I Ain't Missing You At All….
~ Chapter 7
I try to fix my hair somehow to hide my bruise. It always takes me a lot of time. I wonder when it will disappear…I hate it….looking like that. Bruised on the face….And Christmas is knocking at our door, and I'm looking like this !
Well , it serves me right for falling for a murderer….
God….Do I sound harsh or what?
The more I start forgetting Brad, the more I start missing Nagi. I wish I could talk to him somehow. I asked Ken about it , but he said it's not safe.
I don't know….I like it here , but, still , I miss being a part of Schwarz.
" Angie ! Are you ready ? " I her Omi's voice from behind the door.
"Come in."
Omi walks in dressed in a black suit . He looks so mature in that suit. Maybe because I never saw him wearing anything else but sport clothes.
Today Omi has to receive his award for best student of the semester , and we all have to go.
I tried to find something special to wear for this day , but I couldn't find anything better than some black elegant pants and a pair of high heels , and an ordinary blue blouse.
"Omi, I'm sorry, but I couldn't find anything better…."
"You look perfect ! "
"Thanks.."
"Now c'mon ! We're gonna be late !"
Persia gave us one of his cars. It's not much , but it's a good one.
All the guys are dressed in suits. Youji looks like a lawyer or something , and Aya…he looks like…..uh….Aya….
"Where's Ken ? " Omi asks.
"I'm going upstairs for him ." I say and head for his room .
I find him having troubles with his tie.
"Um..need help there Ken ?"
"Oh , finally….do you know how to do this? "
"Not quite , but I'll try."
We are standing here for a couple of minutes trying to make Ken's tie look at least a bit decent , but nothing works, so we give up and un botton two buttons from his shirt. I take a look at him.
"Yeah…that's better. Now you look like Bard Pitt."
" ?"
"Okay , now don't give me that look ! You look fine , trust me, now hurry up or we're gonna be late . Omi already freaked out."
* * *
The Festivities Room is pretty big. On a panel we see the names of the best students of this semester. Omi's one of the first. I feel so proud of the kid.
He stands by me and gives me his arm . I take it.
"I want to make the entrance the best." He says smiling at me.
We both go into the Festivities room , arm by arm. I feel a bit special. Omi could of choused any other girl from the ones he knows here , but instead he choused me.
Everything moves fast , the presenting of the students and the Headmaster giving his long – boring – speech to the students. Youji was so bored that he almost fell asleep .
He presents the students once again handing theme their awards , basically their 'best student' diploma.
When our Omi appears on the stage, Ken starts whistling and I clap as loud as I can . Youji looks at us like we are both crazy .
After that , there was a small party , witch lasted about 2 hours and we head home at the sunset.
The snow sparks in the sunset's warm light as we pass near a Church . Suddenly I remember something. This is the church I used to go with Nagi . I used to run here when I was sad about Brad.
// flashback//
" Let me go Brad ! "
" Not until you listen ! "
Brad grabs my other arm and pushes me into a wall.
I stop shouting .
" Right now , in this same moment , you're gonna give me a good explanation on why didn't you killed that bastard ! "
Silence.
"Now !!"
" He was innocent Brad ! "
"He was not ! When I give an order I expect to be done ! Understood ? !"
"Yes…."
" I don't want to lose another mission because of YOU !!"
He pushes me harder on the wall and lets me go , as he heads for the door.
I grab my coat and go outside and I run and I run. In front of me then appears the little church ,all white , with statues of Angels .
I enter and I sit on a bench , trying not to cry . But none of my tears listen to me . They keep on falling on my cheeks over and over….
I hear the hard wood door opening but I don't look to see who it is.
I don't hear anyone walking in . Maybe it was the wind.
Right then under my nose appears a white tissue . I look behind me .
Nagi .
" Nagi…." I whisper.
"It wasn't your fault. I wouldn't killed him either . "
" He screamed at me Nagi. Again . This time I taught he's gonna hot me."
Nagi sits next to me and puts his arm around me.
" I don't think he would do that again . "
" That's because last time when he hit me you floated him outside." I say trying to cheer the atmosphere.
"It's okay Angie. I don't think he will hurt you again . "
He hugs me and softly whispers into my ear ' it will be okay.' Nagi's always here for me.
// end flashback//
I wake up from my memories when we get back home .
Omi is so happy. He is so talkative right now. Youji says something ironic to him and Omi hits him with his diploma saying something like 'you could never get one of those !'
I go to my room and dress in my normal clothes. This high heel shoes are just killing me.
* * * *
Only four days until Christmas.
The necklace is safe in the desk's drawer . I wrapped it in sliver with a silk blue ribbon. I hope she'll like it.
I look at her how she comes into the kitchen in her usual large clothes getting ready to make our dinner. I notice she's doing her best for us. Ever since she got here she's making food , sometimes comes with us at the flower shop , washing our clothes.
It was like…I don't know , three months ago when I had tons of dirty clothes from my soccer games , and now they lie in the closet smelling like the ocean's breeze.
I'm getting used with her around here . Sometimes she's gone. She says she's going to get a walk or something. But once I saw her on the street . Do you know where she went ? She went into this little white church .
Or sometimes she goes at the lake in the park to watch the swans , or she's just sitting there, thinking.
I wish I could get the pain away from her. She told me Brad was the only one who accepted her as she is . She doesn't like the way she is . She told me that herself , that she hates everything she is she looks and means.
I only wish she could see inside me , to see I'm telling the truth when I say she's beautiful , and that she means a lot to us.
It's true. Omi started considering her like a sister . She always hangs out with him , she goes with him to buy stuff for the computer or to the latest computer exposition. These stuff Omi used to do all by himself , until Angie appeared in our lives .
Aya sees I her someone good to have around the house or something like that. Anyway he appreciates her . Basically because she does most of the stuff in the house.
Youji…. Well …Youji I think he just considers her a pain in the neck , but he accepts her because she' s the woman touch around the house , and does all the house work.
And I….I don't know how I really feel about her ….
* * *
" Go back to sleep Farfarello ! "
Nagi says sleepy in his pajamas standing in the Psychopath's door.
" Brad told me to say you have to finish with the noise , or he'll come here to you."
Nothing, The sharp blade still can be heard spinning on the cement .
" Please Farfarello…."
The same sound , over and over again.
Nagi opened the door more and he stepped into the dark room .
There , on the floor , lied the Irish man , playing with his blades , with his wrists cut in the form of a cross.
"Oh God ! " Nagi softly exclaimed . He took some bandages and tried to tie theme on Farfarello's hand to stop the bleeding. The fact that the Irish didn't freaked out when Nagi tried to help him was weird.
He looked with his golden snake eye at Nagi who was trying to tie the bandage as good as he could .
"Only she did that…" He whispered.
"What ? Who ? What are you talking about ? "
//flashback//
Angie was sitting on the sofa reading a magazine with hot cocoa in her hand. The boys were in a mission where they didn't needed her.
Suddenly , the door slammed against the wall . She turned surprised.
One by one the four men appeared , badly injured .
Schuldig was bruised , Brad was cut and Nagi was all dirty , but fine .
After theme Farfarello appeared , full of blood , with his blade in his hand.
The cocoa spilled on the rug.
"GOD !! What happened?"
Brad sat down while Angie tried to bring everything she taught they needed , bandages , pills, water , blankets.
"There was an ambush…I didn't saw it sooner enough.." Bard said.
"I think there were about 10 of theme…god…my head….." Schuldig said after.
Angie tried to take care of theme all.
Farfarello was as bloodiest as he ever had been , his white suit was now full of dirt and stained with blood. His white hair was soaked in dirty water , mud and dry blood.
Angie cleaned Brad's cuts and took acre of Schuldig's bruises as good as she could.
After that she headed to Farfarello who was still losing blood.
She bandaged him with the clean white bandages and tried to clean his cuts, but there were deep wounds also who had to be take care of.
The Irish didn't said a word until everyone was gone to their beds trying to recover.
They were standing there, on the floor , Angie cleaning his cuts, and him , covered in a soft blue blanket .
" You're the only one who did this…" He said then.
"What ? "
" The only one who took care of me, and bandaged my cuts.."
"Well duh ! You're hurt !."
"But I can't feel pain Angelina…."
" So what ? Now shut up and let me clean this."
//end flashback//
" Nothing….." the man said and stopped playing with the blade.
Nagi didn't said anything . He finished bandaging his wrists and as he reached the door he turned to Farfarello and said to him :
" I know you miss her. I miss her too. Please try not to make any noise. Bard will get nervous again."
And with that , the hard door of metal closed behind him.
~ Chapter 7
I try to fix my hair somehow to hide my bruise. It always takes me a lot of time. I wonder when it will disappear…I hate it….looking like that. Bruised on the face….And Christmas is knocking at our door, and I'm looking like this !
Well , it serves me right for falling for a murderer….
God….Do I sound harsh or what?
The more I start forgetting Brad, the more I start missing Nagi. I wish I could talk to him somehow. I asked Ken about it , but he said it's not safe.
I don't know….I like it here , but, still , I miss being a part of Schwarz.
" Angie ! Are you ready ? " I her Omi's voice from behind the door.
"Come in."
Omi walks in dressed in a black suit . He looks so mature in that suit. Maybe because I never saw him wearing anything else but sport clothes.
Today Omi has to receive his award for best student of the semester , and we all have to go.
I tried to find something special to wear for this day , but I couldn't find anything better than some black elegant pants and a pair of high heels , and an ordinary blue blouse.
"Omi, I'm sorry, but I couldn't find anything better…."
"You look perfect ! "
"Thanks.."
"Now c'mon ! We're gonna be late !"
Persia gave us one of his cars. It's not much , but it's a good one.
All the guys are dressed in suits. Youji looks like a lawyer or something , and Aya…he looks like…..uh….Aya….
"Where's Ken ? " Omi asks.
"I'm going upstairs for him ." I say and head for his room .
I find him having troubles with his tie.
"Um..need help there Ken ?"
"Oh , finally….do you know how to do this? "
"Not quite , but I'll try."
We are standing here for a couple of minutes trying to make Ken's tie look at least a bit decent , but nothing works, so we give up and un botton two buttons from his shirt. I take a look at him.
"Yeah…that's better. Now you look like Bard Pitt."
" ?"
"Okay , now don't give me that look ! You look fine , trust me, now hurry up or we're gonna be late . Omi already freaked out."
* * *
The Festivities Room is pretty big. On a panel we see the names of the best students of this semester. Omi's one of the first. I feel so proud of the kid.
He stands by me and gives me his arm . I take it.
"I want to make the entrance the best." He says smiling at me.
We both go into the Festivities room , arm by arm. I feel a bit special. Omi could of choused any other girl from the ones he knows here , but instead he choused me.
Everything moves fast , the presenting of the students and the Headmaster giving his long – boring – speech to the students. Youji was so bored that he almost fell asleep .
He presents the students once again handing theme their awards , basically their 'best student' diploma.
When our Omi appears on the stage, Ken starts whistling and I clap as loud as I can . Youji looks at us like we are both crazy .
After that , there was a small party , witch lasted about 2 hours and we head home at the sunset.
The snow sparks in the sunset's warm light as we pass near a Church . Suddenly I remember something. This is the church I used to go with Nagi . I used to run here when I was sad about Brad.
// flashback//
" Let me go Brad ! "
" Not until you listen ! "
Brad grabs my other arm and pushes me into a wall.
I stop shouting .
" Right now , in this same moment , you're gonna give me a good explanation on why didn't you killed that bastard ! "
Silence.
"Now !!"
" He was innocent Brad ! "
"He was not ! When I give an order I expect to be done ! Understood ? !"
"Yes…."
" I don't want to lose another mission because of YOU !!"
He pushes me harder on the wall and lets me go , as he heads for the door.
I grab my coat and go outside and I run and I run. In front of me then appears the little church ,all white , with statues of Angels .
I enter and I sit on a bench , trying not to cry . But none of my tears listen to me . They keep on falling on my cheeks over and over….
I hear the hard wood door opening but I don't look to see who it is.
I don't hear anyone walking in . Maybe it was the wind.
Right then under my nose appears a white tissue . I look behind me .
Nagi .
" Nagi…." I whisper.
"It wasn't your fault. I wouldn't killed him either . "
" He screamed at me Nagi. Again . This time I taught he's gonna hot me."
Nagi sits next to me and puts his arm around me.
" I don't think he would do that again . "
" That's because last time when he hit me you floated him outside." I say trying to cheer the atmosphere.
"It's okay Angie. I don't think he will hurt you again . "
He hugs me and softly whispers into my ear ' it will be okay.' Nagi's always here for me.
// end flashback//
I wake up from my memories when we get back home .
Omi is so happy. He is so talkative right now. Youji says something ironic to him and Omi hits him with his diploma saying something like 'you could never get one of those !'
I go to my room and dress in my normal clothes. This high heel shoes are just killing me.
* * * *
Only four days until Christmas.
The necklace is safe in the desk's drawer . I wrapped it in sliver with a silk blue ribbon. I hope she'll like it.
I look at her how she comes into the kitchen in her usual large clothes getting ready to make our dinner. I notice she's doing her best for us. Ever since she got here she's making food , sometimes comes with us at the flower shop , washing our clothes.
It was like…I don't know , three months ago when I had tons of dirty clothes from my soccer games , and now they lie in the closet smelling like the ocean's breeze.
I'm getting used with her around here . Sometimes she's gone. She says she's going to get a walk or something. But once I saw her on the street . Do you know where she went ? She went into this little white church .
Or sometimes she goes at the lake in the park to watch the swans , or she's just sitting there, thinking.
I wish I could get the pain away from her. She told me Brad was the only one who accepted her as she is . She doesn't like the way she is . She told me that herself , that she hates everything she is she looks and means.
I only wish she could see inside me , to see I'm telling the truth when I say she's beautiful , and that she means a lot to us.
It's true. Omi started considering her like a sister . She always hangs out with him , she goes with him to buy stuff for the computer or to the latest computer exposition. These stuff Omi used to do all by himself , until Angie appeared in our lives .
Aya sees I her someone good to have around the house or something like that. Anyway he appreciates her . Basically because she does most of the stuff in the house.
Youji…. Well …Youji I think he just considers her a pain in the neck , but he accepts her because she' s the woman touch around the house , and does all the house work.
And I….I don't know how I really feel about her ….
* * *
" Go back to sleep Farfarello ! "
Nagi says sleepy in his pajamas standing in the Psychopath's door.
" Brad told me to say you have to finish with the noise , or he'll come here to you."
Nothing, The sharp blade still can be heard spinning on the cement .
" Please Farfarello…."
The same sound , over and over again.
Nagi opened the door more and he stepped into the dark room .
There , on the floor , lied the Irish man , playing with his blades , with his wrists cut in the form of a cross.
"Oh God ! " Nagi softly exclaimed . He took some bandages and tried to tie theme on Farfarello's hand to stop the bleeding. The fact that the Irish didn't freaked out when Nagi tried to help him was weird.
He looked with his golden snake eye at Nagi who was trying to tie the bandage as good as he could .
"Only she did that…" He whispered.
"What ? Who ? What are you talking about ? "
//flashback//
Angie was sitting on the sofa reading a magazine with hot cocoa in her hand. The boys were in a mission where they didn't needed her.
Suddenly , the door slammed against the wall . She turned surprised.
One by one the four men appeared , badly injured .
Schuldig was bruised , Brad was cut and Nagi was all dirty , but fine .
After theme Farfarello appeared , full of blood , with his blade in his hand.
The cocoa spilled on the rug.
"GOD !! What happened?"
Brad sat down while Angie tried to bring everything she taught they needed , bandages , pills, water , blankets.
"There was an ambush…I didn't saw it sooner enough.." Bard said.
"I think there were about 10 of theme…god…my head….." Schuldig said after.
Angie tried to take care of theme all.
Farfarello was as bloodiest as he ever had been , his white suit was now full of dirt and stained with blood. His white hair was soaked in dirty water , mud and dry blood.
Angie cleaned Brad's cuts and took acre of Schuldig's bruises as good as she could.
After that she headed to Farfarello who was still losing blood.
She bandaged him with the clean white bandages and tried to clean his cuts, but there were deep wounds also who had to be take care of.
The Irish didn't said a word until everyone was gone to their beds trying to recover.
They were standing there, on the floor , Angie cleaning his cuts, and him , covered in a soft blue blanket .
" You're the only one who did this…" He said then.
"What ? "
" The only one who took care of me, and bandaged my cuts.."
"Well duh ! You're hurt !."
"But I can't feel pain Angelina…."
" So what ? Now shut up and let me clean this."
//end flashback//
" Nothing….." the man said and stopped playing with the blade.
Nagi didn't said anything . He finished bandaging his wrists and as he reached the door he turned to Farfarello and said to him :
" I know you miss her. I miss her too. Please try not to make any noise. Bard will get nervous again."
And with that , the hard door of metal closed behind him.