I Ain't Missing You At All….
~ Chapter 6 ~
The light burns my eyes and wakes me up.
I still lie in the white and soft bath robe , in the same room. So I wasn't dreaming….
I look around. On the chair in front of me are a pair of black jeans and a blue shirt.
They are not my size, they're a little big , but I like it like that .
I go outside on the balcony and watch the city waking up in fast motion . The world changes very fast , people move very fast .
I go to the kitchen and there I find Omi and Youji. Omi has in his hands a plate with something……uh….very black and burned?
" Fine ! You're gonna eat this isn't it?" He says to Youji who is looking for something in the so empty fridge.
"Wha--?"
"I'm not gonna let you destroy the food anymore ! "
"Fine by me . Then you do the cooking !"
"I…"
He notices me standing in the door smiling. They're so funny when they fight.
He gives me his smile .
"Morning Omi."
"Morning Angie."
"Morning Youji."
"Whatever…"
" Don't mind him ….uh…Angie….can you cook ?"
" Well….not very much but I can make a decent breakfast…"
"With what ? " Asks Youji showing me the empty fridge.
"With this ! "
We her from behind us. We see Ken with two bags of food in his hands trying to find his way to the kitchen with the big bags blocking his sight .
I rush to help him with theme.
"Uh…Thanks Angelina…wow…these are heavier then they look .."
"Anghie told us she's gonna cook us breakfast !" Youji says smirking.
"I didn't said that. You'll have to help me too." I reply.
"Sure !" Says Ken to me smiling. These WeiB boys sure like to smile. Except for Aya.
* * *
Geezz…..these guys sure are hungry. They ate all. The only one that ever finished his meal was Schuldig . Farfarello barely ever ate.
I'm worried about theme. But I'll think they'll manage . I hope.
"Hey ! Are you okay ? " I hear Aya's voice .
"Me ? Sure why not ? "
"You haven't ate anything." I hear Omi.
"Don't worry about me. I'm, not that hungry."
"Yeah right." I hear Ken too. " Don't tell me you think about those guys."
"No, I'm not. I think I'm tired. That's all. Have you all finished ? "
"Yes."
I rise and take their plates and put theme in the sink getting ready to wash theme. But I turn around.
"Guys ? "
They all look at me.
"Yeah…?"
"What are you planning to do with me ? "
Nobody says anything. They don't look at me ,except for Aya who is looking straight in my eyes. He slowly rises and heads to the door.
"We still don't plan anything about you. But if you want to go back to Schwarz , please go. We are not keeping you here by force."
"I….I don't want to go back there …" I say putting my hand on my cheek where Brad hit me .
"Then you are welcome to stay." Aya says and goes outside.
"Besides , you make a good food." Omi says and goes after Aya. Youji follows the two outside.
I just stare at the floor. I shook my head and go back at the plates.
Ken puts his hand on my shoulder.
" Don't worry . It will be okay . "
" It won't Ken. They are looking for me. Takatori never lets anyone run away from him . Never."
Amazing…I reminded the guy's name….
I feel the silence falling over me and spreading all over the room. Ken doesn't know what to say . He wants to say something to encourage me , but he can't . No one can.
"It's okay Ken, you don't have to say anything. "
And I go back to my washing .
" I have to say that…..Nothing."
And he goes away.
I finish washing the plates and I go to my room to take my clothes and wash theme.
My jeans are a mess. I open my pocket. I look for some money to go and buy some sport shoes, because I remembered that I had some money in my pocket from Brad. We always can afford anything. Well I could afford in the past. I don't know about what will happened next.
And then I see it. My only photo with Brad. Schuldig made it. We were at the beach. The only time when we got Brad to the beach. It was a windy day and we were just walking on the sand.
In this picture Brad holds me in his arms. And he even smiles. Unbelievable .
He looks so nice in this picture….But why is he so cold with me ?
I only wished someone to be close to me. That was all. My parents never showed me enough affection like I needed. I just needed some… that's all.
* * *
Nagi knocked at the door . He heard a hard voice asking ' What?'
He opened the door and saw the Oracle's tall shilouette standing in front of the window.
" Crawford , Takatori called. He wants you to meet him."
The man didn't said anything.
"Crawford?"
" When ?"
"Today. At 2 o'clock sharp."
" Fine . Go away now."
Nagi closed the door behind him slowly.
Brad's face is lighted from the Sun that just appeared at the horizon , spreading his warmth all over the city.
He takes his glasses off and rubs his eyes. His head is in absolute pain.
He hadn't slept since Angelina ran away . In that same night he wandered the streets alone in the rain , searching for her. Nowhere to be find.
He went into the bathroom in order to take some pills to keep him awake.
The shells with medicine were almost empty . Angelina took the pills out of here in order to make him get some sleep . Where did she put theme then ?
He closed the door from the medicine shell and headed for his desk putting his papers in order to give theme to Takatori . Under theme , he saw a small photo. It was Angelina with him . He taught he lost that picture .
He took a look at it and on his petrified face appeared a sad smile.
He put the photo in his shirt pocket and went outside without saying a word to the others.
~ AFTER TWO MONTHS ~
I sit here screaming at Ken and encouraging him and his team . I don't know why they keep on playing in the winter.
In this hall it doesn't have the same effect like it does outside in the summer . But Ken told me he had to keep in shape .
Uh…finally the game is over. Ken's team won. Of course .
I run to him and hug him for the success.
He goes to change in his winter clothes and I wait for him at the sportive's exit .
"Congratulations again Ken ." I say.
"Thanks ! This one was a hard one ! Those guys were really good."
"Yes but you beat theme ! "
We laugh and talk , just having a good time on the way home.
Things changed with me. I'm not allowed to use Telekinesis as much as I want to. Aya freaked out when he saw me floating his teacup to him .
I freaked out when I saw his face . He almost screamed at me.
I go with Ken at every football game he has . And Omi still tries desperately to teach me my way to the computers. He now wants me to learn about UNIX . I do my best.
I became very close to the guys. And they accept me just how I am . Omi asks me about school everyday and tries to help me with the homework , witch I almost never make.
They never take me in their missions. They say it's safer this way. While Schwarz doesn't know I'm here it's better.
But I don't have a problem with that. I enjoy staying home . I clean the house , I make dinner , I wash their clothes and stuff like that.
It really bugs me when Youji comes with his dirty shoes in the house . not talking about what a mess they are after their missions !
Aya once said to me it's good to have a girl in the house. Finally the hand of a woman is sensed here.
Youji bugs me every day about my clothing . He once told me I should buy a dress. I started laughing. Dressed are not my style. Ken knows that. He bought me a large pair of black jeans with the inscription ' Bad Girl' . I loved it.
But Youji taught it was stupid. Just like him . But I like it.
Ken spends more time with me than the others do. We're both Capricorn , maybe that's why we get along well.
On our way home it started snowing. It's so beautiful. Soon it will be Christmas. I can't wait.
I spared some money to take some gifts for the guys. Despite the fact I have no idea what to buy theme. They pay me for working at the flower shop. Not much , but I have enough money. I have a roof under my head and a place where to sleep . It's enough for this girl.
Ken stopped to play with some of the children he knows in the snow. I take a seat on a bench in front of a lake. He'll be a great dad if he will have children .I don't really like children. I don't know why….
I'm a bit jealous on him. He's always happy. He is always smiling.
He can always make my day . He's the only one that came to me when I was looking at Brad's photo.
//flashback//
I 'm just standing there. With Brad's photo in my hand.
"He's not worth it."
I turn. Behind me is Ken looking down at my photo.
"What?"
" I know you cared about him. I know you loved him . "
I look at him , but I can't say anything. I don't know what to say….
" I miss him . "
"But because of him you ran away. Because of him you still have this."
He put his hand on my cheek on a little bruised spot I still had.
"I miss him Ken , but in the same time I hate him…."
" I know. But don't worry , we'll take care of you ."
"Thanks…."
//end flashback//
The picture lies in one of the books Omi gave me . I sometimes look at it , but the coldness he gave me always comes back to me , but, still, something stops me from throwing that photo in the trash can .
I decide to let Ken with the kids and take a walk around the lake. The park is so white….snow everywhere. Snow always reminds me of innocence. I don't know why. God….I don't know a lot of stuff….
Ken runs back to me.
"Hey, can I walk with you ? "
"Sure…"
"I want to go to the mall. I want to find something for Omi. Wanna come ? "
"Yeah. Sure. I'm gonna take something hot to drink while you go. I would like to go with you , but I'm kinda ' tired. "
"No problem !"
* * *
I know she's sad. I can see it on her face.
Once she told me she misses Nagi . He told me he was her only real friend from Schwarz. I'm the only one with who she talks about these stuff. I'm glad she trusts me .
I let her in a restaurant to wait for me. I don't like leaving her alone . I go to this jewelry store from where I can see her trough the big window.
She told me she hates gold . Thank god she told me that. First I wanted to take her something from gold. I knew girls love gold. She's not like all the other girls. She told me this will be her happiest Christmas .
I asked her why. I noticed a slight blush on her face .
"Because I'm with friends." She answered plain and simple. I like that she's honest with me. She'll never tell that in front of the boys.
Something catches my eye. A silver necklace with an anchor . An anchor…the symbol of hope. This is perfect !
"Sir, would you like to see it ? " A man in a black suit asks me.
"No, I want to buy it. " I say.
He smiles at me.
I look at Angielina . I hope she didn't noticed anything. I want to surprise her .
The man puts the necklace in a black box and hands it to me as I pay.
"For your girlfriend?" He asks me , noticing I'm looking at Angie in the restaurant.
"Uh…..no…"
"Oh…Well….I hope she likes it anyway." He says to me .
"Hope so…"
And I leave putting the necklace in my pocket.
I enter the restaurant and sit at the table. She didn't noticed me until I sat next to her. She's thinking again at Brad. I know it.
"Oh…found something?"
"No, nothing. "
"I have a small idea about what you could get him .He kept on bugging us about that Game…."
"Oh yeah…you're right ! Thanks for reminding me."
"So, what now? Heading home ? "
"I guess so. "
Angie rises and I help her putting her trench coat .
We walk trough the park on our way home. She smiles when she sees me throwing snowballs and play with the kids. I wish she would of smile more often. She's like a little child when she smiles.
* * *
Nagi looked outside the window at the snow witch kept on falling n the street. He wished he would go on the street, but he didn't wanted to go alone.
Angelina used to go with him and take long walks.
He could take Schuldig, but he didn't liked. He always said those walks were stupid and a waste of time.
Angie was the only one who understood him in every way. He kinda' missed her .
~ Chapter 6 ~
The light burns my eyes and wakes me up.
I still lie in the white and soft bath robe , in the same room. So I wasn't dreaming….
I look around. On the chair in front of me are a pair of black jeans and a blue shirt.
They are not my size, they're a little big , but I like it like that .
I go outside on the balcony and watch the city waking up in fast motion . The world changes very fast , people move very fast .
I go to the kitchen and there I find Omi and Youji. Omi has in his hands a plate with something……uh….very black and burned?
" Fine ! You're gonna eat this isn't it?" He says to Youji who is looking for something in the so empty fridge.
"Wha--?"
"I'm not gonna let you destroy the food anymore ! "
"Fine by me . Then you do the cooking !"
"I…"
He notices me standing in the door smiling. They're so funny when they fight.
He gives me his smile .
"Morning Omi."
"Morning Angie."
"Morning Youji."
"Whatever…"
" Don't mind him ….uh…Angie….can you cook ?"
" Well….not very much but I can make a decent breakfast…"
"With what ? " Asks Youji showing me the empty fridge.
"With this ! "
We her from behind us. We see Ken with two bags of food in his hands trying to find his way to the kitchen with the big bags blocking his sight .
I rush to help him with theme.
"Uh…Thanks Angelina…wow…these are heavier then they look .."
"Anghie told us she's gonna cook us breakfast !" Youji says smirking.
"I didn't said that. You'll have to help me too." I reply.
"Sure !" Says Ken to me smiling. These WeiB boys sure like to smile. Except for Aya.
* * *
Geezz…..these guys sure are hungry. They ate all. The only one that ever finished his meal was Schuldig . Farfarello barely ever ate.
I'm worried about theme. But I'll think they'll manage . I hope.
"Hey ! Are you okay ? " I hear Aya's voice .
"Me ? Sure why not ? "
"You haven't ate anything." I hear Omi.
"Don't worry about me. I'm, not that hungry."
"Yeah right." I hear Ken too. " Don't tell me you think about those guys."
"No, I'm not. I think I'm tired. That's all. Have you all finished ? "
"Yes."
I rise and take their plates and put theme in the sink getting ready to wash theme. But I turn around.
"Guys ? "
They all look at me.
"Yeah…?"
"What are you planning to do with me ? "
Nobody says anything. They don't look at me ,except for Aya who is looking straight in my eyes. He slowly rises and heads to the door.
"We still don't plan anything about you. But if you want to go back to Schwarz , please go. We are not keeping you here by force."
"I….I don't want to go back there …" I say putting my hand on my cheek where Brad hit me .
"Then you are welcome to stay." Aya says and goes outside.
"Besides , you make a good food." Omi says and goes after Aya. Youji follows the two outside.
I just stare at the floor. I shook my head and go back at the plates.
Ken puts his hand on my shoulder.
" Don't worry . It will be okay . "
" It won't Ken. They are looking for me. Takatori never lets anyone run away from him . Never."
Amazing…I reminded the guy's name….
I feel the silence falling over me and spreading all over the room. Ken doesn't know what to say . He wants to say something to encourage me , but he can't . No one can.
"It's okay Ken, you don't have to say anything. "
And I go back to my washing .
" I have to say that…..Nothing."
And he goes away.
I finish washing the plates and I go to my room to take my clothes and wash theme.
My jeans are a mess. I open my pocket. I look for some money to go and buy some sport shoes, because I remembered that I had some money in my pocket from Brad. We always can afford anything. Well I could afford in the past. I don't know about what will happened next.
And then I see it. My only photo with Brad. Schuldig made it. We were at the beach. The only time when we got Brad to the beach. It was a windy day and we were just walking on the sand.
In this picture Brad holds me in his arms. And he even smiles. Unbelievable .
He looks so nice in this picture….But why is he so cold with me ?
I only wished someone to be close to me. That was all. My parents never showed me enough affection like I needed. I just needed some… that's all.
* * *
Nagi knocked at the door . He heard a hard voice asking ' What?'
He opened the door and saw the Oracle's tall shilouette standing in front of the window.
" Crawford , Takatori called. He wants you to meet him."
The man didn't said anything.
"Crawford?"
" When ?"
"Today. At 2 o'clock sharp."
" Fine . Go away now."
Nagi closed the door behind him slowly.
Brad's face is lighted from the Sun that just appeared at the horizon , spreading his warmth all over the city.
He takes his glasses off and rubs his eyes. His head is in absolute pain.
He hadn't slept since Angelina ran away . In that same night he wandered the streets alone in the rain , searching for her. Nowhere to be find.
He went into the bathroom in order to take some pills to keep him awake.
The shells with medicine were almost empty . Angelina took the pills out of here in order to make him get some sleep . Where did she put theme then ?
He closed the door from the medicine shell and headed for his desk putting his papers in order to give theme to Takatori . Under theme , he saw a small photo. It was Angelina with him . He taught he lost that picture .
He took a look at it and on his petrified face appeared a sad smile.
He put the photo in his shirt pocket and went outside without saying a word to the others.
~ AFTER TWO MONTHS ~
I sit here screaming at Ken and encouraging him and his team . I don't know why they keep on playing in the winter.
In this hall it doesn't have the same effect like it does outside in the summer . But Ken told me he had to keep in shape .
Uh…finally the game is over. Ken's team won. Of course .
I run to him and hug him for the success.
He goes to change in his winter clothes and I wait for him at the sportive's exit .
"Congratulations again Ken ." I say.
"Thanks ! This one was a hard one ! Those guys were really good."
"Yes but you beat theme ! "
We laugh and talk , just having a good time on the way home.
Things changed with me. I'm not allowed to use Telekinesis as much as I want to. Aya freaked out when he saw me floating his teacup to him .
I freaked out when I saw his face . He almost screamed at me.
I go with Ken at every football game he has . And Omi still tries desperately to teach me my way to the computers. He now wants me to learn about UNIX . I do my best.
I became very close to the guys. And they accept me just how I am . Omi asks me about school everyday and tries to help me with the homework , witch I almost never make.
They never take me in their missions. They say it's safer this way. While Schwarz doesn't know I'm here it's better.
But I don't have a problem with that. I enjoy staying home . I clean the house , I make dinner , I wash their clothes and stuff like that.
It really bugs me when Youji comes with his dirty shoes in the house . not talking about what a mess they are after their missions !
Aya once said to me it's good to have a girl in the house. Finally the hand of a woman is sensed here.
Youji bugs me every day about my clothing . He once told me I should buy a dress. I started laughing. Dressed are not my style. Ken knows that. He bought me a large pair of black jeans with the inscription ' Bad Girl' . I loved it.
But Youji taught it was stupid. Just like him . But I like it.
Ken spends more time with me than the others do. We're both Capricorn , maybe that's why we get along well.
On our way home it started snowing. It's so beautiful. Soon it will be Christmas. I can't wait.
I spared some money to take some gifts for the guys. Despite the fact I have no idea what to buy theme. They pay me for working at the flower shop. Not much , but I have enough money. I have a roof under my head and a place where to sleep . It's enough for this girl.
Ken stopped to play with some of the children he knows in the snow. I take a seat on a bench in front of a lake. He'll be a great dad if he will have children .I don't really like children. I don't know why….
I'm a bit jealous on him. He's always happy. He is always smiling.
He can always make my day . He's the only one that came to me when I was looking at Brad's photo.
//flashback//
I 'm just standing there. With Brad's photo in my hand.
"He's not worth it."
I turn. Behind me is Ken looking down at my photo.
"What?"
" I know you cared about him. I know you loved him . "
I look at him , but I can't say anything. I don't know what to say….
" I miss him . "
"But because of him you ran away. Because of him you still have this."
He put his hand on my cheek on a little bruised spot I still had.
"I miss him Ken , but in the same time I hate him…."
" I know. But don't worry , we'll take care of you ."
"Thanks…."
//end flashback//
The picture lies in one of the books Omi gave me . I sometimes look at it , but the coldness he gave me always comes back to me , but, still, something stops me from throwing that photo in the trash can .
I decide to let Ken with the kids and take a walk around the lake. The park is so white….snow everywhere. Snow always reminds me of innocence. I don't know why. God….I don't know a lot of stuff….
Ken runs back to me.
"Hey, can I walk with you ? "
"Sure…"
"I want to go to the mall. I want to find something for Omi. Wanna come ? "
"Yeah. Sure. I'm gonna take something hot to drink while you go. I would like to go with you , but I'm kinda ' tired. "
"No problem !"
* * *
I know she's sad. I can see it on her face.
Once she told me she misses Nagi . He told me he was her only real friend from Schwarz. I'm the only one with who she talks about these stuff. I'm glad she trusts me .
I let her in a restaurant to wait for me. I don't like leaving her alone . I go to this jewelry store from where I can see her trough the big window.
She told me she hates gold . Thank god she told me that. First I wanted to take her something from gold. I knew girls love gold. She's not like all the other girls. She told me this will be her happiest Christmas .
I asked her why. I noticed a slight blush on her face .
"Because I'm with friends." She answered plain and simple. I like that she's honest with me. She'll never tell that in front of the boys.
Something catches my eye. A silver necklace with an anchor . An anchor…the symbol of hope. This is perfect !
"Sir, would you like to see it ? " A man in a black suit asks me.
"No, I want to buy it. " I say.
He smiles at me.
I look at Angielina . I hope she didn't noticed anything. I want to surprise her .
The man puts the necklace in a black box and hands it to me as I pay.
"For your girlfriend?" He asks me , noticing I'm looking at Angie in the restaurant.
"Uh…..no…"
"Oh…Well….I hope she likes it anyway." He says to me .
"Hope so…"
And I leave putting the necklace in my pocket.
I enter the restaurant and sit at the table. She didn't noticed me until I sat next to her. She's thinking again at Brad. I know it.
"Oh…found something?"
"No, nothing. "
"I have a small idea about what you could get him .He kept on bugging us about that Game…."
"Oh yeah…you're right ! Thanks for reminding me."
"So, what now? Heading home ? "
"I guess so. "
Angie rises and I help her putting her trench coat .
We walk trough the park on our way home. She smiles when she sees me throwing snowballs and play with the kids. I wish she would of smile more often. She's like a little child when she smiles.
* * *
Nagi looked outside the window at the snow witch kept on falling n the street. He wished he would go on the street, but he didn't wanted to go alone.
Angelina used to go with him and take long walks.
He could take Schuldig, but he didn't liked. He always said those walks were stupid and a waste of time.
Angie was the only one who understood him in every way. He kinda' missed her .