They kissed. My father and godfather kissed, in mid-air, the moonlight shining on them. For me, not something I'd like to imagine. For them, obviously, a turning point in their relationship.
After reading this, I'm not sure, how I'll react to Sirius, if he ever returns.
If, being the keyword.
***
Chapter six
"I can't believe we spent so much time apart, when it was obvious we were meant to be together," Sirius sighed. The two were lying in his bed, Sirius' head on James' chest. Both were comfortable and fit together perfectly.
"You are the only person I need, Sirius," James replied, and kissed the top of his head, gently running his fingers up and down Sirius' spine. "Wasted time, I think."
"No more wasting time?"
"Never."
The next morning, the both went downstairs, together, holding hands. Lily saw this the moment they walked into the kitchen.
"I see you two resolved your problems?" She asked quietly.
James nodded, and kissed Lily on the cheek. "I think I've always been in love with him," He told her quietly.
"I've always known that," She replied with a grin. Both men smiled at her as they sat down. Coffee was pouring it's self, so they moved on to more important things.
Like how they were going to carry on this relationship of there's, seeing as Sirius was an escaped convict, and James was, well, dead.
"We'll figure it out tomorrow, " Sirius told her. "Right now, I just want to bask in it, all right?"
"Ok ,ok!" She exclaimed, holding up her hands in defeat. "Eggs or pancakes?"
**
Seems perfect, huh? James loves Sirius. Sirius loves James. Lily, my mother is ok with the extra-marital relationship.
How does one muck it up? Why would they purposely do it? And how far would one person go, to prove their love?
His name is Sirius. And this is what he did for his lover.
**
"Lily!" James exclaimed, "no, you're not serious." She only nodded her head solemnly in reply.
"I'm sorry James, but this is the way it has to be. He can't stay here with us. He'll fuck it all up and everything we worked for will be for nothing.
"Prongs?" Sirius called from the doorway softly. "What are you two talking about?"
Lily and James shared another anxious look. "Maybe I should go," Lily stated quietly, and walked past Sirius. On her way out, she stopped briefly to say, "I've missed you, and I love you. You're the brother I've always wanted, I never had."
He walked in and shut the door behind him. "James?"
James, started pacing, then finally looked his lover in the eyes. "You've been here for a year now." he started, "A whole year, and I've loved every second of it, because I love you. You are my everything, Sirius Ian Black. I can't imagine my life with out you, not again. Not after everything I know now."
"But?" Sirius asked in a defensive tone.
"You have to go back." James said quietly. "I wish there were a better option, but there's not. Short of killing yourself, going back to Azkaban is your only choice."
"Then let me die!"
"I can't! James yelled back. "I can't! I love you too much! One day, Sirius, I promise, we'll be together, and we won't hide from anyone. Not Harry, the world. I'll come back for you again, but you have to do this."
"Why?" Sirius asked softly, James was holding him tightly against his chest.
"Because, someone knows your here. And if they know you're here, then they know we're alive, and if we're alive, then we're not dead and our whole cover is blown. So many things could go wrong, and I can't risk your life and mine and Lily's."
"You did before," Sirius stubbornly grunted.
"Yes, well before, it was easy, because if we died, then we died and everything would still follow out to the T." James sighed. "I never planned on falling in love with you."
"I love you too," he replied. "you want me to go back to Azkaban?"
James shook his head no, "it's the only way, Padfoot. It's the only way."
"Then I'll go."
**
Three simple words that ripped my heart out. How could my father force him to go back? Make such a horrible decision like that? I can't imagine what Sirius was feeling when he agreed to go back.
And the promises, James made him, which he never knew about.
But then I think, Sirius must have known about the other promises. Other wise he never would have left.
**
They lay in bed that night, sweaty and sated from lovemaking. Sirius rested his head on James' chest, and fell asleep.
James watched the fire light dance across the other man's tanned skin. "You are so beautiful," he whispered.
"I've kept a record of sorts of our time together. I'll never forget it. You though, You'll never know you were gone from Azkaban. You'll never know I'm alive, or of the time we've spent together this last year.
"And it'll break my heart to not know when I'll see you again. You are the best part of me."
James whispered the words to erase Sirius' memory.
How they got Sirius back to Azkaban, and how no one realized he was gone for a year, is irrelevant. The only six words he wanted Sirius to remember were, "It's in the château, under the bed."
And that was it. James left his lover to the Dementors of Azkaban. He cried the whole way back.
Lily was waiting for him when he returned. "Ready to go?" She asked.
"Yeah, let's move."
**
And let's go back to the present. You know, when Sirius mysteriously leaves us with no clue to where he is going.