A/N: *chuckles* Yes ShoSen I did do more of it just for you, is this a better ending? ^_^: This will be the last part I think I rather like leaving it like this. Though if I ever get the urge to do more I may set it after this and use this as a base for it. But for the time being this will work. ^_~ The Song is by Bryan Adams I believe and is titled Please Forgive Me. In case you are wanting to know that. I didn't use all of the song because it didn't all fit in this unless I set it later but yeah. ^.^;
Please Forgive Me (Sequel: Broken Arrow)
By: Jaya (07.22.02)
Rating: pg13ish
Warning: twincest
Summery/Blurb: What's done is done and can't be taken back, but how will it turn out?
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
At first he couldn't believe what was happening, couldn't believe that Elladan was kissing him that their lips were touching. Then just as it had happened it was over, and he could almost believe that it hadn't happened at all. At least if it hadn't been for the fact that his brother was blushing. Elrohir sat back on the floor as Elladan stood up and walked away from him just watching him go unable to find the words to say anything yet. It was Elladan's voice and his words that made him shake off the momentary inability to do anything but sit there.
"Forgive me Elrohir, I should not have done that." Elladan said softly staring out the window not daring to look at his brother now, hands clenched on the window sill to keep them from shaking.
"There's nothing to forgive Elladan." Elrohir replied quietly moving to stand hesitantly behind his brother. He wanted to reach out and pull Elladan to him, to wrap his arms around his brother and hold him nothing more, but he didn't. Not yet.
Elladan glanced over at him looking away just as quickly, but that look was enough to show Elrohir the emotions in his eyes. It surprised and scared him a little to see his brothers normal control slipping, to see so plainly in his eyes what he'd been trying so valiantly to hide. "Yes there is... I promise myself I would not.. would not tell you. I should not feel like this, I should not."
"Why Elladan? Why should we not? Because people out there will not understand, is that why? Because people who do not know us, who do not understand what we feel, is that why it is not right? Why should they dictate our lives for us Elladan, why should we let them rule our lives! They are our lives to do with as we would not as they would." Elrohir reached over to put a hand on Elladan's shoulder. "Please brother... look at me."
Please believe me, for what I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
He fought it at first the urge to turn and look at Elrohir to acknowledge the wisdom in his words, and the meaning behind them. //Can you truly mean that brother?// He wondered keeping his gaze fixed outside still. //Can you mean to say that you love me as I would have you do so? That you would have me no matter what people think or say?// Finally turning to look at Elrohir again, Elladan saw the emotion plain and clear in his gray eyes. Not thinking as he pulled him closer, Elladan felt Elrohir come into his arms willingly returning the embrace with a fierce passion and he wondered how he'd never seen it before. "You do not hate me for this?" He asked softly pressing his cheek against his brother's soft hair.
"Neh, I could not hate you Elladan." Pulling back just enough to turn Elladan's face towards him, so that he could look into his eyes. A little smile slowly creeping across his face Elrohir hoped that he would see more of those expressive gray eyes in the future, more emotion. It was something he'd always cherished, even in a small way the tears the little things that Elladan let him see that Elrohir knew he kept from everyone else and now this. "There is nothing to forgive brother." He repeated again softly pressing his forehead to Elladan's. "I love you."
"Elrohir..." It was all Elladan said as he returned his twin's gaze, nearly crying leaning forward instead to press their lips together once more in sweet union; Elrohir returned the kiss with feeling.
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should...
For a long time they stood there like that, together wrapped in each others arms neither wanting to move away to break the moment. A little afraid that if they did it would all disappear or simply become another dream. Finally drawing Elrohir into his room, Elladan closed the door behind them before wrapping his arms around his brother again. "What of father?" he asked quietly after a moment afraid to broach the subject, afraid that Elrohir would change his mind and pull away from him.
"We will deal with that when it comes." Elrohir replied gently, turning Elladan to look at him once more. "You're the only one whoever meant anything to me brother. The only one I ever really wanted, yes there have been others but it was always you who came back to me, you were always there when I needed you. Maybe this isn't right, I should not feel like this, should not love you as much as I do but... I care not what they will say, only what you want truly matters to me..."
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
Elladan watched him silently for a moment, holding his peace before he finally sighed looking away again. How he wanted to just smile and tell Elrohir he didn't care what everyone else thought, that it was what he wanted that mattered. But he couldn't just leave it at that, his conscious wouldn't let him do no matter how much his heart wanted him to. "It will not be easy brother.. unless we plan to keep this a secret."
"I know it won't, but I am willing to accept that. Do you doubt me Elladan?" Elrohir forced his brother to look at him this time to hold his gaze. "Do you doubt me? Doubt what I am saying, that I mean it? Or perhaps you two think I am crazy, that..." He didn't finish letting go of Elladan pulling away from him, he turned to walk to the bed in the corner against the wall staring down at it.
Closing his eyes for a moment, as Elrohir let go of him unable to get his brothers eyes out of his mind the emotion he'd seen burning there even more then before. "I do not doubt you Elrohir." He said softly after a moment eyes following him to the bed. "Never that, you said that I had always been there for you, it was you who were always there when I needed you. When I woke at night from a nightmare it was you who were there to comfort me no one else." Walking over Elladan pulled Elrohir back into his arms holding him tightly to himself. "You are not crazy." Kissing him pouring all his feeling into that kiss, Elladan silenced his own doubts as Elrohir returned the kiss with a passion of his own.
Neither sure if it was Elladan who pushed Elrohir or Elrohir who pulled Elladan back onto the bed as they fell still locked in each others arms, and it felt right. Two half of a whole, apart just halves together, whole.
~End~