I Ain't Missing You at All.
I think this is Chapter 18
Ken stepped in. He never really entered her room before. It was clean and simple, a bed, a desk and a closet . Not that Angelina had many clothes. She usually dressed simple in dark colors and preferred Jeans over any other clothing. And T-shirts too.
But looking at her now , Ken didn't saw the young woman he used to. Her eyes grew darker and she looked different.
" Fine. So you wanna find out what is wrong with me, huh ? "
She looked vulnerable in a way..
" I'm not forcing you or."
" It's okay. This had to come to an end anyway. "
She took a deep breath and calculated every word she had to say , afraid not to make a confusion or causing a panic attack from Ken. What she had to say was kind of.well.disturbing. Even tough there passed a couple of years since it stopped happening and she ran away.
" Uh..." She sat on the bed ." You may have noticed that sometimes it looks like I'm from another world and lose control and just stay there, not being able to speak and stuff.."
" Yeah.that's why I want to talk with you. I want to.."
"..know what's wrong. " She continued for him." It's hard for me to speak about it so I guess I'll just have to spit it out in simple words then."
Silence. Ken waited. And waited. That could only mean it's a bad thing. Maybe it was better for him not to ask. Did he REALLY had to know ?
" Uh.my..Um.you noticed today that I kinda' freaked when I looked at Aya .."
Ken headed for the desk and leaned on it.
" Yeah.."
" It was because he remembered me of my father."
"And..."
She paused for a second,hesitating.
" And my father abused me when I was little."
* * * * *
Omi took a break from his work. He really didn't needed to surf the net before a mission , it was too exhausting . He stretched on his rotating chair and turned to the window . Man...how come every time they had something to do it weather rained or snowed ?
He opened a drawer . There , wrapped in black silk, his shiny darts , and under his bed laid also wrapped in a soft material his crossbow . He sometimes felt guilty for all the lives he took with these darts . But he still caressed theme every time he saw theme . This was the thing he knew how to do best . He was an assassin.
He wondered if it would have been different if he never killed before. What was the feeling of being innocent ? All the people he knew, besides his schoolmates , killed someone or harmed someone. His teachers thought he was such a sweet child.
Angel by day , devil by night . He smiled at that thought.
// Flashback //
Night. A young boy walks trough the park alone, with his hands deep into his pockets. He hears silent steps from behind him and turns fast , ready to attack.
But , heading towards him comes a longhaired shilouette dressed in jeans and a long coat.
" Hey..."
She waved .
" Hey there Omi-kun."
" What are you doing here ? "
" Dunno...I noticed you were sad and not your usual self... Maybe I can cheer you up ? "
Omi laughed. Not a laugh from the heart , a laugh just for the sake of a laugh.
" I don't think so. But really, I'm okay."
" Then , you don't mind me walking with you? "
" Not at all."
She then took him by the arm , smiling and started walking slowly.
" But, still there is something that bothers you , isn't it ? "
" I don't know . Did you ever felt guilty for something that you should do , but didn't really wanted to ? "
" All the time . "
He looked at her. She didn't. She was just looking forward and kept her walking.
" It's because of the killing , isn't it Omi - kun ? "
" Yeah.."
" You know , they say it's not right to kill but , still..I don't know what's right and what's wrong anymore Omi . "
" I guess sometimes it's for the best to follow what your heart says instead of playing by the rules."
She laughed.
" You rebel ! How was that..rules are made to be broken , huh ? "
She laughed again , her laughter breaking the silence of the park. So he laughed too.
// end flashback //
He had lots of moments when he thought about killing , but in the end he always ended up not caring at all. What was the use anyway ?
He didn't knew if she had the same thoughts. And she started acting so strange...besides Ken , Angelina was his best friend . She was funny and outgoing . Sometimes . But she mostly liked to stay indoors , reading or cooking. She even watched anime sometimes.
Omi smiled. She acted like such a child sometimes . But she was not an airhead . She was , but only when she had to.
She wanted to come with theme in the mission tonight . She rarely went with theme , mostly because of Aya's protests , but she was helpful. Maybe she felt like the 5th wheel or something . Well , maybe living between boys makes you feel so .
She wanted to help theme every time and with whatever she could . But he had a bad feeling about the mission tonight.
* * * " I'm sorry I think I went deaf and I didn't heard you well.." " It's true.but I'm over it now..It's okay . "
" I'm so sorry . I shouldn't asked.."
" No , it's okay . Maybe it's better for me to talk about it now."
Ken stood in confusion . How could she just stay there talking about this saying she's 'over it ' ?
" Angie , no one is truly ' over it ' . "
" Okay , maybe not really over it , but it passed. It was a long time ago . " She smiled.
If she faked another smile Ken swore he's going to kill her on the spot.
" Why do you always act like this ? "
Angie looked at him .
" How ? "
" You know , all this tough-girl type. Why don't you never ask a friend's help ? "
" What are you talking about ? I'm fine.I."
" No , you're not ! You wear this mask of a happy girl but you never accept to help with someone about your problems ."
Angie clutched her hand in a fist and rose from the bed.
"Oh Shut up ! "
" No ! I'm tired of shutting up ! Now I am going to say something ! YOU are going to listen to ME now ! " He said pointing to him and her .
He headed his finger towards Angie pushing her while articulating every 'you' and ' I '.
" YOU always have to act brave, while YOU said I have to get rid of the ghosts of MY past , but YOU NEVER got rid of YOUR OWN ! Why do act so cheerful when you're truly crying ? YOU NEVER accept anyone's help , acting like I-never-cry type ! "
" I.."
". You should try to be more like YOU not like the mask you want !! "
Angie tripped and fell on the bed . Ken breathed fast because of the screaming .
Who the heck talked ?? ! THAT man was not Ken !
They stood there looking at each other , until Angie rose nervously and she pushed Ken .
" Why the hell do YOU care ? !"
Right then , the door opened and Omi shyly showed his head.
" Hey.are you 'kay ? I heard screams and ..."
" GET OUT ! " They both screamed.
Omi shut the door fast , slamming it.
Youji stretched on the couch .
" What's going on there , kid ? ' He asked Omi that came on the hallway.
" Dunno.I'm too shocked ." He responded.
Ken and Angie were not a pretty sight when they were angry . Both Capricorn . This fight is going to last forever .
They both gazed at each other for a while.
" It's disgusting how much I hate and love you in the same time. " She whispered.
" I know . Me too." He replied.
Silence.
Then , suddenly , without notice , Angie jumped into his arms, causing him to lean on the wall. He was taller than she was, so she could rest her head on his chest . She glared at him , looking up to his face before giving him a short kiss and going back into his arms .
" I still hate you , you know ." She said.
" Fine . Me too. " He said while resting his face in her hair. It smelled like roses. She used that roses shampoo she liked so much .
Angie wanted to rest there with him forever. Alone, just the two of theme , no , eating , no sleeping , just resting . She felt protected with him.
What about Nagi ? She cared about him too . But in what way ? She didn't knew, she didn't had any idea. She felt dizzy and tired . She didn't knew why . She just wanted to sleep forever.
I think this is Chapter 18
Ken stepped in. He never really entered her room before. It was clean and simple, a bed, a desk and a closet . Not that Angelina had many clothes. She usually dressed simple in dark colors and preferred Jeans over any other clothing. And T-shirts too.
But looking at her now , Ken didn't saw the young woman he used to. Her eyes grew darker and she looked different.
" Fine. So you wanna find out what is wrong with me, huh ? "
She looked vulnerable in a way..
" I'm not forcing you or."
" It's okay. This had to come to an end anyway. "
She took a deep breath and calculated every word she had to say , afraid not to make a confusion or causing a panic attack from Ken. What she had to say was kind of.well.disturbing. Even tough there passed a couple of years since it stopped happening and she ran away.
" Uh..." She sat on the bed ." You may have noticed that sometimes it looks like I'm from another world and lose control and just stay there, not being able to speak and stuff.."
" Yeah.that's why I want to talk with you. I want to.."
"..know what's wrong. " She continued for him." It's hard for me to speak about it so I guess I'll just have to spit it out in simple words then."
Silence. Ken waited. And waited. That could only mean it's a bad thing. Maybe it was better for him not to ask. Did he REALLY had to know ?
" Uh.my..Um.you noticed today that I kinda' freaked when I looked at Aya .."
Ken headed for the desk and leaned on it.
" Yeah.."
" It was because he remembered me of my father."
"And..."
She paused for a second,hesitating.
" And my father abused me when I was little."
* * * * *
Omi took a break from his work. He really didn't needed to surf the net before a mission , it was too exhausting . He stretched on his rotating chair and turned to the window . Man...how come every time they had something to do it weather rained or snowed ?
He opened a drawer . There , wrapped in black silk, his shiny darts , and under his bed laid also wrapped in a soft material his crossbow . He sometimes felt guilty for all the lives he took with these darts . But he still caressed theme every time he saw theme . This was the thing he knew how to do best . He was an assassin.
He wondered if it would have been different if he never killed before. What was the feeling of being innocent ? All the people he knew, besides his schoolmates , killed someone or harmed someone. His teachers thought he was such a sweet child.
Angel by day , devil by night . He smiled at that thought.
// Flashback //
Night. A young boy walks trough the park alone, with his hands deep into his pockets. He hears silent steps from behind him and turns fast , ready to attack.
But , heading towards him comes a longhaired shilouette dressed in jeans and a long coat.
" Hey..."
She waved .
" Hey there Omi-kun."
" What are you doing here ? "
" Dunno...I noticed you were sad and not your usual self... Maybe I can cheer you up ? "
Omi laughed. Not a laugh from the heart , a laugh just for the sake of a laugh.
" I don't think so. But really, I'm okay."
" Then , you don't mind me walking with you? "
" Not at all."
She then took him by the arm , smiling and started walking slowly.
" But, still there is something that bothers you , isn't it ? "
" I don't know . Did you ever felt guilty for something that you should do , but didn't really wanted to ? "
" All the time . "
He looked at her. She didn't. She was just looking forward and kept her walking.
" It's because of the killing , isn't it Omi - kun ? "
" Yeah.."
" You know , they say it's not right to kill but , still..I don't know what's right and what's wrong anymore Omi . "
" I guess sometimes it's for the best to follow what your heart says instead of playing by the rules."
She laughed.
" You rebel ! How was that..rules are made to be broken , huh ? "
She laughed again , her laughter breaking the silence of the park. So he laughed too.
// end flashback //
He had lots of moments when he thought about killing , but in the end he always ended up not caring at all. What was the use anyway ?
He didn't knew if she had the same thoughts. And she started acting so strange...besides Ken , Angelina was his best friend . She was funny and outgoing . Sometimes . But she mostly liked to stay indoors , reading or cooking. She even watched anime sometimes.
Omi smiled. She acted like such a child sometimes . But she was not an airhead . She was , but only when she had to.
She wanted to come with theme in the mission tonight . She rarely went with theme , mostly because of Aya's protests , but she was helpful. Maybe she felt like the 5th wheel or something . Well , maybe living between boys makes you feel so .
She wanted to help theme every time and with whatever she could . But he had a bad feeling about the mission tonight.
* * * " I'm sorry I think I went deaf and I didn't heard you well.." " It's true.but I'm over it now..It's okay . "
" I'm so sorry . I shouldn't asked.."
" No , it's okay . Maybe it's better for me to talk about it now."
Ken stood in confusion . How could she just stay there talking about this saying she's 'over it ' ?
" Angie , no one is truly ' over it ' . "
" Okay , maybe not really over it , but it passed. It was a long time ago . " She smiled.
If she faked another smile Ken swore he's going to kill her on the spot.
" Why do you always act like this ? "
Angie looked at him .
" How ? "
" You know , all this tough-girl type. Why don't you never ask a friend's help ? "
" What are you talking about ? I'm fine.I."
" No , you're not ! You wear this mask of a happy girl but you never accept to help with someone about your problems ."
Angie clutched her hand in a fist and rose from the bed.
"Oh Shut up ! "
" No ! I'm tired of shutting up ! Now I am going to say something ! YOU are going to listen to ME now ! " He said pointing to him and her .
He headed his finger towards Angie pushing her while articulating every 'you' and ' I '.
" YOU always have to act brave, while YOU said I have to get rid of the ghosts of MY past , but YOU NEVER got rid of YOUR OWN ! Why do act so cheerful when you're truly crying ? YOU NEVER accept anyone's help , acting like I-never-cry type ! "
" I.."
". You should try to be more like YOU not like the mask you want !! "
Angie tripped and fell on the bed . Ken breathed fast because of the screaming .
Who the heck talked ?? ! THAT man was not Ken !
They stood there looking at each other , until Angie rose nervously and she pushed Ken .
" Why the hell do YOU care ? !"
Right then , the door opened and Omi shyly showed his head.
" Hey.are you 'kay ? I heard screams and ..."
" GET OUT ! " They both screamed.
Omi shut the door fast , slamming it.
Youji stretched on the couch .
" What's going on there , kid ? ' He asked Omi that came on the hallway.
" Dunno.I'm too shocked ." He responded.
Ken and Angie were not a pretty sight when they were angry . Both Capricorn . This fight is going to last forever .
They both gazed at each other for a while.
" It's disgusting how much I hate and love you in the same time. " She whispered.
" I know . Me too." He replied.
Silence.
Then , suddenly , without notice , Angie jumped into his arms, causing him to lean on the wall. He was taller than she was, so she could rest her head on his chest . She glared at him , looking up to his face before giving him a short kiss and going back into his arms .
" I still hate you , you know ." She said.
" Fine . Me too. " He said while resting his face in her hair. It smelled like roses. She used that roses shampoo she liked so much .
Angie wanted to rest there with him forever. Alone, just the two of theme , no , eating , no sleeping , just resting . She felt protected with him.
What about Nagi ? She cared about him too . But in what way ? She didn't knew, she didn't had any idea. She felt dizzy and tired . She didn't knew why . She just wanted to sleep forever.