should say James and Remus were sitting in the common room. Sirius was jumping around the place, attempting to, um, throw Peter across the room, because he was so "small and cute."
"So did you kiss her?" Sirius asked, throwing himself onto the couch on top of Remus and James, finally after achieving his "lifelong dream of throwing Peter across a crowded room." James didn't reply.
"Of course he kissed her," Remus commented. "This is James Potter we're talking about. You did kiss her, didn't you?"
"Yea," James said.
"See?" Remus said, sticking his tongue out at Sirius.
"I knew that," Sirius said, crossly, folding her arms. "See I was testing you, Moony, old buddy," he said, his face brightening.
"Course you were, Padfoot." Remus nodded and grinned. "Course you were." Sirius gave Remus a look before jumping around the room, as if he were on drugs, which, knowing him, he probably was.
"James is in love with Lily. James is in love with Lily!" Sirius taunted. James glared at Sirius. The portrait hole was pushed open and Arabella, Leah and Lily walked in, arguing about something or the other.
"There's my gorgeous, sweet, adorable girlfriend!" Sirius exclaimed, running over to Arabella. He jumped on her knocking her down. Lily rolled her eyes and continued to walk over to James, Remus and Peter with Leah
"Hey guys," they said, almost in unison smiling. Lily blushed, slightly, when she looked at James.
"Lily. Leah" Remus nodded.
"Hi Lil, Leah" Peter said, relieved that Sirius was too busy making out with Arabella to consider trying to throw him across the room again.
"Hey Lily," James said, finally, his eyes lingering on her a bit longer than was necessary. He looked at Leah and smiled. "How's it going Leah?" he asked. She smiled at him and winked.
"Not too bad," she answered. "Not too bad at all." Arabella and Sirius made their way back over to the group, clutching hands. Arabella's hair was noticeably tousled and Sirius had pale sugary pink lipstick all over him. Arabella wiped some of it off as he sat down and pulled her onto his lap.
"Ooh Lily and Jamsie sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in a baby carriage," Sirius recited. James rolled his eyes and Lily reddened.
"Lily, do you feel like taking a walk?" James asked her. She nodded.
"Sure," she answered, glaring at Sirius and Arabella who had started catcalling again. She made a "zip-it" motion to Arabella, who didn't notice it, as she had gotten a bit involved with Sirius again. James slipped his arm around Lily's waist casually and Lily smiled up at him, feeling the butterflies rise in her stomach.
"They are just the cutest couple!" Leah exclaimed as they climbed out the portrait hole. Peter muttered something about having to get something in the dorm and left the room. Remus smiled at her and she smiled back, if a little awkwardly. "So how's Melanie?" Leah asked, turning her eyes to the ground.
"Um she's good, I guess," Remus asked, looking at Leah. Leah smiled a watery smile. She was as good as over Remus. Maybe not quite but she knew that the little part of her that still desperately loved him probably wouldn't go away. She did and always would love him even if it was only a little. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Leah you know how sorry I am that I hurt you, don't you?"
"Yea, yea Remus we've been through it. You're sorry, I understand blah, blah, blah."
"Leah you were the first girl I ever loved and nothing is going to change that." He took her hand.
"Yea whatever," Leah said.
"You know what? I'm just so sick of this shit! I'm always the first but never the one anyone chooses. Why is that Remus? Care to speculate?" She burst into tears there and then and turned to run up the stairs. Remus winced before running to follow her.
"Leah." Remus burst into the girl's dorm and found Leah sitting on her bed, with her head in her hands. He sat down on the edge of her bed and took her hand, which she didn't pull away. "I am truly, truly sorry," he began. "If I could go back I'd change hurting you, I'd change kissing Melanie, I'd change choosing her over you but most of all I'd change us breaking up." Leah looked at him and smiled a little. "Leah I still love you," he told her. "I really do and the reason I said that Melanie was ok - I guess - is because I'm not sure. We, um, we broke up Leah."
"You did?" she sniffled. Remus nodded.
"We did. It was a mutual decision, Lee. We were never meant to be. It was more of a physical attraction really. I kissed her because she was there comforting me and I mistook my strong feelings for you. I thought I liked her."
"Why did you never tell me all this before?" Leah demanded.
"I only realized it recently," he admitted. "I AM sorry, Lee," he told her, stroking her hand, gently. Leah looked down at the hand he was holding and back at him. She closed her eyes. This could be the biggest mistake she would ever make but she had to do it anyway. She pulled him to her and put her arms around his neck. She pressed her lips against his and almost cried with relief when she found him responding just as passionately and needily as her. Leah could feel all her love for Remus that she had managed to get rid of build up inside her again and she knew if something happened that prevented him from loving her back that she would die. There was no way she could handle all that pain again. She had sobbed into her pillow for a solid month before she had even began to recover. This guy had her whole heart and there wasn't a hope in heaven that she could handle it being stomped all over again. There'd be snowballs in hell first. Leah pulled away and bit her lip. She looked down at her bedspread, not daring to look at Remus. She felt a gentle hand tug her chin upwards and before she knew it she was looking into Remus' open features. He was smiling. Leah could have collapsed as she hugged Remus. She closed her eyes and let him kiss her neck. God she loved this guy!!!
Lily and James appeared in the common room, holding hands about an hour later. Lily looked fit to burst she was smiling so much and James looked pretty content as well. Lily and James made the most perfect couple.
Weeks passed and Lily fell for James harder and harder. Harder than she had ever fallen for anyone before. True enough when Lily liked people she liked them a hell of a lot but this was different. James was different. She had never felt like this with anyone before. Ever. And, she decided, it was a feeling she could get used to. James, in turn, was crazy about Lily. Everything he thought about just revolved around her. Trusted, when he had first gone to Hogsmeade with her it wasn't as if he was head over heels for her but he certainly was now. She just had this crazy effect on him that made his head spin when she was near.
Lily skipped happily towards the library where she was meeting James. "Six months," she thought happily. "Six whole months!" Yup, that day was Lily and James' six-month anniversary. She couldn't wait to see him again. She spent every waking moment with him and any she couldn't be with him just thinking about him. Yup, folks, that's right Lily was love struck.
She stared at her long-term boyfriend, long reddish hair with golden highlights running through it framed her pale, altogether innocent looking face. Her emerald green eyes shone out of her face, hurt visible within even in the pale candlelight.
He, too, stared back at her, hair messy and tousled as per usual. His glittering brown eyes, filled with regret as he watched her face expression harden. All at once it was all too obvious why. A skinny, tanned arm was wrapping itself around his stomach. SHE was behind him.
Her golden blond hair was like a cloud of sugar-spun cotton candy and the combination of big, pale blue eyes made her appearance quite angelic. The truth, however, was far from it.
"Oh hi Lily," she drawled, giving off an air of self-assurance. The redhead turned, abruptly, and stormed out of the room.
"Lily!" called the boy, untangling himself from the blond's grip. "Lily!" He ran after her. "LILY!" he called, as he ran through the halls after her. Lily kept on walking. He grabbed her arm but she pulled away.
"James Potter," she hissed. "I hate you and I NEVER want to see you again. If you come near me I'll make sure there's no baby Potter's running around in year's to come. Is that clear?" Instead of waiting for an answer Lily ran away again.
And so her friends, Arabella and Leah were surprised when Lily ran into the dormitory, tears streaming down her cheeks. After all it was Lily and James' half-year anniversary. Shouldn't she be overjoyed?
"If James comes DON'T let him in," was all she said before throwing herself onto her bed and pulling the drapes with such force they almost came down around her. There was a sharp knock at the door. "DON'T let him in!" repeated Lily from the depths of her bed. And true enough outside the door stood James.
"James I don't know what's happened," Leah said. "But I don't think you should come in."
"I NEED to talk to Lily!" he pleaded.
"Well I don't want to talk to you," came Lily's muffled voice.
"Please Lily, you don't understand!" He barged past the three, astonished looking girls and pulled open the drapes of Lily's bed. "Could you give us some privacy?" he asked Arabella and Leah.
"No!" said Lily shrilly to her friends. "Don't go anywhere! Potter, I'm giving you three minutes. Either you say what you want to say in front of the girls or you don't say it at all!" James took a deep breath.
"Ok," he said. "Lily you have to understand. Lizzie means NOTHING to me. Believe me I have no feelings for her at all. You mean everything to me!"
"Well you should have thought of that before you kissed her!" Lily screamed, almost hysterically. Arabella and Leah who were standing by the door, looking on awkwardly, gasped simultaneously. So THAT was why Lily was so upset! But James cheating on her? He adored her.
"Lily it was a mistake. I . . . I . . ."
"Spit it out, Potter," snapped Lily.
"I love you."
"Ahhhhhhhhhhh," the onlookers said, fondly. Lily's expression softened and then, almost immediately, hardened again.
"Like I already said, Potter, you should have thought of that before you stuck you're tongue back Lizzie Ellis' throat! Now get out."
"But Lily . . ." pleaded James.
"OUT!" Lily pointed to the door.
"I . . ."
"GET OUT, POTTER," she screamed. James got up and walked for the door.
"I'm going," he said. "But like I said - I love you, Lil." He walked out and Lily got up and slammed the door behind him. Not satisfied she opened it and slammed it again. BANG! BANG! BANG! She burst into tears and collapsed onto her bed, shoulders heaving. Arabella and Leah exchanged glances before rushing over to comfort their distraught friend.
"I hate him," she sobbed into her pillow. "I hate him for doing this! I loved him so much and he destroyed me. That bastard destroyed me."
Disclaimer: Nothing's mine except for, hmmmm, Leah I think and the plot of course. PLEASE r/r!
"Was it good? Huh? Huh? Huh? C'mon Lily, I'm DYING to know," Arabella said, almost falling off the couch she was sitting on, with anticipation, as Lily strolled into the dorm and kicked off her boots, taking at least five inches off her height. She smiled, lazily, at Arabella.
"It was good," she said, unwinding a long, multicolored scarf (a present from Leah for her last birthday) from around her neck.
"DETAILS, Lils!" demanded Arabella. "I want to know absolutely EVERYTHING!"
"Everything?" repeated Lily. Arabella nodded, wildly. "Ok I met James outside Honeydukes at about 2 or 2.30, something along those lines anyway. He was wearing jeans and a light blue shirt that REALLY set off his skin tone, you know sort of . . .
"Ok, ok, ok," interrupted Arabella. "Maybe I don't want to know EVERYTHING! Skip the details about skin tone and fast forward to the juicy bits!"
"Juicy bits?" repeated Lily, trying not to smile. "My dearest, Bella, I haven't the faintest idea what you're talking about."
"He kissed you again, didn't he?" Arabella squealed, her eyes lighting up. There was a shocked silence from Lily's side. "Omigod! I KNEW it!" Arabella said.
"How the hell did you get THAT from what I said?" demanded Lily.
"My dearest Lily," mimicked Arabella. "You are SO easy to read!" Lily threw a pillow at her.
"Shut-up!"
"Did he kiss you, did he kiss you, did he kiss you?" screamed Leah, bounding into the room. Lily opened her mouth to answer but was interrupted by Arabella's, er, over-enthusiastic scream.
"YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Thank you, Bella," Lily said. "I think I'm deaf now." Lily rubbed her ear.
"Ooh you think he's gorgeous, you want to date him, you want to hold him, you kiss him," Leah taunted, throwing herself on the ground in front of Lily.
"So are you going out again?" Arabella asked, after calming down, er, slightly. Lily shrugged.
"Dunno," she answered. "Now can we go to the kitchens to get food?" she asked. "I missed dinner and I'm starved!" She patted her belly and made for the door.
James, Sirius, Remus and Peter sat in the common room. Well I should say James and Remus were sitting in the common room. Sirius was jumping around the place, attempting to, um, throw Peter across the room, because he was so "small and cute."
"So did you kiss her?" Sirius asked, throwing himself onto the couch on top of Remus and James, finally after achieving his "lifelong dream of throwing Peter across a crowded room." James didn't reply.
"Of course he kissed her," Remus commented. "This is James Potter we're talking about. You did kiss her, didn't you?"
"Yea," James said.
"See?" Remus said, sticking his tongue out at Sirius.
"I knew that," Sirius said, crossly, folding her arms. "See I was testing you, Moony, old buddy," he said, his face brightening.
"Course you were, Padfoot." Remus nodded and grinned. "Course you were." Sirius gave Remus a look before jumping around the room, as if he were on drugs, which, knowing him, he probably was.
"James is in love with Lily. James is in love with Lily!" Sirius taunted. James glared at Sirius. The portrait hole was pushed open and Arabella, Leah and Lily walked in, arguing about something or the other.
"There's my gorgeous, sweet, adorable girlfriend!" Sirius exclaimed, running over to Arabella. He jumped on her knocking her down. Lily rolled her eyes and continued to walk over to James, Remus and Peter with Leah
"Hey guys," they said, almost in unison smiling. Lily blushed, slightly, when she looked at James.
"Lily. Leah" Remus nodded.
"Hi Lil, Leah" Peter said, relieved that Sirius was too busy making out with Arabella to consider trying to throw him across the room again.
"Hey Lily," James said, finally, his eyes lingering on her a bit longer than was necessary. He looked at Leah and smiled. "How's it going Leah?" he asked. She smiled at him and winked.
"Not too bad," she answered. "Not too bad at all." Arabella and Sirius made their way back over to the group, clutching hands. Arabella's hair was noticeably tousled and Sirius had pale sugary pink lipstick all over him. Arabella wiped some of it off as he sat down and pulled her onto his lap.
"Ooh Lily and Jamsie sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in a baby carriage," Sirius recited. James rolled his eyes and Lily reddened.
"Lily, do you feel like taking a walk?" James asked her. She nodded.
"Sure," she answered, glaring at Sirius and Arabella who had started catcalling again. She made a "zip-it" motion to Arabella, who didn't notice it, as she had gotten a bit involved with Sirius again. James slipped his arm around Lily's waist casually and Lily smiled up at him, feeling the butterflies rise in her stomach.
"They are just the cutest couple!" Leah exclaimed as they climbed out the portrait hole. Peter muttered something about having to get something in the dorm and left the room. Remus smiled at her and she smiled back, if a little awkwardly. "So how's Melanie?" Leah asked, turning her eyes to the ground.
"Um she's good, I guess," Remus asked, looking at Leah. Leah smiled a watery smile. She was as good as over Remus. Maybe not quite but she knew that the little part of her that still desperately loved him probably wouldn't go away. She did and always would love him even if it was only a little. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Leah you know how sorry I am that I hurt you, don't you?"
"Yea, yea Remus we've been through it. You're sorry, I understand blah, blah, blah."
"Leah you were the first girl I ever loved and nothing is going to change that." He took her hand.
"Yea whatever," Leah said.
"You know what? I'm just so sick of this shit! I'm always the first but never the one anyone chooses. Why is that Remus? Care to speculate?" She burst into tears there and then and turned to run up the stairs. Remus winced before running to follow her.
"Leah." Remus burst into the girl's dorm and found Leah sitting on her bed, with her head in her hands. He sat down on the edge of her bed and took her hand, which she didn't pull away. "I am truly, truly sorry," he began. "If I could go back I'd change hurting you, I'd change kissing Melanie, I'd change choosing her over you but most of all I'd change us breaking up." Leah looked at him and smiled a little. "Leah I still love you," he told her. "I really do and the reason I said that Melanie was ok - I guess - is because I'm not sure. We, um, we broke up Leah."
"You did?" she sniffled. Remus nodded.
"We did. It was a mutual decision, Lee. We were never meant to be. It was more of a physical attraction really. I kissed her because she was there comforting me and I mistook my strong feelings for you. I thought I liked her."
"Why did you never tell me all this before?" Leah demanded.
"I only realized it recently," he admitted. "I AM sorry, Lee," he told her, stroking her hand, gently. Leah looked down at the hand he was holding and back at him. She closed her eyes. This could be the biggest mistake she would ever make but she had to do it anyway. She pulled him to her and put her arms around his neck. She pressed her lips against his and almost cried with relief when she found him responding just as passionately and needily as her. Leah could feel all her love for Remus that she had managed to get rid of build up inside her again and she knew if something happened that prevented him from loving her back that she would die. There was no way she could handle all that pain again. She had sobbed into her pillow for a solid month before she had even began to recover. This guy had her whole heart and there wasn't a hope in heaven that she could handle it being stomped all over again. There'd be snowballs in hell first. Leah pulled away and bit her lip. She looked down at her bedspread, not daring to look at Remus. She felt a gentle hand tug her chin upwards and before she knew it she was looking into Remus' open features. He was smiling. Leah could have collapsed as she hugged Remus. She closed her eyes and let him kiss her neck. God she loved this guy!!!
Lily and James appeared in the common room, holding hands about an hour later. Lily looked fit to burst she was smiling so much and James looked pretty content as well. Lily and James made the most perfect couple.
Weeks passed and Lily fell for James harder and harder. Harder than she had ever fallen for anyone before. True enough when Lily liked people she liked them a hell of a lot but this was different. James was different. She had never felt like this with anyone before. Ever. And, she decided, it was a feeling she could get used to. James, in turn, was crazy about Lily. Everything he thought about just revolved around her. Trusted, when he had first gone to Hogsmeade with her it wasn't as if he was head over heels for her but he certainly was now. She just had this crazy effect on him that made his head spin when she was near.
Lily skipped happily towards the library where she was meeting James. "Six months," she thought happily. "Six whole months!" Yup, that day was Lily and James' six-month anniversary. She couldn't wait to see him again. She spent every waking moment with him and any she couldn't be with him just thinking about him. Yup, folks, that's right Lily was love struck.
She stared at her long-term boyfriend, long reddish hair with golden highlights running through it framed her pale, altogether innocent looking face. Her emerald green eyes shone out of her face, hurt visible within even in the pale candlelight.
He, too, stared back at her, hair messy and tousled as per usual. His glittering brown eyes, filled with regret as he watched her face expression harden. All at once it was all too obvious why. A skinny, tanned arm was wrapping itself around his stomach. SHE was behind him.
Her golden blond hair was like a cloud of sugar-spun cotton candy and the combination of big, pale blue eyes made her appearance quite angelic. The truth, however, was far from it.
"Oh hi Lily," she drawled, giving off an air of self-assurance. The redhead turned, abruptly, and stormed out of the room.
"Lily!" called the boy, untangling himself from the blond's grip. "Lily!" He ran after her. "LILY!" he called, as he ran through the halls after her. Lily kept on walking. He grabbed her arm but she pulled away.
"James Potter," she hissed. "I hate you and I NEVER want to see you again. If you come near me I'll make sure there's no baby Potter's running around in year's to come. Is that clear?" Instead of waiting for an answer Lily ran away again.
And so her friends, Arabella and Leah were surprised when Lily ran into the dormitory, tears streaming down her cheeks. After all it was Lily and James' half-year anniversary. Shouldn't she be overjoyed?
"If James comes DON'T let him in," was all she said before throwing herself onto her bed and pulling the drapes with such force they almost came down around her. There was a sharp knock at the door. "DON'T let him in!" repeated Lily from the depths of her bed. And true enough outside the door stood James.
"James I don't know what's happened," Leah said. "But I don't think you should come in."
"I NEED to talk to Lily!" he pleaded.
"Well I don't want to talk to you," came Lily's muffled voice.
"Please Lily, you don't understand!" He barged past the three, astonished looking girls and pulled open the drapes of Lily's bed. "Could you give us some privacy?" he asked Arabella and Leah.
"No!" said Lily shrilly to her friends. "Don't go anywhere! Potter, I'm giving you three minutes. Either you say what you want to say in front of the girls or you don't say it at all!" James took a deep breath.
"Ok," he said. "Lily you have to understand. Lizzie means NOTHING to me. Believe me I have no feelings for her at all. You mean everything to me!"
"Well you should have thought of that before you kissed her!" Lily screamed, almost hysterically. Arabella and Leah who were standing by the door, looking on awkwardly, gasped simultaneously. So THAT was why Lily was so upset! But James cheating on her? He adored her.
"Lily it was a mistake. I . . . I . . ."
"Spit it out, Potter," snapped Lily.
"I love you."
"Ahhhhhhhhhhh," the onlookers said, fondly. Lily's expression softened and then, almost immediately, hardened again.
"Like I already said, Potter, you should have thought of that before you stuck you're tongue back Lizzie Ellis' throat! Now get out."
"But Lily . . ." pleaded James.
"OUT!" Lily pointed to the door.
"I . . ."
"GET OUT, POTTER," she screamed. James got up and walked for the door.
"I'm going," he said. "But like I said - I love you, Lil." He walked out and Lily got up and slammed the door behind him. Not satisfied she opened it and slammed it again. BANG! BANG! BANG! She burst into tears and collapsed onto her bed, shoulders heaving. Arabella and Leah exchanged glances before rushing over to comfort their distraught friend.
"I hate him," she sobbed into her pillow. "I hate him for doing this! I loved him so much and he destroyed me. That bastard destroyed me."