First thing's first : I wrote this from 3 to 5 in the morning while
listening to my Delerium Mp3. And thanx to Shy for staying with me all
night and keeping me company .And also for helping me a bit. Thank you Shy
. Thank you Crush too for offering your help . So here goes..it's a
terrible twist..I can't believe I actually wrote this..
Delerium's Heaven's Earth Lyrics used . For the ones that have the sng listen to it when you read the last part . It's gonna give you a more vivid image of it all . Enjoy !
I Ain't Missing you At All.
Chapter 12
She headed for the kitchen wondering what should she make. She wanted to make some cookies, she totally forgot about theme ,but she really really wanted to make theme a special breakfast . But the cookies would take too long..
While standing in the kitchen confused about the terribly big problem , she didn't heard the slow footsteps heading towards her until she heard a sleepy voice behind:
" 'Morning.."
"Ken ! " She almost screamed.
" Wow ! I didn't meant to scare you !"
"Oh..it's okay , I was to deep into my own toughts..Merry Christmas..."
"Merry Christmas.."
Angie gave a smile and turned back to the sink wondering what to do so she won't have to face the silence floating all over the place . She turned her attention to the dishes left from the dinner last night. But then she felt a warm hand on her neck and the cold touch of the metal on her skin. She looked down her chest . There lied a shiny necklace with a beautiful anchor .
She turned and looked at Ken. Confused. THAT she didn't expected...
" Uh...God it's beautiful...Thank you. I..."
Before she could finish the sentence she grabbed his hand and dragged him to the tree in the living room. From under it she got a blue pack and gave it to him.
He opened it slowly , and when he saw what was inside...that was when something went wrong. Ken screamed so loud that he woke up everyone left sleeping. Yes , even Youji..
Omi came running in the room with his socks backwards sleepy and turning his head from me to Ken and viceversa.
" What ?? What ?! What's wrong ?? ! "
"Looooooooook!! " Ken showed him the autographed football Angie gave him.
Omi looked at the ball. And back at Ken. And the ball. And Ken. And put his head in his hands
" I can't believe this..." And threw himself on the sofa.
"Whaaaaaat ? "
Angie was close to burst into a very loud laugh but she tried not to . She didn't want Ken to feel embarrassed. But this was funny .
Youji and Aya followed . Looking confused .
" Who died ? " Asked Youji looking for his pack of cigarettes on the table.
" No one Ken yelled when he saw Angie's present ." Omi replied still trying to get over the shock of waking up with a scream.
Aya and Youji gave Ken a killer glare.
"hey you guys ! Take these ! " Angie gave theme their presents before Youji would say something to make Ken feel even more embarrassed.
" Uh.." Was the only word Aya could say when a red wrapped pack was pushed on his chest.
And then came the funny part . Omi got overly hyper and hugged Angie close to death , surprisingly Youji didn't tried to cut Angie's neck when he saw the T-shirt , he even mad fun of it and wore it all day ! But he loved the shirt that's true..
Aya's words when he saw his dragon were :
" Um.Thank."
Angie smiled .
" You welcome !"
It was after that when Omi came with a pack too. And Angie was even more surprised when he put it in her arms.
" It was Omi's idea. " Youji defended himself.
She opened it slowly , without hurry wondering what could it be .
//If it's Aya's idea , it's a bomb , if it's Youji maybe a T-shirt with the inscription ' I don't smoke and that's why boys don't like me ' if it's Omi maybe a 'What is UNIX ' learning book //
She smiled at her own trail of toughts and she looked inside. There lied four roses : a red one , yellow, pink and white . They smelled beautiful , but what got her attention was the shiny object laying on theme. A sliver bracelet .
"Read it , on the inside. " Omi said.
Angie turned the bracelet and read:
For the best friend and sister , Merry Christmas .~ Omi,Youji,Aya and Ken ~
" For me ? "
" I guess so " Youji replied sarcastically .
" God.this must have been very expensive.. I.Thank you so much ! Group hug ? "
Before Aya could of backed away , they were all caught in a long group hug .
" Okay now.I'm gonna go and make a breakfast ." Angie said breaking the hug.
When she reached the door , still standing with the roses and bracelet in her hands he turned to theme :
" Thanks guys . It means a lot to me."
And she entered the kitchen.
* * * * *
The young Prodigy got off the couch . It was enough. His tired little body was trashed , even if he took a bath . It was Christmas and he had no one to share it with .
He grabbed his coat and while putting his hand on the doorknob , he heard Schuldig's nasal voice in his head.
// Off alone again , Prodigy ? //
" Get out of my head Shculdig! " He screamed slamming the door after him.
He went outside , into the snow witch kept on falling on and on , more and more by every minute .He started his walk , not knowing himself where his footsteps were leading him.
* * * * *
The day passed incredibly fast . Faster than Angie wanted . She really had a good time with the guys . They laughed and Youji had a pillow fight with Angie because he cheated at Poker . Omi joined and after a while everything turned into a 'world mass' pillow fight. Well , except for Aya who taught they were acting ' childish' and 'immature' . And Youji responded throwing a pillow in his face.
Night fell over the city , covering everything in a darkness lighted only by the neon lights on the street , whit snow started falling off the sky.
While trying to arrange the mess the guys made in the living room , Angie spotted a shadow sneaking on the balcony . After the slim and medium height she noticed it was Ken. Was it a good idea to go and join him ? Well , why not?
Ken looked surprised when he saw the young girl entering the balcony . If he would have been a bit far he could swear she is a shadow. Her sweater and jeans were black .
In her chocolate hair snow mixed as it was starting to fall more and more.
"Hey."
" Hey..I taught you went to sleep. "
" Not yet . I like Christmas Night more than anything. It's so peaceful .You ? What's your reason for being here ? "
" Just couldn't sleep.."
"Oh."
Silence. They were both scanning the town , looking at the flashy lights. It was this time of the night when Angie's mind went wild . So there she was, not even fully realizing what she was saying :
" I know I'm not Yuriko."
Ken turned and looked at her ? Since when did she knew about Yuriko?
" And I'm not even going to try to be . You still love her don't you ? '
Silence.
"Don't you ? "
She heard a whispered ' Yes.' Even tough in a way she expected this , a part of her wanted him to say no. She closed her eyes at the sound of that 'yes' and she felt like a sharp dagger stabbing her in the chest. She breathed the pain out and shook her head as a "yes" and she left . Just like that .
Her head was spinning , and her mind was turning. She started shivering and suddenly she didn't had control over her body . She got dressed and put her shoes on and started running outside.
She didn't cared about the people around , she didn't heard the noise , she didn't felt the cold . She needed to think about it all. She was mistaking everything she did, love is a one time chance or may it be never . The 2nd choice seemed more like her life.
I know you want me
But caution inspires
Your tamed indifference
Won't challenge me
Damn it ! She could have had a normal life ! She could have had a boyfriend who was in the basketball team at school , she would have been a straight A child with normal girl problems. But nooo..she had to live a life of running , hiding and hurting people with only a mind ' s twitch .
Running and running , without stopping. . The sea of people didn't meant anything to her right now . She stopped.
Could it, could it be
Love's what you deny me? Could it , could it be Love's what you deny me ?
She wanted to leave dust falls over her and the spring , summer autumn and winter pass over here again and again . Everything was spinning and she felt like she was falling into and endless pain abyss . She had too much for her fragile soul. She taught about herself she was strong . Maybe she wasn't.
But what if she was ?
She was strong ! But she still shattered sometimes inside. Even the strong ones sometimes need a hand to hold and a warm hug.
This spoiled seduction
Intoxicates thee,
So balanced on my halo
You long secretly
The young boy runned to the shilouette he saw in front of him , neverminding people's comments while he pushed theme away his path . He runned , being afraid that if he wouldn't get in time there she would disappear.
He put his hand on her shoulder and as she turned , the dark hair waving on her face , twisted by the cold wind , she gazed at him . Her eyelashed were almost frozen and in the pale blue neon light her face looked like a ghost's . A trail of a frozen tear he saw on her cheek.
"Nagi..." She smiled .
" Angie... You're crying." He said wondering if it would be okay to come closer.
" Am I ? " She said , this time a tear forming in the corner of her eye , and , without her will , falling down on her cheek .
Could it, could it be
Love's what you deny me? Could it , could it be Love's what you deny me?
His heart couldn't stand seeing her like that . Not her . Anyone else , but not her damn it ! He touched her cheek slowly , afraid that she will back away . She didn't . He swept away the next falling tear.
Everything was spinning , nothing had sense.
Don't deny yourself
'Cause I know what you want
You can't deny me
We'll be together
The flashing lights and the cars passing by , the snow falling and the noise didn't had sense now , nothing did , as their little word was shattering with questions they couldn't hear , and feelings that tumbled down their brains .
Then something went wrong . Something went wrong when he got closer . Something went wrong when she gazed in his eyes.
So try to run, love
But you won't get away
Something went wrong when his gentle lips touched hers and time stopped . It went wrong when she didn't cared and let her feelings get all over her mind and soul and they both fell inside the kiss and beyond .
Could it, could it be Love's what you deny me? Could it could it be Love's what you deny me ?
Something went wrong when it suddenly seemed right .
Delerium's Heaven's Earth Lyrics used . For the ones that have the sng listen to it when you read the last part . It's gonna give you a more vivid image of it all . Enjoy !
I Ain't Missing you At All.
Chapter 12
She headed for the kitchen wondering what should she make. She wanted to make some cookies, she totally forgot about theme ,but she really really wanted to make theme a special breakfast . But the cookies would take too long..
While standing in the kitchen confused about the terribly big problem , she didn't heard the slow footsteps heading towards her until she heard a sleepy voice behind:
" 'Morning.."
"Ken ! " She almost screamed.
" Wow ! I didn't meant to scare you !"
"Oh..it's okay , I was to deep into my own toughts..Merry Christmas..."
"Merry Christmas.."
Angie gave a smile and turned back to the sink wondering what to do so she won't have to face the silence floating all over the place . She turned her attention to the dishes left from the dinner last night. But then she felt a warm hand on her neck and the cold touch of the metal on her skin. She looked down her chest . There lied a shiny necklace with a beautiful anchor .
She turned and looked at Ken. Confused. THAT she didn't expected...
" Uh...God it's beautiful...Thank you. I..."
Before she could finish the sentence she grabbed his hand and dragged him to the tree in the living room. From under it she got a blue pack and gave it to him.
He opened it slowly , and when he saw what was inside...that was when something went wrong. Ken screamed so loud that he woke up everyone left sleeping. Yes , even Youji..
Omi came running in the room with his socks backwards sleepy and turning his head from me to Ken and viceversa.
" What ?? What ?! What's wrong ?? ! "
"Looooooooook!! " Ken showed him the autographed football Angie gave him.
Omi looked at the ball. And back at Ken. And the ball. And Ken. And put his head in his hands
" I can't believe this..." And threw himself on the sofa.
"Whaaaaaat ? "
Angie was close to burst into a very loud laugh but she tried not to . She didn't want Ken to feel embarrassed. But this was funny .
Youji and Aya followed . Looking confused .
" Who died ? " Asked Youji looking for his pack of cigarettes on the table.
" No one Ken yelled when he saw Angie's present ." Omi replied still trying to get over the shock of waking up with a scream.
Aya and Youji gave Ken a killer glare.
"hey you guys ! Take these ! " Angie gave theme their presents before Youji would say something to make Ken feel even more embarrassed.
" Uh.." Was the only word Aya could say when a red wrapped pack was pushed on his chest.
And then came the funny part . Omi got overly hyper and hugged Angie close to death , surprisingly Youji didn't tried to cut Angie's neck when he saw the T-shirt , he even mad fun of it and wore it all day ! But he loved the shirt that's true..
Aya's words when he saw his dragon were :
" Um.Thank."
Angie smiled .
" You welcome !"
It was after that when Omi came with a pack too. And Angie was even more surprised when he put it in her arms.
" It was Omi's idea. " Youji defended himself.
She opened it slowly , without hurry wondering what could it be .
//If it's Aya's idea , it's a bomb , if it's Youji maybe a T-shirt with the inscription ' I don't smoke and that's why boys don't like me ' if it's Omi maybe a 'What is UNIX ' learning book //
She smiled at her own trail of toughts and she looked inside. There lied four roses : a red one , yellow, pink and white . They smelled beautiful , but what got her attention was the shiny object laying on theme. A sliver bracelet .
"Read it , on the inside. " Omi said.
Angie turned the bracelet and read:
For the best friend and sister , Merry Christmas .~ Omi,Youji,Aya and Ken ~
" For me ? "
" I guess so " Youji replied sarcastically .
" God.this must have been very expensive.. I.Thank you so much ! Group hug ? "
Before Aya could of backed away , they were all caught in a long group hug .
" Okay now.I'm gonna go and make a breakfast ." Angie said breaking the hug.
When she reached the door , still standing with the roses and bracelet in her hands he turned to theme :
" Thanks guys . It means a lot to me."
And she entered the kitchen.
* * * * *
The young Prodigy got off the couch . It was enough. His tired little body was trashed , even if he took a bath . It was Christmas and he had no one to share it with .
He grabbed his coat and while putting his hand on the doorknob , he heard Schuldig's nasal voice in his head.
// Off alone again , Prodigy ? //
" Get out of my head Shculdig! " He screamed slamming the door after him.
He went outside , into the snow witch kept on falling on and on , more and more by every minute .He started his walk , not knowing himself where his footsteps were leading him.
* * * * *
The day passed incredibly fast . Faster than Angie wanted . She really had a good time with the guys . They laughed and Youji had a pillow fight with Angie because he cheated at Poker . Omi joined and after a while everything turned into a 'world mass' pillow fight. Well , except for Aya who taught they were acting ' childish' and 'immature' . And Youji responded throwing a pillow in his face.
Night fell over the city , covering everything in a darkness lighted only by the neon lights on the street , whit snow started falling off the sky.
While trying to arrange the mess the guys made in the living room , Angie spotted a shadow sneaking on the balcony . After the slim and medium height she noticed it was Ken. Was it a good idea to go and join him ? Well , why not?
Ken looked surprised when he saw the young girl entering the balcony . If he would have been a bit far he could swear she is a shadow. Her sweater and jeans were black .
In her chocolate hair snow mixed as it was starting to fall more and more.
"Hey."
" Hey..I taught you went to sleep. "
" Not yet . I like Christmas Night more than anything. It's so peaceful .You ? What's your reason for being here ? "
" Just couldn't sleep.."
"Oh."
Silence. They were both scanning the town , looking at the flashy lights. It was this time of the night when Angie's mind went wild . So there she was, not even fully realizing what she was saying :
" I know I'm not Yuriko."
Ken turned and looked at her ? Since when did she knew about Yuriko?
" And I'm not even going to try to be . You still love her don't you ? '
Silence.
"Don't you ? "
She heard a whispered ' Yes.' Even tough in a way she expected this , a part of her wanted him to say no. She closed her eyes at the sound of that 'yes' and she felt like a sharp dagger stabbing her in the chest. She breathed the pain out and shook her head as a "yes" and she left . Just like that .
Her head was spinning , and her mind was turning. She started shivering and suddenly she didn't had control over her body . She got dressed and put her shoes on and started running outside.
She didn't cared about the people around , she didn't heard the noise , she didn't felt the cold . She needed to think about it all. She was mistaking everything she did, love is a one time chance or may it be never . The 2nd choice seemed more like her life.
I know you want me
But caution inspires
Your tamed indifference
Won't challenge me
Damn it ! She could have had a normal life ! She could have had a boyfriend who was in the basketball team at school , she would have been a straight A child with normal girl problems. But nooo..she had to live a life of running , hiding and hurting people with only a mind ' s twitch .
Running and running , without stopping. . The sea of people didn't meant anything to her right now . She stopped.
Could it, could it be
Love's what you deny me? Could it , could it be Love's what you deny me ?
She wanted to leave dust falls over her and the spring , summer autumn and winter pass over here again and again . Everything was spinning and she felt like she was falling into and endless pain abyss . She had too much for her fragile soul. She taught about herself she was strong . Maybe she wasn't.
But what if she was ?
She was strong ! But she still shattered sometimes inside. Even the strong ones sometimes need a hand to hold and a warm hug.
This spoiled seduction
Intoxicates thee,
So balanced on my halo
You long secretly
The young boy runned to the shilouette he saw in front of him , neverminding people's comments while he pushed theme away his path . He runned , being afraid that if he wouldn't get in time there she would disappear.
He put his hand on her shoulder and as she turned , the dark hair waving on her face , twisted by the cold wind , she gazed at him . Her eyelashed were almost frozen and in the pale blue neon light her face looked like a ghost's . A trail of a frozen tear he saw on her cheek.
"Nagi..." She smiled .
" Angie... You're crying." He said wondering if it would be okay to come closer.
" Am I ? " She said , this time a tear forming in the corner of her eye , and , without her will , falling down on her cheek .
Could it, could it be
Love's what you deny me? Could it , could it be Love's what you deny me?
His heart couldn't stand seeing her like that . Not her . Anyone else , but not her damn it ! He touched her cheek slowly , afraid that she will back away . She didn't . He swept away the next falling tear.
Everything was spinning , nothing had sense.
Don't deny yourself
'Cause I know what you want
You can't deny me
We'll be together
The flashing lights and the cars passing by , the snow falling and the noise didn't had sense now , nothing did , as their little word was shattering with questions they couldn't hear , and feelings that tumbled down their brains .
Then something went wrong . Something went wrong when he got closer . Something went wrong when she gazed in his eyes.
So try to run, love
But you won't get away
Something went wrong when his gentle lips touched hers and time stopped . It went wrong when she didn't cared and let her feelings get all over her mind and soul and they both fell inside the kiss and beyond .
Could it, could it be Love's what you deny me? Could it could it be Love's what you deny me ?
Something went wrong when it suddenly seemed right .